Chapter 27

Nessie's point of view:

It's been two weeks since my amazing son and daughter has been born. Motherhood was hard but it was amazing. Grace wanted to stay up during the night while Sage was up at the crack of dawn wanting to be fed. I had to feed them, change them, bathe them. All of that times two. It was nice when I had family helping me. I healed a lot faster from my c-section but Carlisle told me to still take it easy. So yes, it was a hard job being a mom but I love it!

Jacob at some point had no choice but to phase. He told me all that had happen the day the twins were born and had to handle it. All I did was wrap the twins closer to my chest and pray that they stayed babies for a long, long, long time. When Jacob came in after handling with Jordan, he scooped the three of us up and held the twins close while I held him. It killed him with what he had to do. But it was nice that he showed that small ounce of vulnerability I rarely see.

But Jacob was an amazing father though. He was there for the three of us whenever we needed him. He evenly split his time between human and wolf. He would be with his family and his pack. I hardly saw the twins no thanks to him and our families fighting over who would hold them. Apparently Jacob was right.

Being a mom was great too. I didn't mind the sacrifices I gave up. Jacob and I didn't mind the late night bottle feedings, the early morning diaper changes, the fits they go into when we don't give them what they wanted the millisecond they wanted it. It didn't bother us because we loved it. This was our life now.

I got into the routine of how Sage and Grace's personalities were. Both were little spitfires at two weeks old and both were spoiled. Both were full of sass. Sage was the typical boy. He didn't care what was going on. As long as he was fed and changed, he was happy. Grace was a different story. When she wanted something, she wanted it now. Jacob jokes that she looks like him but was just a miniature me. But trust me, I thought it was cute. They were both happy and content though. They were just…happy babies.

Now I was packing for our move. We were leaving this Friday. Our family that was staying was getting as much Sage and Grace as they could get. It was nerve racking being away from the home I've always known. To be away from this house that stored so many memories. But it was needed. Sage and Grace will be able to grow up safe and normal.

But most importantly, Sage and Grace were healthy. Carlisle never saw anything that concerned him from stopping us to get on a plane. He wanted to us to keep a close eye on them since he wouldn't be able to be there for the last few days. He couldn't tell if the were immortal or not. That would be shown in time. Grace plainly has the gift of stopping the gifts. But my worry was is she going to be able to control it when she's older. Time will also tell if whether or not Sage has a gift. But that was all it was. Time.

The twins looked a little bigger than your average twin would look but it wasn't noticeable that much. Their heart beats a little faster and they inherited the glowing in sunlight from me. Other than that they were normal, happy babies.

"I can't believe you're moving in four days." Abby said she helped me get the last bit ready for our move. I was already packing our suitcases a little bit at a time so I won't have to do everything last minute.

"Me nether." I said, already missing my babies even though they were downstairs and I could get to them in a flash.

Abby picked up one of Grace's dresses and laughed, "Designer of course." she mused.

"Sage's is designer too. I don't have favorites. They look cute in just about everything."

"No duh. They're one quarter vampire. Their whole family could make rags look expensive and good." Abby said over dramatically, "But what I don't get is why you dress them up like their going on the runway. In only a few years that'll all change."

I laughed. Shockingly, I loved dressing my little munchkins up. Sage in cute polo's and Grace in dresses. Even when I fussed over Alice dressing me up, I didn't mind doing it to the twins. I thought it was so cute. Jake thought it was ridiculous when they were going to run with the wolves in only a few years but I didn't listen.

When have I ever listened to Jacob?

"Don't remind me. I've cried over them turning two weeks." I fake chocked out.

"Weirdo."

"That I am." I laughed as I shut the box and leaned back on my heals. "But one day when you have kids you'll be obsessive over being a mom." I joked.

"I think I'm good." I heard her mumble.

I looked over at my friend who was picking at a hole in her jeans. I could tell she was upset over something so I projected why was she so upset. She shook her head and never answered.

I finally figured it out and reached out to hug her. She hugged me back and thought, "I'm going to miss you so much."

No crying. "Just me?" I showed her.

"No, you dummy, and you know that. I'm going to miss you, Jake, and the twins. By the way, where is the little munchkins?"

I gave her an are you serious look, "The grandparents stole them away." I grumbled.

"Jealous much?"

"Very."

Abby picked up a box and brought out the two wolves Billy carved. She ran her hands over them and bit her lip, "So Jake doesn't want them to phase?"

I shook my head no, "He thinks he can stop it."

"Like Kaleb he can stop the imprinting by staying away?"

It was amazing how close they were to exact. "Yes."

I heard once through the grape vine that Kaleb called off the wedding and dumped Megan. She was making sure to socially destroy him and somehow dragged me into it. Rumors swirled that I was still cheating on Jacob; the twins were really Kaleb's; and my personal favorite, I got pregnant to trap Jacob because he was about to leave me. Amazing how people can take a true story and turn it around.

I also heard that Kaleb phased as little as possible, and when he did, it wasn't when Jacob was around. I had no clue why but Quil explained to me one time that Jacob was on the "family buzz." He only thought of how amazing his twins were. Sam and Paul said it was just a phase and he would slack off eventually. Daddy said it was all apart of being a new dad. All I can say is I know I've been bumped down.

I even tried to call Kaleb. I gave up on the first try when he deliberately rejected my call on the first ring. I didn't love Kaleb-not the way he wanted me to love him. The need to be around him was long gone. So I just threw my hands up. If he want's to act like a child then go ahead. Being the mother to my twins was way more important to me than trying to fix a friendship that Kaleb didn't want to fix.

Speaking of which, I started to get the itch to go check on my little cage fighters. The wrapped grandparents told me to get the packing done and not check on them every few minutes. They said for me to get some rest but that went in one ear and out the other when I heard what they said about the checking in every few minutes.

I walked down stairs, camera in hand, with Abby following me. I saw Billy holding Sage and Sue holding Grace. Momma and Daddy sat on the couch, smiling. I should get them a t-shirt saying, "PROUD GRANPARENT!" I thought it was too cute so I snapped a few photos.

"You should start a blog." Abby thought.

"Just more pictures for their baby books."

"If it's for that then it's going to be one huge one then."

I laughed and perched on the arm of the couch, "Don't spoil them." I laughed.

"Too late." Billy chuckled. It was too late. Everybody took part in the spoiling. Yes, including the parents too. Even little Claire and Kierra took part in it. Channing and Will were too you to understand why everybody gushed over these two new babies, but I had a feeling the four of them will grow up close.

"Too late for what?" Jacob said, walking in and making his way to kiss his son and daughter then to kiss me. Seth followed in later and made his way to Abby.

Jacob wrapped his arms around me from behind and brought me close to him, "On spoiling the twins." I said, turning my head to look at him and realized his face was a lot closer to kiss.

"That's way past too late." he scoffed, "You're the one doing all the spoiling."

I looked at him. That was a lie and he knew it.

"I think not. Grace and Sage have you wrapped right here." I picked up my pinkie finger and swirled it in his face. He reached out and tried to bite but I took it away just in time and stepped on his foot.

"And so the argument begins."

I looked over at everybody who stood over around Billy and Sue. It was a new edition to our large family. We were taking that new addition away to start a life of our own. It was exciting and nerve racking at the same time.

"They're going to miss them." I showed Jacob.

"It'll only be for a few years."

"Then we have to move again. I won't be ageing once I hit seven."

"So. I haven't aged in a little over four years."

"But still…"

Jacob ran his hand down my arm in a gesture of everything will be okay. I had no clue on how much truth that was but for my children's sake I was going to believe it.

"How's Jordan?" was what I asked instead.

"That's what I came in about. I need advice."

"Take the rest of the day off and spend it with us. That's good advice."

"Tempting."

After a while, Jacob took Billy so they could talk. Seth followed so Abby was able to get her hands on the twins, and again I wasn't able to. SO I sat back in a chair and laid my head on the arm. Even though I loved getting up all hours of the night it was catching up on me. Sometimes my family would help but Jacob and I wanted to stay up too. We would watch them sleep-well, Sage sleep and Grace's beautiful eyes wander around as if her mind was a little sponge. I would sing to her or Jacob would speak in Quileute and she would eventually fall asleep.

Here's the catch. When Grace would finally go to sleep, Sage would want to wake up. They would be nice enough, sometimes, to give us a few minutes of sleep. We didn't mind. It was all apart of the job description.

Before I could even hear a fret, I went to go fix the bottles. Daddy came in to help me. He grabbed my hands and made me take a step back. I realize I was half asleep and made a mess.

"Go take a nap. You're running on fumes." said Daddy.

"I want to be with the twins. I am their mother." I stated.

"I know but you still need your rest. You are still weak."

I guess you can say I was. Between being a mother, packing for our move, and not hunting, I was tired. But a mother doesn't leave their kids. That special time where I feed them was my time.

"What if I'm a bad mother? If I let somebody else do my job-"

"Letting their grandparents feed them is not going the job for you. You're not a bad mother. Let us enjoy our grandson and granddaughter."

I bit the inside of my cheek, "Just let me feed them. All of you have kept them away from me long enough."

Without waiting for Daddy to say anything I quickly fixed the bottles and went back in the living room. I handed the Sage's bottles to Abby for her to feed Sage but she just looked at me.

"What?" I asked.

"You-you want me to feed him blood?" she asked.

"Yeah. Give him the bottle of milk first and then the blood." I explained.

"But it's blood!"

"Only just a little bit. I mean, it's just enough to dirty up a bottle."

She made a gagging noise, "I think I'll rain check it and take Grace."

I held up a bottle of blood to her. Normally Grace didn't like it, preferring milk, but Grandpa wanted to see if she would take just a tad. I didn't want to make my daughter drink it if she didn't like it but I had to know. I had to know if she had at least a small chance of immortality like her brother.

I grabbed Grace and fed her the milk first. Unlike her brother, she took her time. Sage and Grace were so different but so like each other. It was crazy but cute at the same time.

After Grace was finished I gave her the blood bottle. I heard Sage sucking his down as usual but Grace hesitated. She scrunched up her nose and wiggled her arms as if she was trying to bat the bottle away.

I looked up to see Sage sigh and open his eyes. Another different thing. Sage was laid back and go with the flow.

"Why can't you be as easy as your brother?" I asked my daughter. All she did was blink at me.

"Because she's so much like her mother." Momma said, running her finger over Grace's cheek. Momma and Daddy loved being the grandparents doing the spoiling. They never thought they could have grandchildren. They wanted me to get rid of them because they thought they were a danger. Now here they were. Spoiling my twins. Oh, and knocking me down on the totem pole.

I saw Momma and Daddy's face. They were uncomfortable. They wanted to bolt but they stayed for the twins and me.

"You don't have to stay. Go spend some time with Daddy or something."

"We will when Jacob gets back." she thought back to me but I was distracted by a sucking sound. Grace had the bottle in her mouth and sucked it down dry.

I pulled the bottle out of her mouth and burped her. Grace went back to looking around. A sponge soaking up everything. I saw Sage doing the same thing too. Maybe they had a little of me in them after all.

I held my daughter and took turns glancing back and forth between her and my son. They were so perfect and so much like Jacob that it was scary. I had the life I never thought I would get. It was amazing. It was mine.

Jacob walked in and sat down next to me. He took Grace from my arms so I decided to grab Sage. Jacob smiled at both of them and then at me. But I saw something behind those eyes.

"Take a walk with me." he thought.

"What about the twins?"

"It'll only be for a few minutes."

I didn't want to leave the twins but I felt Jake's need. I was torn between mother or girlfriend. Why does the have to be now?

As we walked to the door Sage and Grace started to cry. I stopped and so did Jacob. We both shared the painful expression of leaving them. We both hated to hear them cry. So what we did was rush back to them, pick them up, and soothe them into stopping.

"They have you two wrapped." Sue said. Jacob and I smiled down at our son and daughter. We were so wrapped but we were proud of it.

"And?" Jacob said as he shifted Grace from one shoulder to another.

Sage looked up at me and smiled as if he knew what they did. I kissed him on the nose. My handsome son and my beautiful daughter knew they had us wrapped.

I didn't mine being wrapped. That was all apart of being a parent.

It was getting late when everybody left. Jacob and I decided it would be best to go ahead and get the twins ready for bed and we could talk. We bathed them, I greased them down with lotion so they would smell good, changed the diapers, got them dressed. The whole prepping that over protective parents do to make sure their babies were happy and content. Now they laid in the middle of our bed wide awake. Looks like their both being night owls tonight.

Sage was his little hand wrapped around his daddy's finger while he ran it up and down his arm. I ran my finger over Grace's spine. She tensed up and scrunched up her face at me. I think I found Miss Sassypant's ticked spot.

"They have you so wrapped." I said to Jacob.

"Like you don't." he said, winking at me.

"I've been bumped."

Is somebody jealous?"

I kissed Jacob but pulled away when he went to kiss me again, "I think I'm good."

Jacob huffed and took my hand, squeezing it tight. I wished this moment would last. My two angels as babies. My beside my loves. Jacob holding my hand. Just I know this perfect moment won't last. My two angels would go from being babies to toddlers, then to kids, then to teenagers, and then to adults. Jacob would go to school and then work. I would be a stay at home mom with a hectic life. But I could still dream about this moment. I would.

~~~~~ Forever Ours ~~~~~

Jacob's point of view:

I sat there and marveled at my family. My son, who looked so much like his mother, my daughter, who surprisingly looked like me, and then there was my Renesmee. Who, like our twins, was one of a kind. I loved this family. Those three one of a kinds was my life. I would protect them to my fullest.

I loved being a father. Next to being Nessie's imprinter, it was the best think. And, also like their mother, the twins have me wrapped. I loved coming home to my Renesmee holding my son and daughter. I wasn't Alpha or Chief. I was just Jake and daddy. My son and daughter didn't care that there was a far move scarier would out there that me and Nessie didn't want them to see anytime soon.

I was glad my girl was recovering well. It terrified me when all of a sudden I saw blood all over my chest and lap. Carlisle said that if none of us acted fast, all three would die. But it was worth it in the end to see my son and daughter. To see Renesmee alive and okay.

Looking back now, I saw that I had no reason to doubt. To doubt that they would live; to doubt who was the father of Nessie's twins; to doubt that with Sage and Grace's birth it would mean our death. I wanted to laugh at myself that I actually thought about those things.

I laced my fingers through my girls as she sung to our daughter. Sage was long gone sacked out but our night owl wanted to stay up a little while longer. I don't think Nessie was thinking that she was putting me to sleep more than she was putting Grace.

I yawned and Nessie chuckled. "Am I that boring?" she asked.

I sucked in a deep breath to try and stay awake. Nights were the only times we had together without the risk of anybody coming in and disturbing us. I didn't want to waist it on sleep. Between prepping the move, settling matter over the tribe, preparing things in New Hampshire, took a lot out of my daytime-and sometimes the evening too. Nessie and I both had important twenty-four seven job to do too. It's called parenthood. It took up Nessie's time as well as mine. Nighttime, while the twins slept, was our time.

"No," I answered. "you're just putting me to sleep."

Nessie reached over and slapped me. She looked at Sage and then looked back at Grace. "Did I tell you she drank blood?"

"Well, she's more bloodsucker than I thought. Damn." Again. Another slap.

"Your daddy really wants to sleep on the floor, huh Graciebell?" Nessie said. My daughter yawned, either agreeing or disagreeing, and shut her eyes. I'm going with she's taking my side since she's a daddy's girl.

"How's the packing?" I asked, just making small talk. Just to hear her voice was more like it.

"Boring." was all she said. "How's Christina?"

I hesitated. Christina hasn't came out of her coma since the twins were born. That day was on Ethan and Emma. Ethan had to go though the fact that he could have done that too. Emma was terrified. She saw it all go down. At first when I asked for her side of the story she was scared. But eventually she broke down and sobbed in my chest

Jordan was another story. He was unapologetic until I got him. I finally lost my patience with him starting trouble, defying my orders, disrespecting and harming his brothers, and basically killing his mother. I lost my anger on him and almost killed him. It was what had to be done but it killed me. All I could do was hold the twins while Nessie held me. I prayed my twins would never have to make a tough decision. Not now at least.

It was tricky. Do I want my twins to have a happy, normal, safe lives or be immortal? I want both. I refuse to let them phase, or go through the agony of being a bloodsucker-but I don't want them to go before us. They drink blood so that was out of the picture. But my wants and what my twins need were two different things.

They were one of a kind. They were perfect. They were Nessie's. The rest can be taken day by day.

"Not so great." I said. "Her sister's going to take her off of life support tomorrow."

Nessie's face turned from concern to sympathy. We both looked down at our amazing babies. Their light tan skin, how peaceful they were when the slept, we were both thinking the same thing. What if something happen to us?

"Oh my God! Poor Ethan and Emma!" Nessie said but I saw something else. The way she buried her head in the twins; they way our connection changed. That proved something to me.

"Her sister knows about Ethan and Jordan. She's moving down and taking custody of them."

Nessie looked up, tears in her eyes. She wiped them away, already aggravated. "You'd think I wouldn't be so emotional but…" she trailed.

I scooted Grace close to Sage and scooted Nessie closer to them and put my hand on her hip. I understood. Even though we've been parents for only two weeks, we were now seeing the world through new eyes.

"I know; but they'll be okay. To be honest, Ethan's grown on me. I'm going to miss the little punk." I laughed.

"Jordan?"

I looked away, swallowing my anger. I've been able to handle the sickening feeling that Grace puts off. If I didn't let it get to me, I was okay. It was hard to ignore it at first, painful even, but being her now was worth it.

"Let's talk about something else." I moved to lay on my back and stretched out. Sleep was what we could do. Four o'clock comes early in the morning.

"Kaleb?"

I glared at her. That was a touchy subject and she knows it. But thankfully he's stayed away. My daughter wasn't claimed. Kaleb did worry about her with the risky labor, but other than that he stayed away. We ran separate patrolling schedules just in case he could imprint through my mind. I haven't heard anything of it but whatever. If that was what he wanted then fine.

I know it's weird that I don't want my son and daughter to have the same fate as their parents when it comes to falling in love. I loved that I imprinted on Nessie. I hated the pain she brought me through. I didn't want the same for my kids. I…I don't know what I want.

Nessie moved my face to make me look at hers, "I love you." she showed me.

I could tell Ness read my thoughts. So technically she got her way. We-well, I-thought about it. Now that they were here it changed things. Nessie couldn't kick me out because she was mad I did one stupid thing. I couldn't loose my anger and walk around in a rage. It's not just us anymore. We have two little beings that were passed out right in the middle that would be caught in the crossfire. We couldn't base our decision on what we wanted anymore. It was what my Grace Isabelle and Sage Edward needed. Want and need were two different things.

I turned to look at her. Her tired eyes with dark circles underneath that showed she needed to hunt. We've all told her but she refused to leave our twins. Even when she was pushed to drink donated blood she said that it reminded her of Sage and Grace. So I didn't push it.

"More than you own life?" I joked.

Nessie reached up for her locked but then remembered it wasn't there. "Remind me to ask aunt Rose if she has a gold chain I could borrow."

I smiled again but this time it was more of a half asleep smile. "You've handled it this long. I think you can handle a little longer."

Nessie turned to me and stuck her tongue out at me. She's a mother and she acts like that? Really, Ness?

I glanced at my girl to see her looking at the twins. This was a buzz I never wanted to come off of. Me lying in bed, my family right next to me. I will protect them with my life for as long as forever lasted. They were something I never expected to get. I would never let them go.

I saw Nessie bite her lip and blink her eyes several time. I could feel through our connection that she was upset about something. Not actually something. A lot of things.

"Ness?"

She let out a wet breath and motioned for me to sit up a little. I obeyed. She grabbed Sage and Grace and set them on her chest, propping up against my body and rested her head on my shoulder. She still didn't answer me.

I put a hand on my son's back, feeling his ting body rise and fall with each breath. Damn it. Nessie needs to tell me what's wrong!

"Renesmee! For God's sake please tell me what in the hell is going on!" I pressed impatiently.

"Shutup will you? And don't yell in front of them. Or cuss. They're my children too!" she snapped, glaring at me. The twins didn't even as much as budge.

"I wasn't yelling." I commented.

"Yes, you were-"

"Because I'm worried about you. We're moving in four days and you haven't said a word about it. All you did is worry about the twins-"

"Because it's my job to put them first-"

"But I'm worr-"

"Don't worry about me."

"It's my job to worry about you."

The twins finally moved and Nessie soothed them, humming and ignoring me. She was avoiding it. As always, when I want to talk about something she shuts down.

"Tell me why you're upset."

"I just gave birth two weeks ago. I'm suppose to be emotional."

"Not when I can feel there's something bothering you."

Nessie huffed and then looked at me. She stretched her neck to place her lips on mine. All too soon she pulled away. "I'm terrified." she admitted.

She projected to me how she was terrified of the move; me wearing myself thin; us being together; being alone with the twins; Sage and Grace's safety; Finn and the Volturi; was me and her going to be okay? Was Sage and Grace going to live long enough to let us see them go off and live their own lives?

She also projected to me on what if she stayed maybe she wouldn't feel this way. We would have gotten married, been happy. We would have found out about the twins and there wouldn't have been any doubt over who the father was. She wished she never left, never cheated on me, and our lives would have been easier.

I bit my lip. I've wondered the same thing. What if we just took the easy road and saved us all the pain and heartbreak we suffered for later. I use to wonder if Renesmee was the right girl for me. Now I have my answer right here.

"Then we wouldn't be here now." I whispered.

"Yes we would be."

"We wouldn't be happy-"

"Does it matter. We're happy now. That's all that mattered. Now what if we were married something would have happen to wear we wouldn't be here right now. They wouldn't have been here. So don't worry about it"

Nessie nodded and buried her head in my chest, bringing the twins closer to us. At first I thought she was getting sick but I knew that was long gone. Just old habits.

"I just hope nothing will happen-at least not now. Everything needs to just be normal and boring from now until…seven years later." she mumbled into my chest.

"Shocker for you to say. But all you want is seven years?" I joked.

"Well, I'm only thinking realistically; and a random number just popped into my head. I actually want it indefinitely but I figured that was impossible."

"Nothing will happen. I won't let it." I soothed as Grace wrapped her hand-her tiny,

small hand-around my finger.

My son and daughter were so innocent-so beautiful. They can be thrown into the dangerous world. I can easily protect them from the human world. That was no problem. But I was worried about the whole creepy, we shouldn't be real, supernatural world. I can hardly protect Nessie so what's two others?

"You can't take care of everything, Jake."

I wanted to argue with her on that but I didn't. "Let's not worry about that right now."

"Is that another way of telling me to shut my mouth?" Nessie asked, raising an eyebrow.

"Nope." I yawned. "That's just another way of telling you we'll take it day by day."

She smiled and kissed me again. "Okay."

I grabbed Grace and put her on my chest. She sighed as if that's where she wanted to be. All Sage did was sprawl out on his mother's chest because he had more room. Yes, he was definitely my son. Laid back, piggy, and could sleep for days. Grace looked so much like me-and acted like me a lot too-but I saw Nessie's attitude in her. They were both beautiful. Seeing them didn't make me doubt if Kaleb was the father or I. I had the answer.

"They're so beautiful." Nessie showed me. She brushed her hand over Grace's silky black hair that both her and her brother inherited from me. I wonder if one of the would inherit their mother's ringlet curls. I hope they have as much of Nessie as they could get.

"They get their beauty from their mother so it doesn't surprise me." I whispered, tugging one of her loose curls from her ponytail.

"You're beautiful too." she said, putting her hand on my cheek.

Something popped up in my mind that I forgot about. I secured Grace in my arm and went to the closet. The boxes were everywhere, really showing we were moving this Friday. I grabbed something off the shelf and went back to the bedroom, sitting down next to Nessie and handed her the bag. She took it with a cautious glance.

"What is this?" she showed me.

"Just something for the twins." I said, readjusting Grace so I could hold Sage while Nessie opened the bag. Once I had my son in my arms he yawed and stretched his arms. I had to forced my attention away from them to see Nessie gasp.

"Oh, Jacob…" Nessie awed as she pulled out two small dream catchers. They were black and had feathers hanging off the wheel along with beaded leather strings. It had beads on the strings where a howling wolf met in the middle.

"You like them?" I asked.

"I think their beautiful."

"Thought I should keep some tradition going."

Nessie ran her hands over the crystal that hung off the wheel and projected to me what did it mean. "What do you think?" I joked.

"One quarter vampire."

I nodded as Nessie smiled and kissed me…again. She took Grace and set the dream catchers on the side. "I can't wait to hang them up over the cribs. When did you find the time?"

"My life doesn't always revolve around my pack." I joked as we laid back down.

"Just us."

"Wouldn't change it for nothing." I wouldn't. I would go through all the heartbreak all over again just for this moment.

I fell asleep as the center of my worlds curled next to me. I loved this. Sleeping with my son, my daughter, and my Renesmee. This precious moment right here was everything I could ask for. I loved it.

~~~~~ Forever Ours ~~~~~

I dreamed I was in battle. Vampire corpses scattered everywhere. Edward, Emse, Jasper, Carmen, Zafrina, and so many more. My brothers wolf bodies were scattered and tossed like rag dolls. Jared, Brady, Kyle, Leah, Ethan... And it was all my fault.

Grace and Sage sat in the middle, clutched to each other and screaming for us. Kaleb paced in front of them, on guard as Demetri, Alec, and Jane tried to get to them Eventually all those who could do something special collapsed on the ground. Even in wolf form I dropped and whimpered in pain.

"Don't you dare hurt them!" Nessie snarled as she was being held by guards.

"They are unknown. They're a danger" Aro said, nodding at the three leeches to kill Kaleb and then the twins.

Move, Jake, move. You're family is on the line. Do something!

I got up and ran to my children but no matter how fast I ran I could never get close enough. Felix snapped Kaleb's neck and the attacked my kids. Nessie fought but it was up to me to save them.

Move!

Before the leech could get to my kids, I bit into them. I tore him apart bit by bit, rage being my fuel and fire to kill.

After I was finished I heard my twins sob. I turned around just as Sage called for me and they shrank back. I wished I could tell them it would be okay but they couldn't hear what I pleaded. They didn't understand my pleading look that I wasn't going to hurt them.

"Daddy!" Grace sobbed, clutching my leg. Sage did the same thing.

I couldn't help but stare at my twins. Grace looked like me but acted so much liker her mother while Sage was the opposite. I didn't want to let them down. Meaning, get to their mother.

"Daddy! Mommy's dead!" Sage screamed and I bent down and nudged them gently.

I didn't believe them at first until my legs gave out and I felt that big, steel cable hanging loosely in the middle. I turned to look at Renesmee. She laid broken-dead-on the ground. Her head was at a weird angle but she looked at me. Her eyes. Her eyes that I loved so much pleaded for me to do something-a promise-before she slipped away.

With one look I understood. Hold on. I needed to hold on for as long as I could. I had to live for the twins as long as I possibly could. Even if I had to force myself to. They need one parent there for them.

There was nothing else I could do to save her. That already settled over me. I knew she couldn't die in peace unless I promised and I wanted her to have the most peaceful death anybody could have. So I nodded. When her eyes went from life to glaze I closed my eyes and let out a whine. I let the tears fall with the twins as they buried their head in my coat.

But I promised

I woke up to a baby's scream. Not just one but two. I was half asleep when I jumped into action. I grabbed whatever child I got my hands on and Nessie did the same.

I realized just by the intense pain I was in, I was holding Gracie. I shook all over and could barely stand. It was even worse when her kitten cry was in my ear. It sucks when you're a parent and you hear your child cry.

"Shhh, angel. It's okay. Da-" I stopped short, unable to speak. I wanted to run. To get away. There was leech in here and I couldn't handle it anymore. Grace was upset. The more she got, the more she threw out her shield.

"It-it's okay. Daddy's here." I whispered in her ear as my vision turned red. It took all I had to keep standing.

"Hand her to me." I heard Esme say and I obeyed. I backed into a corner, completely unaware of the voice being shouted.

I dropped to my knees and gripped my stomach, trying to push down the strain even when it seemed the best option was leaving. But I couldn't. I needed to stay. I've got to. I need to be there for my daughter and son. I need to be there for my Nessie.

"Let me see her." Nessie took Grace from Esme and held both our twins. She felt panicked. Not because of the babies but because of something else.

Move, you idiot!

I staggered and forced myself to move. When I got in front of Nessie and the babies, she brought them closer to her and hissed at me, "Don't you dare touch them." she growled.

"Their mine too." I whispered. Nessie went back to rocking them back and forth so I took a seat beside her.

"Never alone. Never alone. I'll be in every beat of your heart when you face the unknown. Where ever you fly, this isn't good-bye. My love, I'll follow you, stay with you. Baby, you're never alone." Ness sung.

Eventually the twins stopped crying and sniffled. I took my son this time and rubbed his back as he opened his eyes to look up at me. Grace was still sniffling as we wiped tears from their eyes. There was one thing Nessie and I both hated. Our twins being upset.

"They felt you." Nessie showed me after asking her family to give us privacy. She scooted closer to me and bent down to kiss one of Sage's stray tears away.

"How?"

"I don't know. You were having a bad dream and then I was getting images when they started screaming."

"And…"

"They know who we were. They're more like me in that aspect. Their mental state is like the vampire's. They saw me die. They saw you hurt. Jake…I think they can feel us."

I looked down at my son and daughter. They can't be connected to us. They can't feel the fears we feel. I never heard of the kids being connected to the parents. I already knew the twins would be like their mother in a lot of ways. Hell, they were two weeks old and looked close to being a month old. It scared us to death. How long would we have them?

"All the time?"

"I don't know? I just saw them afraid I was going to die."

I tried to reassure myself that it was okay. Looking at Sage and Grace you would think they were sponges soaking up everything. They knew who we were. They loved us. They were Renesmee's children. They were perfect and beautiful. I didn't care about the rest.

Nessie laid her head on my shoulder as we stared at our wide awake twins. Grace looked between us with her cinnamon brown eyes that she inherited from my mother. She was named after her. I had a part of her in my daughter. I know now that she was definitely proud of me.

And my son, who whenever I smiled at his mother, squealed and made his sister laugh. He has my eyes. So dark they were almost black. I always hoped they would inherit Nessie's eyes but I still see her in them. That was all I asked for. That my family be happy, healthy, and safe.