Epilogue

Four years later…

I never thought the saying "don't blink because then time flies even faster" was taken into consideration when you're immortal. I was wrong. Time flew by so quick since Jacob and I got back together, had the twins, and then moved two weeks later. They were now four years old, I was seven, and Jacob was now getting his Bachelor's degree in engineering and business.

After we moved, Jacob's time with his family was cut to a end. He had to go to school. It was hard for his to get into the rhythm of an Ivy League University. I helped him with studying and doing his homework and he tried to help me with the twins as much as he could. It was hard when he worked, had to deal with his pack and tribe, went to school, and was a father. I had worried if he was stretching himself too thin but he did it anyway.

But being a stay at home mom wasn't a walk in the park either. My parents helped a lot-and I was grateful for them so much-but I wanted to learn and do it myself. And I learned a lot between the women in my life. Even my fifty-eight year old neighbor who lost her two sons and her husband in a car accident helped me. She had fallen in love with Sage's contagious smile and Grace's shinning eyes.

And being a parent…it was an amazing but hard job. Between late nights, early morning, public tantrums, I called my mother a lot sobbing an apology for every little thing I did wrong. My twins weren't bad-they were very loving actually-but they were the children of Jacob Black and Renesmee Cullen. That's a bad mixture times two.

They learned everything so quick. They could hold a good conversation a little bit before turning five months. Maybe they did have some of me in them after all.

The first time Sage and Gace said "da-da," Jake was at school. Like usual I sent a video of it and sent it to him. That started a trend of getting Sage and Grace to say, "I love you, Daddy" on video and send it via text.

But it was Jacob who was the one that got the twins to walk. They were tottering around at six, seven months old due to their advanced gene. Whenever I tried, and would get excited that they were taking a few steps, they would plop down and laughed like it was funny.

Just the time they actually walked, I was cooking dinner when Sage came toddling in saying, "Mama, eat!" Grace came in after that, followed by their amazing father.

There terrible two's and horrible three's were what really put my relationship with Jacob to the test. I was having trouble with them and I was having trouble Jake. While I was stressed out about the twins, he was stressed with school and running the pack. The two didn't mix together. But we sucked it up for the twins. Thankfully, they got out of those stages quickly.

Now at age four they were the cutest they could be. Sage had the tan skin, jet black hair with my curls, and the laid back attitude he had as a baby. Now he has a sweet tempered, go with the flow, protective over his sister attitude that came with a contagious smile like his daddy. Sadly, all ounce of looking like me was gone. But I can say this. He was most definitely a mama's boy. He still loved spending time with his daddy too-especially when it comes to anything with a motor. He even liked music.

Grace was still the same too. Same features she shared with her brother but only with those cinnamon brown eyes. Her silky black hair fell into soft waves. She shared more of my attitude but was loving and sweet as her brother. She would be bossy and sassy at sometimes-even getting into a little trouble-but she was also caring and considerate of others. She was a total daddy's girl but there was times when she wanted her mama a few times. Only when she didn't feel good or was sleepy.

We also had some fun memories but also went through some hard times too. When the twins turned a little over two years old, Jacob and I decided that maybe we should try for one more. I would stop aging in one year so why not give Sage and Grace a little brother or sister? Jacob was cautious at first due to me yelling at him that we would never have another. But he gave in eventually.

We didn't have to try long enough because in February I became pregnant with child number three. We were so excited that we told the twins the day I found out. They got excited too but didn't understand that there would be another little thing toddling around with them. Jake and I let them tell our families. Everybody was excited at first until Grandpa started thinking. Like my other pregnancy with Sage and Grace I would be pregnant on my birthday. But this birthday would be the day I stopped aging for good. None of us knew if my body would be able to accommodate to the growth of the baby.

Just when we started getting real excited, Grandpa's news turned out to be true. I didn't even have to hit seven for me to loose the baby. I miscarried two weeks after getting pregnant.

It was hard at first for sure. I guess you can say I settled into a depression. I was ashamed. I felt like I let my twins down. Here I gave them something to be excited over and I couldn't keep it. The thing that really made me feel better was my sweet son and daughter coming in saying, "We love you, mommy." Jacob came in shortly after carrying breakfast and saying he loved me too.

Now those four, crazy, insane, hectic, heartbreaking yet amazing years have gotten us here. Jacob was about to receive his diploma.

They called Jacob's name and he rose up to get it. It amazed me how much he has changed. He says I shaped him into the man he wants to be. But we wouldn't be here if it wasn't with out him.

Everybody let out a howl-yes, I mean everybody was trying their hardest to embarrass him. It was so bad that even Sage and Grace joined in without knowing everybody's intention. If they knew they wouldn't be happy campers.

"There's daddy! There's daddy!" Sage and Grace shouted, jumping up and down in my lap.

I picked up my camera and snapped a few shots of Jacob receiving his diploma and turning back to his seat, his face flushed red with embarrassment. That was my Jacob for you.

"Mommy?" Grace asked, her waves hitting Sage in the face. I think it's time for a hair cut.

"Yes, my love?"

"When can we see daddy?"

I laughed, "Well, there's still a lot more people that have to get their diplomas like daddy did." I answered back.

"No fair," Sage pouted as he plopped back against my chest in a pout, poking out his lower lip which he inherited from me. I was thankful he at least kept that from me, "I came here to see my daddy."

I knew it was going to be hard to keep four year old with gifts bored. Grace would try to play with her shield and send everybody to the floor clutching their heads in pain while Sage would try to wipe every memory away in the poor man in front of us mind.

I looked over at the others, trying to get idea of what I could do. My family was paying attention to the ceremony. Poor Kim looked miserable seven months pregnant. She had just graduated and wanted to be at Jake's ceremony since we made it to hers. Rachel was hugging her newborn twins, Zaeden and Rebecca, to her chest while Will played a game on Paul's phone. Nahuel and Roxanne were holding their three week old, but looked like six months, half breed, adopted daughter they found abandoned in an old shed. I was happy that they also were able to start a family but it also worried me. Somebody was creating half breeds too.

Now the only ones who had trouble with having another baby was me, Emily, and Leah still hasn't became successful in her hope. Emily-like me-tried but miscarried. But we put a brave face on because we have our others to take care of. We had to be a mom. That was our first important job to do.

"Mommy." Sage whispered a little too loudly. I laughed. Him and his sister haven't gotten the aspect of it yet.

"Yes, my son?" At least they understood my projection.

"Can I go sit with Channing?"

I huffed, acting like I was considering it. To Sam's fear Sage and Channing were really close. Jake joked that women couldn't resist the Black charm. It rewarded him with Sam right hooking him in the jaw. Emily and I thought I was childish of them. Sage and Channing were still babies in our books. They weren't teenagers.

"Not now." I whispered back, kissing his hair full of curls.

Throughout the ceremony, I projected to them random thoughts to keep them occupied. I had to concentrate on them more but it worked. But I could feel their impatience. I could feel Jacob's wanting to be with us. And poor Jacob had to feel the three of us.

After it was over I kept a tight hold on them, daring them to get out of my view point. My twins were that tricky and sneaky. And our entourage followed me as we weaved through the crowd. My connection with him was leading me right to him. I told the twins not to run through the crowd and here I was dragging them behind me. Such a great example right?

I finally saw him and my face broke out into a smile. His face lit up the whole room. The twins couldn't contain themselves and ran straight to their father before I even had the chance.

"Daddy!" They both shouted and jumped into his waiting arms. They wrapped their arms around his neck tight as if they weren't planning on letting go. Jacob's face shined even brighter as he wrapped his big arms around his son and daughter.

"There's my two little monsters." he said, kissing them both.

"We're not monsters. Mommy says were one of a kind." Grace said.

"Is that so?"

"Mmm-hmm." Sage said as if he was proud of it.

I couldn't help but look at them. They loved Jacob and he loved them. He would die for the three of us. He loved being a father as much as he loved me. Which was a lot.

"Well, were you two good for your mother?" he asked, propping them both up on his knees.

"Uh huh. Mommy wouldn't let me sit with Channing though." Sage pouted. I saw Jacob bite his lip to hide the smile that he couldn't help but make. Yes, our son was a ladies man.

Jacob nodded as if he understood and looked up to wink at me. The young girl in me wanted run in his arms and kiss him. But this was the twins time, "Well, maybe mommy just wanted you with her." he said.

"But it was boring." Sage whined back. All Jacob could do was bite his lip harder to keep from laughing. Again.

I had to take a picture of this. With Jacob in his graduation attire with his kids holding him with dear life. This was the man I loved. Even when he doubted he wouldn't be the father they needed, I had faith in him. We had the family neither of us thought we could ever get.

"Why do you wear that funny hat?" Grace asked, playing with the tassel that hung for the top of his cap.

"Because mommy made me wear it, and I wouldn't be able to graduate if I didn't." he answered.

"Well, you look silly in it."

I walked up to them but went completely unnoticed as Jacob went back as if he was hurt, "You know what I say? I think you two look silly." he then started tickling them both and they erupted into giggles, "Huh? Do I look silly now?"

"Okay. Okay. I don't want people to see how immature you really are." I said, breaking up the giggling war.

Jacob looked between the twins as if he wasn't the only guilty one but I saw his mischievous smile that made Sage and Grace put their hands over their mouths to hide the smiles.

"Okay, you two. Go see grandpa and grandma so daddy can give your jealous mother some attention." he droned on, rolling his eyes and straightening up.

The twins went to my parents as Jacob turned to me, "Missed me, beautiful." he said in a completely different tone than the third person one he was using with the kids.

"Only a little bit." I flirted back as I wrapped my arms around his neck and he snaked his arm around my waist, bringing me closer to him. I finally felt home.

"Good. Because I didn't miss you a little bit."

"Oh?"

"It's more like to the moon and back."

I put my hand on his cheek. "Congratulations, my love. I'm so proud of you." I said, my eyes meeting his.

I grabbed Jacob's cap and put it in front of our faces to block what I did. So I grabbed his tie and smashed his lips to mine.

"Watch out, everybody. Cover your eyes before we get blinded." I heard Ethan joke as we kissed. Him and Emma visit so often at our house that I might as well claim them as permanent guest at our house. They called us their second parents. Sage and Grace didn't like it one bit.

"I think we're tainting everyone's mind." Jake thought. I giggled and he pulled away, giving me a knowing look, "Is that my graduation gift?"

"Maybe."

I put down the cap and saw everybody staring. Jacob and I looked down embraced but we weren't sorry. All we did was pick up our son and daughter and gave the crowd a "who me?" look.

"Had fun?" Emmett joked. All Jacob could do was smile like an idiot.

"With my family (and Jacob's diploma) in tow we headed up to our SUV. (Upgrade.) Alice took it upon herself to throw a graduation party. He begged Alice not to but she ignored it as always. Then he turned to me to do something about it. As you can see, I purposely didn't. It's not because I didn't want to. I just thought he deserved it. He needed a party to relax. Plus Alice hasn't listened to me my whole seven years so why would one event change it.

We buckled in the twins and climbed in the vehicle. As Jacob looked at me I saw the pleading in his eyes, "Is a graduation party really necessary?" he asked.

"Yes." I stated the turned to the twins, "What do you think, my loves. Should daddy have a party to celebrate his graduation?"

"Uh huh." they both said together. I smiled at them and they both giggled.

"See? Three against one. You loose." I smirked.

"Probably because somewhere down that line I didn't know it was a competition-and you probably bribed them." he grumbled, pulling off onto the road.

I threw my head back and laughed. Tonight was suppose to be fun. Jacob didn't realize the great accomplishment he received today. I was so proud of him. I was worried that he would stretch himself too thin but he didn't. Yet. I still had that worry. He was Jacob. He tried so much to be superman and I had to accept that about it. But the worry was not only for the twins sake but it felt like for his too.

I sat back in my seat and smiled. I had the perfect little family. I had a beautiful daughter that acts like a tough tomboy but she had a caring, kind-natured attitude that loved to shop with me and her great aunts. I had a wonderful son who I know is going to grow up to be a fine young man with a heart bigger than anybody could ever dream of. And then there was my Jacob. He was an amazing father, a great leader, and the best boyfriend/soul mate in the world.

Yes, there's times where I see Jacob back away from a kiss because all he can think about is the betrayal that happen four years ago. There are times where we get in an argument so bad that we have to be miles away from our house because we've woken the twins up from our yelling. There are times I accuse Jacob of avoiding his duties as a father because I'm angry with him.

You see, I still do stupid things-even when I've finally reached full maturity. But I'm going to live forever so bring on the stupid things. In the end, they get a lot more sweeter.

~~~~~ Forever Ours ~~~~~

After the party, everybody dwindled down. Some went to hotel rooms, some went up to our guest rooms, or my family's new vacation house. Yes, my twins have my family that wrapped to buy yet another house.

As I was cleaning up, and making sure the twins weren't getting into any trouble, Jacob excused himself to his office. That just got under my skin. Tonight was suppose to be for fun not work. I knew Jacob was worried about his garage/custom building body shop that opened in less than a month but one night of relaxation, not work, wouldn't kill him. He should be spending this time with him family. Not with his office chair.

"Mommy?" Sage asked. I barely realized my son was there until I almost bumped into him. I didn't even realize he came inside.

"Yes, my love?" I asked, crouching down and smoothing his curls back.

"Can I go to bed. I'm sleepy." he mumbled, rubbing his eyes. Sage was my early bird. He went to bed at a decent time but always got up early. There was times I've caught him staying up with Grace and sleeping in but it's rare. Grace on the other hand was a little more difficult. She was the night owl that always kept me up at night when I was pregnant. She stays up all night but wanted to sleep in all day. It was a habit me and her were trying to break. The cute part was Sage was trying to get her to do the same thing. I would hear them arguing in their playroom about how Grace was keeping him up at night.

"Of course. In fact, I think it's time for bed for the both of you. It's getting a little too late." I picked up Sage with ease and he curled in my embrace and laid his head in the crook of my neck. I was surprised my son actually stayed in his tuxedo this long-or this late. I wish I could say the same about William. For Rachel's sake.

"Grace, time for bed." I called from inside the kitchen where Grace was playing outside with Will.

"Please, mommy. Five more minutes." she begged, her cinnamon brown eyes sparkling.

"You're brother's sleepy and it's time for you to be too." I said.

"But mommy-"

I gave her a look, one she knows not to argue with. "Fine." she huffed, trudging onto the deck.

"She can play for a few more minutes. Your father's out here. I'm out here. Rachel's out here. Even Sage can stay up for a few more minutes." Momma said. She also thought if Grace played hard enough it wouldn't be such a fight to put her to bed. I gave in, knowing that my parents were wrapped. When I projected to Sage if he was up for it all he did was shrug.

So we all sat down, watching the kids play. Sage had crawled up in Daddy's lap and fell asleep to the hum of his grandfather's voice.

"So where is my brother and husband?" Rachel asked.

"Where do you think?" I stated. I projected to her where our wolves were. All she did was roll her eyes.

After a while I was finally able to get Grace to agree on going to bed. She gave in, but only because she didn't have anybody else to play with. But I caught her rubbing her eyes a few times. It amazed me how my daughter acts so much like her father one minute but then like me the next.

So now as I was getting Sage ready for bed, Grace was jumping up and down on his bed.

"Grace Isabelle," my voice went into my daughter's mind, "what did I say about jumping on the beds. You'll wake everybody up."

"ButI have to break my record of…sixty…jumps…and I'm on fifty-seven, fifty-eight." she was stopped short by my projection and Sage's intense stare.

Grace plopped down on the bed, her face blank and he body slack. That was my son's gift. He was a shield penetrate like me but he could also take away your thoughts too. I was the victim when I was trying to get Grace to pull her shield in when I couldn't remember what I had to do. And it was all because I didn't get his lunch to him on time.

Grace realized what happen right exactly when I was tucking her brother into bed, "No fair. Mommy, he made me forget!"

"Because that was his bed you were jumping on. Would you do the same if he was ruining your bed?" I asked her as I pulled her into my lap and Sage played with my locket.

"Yes."

The thing with Grace's shield though. We had to teach her to pull it in so everybody can be able to be around her without snapping. It wasn't like Momma's who had to throw hers out to stop the gifts. Grace's was naturally thrown out. Kind of like an aura that follows her everywhere. We have to train her to pull that aura in. It was an ongoing process. It was aggravating for her, and right now she was so young that it hurt too. She didn't understand. So most of the time Jake had to suck it up.

The only exception was me and Sage-and she still found ways to not leave us out. She can push it out to where pain explodes inside your head and travels all the way down your body. It's like Jane's but Grace's is real. Its like a numbing sensation first then fire envelops you and you can't move. Wonder why I know? I was in her line sight when she was playing with it and got scared.

"Mama?" Sage asked. "Can you sing to me until I go to sleep?"

"Oh! Me too, mama! Me too!" Grace exclaimed, almost jumping up and down on the bed again but stopped when I gave her "the look."

I couldn't help but smile at my angels and kiss them on the forehead. "Of course. Just let me get Grace ready for bed first."

My son nodded and I got up to walk Grace to her room. It was still strange not having that grand, elegant nursery-and a lot emotional. My babies weren't babies anymore. They were in two separate bedrooms with two separate styles. They were growing up before my eyes and I couldn't stop it. Were they not as immortal as we hoped?

I grabbed Grace's pajamas and helped her out of her dress. The question my daughter decided to spring on me was shocking, "Mama? What's a crush?"

"A crush?" I repeated back, confused. Where was this coming from?

"Yeah. Claire told Kierra and Emma she had a crush on uncle Quil."

I had no clue how to explain Clair and Quil's relationship without explaining what imprinting means. Jacob and I decided that the twins were too young to know what it was. Plus, my Jake wanted to keep it a secret as long as possible that her imprinter was somewhere in the country…or so we're told.

"Umm…" I hate Jacob right now. "A crush is where you have small feeling for someone. It's enough to think they're cute but enough to where they stay friends." I didn't have lessons on how to explain this to a four year old. I'm doing my best as it is and I hope it's only enough.

"So Sage has a crush on Channing? He always playing with her and wants to be around her." she said in a serious tone of voice. Oh boy. I guess I didn't go a good enough job as I hoped.

"They're just friends, sweetie. You play with your friends and you don't have any crushes on them" Besides, they were too young

"So then why is uncle Sam acting funny about it."

I pushed my daughter's silky black waves out of her eyes, "He's just being silly. Most daddies act like that when they know their daughters are growing up." What? It's the best answer I've got.

"So daddy is going to act silly when he finds out I kissed a boy?"

"Huh? I think I'm about to act "silly." "Wha-who?"

"Well, it was Zaeden when he was first born."

I laughed-too much in relief-and held her hand as we headed back to Sage's room, "I think your cousin is an exception.

I picked my daughter up and laid her next to her brother. They both looked up at me with heavy eyes, "Story or song?" I asked.

"Song!" They both said with a smile. I couldn't help but smile back.

"Which one?"

"The one about not being alone and angels." Sage said.

I crawled up next to my angels and started to sing, "May the angels protect you, trouble neglect you, and heaven accept you when it's time to go home. May you always have plenty, your glass never empty, and know in your belly your belly you're never alone."

Tears filled my eyes for some reason and I blinked them away when my twins started to sing with me, "May your tears come from laughing; you find friends worth having-and with every year passing they mean more than gold. May you win but stay humble; smile more than grumble; and know when you stumble, you're never alone."

I saw my twins sigh as Sage's eyes drifted close. Grace was still fighting it, "Never alone. Never alone. I'll be in every beat of your heart when you face the unknown. Wherever you fly this isn't good-bye. My love, I'll follow you, stay with you. Baby, you're never alone…"

I kissed Sage on the forehead, "Have sweet dream, my prince." I whispered to him as I picked the finally asleep body of Grace Isabelle Black.

I laid her down and she curled up with her stuffed wolf, "And you too, my princess."

I glanced up at the dream catcher Jacob made the twins when they were newborns and kissed her too. I gently shut the door and made my way down the hall and to Jacob's office.

I pulled back the door, seeing my wolf sitting at his desk. Papers covered almost every inch but that wasn't his distraction-surprisingly. He sat, relaxed in his chair, and stared down at his diploma.

"Maybe if you keep staring at it long enough it'll reach out and slap you." I said, walking up to him. His suit jacket was slung over the chair, his tie was laying on the corner of his desk, and his shirt was unbuttoned halfway. Completely sexy.

"That would be a sight." he mumbled. "Are the twins asleep?"

"Yes. You missed putting them to bed-again. You missed your graduation party. Like you missed-"

"Ness, not now."

"Not now? Then when, Jacob? I actually thought today you would relax and spend some time with your family. I mean, it's not everyday you graduate from college."

I know but-"

I rolled my eyes. Everything was going great except for this. Where Jacob is pulled in so many directions that he's already so stretch thin when we get him.

"No excuses. I've heard them already."

I saw the flash of hurt in Jacob's eyes and guilt washed over me. I didn't want to argue. Not on a special night like this. Not when we have guest. Especially not when we have the twins sleeping in only a few rooms over. And not over something stupid like this.

I got in his lap and took his diploma in my hands, tracing the name Jacob Black that was carved in. "I'm so proud of you, my Jacob."

He smiled, kissing me, "I couldn't do it without my three angels as my gravity."

"Is that why you're so worried about the shop?"

He huffed, "Yeah, basically. It's just something I have wanted to do my whole life. I have the opportunity right in front of me. I want to invest my time and money where I know will give me the best possible outcome."

"That's what Alice is for." I joked.

"She's a big help; and…" Jake trailed and I could feel he was hiding something.

I projected to him that I knew there was something else. He huffed, "I've decided to go back for my masters."

I looked at him. This sets back so many things. Time with the twins and marriage. We decided to wait and talk about getting married once Jacob finished school. We talked about surprising the twins with a summer getaway. This just doesn't set back my plans too.

My eyes traveled down to my mother's ring, expecting an engagement ring and a wedding band being there. Don't get me wrong. I love this ring but I expected it to be moving to another finger. Guess what I wanted and what was going to happen were two different things.

Jake felt my disappoint. Damn connection. "I know we talked about marriage but it can be held off for a little while longer, can't it? I mean, there's no rush. We love each other…"

"It's fine. You should do it. You've came this far." I mumbled.

"We can get married in the summer if you…want too, I mean."

That's what got me. He would marry me only because I wanted too. Not because he did. It didn't hit me until now that he still wasn't ready. That stupid mistake back in July of saying I never wanted to be his wife did four-possibly more-years of damage. He was still scarred by it.

It's funny how a ripple can simply cause a gigantic wave to destroy a whole town can change things.

"You're still leery of it aren't you? You still don't trust me." I stated, not really accusing.

"Yes. I am. And I think I always will be. I can't change it and I wouldn't."

He held me tight. Tighter than what I expected, "You do want to change it-"

"No. I don't want to change it. Who knows what would happen that day. Anything could have happen that could have messed up where we are now. We might not even have the twins. We might not even be here. The list could go on and on."

I saw Jacob's point but it still did suck. I'll just have to get over it though. I have two four year olds who are going to wake up tomorrow morning wanting chocolate chip, cinnamon, banana pancakes. I have a feast to prepare for several bottomless pit wolves. I have a werewolf that needed my love. Time goes on. I just have to join in to not be left out.

"Well since you have a secret then I do to." Jacob gave me a tired, I'm all ears look so I continued, "Several magazine and blogs just recently offered Vanessa Wolfe a photo journalism job I'll mostly just be doing the photography part; and they'll keep my name and face out of the articles…"

"I'm sensing a but coming on."

"I'll be traveling sometimes." I winced. The twins were my world and my life. My job was to be there for their every need. I can't leave them.

"And…you're asking for my permission?" Jacob joked in mock shockery. I slapped his shoulder.

"But I won't be able to take it. If you're going back to college I'll need to be here with the twins and you…it's not possible. Sage and Grace are growing up so fast. They need me. I can't leave them."

"You know, I am the father. I am perfectly capable of taking care of my twins. The house might not be standing when you come back but they'll be in one piece. There's also the grandparents that are chomping at the bit to ruin them even more. You may even plan it to where you only have to travel a few times out of the year."

I smiled. Jacob was suppose to talk me out of it. Not more into it.

"You're crazy, Black."

"Only for you, babe. Only for you."

I laughed, setting the diploma on his desk and turning my body to where I was all but straddling him. I started to run my hands through his hair and smiled, "The thing is, I like being the mom of two one of a kind, one quarter vampire, four year olds, and the girlfriend of a workaholic, sexy werewolf."

"Well, I love being a dad to two, spoiled, one of a kind, one quarter vampire, possible werewolf, four year olds who are as beautiful and as amazing as their mother. I love being the soulmate of a sexy, spoiled, determined, stubborn, half vampire, half human hybrid."

I smiled, tracing the lines of his face. All of a sudden Jacob's lips crashed onto mine, continuing what we were doing at his graduation. His hands traveled to my hips as I poured everything into that one kiss. My anger, my frustration, my happiness, my love. I wanted this moment to last-and if it didn't I would make it count. As long as Jacob was mine none of that mattered.

"I love you, Jacob Black. You and our amazing twins." I breathed.

"Mmm-hmm."

Right now, this moment wasn't going to waste. I would make it last. Let the Volturi come. Let Finn threaten us again. Let the Children of the Moon destroy mankind. I didn't care. Right now, I was invincible.

Jacob carried me over to the couch and plopped down, making me giggled, then continued to kiss me.

I loved my family. I have the most amazing children who has an amazing father. I've made mistakes in the past but I wouldn't change it now. If I did who knows where we would be. I've chosen to find something good from the bad. There's always got to be a diamond underneath all that rust.

So if Jacob wanted a few more years in college and push our marriage back some more than so be it. I loved him and would do anything for him. Sage and Grace were proud of their father so why would I try to stop him. They haven't asked yet why I haven't went to school like their daddy does but I know somebody they will. I guess I will cross that bridge when it gets there.

I never actually saw myself as a mother. Jacob and I understood the fact of me having babies was impossible. But one night changed our whole future. Now I have two babies who made me grow up and act like an adult. I wouldn't change it. Being a mother was the best thing in the world. I didn't deserve the two miracles but I've got them. Yes, I was hurt that our other little baby didn't live long enough to enjoy this crazy life but we had a guardian angel now. I wanted another baby to add to our family but some things I have to accept. I'm happy exactly where I was.

So bring on the doubt, the enemy, the trouble. My family was strong and will only get stronger with time. Not even death will rip us apart. It has tried but we were strong enough to stop it. The Volturi can get their best fighters and it wouldn't be enough compared to the strength that bounds us together. There was no other way to put it.

The fire that enraged me burned brighter. While others were prepared for war I prepared to win. I will fight. I will fight for my family and my friends. I will fight for my son, my daughter, and my Jacob. I have to fight for them. I will. There was no other choice. And if fate is cruel enough to take me away Jacob has to promise me to hold on. He can't give up and leave our angels. As long as he's able to breathe he better be alive for the twins. They have to have one parent in their lives.

As Jacob kissed me again I slipped back in to our moment. Yesterday I was trying to round up two rowdy twins to see if their outfits fit right for Jacob's graduation. This morning I had to feed a cranky Grace because her brother woke up. I had to help Jake tie his tie because he was too nervous to do it himself. I watched my son and daughter jump up and down as they saw their daddy walk across to receive his diploma. I had to put them to bed. And my routine will be the same tomorrow-and the next day, and the next, and the next. But I didn't mind. I wanted it. If I do go to college, it'll be when the twins wouldn't need me as much. Gosh, the thought already brings tears to my eyes.

But for right now…I was so deep into the blissful moment that I didn't realize that ice cold dread filled me. Who was going to take it all away?

Jacob sensed my distraction and pulled away, "The twins?" he asked.

I shook my head no. I could feel someone was watching us. I was uneasy, embarrassed because somebody was watching us. Jacob felt it too.

"Do you want me to check?" he asked, but I just gripped him tight.

"Lets…go to our bedroom." I said.

Even as we made it to our bedroom I was still paranoid. I even pulled the curtain just to make sure they didn't see us.

"Could it be the Volturi?" Jacob asked as I crawled into bed.

"They wouldn't know where we live would they?" I asked. So much for our blissful, romantic moment. "Should we check on the twins?"

"It's okay, Nessie. If we start making assumption now it will just make everybody tense and the twins upset."

"But…I just can't get rid of this feeling of somebody watching us. Please, Jacob."

"Fine. I'll check on the twins and the woods." he reassured me. He pulled on a pair of sweats and kissed me one good time before disappearing out the door.

It didn't seem that long before Jacob slipped back in, "I thought you would be asleep." he said, coming to lay beside me.

"Nope. Are the twins okay? Did you find anything?"

Jacob brought my lips to his, a sort of romantic version of telling me to shut up. "They're out cold. They didn't even move when I kissed them goodnight. There's nothing I didn't see would be alarming in their room."

I breathed a sigh of relief. Our watcher didn't notice the twins. "Outside?"

"Oh there was definitely out there I guess we scared him off." he joked and I blushed.

"Should we let somebody know?"

"There's always tomorrow, Ness. And besides, I've got more important matters to take care of."

I squealed as Jacob pushed me back down on the bed and kissed me. All my worried disintegrated with that one kiss. The only thought that popped up into my head was that forever could truly be ours. There was just one road black that was stopping us. It set me at unease.

Who was watching us?

~~~~~ Forever Ours ~~~~~

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

-Jason Mraz, I Won't Give up...