The Miracle of Love
Chapter 14
"When I wake up in the mornin' light I pull on my jeans and I feel all right…"
For Bilbo, the night that followed was one of the longest ones in his life. He couldn't sleep. No matter how hard he tried, he just couldn't sleep. He felt like that kiss melted his brain. After thinking about it for a few hours Bilbo came to a conclusion that it wasn't a mind blowing kiss. They kissed before they had sex and that time tongue was involved. Still, Bilbo couldn't understand why a simple kiss, nothing special really, meant so much to him. It was driving him crazy. He remembered Thorin's hands on his belly. Thorin's strong and muscular hands were so gentle, so caring that Bilbo forgot for a moment about everything that happened between them. For a moment he believed that Thorin cared for the baby and that he could come to love it one day. And then that kiss, that simple kiss turned his world upside down.
The big question was why Thorin kissed him? He wanted to know why Thorin did what he did so he was standing at his bedroom door a few times that night, but he didn't dare to knock. It would be awkward for both of them. But he really wanted to know and he wanted another kiss, although he would never admit that to anyone. No, everyone else had to believe that he hated Thorin, because he did hate him, but he didn't. It was all very confusing.
He kept thinking about what happened until he fell asleep almost at dawn. He got almost three hours of sleep before the alarm woke him up, and even though he was tired and sleepy he jumped from the bed because a new day meant that he would get to see Thorin again. He would even suffer one of Thorin's stupid games, if only he could spend some time with him. But sadly when he came down to the kitchen Thorin was nowhere in sight.
"Morning, Bilbo." Kíli offered one of those smiles that indicated that he knew something others didn't and Bilbo had a very good idea what that could be.
"Morning…"
"So how did you sleep?" casually asked Kíli while he was eating his pancakes.
"I didn't-"
"I know that," smirked Kíli.
"I just couldn't," tried to explain Bilbo. "I kept tossing around and I couldn't find a comfortable positing."
Kíli nodded. "No kidding. So you weren't comfortable enough?" Before Bilbo could answer Kíli spoke again. "Thorin's bed is not comfortable enough for you?"
This time it was Fíli who spit all the juice out. "What?!" He just couldn't believe what he heard. "You slept with Thorin?"
"No! What? No…" Spluttered Bilbo. "What gave you this idea?"
"Don't try to deny it. I saw you returning back to your bedroom in the middle of the night and it was clear you were coming from Thorin's room," explained Kíli.
"You got this all wrong," defended Bilbo. "I was never in Thorin's room last night. You can ask Thorin."
"Ask me what?" Thorin's question startled everyone because no one heard him walk in.
"Who were you fighting with?" asked Kíli who forgot for a moment about the conversation they were having. Thorin still looked… Well he looked like someone beat the crap out of him.
Thorin shook his head. "Not important." He turned to Bilbo. "What did you want to ask me?" His question wasn't sharp and it sounded like he genuinely wanted to know.
Bilbo just stared at him for a moment. "Nothing," he answered quickly. "I forgot about what we were talking about," he lied before focusing back on the food.
Thorin stared at him for another minute, waiting if Bilbo would change his mind and tell him, but no such thing happened. "Are you finished? We should go." The twins nodded, picked up their bags before they all headed to the garage. "Are you coming with us?" Thorin asked Bilbo before he left the kitchen. Bilbo just stared at him and didn't say a word. "Bilbo. Car. School. Coming?" Thorin asked like he was talking to an idiot.
"Hmm… Yes! I'm going." He stood up and made a few steps.
"Bag," reminded him Thorin and Bilbo just looked at him, confused. "Your bag," clarified Thorin, but when Bilbo just stared at him without moving Thorin shook his head and picked up his school bag up.
"Yes! My bag. I completely forgot." He reached for the bag Thorin was now carrying.
"Leave it."
"No, I can carry it," protested Bilbo.
"I said: leave it," snapped Thorin, more sharply that he would want to and Bilbo immediately took a step back. "I'm sorry," sighed Thorin. "Just let me, we are already late." Bilbo nodded and followed Thorin to the car.
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The day at school was uneventful. Bilbo would say it was boring. Not because nothing happened, but because he didn't see Thorin all day. He had a few classes with Bofur but that was it. Thorin was occupying his mind through the entire day and it started to annoy him. After school, when he thought things would get better because he had a lot of homework that would occupy his mind, Kíli wanted to walk with him back to the house. And by walk, he meant interrogate.
"We were interrupted this morning," started Kíli.
"I don't know what you are talking about," lied Bilbo.
"Just like you couldn't remember what you wanted to ask Thorin," teased Kíli and Bilbo sent him a look. When Kíli wanted he could be really annoying. After a moment Kíli calmed down and continued with a more serious tone. "What were you doing then in the middle of the night?"
Bilbo continued to walk in silence for another few minutes and Kíli followed him without saying a word. "I wanted to talk with him," he admitted.
"Why?" inquired Kíli, who wanted to get more information out of him.
"No reason."
"I don't believe you! No one wakes up in the middle of the night to have a conversation about nothing." Kíli eyes Bilbo for a second before he realized something. "Something happened between you two! Something happened while you were in the bathroom."
"No…" lied Bilbo, but failed miserably at his lie. "Nothing happened."
"Something happened," stated Kíli firmly. "What happened? Tell me, please."
"I already told you. Nothing happened. I cleaned his cuts and that's it."
"You are lying," accused Kíli. "Why is it always so hard to get something out of you? I always had to beg-"
"Thorin kissed me."
That for sure made Kíli stop talking. At first he looked surprised but after a few moments he smiled widely. "He kissed you? Did he really kiss you?" he asked excitedly.
"Well, yeah," confirmed Bilbo, unsure why Kíli was so happy about this.
"I'm so happy for you," said Kíli and pulled Bilbo into an embrace. "Welcome to the family." Bilbo just stared at him, unsure what to say. It was just a kiss they didn't start dating.
"We are not together. You do know that, don't you?"
Kíli just smiled. "Let me tell you how many times my big brother kissed someone and didn't have sex with-"
"We did have sex," interrupted Bilbo. It looked like Kíli liked to forget things and create his own theories about things.
"You didn't let me finish," pointed out Kíli. "Do you know how many times my big brother, Thorin, not Fíli," clarified Kíli just so that Bilbo could roll his eyes, "kissed someone and didn't have sex with that person afterward." Bilbo decided to play this game and shook his head so that Kíli would finally tell him. "Up until today, or better said last night there was much research done on my brother's sex life. You see, Thorin's mind works differently-"
"Kíli!" Bilbo had enough of Kíli teasing him. He just wanted the answer not a presentation of Thorin's sex life.
"Fine," sighed Kíli. "But you are ruining all the fun. I had prepared a speech few years ago, but up until know I wasn't able to tell it to anyone." Kíli hoped that Bilbo will allow him to finish the speech but no such thing happened. "The scientists-"
"Kíli!"
"Fine. Once in a lifetime opportunity. You just killed my dreams," Kíli pouted but Bilbo didn't fall for the trick. "As far as I know, only you."
"Only me what?" Bilbo was confused. Kíli spent so much time talking he completely lost focus on the important information.
"You are the one person Thorin kissed and did not sleep with afterwards." Kíli spoke very slowly like he was talking to an idiot. And it did look like that, because Bilbo stared at him with his mouth open.
After a minute Bilbo got his thoughts back. "Nothing special," he said plainly.
Kíli just shook his head and followed him back home. Bilbo Baggins had no idea what he started. It was like a game of Jumanji, once you start you have to finish the game.
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The day went by quickly for Bilbo. He did some school work, read a few pages of the book, nothing special happened until Kíli invited him to see a movie with them. For a change he was excited to go, but when he was getting ready he encountered a small problem. Everyone, meaning Kíli, Fíli and Ori were already waiting for him and when he didn't show up Kíli decided to check on him.
There was a knock. "Bilbo," Kíli called, "Are you ready?" No answer. Kíli knocked again and after a few minutes he heard Bilbo cry. "Is everything alright?" Kíli asked.
"No!" cried Bilbo. At his words Kíli barged into his room.
"What's wrong?" he asked, panic could be sensed in his voice.
"I can't go with you," sighed Bilbo.
"Why not?"
Bilbo turned around and gestured to his pants. To be more precise, to the button of his pants. "It won't close," complained Bilbo and once again tried to close the button on his pants.
"Have you tried squeezing your stomach in?"
Bilbo sent him a look. "I'm not stupid. That was the first thing I tried and it didn't help. I just ate too much for lunch," he mumbled and lifted his shirt to look down at his swollen belly.
Kíli let out a laugh. "You and Thorin had a really big lunch, but it was a few months ago." Bilbo narrowed his eyes. "Don't look at me like that. You have a nice round belly like anyone who is pregnant has."
"Not helping," hissed Bilbo.
"I don't understand why you complain so much. You gained a few pounds. I don't see a problem with that. You are glowing." Kíli took a step closer and reached for Bilbo's belly, but Bilbo quickly put his shirt back down and took a step back. Kíli sighed. "How come you were able to wear pants today to school and now you can't put them back on?"
"Not the same pants," explained Bilbo. "The ones I wore today Nola took away from me because she was 'doing the laundry'." Bilbo once again tried to close the button. "I don't understand why this is happening to me. Last week I was able to wear them. I admit, they were a little tight, but I was still able to wear them."
"Just forget about these pants," said Kíli and opened Bilbo's closet. "Wow…" was the only thing he said after being quiet for a minute. "I really thought you had more clothes." He pulled something out of the pile of clothes and threw it at Bilbo. "Here, try these."
"I'm not going out in sweatpants!" Bilbo was deadly serious. "Not happening."
"You don't have much of a choice," reasoned Kíli. "Don't be such a child and put them on."
"I'm not a child-" Bilbo stopped because Kíli sent him a look. The truth was that he was acting like a child. He refused to wear pants, and he had to admit that it was rather childish of him. But he never liked going out in sweatpants, especially not to cinema where others from school might see him. This just wasn't his thing. "Fine. You win." Kíli grinned. "Get out!" ordered Bilbo when Kíli didn't move. "I'm not changing while you are here."
"Can I just…" Kíli once again reached toward Bilbo's belly.
"No," said Bilbo and slapped his hand.
"Why not?" whined Kíli.
"You said I was fat." Kíli wanted to protest. "If you don't leave I won't change and then we will be late to the movie."
A few minutes later Bilbo left his room to go downstairs, when he met Thorin who was all dressed to go out. "Nice pants," teased Thorin.
"Thanks," muttered Bilbo, not very happy about Thorin teasing him. He knew others will do the same. "Are you going with us?" Bilbo asked full of hope. He didn't get the answer to his question because he saw Ori and Dwalin waiting downstairs.
"Thorin," called Dwalin. "Ready to have some fun?"
"I've been waiting months for this," said Thorin. Bilbo immediately knew what they were talking about and he wanted to throw up. "I think I deserve to have some fun tonight." Dwalin smiled while Bilbo suddenly changed his mind. He didn't want to go out anymore.
Before Dwalin and Thorin could leave, Ori pulled his boyfriend back to him. "Don't do anything stupid and have fun," he smiled before he placed a kiss on Dwalin's lips. "I'll see you tomorrow."
"I'll bring him back in one piece," said Thorin before he dragged his best friend away from the group.
"We should go too," said Fíli after Dwalin and Thorin left.
"I don't want to go anymore," said Bilbo and turned around to go back to his room.
"No you don't." Kíli reached for Bilbo's hand and pulled him back. "You are going with us. No excuses."
"I don't want to go," complained Bilbo.
"Thorin will have his fun and we will have our fun. Everyone wins. You can't always back out just because Thorin does something." Bilbo wanted to protest. "You are going with us," repeated Kíli, more firmly.
Once they were in the car Bilbo finally gathered enough courage to talk to Ori. "Do they go out often together?"
"You mean Thorin and Dwalin?" Bilbo nodded. "Not so much. They used to though. There was a time when they went out together four times a week. I hated that because I never got the time to spend it with Dwalin."
"So what do they do when they go out?"
"I don't know exactly," admitted Ori. "All I know that Dwalin is Thorin's wingman. To tell the truth we don't talk about this much because Dwalin and I are in a committed relationship so he is not allowed to even look at the others."
Bilbo swallowed before he nodded. He didn't like the idea of Thorin being with someone else. He knew that Thorin wasn't hiss and that they weren't dating or anything, but still the thought of Thorin kissing someone else made his stomach turn. He tried to forget about that and enjoy the film and some company, but it was really hard to focus on anything when Thorin was probably sucking the life out of someone.
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The next morning Bilbo didn't see Thorin when he woke up, he didn't see him the whole day. But he didn't care. At least he pretended that he didn't care. Deep down he was hoping that Thorin would catch something after whoring around so much. He spent the lunch break with Ori and Dwalin, unfortunately. He didn't mind people being in love and showing affection to one another but watching Ori and Dwalin kiss during lunch was disgusting. So much love and kindness, and they were so sweet together that if he would stay with them for another minute he would need and insulin shot. He was smart enough to find some stupid excuse and leave them alone.
After school he decided to go home. He wanted to spend some time with Frodo, but also his mother had some repairs to do on his pants otherwise he wouldn't be able to wear them anymore.
"Bilbo, come here," called Belladonna from the kitchen. "Look, this is what I managed to do." She showed him his pants that now had an elastic waist. "This is just a temporarily solution. You need new pants. There are very nice pants-" Just don't say on maternity department "On maternity department." And there you go. "I know you don't want to buy pants there, but nothing else will fit you. That belly won't stop growing anytime soon. The best thing to do now is to buy some new clothes for you."
"I don't want to feel like a big pregnant woman," complained Bilbo.
"Well sweetheart, you are already pregnant and soon you will be big. You need new clothes because soon you won't feel comfortable wearing what you wear now. The clothes there are made for those who are pregnant. It's a small shop and I know the shopkeeper so she will give you a nice discount."
"She sells only old stuff. I won't find anything there," said Bilbo after he put his pants back on. His mother was right, the elastic was much more comfortable to wear.
"Well the clothes aren't new, but I'm sure you will find something. Trust me sweetheart, you need it."
Bilbo knew his mother was right and even if he didn't want to do it, he agreed to go buy something. Belladonna gave him some money and Bilbo went 'shopping'. The good thing was that he didn't have to go alone, because Frodo offered to go with him as a moral support. But Bilbo knew better, he knew that only reason Frodo decided to go with him was so that he could laugh. Still, Bilbo didn't want to go alone so Frodo was more than welcome company.
When then entered the shop and Bilbo told the shopkeeper what they came to buy, the old lady sent him a judgmental look. She obviously didn't approve of sex before marriage and Bilbo's pregnancy meant exactly that. Still, the old woman kept quiet and didn't say anything, but she didn't really have to because the way she looked at Bilbo was showing enough what she thought.
"My big brother is buying bigger clothes because he is pregnant. I never thought I'd see that day," commented Frodo as he was waiting for Bilbo to change. "I always thought you were the responsible one."
Bilbo ignored Frodo's comment. "What do you think?"
Frodo looked and him. "I don't like it. You look horrible in this. The first pants you tried, that was something I could live with. Everything else looks horrible." Bilbo sighed before he went back to change. "Can I use your phone?" Frodo asked.
"Why?"
"Because I'm bored and I know Kíli downloaded a lot of cool games to your phone."
"Fine," agreed Bilbo. "I'll just try another pair and if it doesn't look good we'll go home. I had enough for one day."
It wasn't much of a surprise that everything else that Bilbo tried didn't look good on him. So in the end he was happy to buy at least one pair of pants. He paid for them and then decided to return back home.
"Could I get my phone back, please?" asked Bilbo as they exited the shop and Frodo was still playing with his phone. Frodo didn't want to, but he returned Bilbo his phone. "Thank you," smiled Bilbo, but his smile quickly vanished. In front of the shop was parked Thorin's car with Thorin leaning on it. "What are you doing here?" Bilbo hissed.
"I got your text," explained Thorin and waved with his phone.
"What text?" Bilbo immediately knew what happened. "You!"he said and pointed at Frodo, "Why did you call him," he hissed. "I will never again allow you to touch my phone."
Frodo rolled his eyes. "Why are you making such a big deal out of this? I texted him, he came. Now stop pretending you are not happy he is here."
"I'm not," said Bilbo sternly.
"Like a damsel in distress. She calls for her prince and he comes. So romantic," teased Frodo.
"Just stay quiet," ordered Bilbo.
Frodo rolled his eyes before he turned to Thorin and smiled. "Hello. How are you?"
"I'm fine," answered Thorin. "You?"
"Never better. Is there any chance you can drive me home?"
"Sure, no problem."
"Just ignore him," Frodo said and looked at his brother. "He is not in a very good mood."
"Should I be worried?" laughed Thorin.
"No, just don't listen to him."
Thorin smiled and watched Frodo get in the car. "You are not coming with us?" he asked just to tease Bilbo. Bilbo narrowed his eyes before he stomped to the car. Thorin opened the door for him and Bilbo had to bite his tongue to not say anything. "Your majesty," continued to tease Thorin and closed the door once Bilbo took a seat.
Bilbo kept quiet for the whole ride back to his parents' house, while Thorin and his brother had a lovely conversation. Once they arrived there Frodo and Thorin continued to talk until Bilbo lost it and ordered Frodo to get out.
"So," started Thorin while driving back to the mansion, "What did you buy?"
"Leave me alone," snapped Bilbo. He felt so angry and Thorin just gave him the perfect opportunity to release his anger.
"I'm sorry. I didn't want to offend you."
"Can't you just leave me alone?" Bilbo asked, irritated.
Thorin didn't answer his question. He decided it was better if he stayed quiet. The last thing he wanted right now was to make Bilbo angry, especially after the progress they made. They drove in complete silence the rest of the way. Bilbo stared out of the window and Thorin pretended he didn't look at him every two minutes.
Once the car stopped Bilbo got out as fast as he could. "You just couldn't leave me alone?!" Bilbo snapped. "Nooo… You had to rub it in my face. Let's show loser Bilbo how awesome I am and… and… You know what?!" yelled Bilbo. "I don't care what you do! You can sleep with whoever you want, but leave me out of this!" Bilbo let out a sob. "I have feelings too, you know," he cried and ran upstairs before Thorin could say anything.
"And I need to have you near me, I need to feel you close to me…"
Author's notes:
All mistakes are mine.
Yeah, that was a little confusing, but Bilbo is very confused because he doesn't know what he wants. He knows what he wants, but he tries to deny it. The next chapter will be more interesting to read, I promise. Anyway I'm going to sleep now. Tell me what you think and you'll get the next chapter sooner than you think :)