The Miracle of Love

Chapter 15

"Love is a burning thing and it makes a fiery ring…"

Thorin just stared at Bilbo's fleeing form. He didn't understand what just happened or what Bilbo said. This whole thing was confusing. He knew that it was Frodo who texted him because even though Bilbo and he were on relatively good terms now, Bilbo was still too proud and stubborn to ask him anything.

Still, Bilbo was crying when he ran upstairs. Normally Thorin would ignore him, but now he just couldn't. He felt the urgent need to check on Bilbo and make sure he was okay. He took the bag that Bilbo left in the car and headed upstairs. He knew that if he would knock Bilbo most likely wouldn't say anything and if he would, he would tell him to leave.

Thorin took a deep breath to prepare himself for what was waiting for him and entered the room. Bilbo was lying on the bed, quietly sobbing into a pillow.

"You forgot your bag," said Thorin quietly, trying to break the ice. "You left it in the car." He didn't know why he said that. It was obvious Bilbo left the bag in the car. Thorin stood awkwardly in the center of the room, scratching the back of his head. He didn't know what to say, but he wanted to make Bilbo feel better. "Is everything okay?" He asked.

"I'm fine," Bilbo said into the pillow between sobs.

Thorin was lost, he really didn't know what to say. He never tried to comfort anyone. "Listen," he started after a minute, "I don't know if this means anything to you, but last night when I went out with Dwalin I didn't sleep with anyone."

This sentence apparently made wonders. Bilbo stopped crying and looked Thorin in the eyes. "You didn't?" He asked full of hope.

"No," confirmed Thorin, but let out the reason why he didn't.

Bilbo smiled and wiped the tears from his face. "I'm so happy." He immediately regretted his words. "I mean, I'm not happy because you didn't sleep with anyone because you can do whatever you like, I'm happy because it's such a wonderful day." Bilbo smiled wider and Thorin just shook his head. As far as he could tell Bilbo lost it completely. A few minutes ago he was yelling at him, now he was happy because he didn't sleep with anyone.

"Here is your bag," said Thorin and gave the bag to Bilbo.

"Thank you."

"No problem." Thorin stood awkwardly in the center of the room for another minute. Bilbo kept his eyes on him and he kept them on Bilbo. "Well… I-I should go back. To my room." He scratched his head again. "Yeah, to my room."

He was about to leave when Bilbo spoke. "Did you kiss anyone?"

Thorin turned around. "Excuse me?"

Bilbo lost his courage, but he still repeated the question. "Did you kiss anyone when you were out with Dwalin?"

Thorin looked at him with disbelief. "What kind of question is that?"

"A normal one."

"You can't just go around and ask people if they kissed."

"I'm not asking around," corrected Bilbo, "I'm asking you."

Thorin just shook his head. "Well it's none of your business what I do."

"But a minute ago it was perfectly fine for you to tell me you didn't sleep with anyone!" Exclaimed Bilbo, irritated.

"You were upset and I thought it was about that," explained Thorin. "You were yelling at me in the garage, remember? You were yelling at me because I was 'rubbing in your face that I slept with someone'."

"I was yelling at you because you used my little brother to get to me!"

"Wow," said Thorin. "You really lost it." Bilbo was being unreasonable right now, but he looked so hot when he was angry. Too bad this anger couldn't be turned into something more pleasurable. "He called me and I came to pick you up. I never used him."

"Well I'm not a damsel in distress. I don't need you to come and save me!"

"What?" Questioned Thorin, but before he could say anything else Bilbo 'pushed' him out of the room. He didn't put up a fight, he merely walked out of the room with Bilbo guiding him where to go.

"I don't need you!" Bilbo yelled before he shut the door in Thorin's face.

"That went well," commented Thorin and returned to his room.

:::

Bilbo spent the next day avoiding Thorin as much as he could. After thinking about it he realized that he and Thorin had a really strange conversation, and once again Thorin was angry at him. Or at least he was angry at Thorin. He had no right to use his little brother like that. The more he thought about it the more he asked himself how exactly Thorin used Frodo. Frodo called him, he knew that, and Thorin came to get them. He knew he was right, Thorin was using Frodo, but his mind still had problems figuring out how.

At the end he decided to forget about this whole thing. He might have overreacted a little and for no reason, but he had the right to. Thorin kissed him and that meant something. At least it meant something to Bilbo.

In the afternoon someone knocked on the door. "Hello," smiled Valla. "Do you have an hour or two to go somewhere with me?" She asked. Bilbo had no idea what she had in mind, but he still agreed. After all, he didn't have anything better to do.

"Sure, I'll come."

"Excellent. I'll wait for you downstairs."

Bilbo came down a few minutes later only to find Fíli and Kíli waiting for him. "You are going too?" He asked and the boy nodded. "Where are we going?"

"Shopping!"

Bilbo didn't believe them at first but Valla joined them a minute later and confirmed what the boys said. They were indeed going shopping, but Bilbo had no idea where. It didn't take long before the car stopped in front of one of the most expensive shops there were in town. He should have guessed that they would buy their clothes here, with all the money they had. He could never afford to buy clothes here. They were too expensive.

"Boys," started Valla, "You know what you like." This was meant for Fíli and Kíli. "Bilbo, please wait for me here," she said before she disappeared.

"Just listen to her," advised him Fíli. "She knows how to dress."

"I'm not sure this is-"

Bilbo was interrupted by Kíli. "She has a closet full of clothes. That's what happens when you have unlimited access to dad's credit card."

"I really don't need-" tried Bilbo.

"Just trust her. She will find something you will like," said Kíli.

"Now if you excuse us, today we also have access to dad's credit card."

"And we are planning to enjoy this," finished Kíli before he and Fíli disappeared.

Bilbo didn't know what to do, he just stood there and waited for Valla to return.

"Okay, try this on," she said after she came back with her arms full of different clothes. "I'm not sure about the colors, but we will find something that suits you."

Bilbo wanted to protest.

"No excuses, young man," she smiled. "I want to do this because I want you to feel comfortable in what you wear. Please allow me to do this."

Bilbo didn't have the heart to say no to her even though he knew he will probably have a heart attack later when he will see how much everything costs. He spent two hours trying everything on that Valla brought him. She really had a good taste and she knew what he needed. Most of the clothes were made to be very comfortable during pregnancy, but they didn't look like that at all. Most of them did a very good job hiding the fact that the person wearing them was pregnant.

At the end Bilbo couldn't believe how many clothes Valla decided to buy for him, but he was even more shocked by the quantity of clothes that Fíli and Kíli bought. It looked like they were changing the entire wardrobe.

"Thank you," said Bilbo.

"You are welcome sweetheart," smiled Valla. "I'll meet you at the car."

"Think your room and multiply it by four," whispered Fíli in Bilbo's ear when they were leaving the shop.

"I don't understand."

"The size of her closet," clarified Fíli.

"Wow, that must be big."

"It is," confirmed Fíli. "Nice choice of clothes, by the way."

"Thanks. Your mother picked everything."

"They suit you."

"I know," smiled Bilbo. "I like them too."

:::

A few days later Bilbo finally found some time to spend it with Bofur who was avoiding him with no reason. He had to admit that his new friends took a lot of his time, but he still tried to at least spend a few minutes a day with him.

"So, how are you," asked Bilbo, trying to make small talk.

"I'm fine," Bofur answered plainly.

"Just fine?" Bilbo didn't get the answer from his friend. "Okay, what did I do?" Balfour remained quiet. "I obviously did something wrong that made you behave like this."

"Everything is fine," sighed Bofur.

"No! Everything is not fine." Bilbo pulled Bofur to a stop. "Is it because I ate lunch with Ori the other day? You know, he is your friend too, you could have joined us."

"It's not about Ori."

"Then what is this all about?" Insisted Bilbo.

"It's about Thorin, alright!"

"I don't even-" Bofur didn't let Bilbo finish.

"I know you kissed him," stated Bofur.

"I didn't-"

"Don't lie to me. I know what happened. Kíli couldn't be happier when he announced that you and Thorin are together. Congratulations," said Bofur bitterly.

"But I'm not with Thorin and I didn't kiss him."

"Don't lie to-" Bofur didn't finish his thought because Bilbo silenced him with a kiss. It was a simple kiss and Bilbo wanted to pull away immediately, but Bofur wrapped his arms around him and held him close.

"No," protested Bilbo and pushed him away. Bofur just stared at him in complete shock. He didn't know what just happened, but he knew it felt good. Bilbo put his hand over his mouth after a moment when he realized what he just did. What he did was wrong. He used his friend's weakness just to prove his point. "I'm sorry," whispered Bilbo before he ran away in tears.

"No, Bilbo, wait!" Called Bofur after him, but without any luck. Bilbo didn't stop he ran away as fast as he could.

He shouldn't have done what he did, it was wrong and now he felt really bad about it. Now he knew that Bofur definitely had a crush on him and he used him. He would never have wanted to be used like this. It was wrong and Bofur was his friend. A part of him was happy that he did it, at least now Bofur knew that there was absolutely nothing going on between him and Thorin. He could only hope that Bofur would put this whole thing behind them and never mention it again. Bilbo understood what it meant to like someone and never get the feelings returned, and he could never see Bofur more than his friend, or a best friend.

He ran back to the mansion crying. He didn't want anything else but go to his room and never come out again. Or at least until this whole ordeal settles down. He didn't even pay attention where he was running and as if this day couldn't get any worse he crashed into no one else that Thorin himself.

Thorin also wasn't paying attention where he was going because he was going through his wallet and the last thing he expected was for Bilbo to come running back home in tears.

"Watch it!" Yelled Thorin as they collided and the content of his wallet got scattered all over the floor.

Bilbo wiped his eyes in his sleeve. "I'm sorry," he half cried. "I didn't see you."

"No kidding," said Thorin plainly and started picking up the content of his wallet.

Bilbo got down and started to help him, after all this was all his fault. He picked up some money, two condoms (no surprise really, this was Thorin's wallet), and two pictures which Bilbo didn't recognize at first. But after he got a better look at them he couldn't believe his eyes. Thorin had the missing ultrasound pictures in his wallet and if Bilbo was sure of something was that Thorin always had his wallet with him, and that meant that he had the pictures with him all the time. "What…"

"None of your business," snapped Thorin and snatched the pictures from Bilbo's hand. Before Bilbo could even open his mouth Thorin stormed away.

Bilbo stood there for a minute. He couldn't believe that Thorin kept the pictures. He was sure that he threw them away like he said. What did that mean? Does Thorin want the baby, or it was just a coincidence he kept them? Bilbo had so many questions only Thorin could answer but he was nowhere in sight. He decided to let the whole thing with pictures go for the moment, right now he had bigger problems.

:::

He ran back to his room and climbed under the covers. He was hoping to calm down and think about everything, but he had no such luck. Ten minutes later Kíli came knocking on his door.

"Bilbo! Bofur is here. He wants to talk with you." No answer came. "Bilbo!" Called Kíli again.

"I don't want to talk with him," answered Bilbo.

"He knew you would say that and he told me to insist. He says he is urgent." Once again no reply came from Bilbo so Kíli went to inform Bofur.

Sadly, it didn't stay quiet for long. A few minutes later Bilbo could hear Bofur and Kíli arguing and he knew that it won't take long before Bofur would be knocking on his door.

"Bofur," tried Kíli, "He doesn't want to speak with you."

"But I want to speak with him," insisted Bofur. "Bilbo!" He called and knocked on the door. "I want to talk with you! You can't avoid me forever." No answer. "Bilbo!"

"What's going on here?" Asked Thorin who probably heard all the yelling.

"I want to talk to Bilbo," clarified Bofur with a deadly glare.

"Then just talk to him. Don't yell."

"Easy for you to say," muttered Bofur. "I'm sure he listens to your every word like he is your servant."

"Excuse me?" Asked Thorin who wasn't quite sure if he heard right. "He is my what?"

Before Bofur could answer Bilbo opened the door and silenced them both. "I don't want to talk with you right now," he declared and tried to close the door, but Bofur stopped him.

"I want to talk. Now that we are all here, why don't we talk about what happened."

"Who are 'we'?" Asked Thorin because he didn't understand a thing. Bilbo said nothing and pushed between them so that he could escape them. In that moment Thorin realized that Bilbo was hiding something and went after him. Bofur did the same.

Thorin caught him in the living room and stopped him. "What's going on?" He asked.

"I'll tell you what's going on," said Bofur. "He kissed me!"

Thorin's eyes almost popped out. "You kissed him?!"

"No…" Bilbo lost his ability to speak.

"Don't be like that Bilbo. It's not nice to lie to your boyfriend."

"I agree," said Thorin before he caught the whole thing. "Boyfriend? Whose boyfriend?"

"We are not-" tried Bilbo, but Thorin and Bofur were adamant to let him speak.

"No need to deny it," interrupted Bofur. "I know everything." He turned to Thorin. "Congratulations, you are the living proof that a bastard like you can get someone as nice as Bilbo. You will never deserve him."

"Watch how you speak," warned him Thorin, irritated.

"We are not-" almost cried Bilbo.

"Why did you kiss him?" Asked Thorin.

"I didn't… I don't know," Bilbo cried. "I'm sorry." No one was sure to whom he said it.

"He is cheating on you," said Bofur. "I don't know how you can stand here so calmly when your boyfriend is kissing others."

Bilbo had enough of everything. He was already feeling dizzy and he knew he wouldn't last long. "We are not together!" He yelled before his vision became blurry. A few seconds later everything around him became dark.

"Bilbo!" They exclaimed, but they were too late.

:::

When Bilbo woke up he sensed someone standing next to him. There wasn't much light, but his eyes still hurt when he opened them so he quickly tried to cover them with his arm when he felt a searing pain in his hand.

"It's just an IV," a calm, female voice said. "Try to stay calm." Bilbo only nodded. He kept his eyes shut so he had no idea to whom he was talking. "You are in a hospital," the voice explained. "You fainted and you hit your head. You have a nice bump on your head." Bilbo could imagine her smile. "Why don't you open your eyes slowly?" Bilbo did as he was told. "Hello," the nurse smiled, "It's nice to have you back."

"Where am I?" Bilbo asked with a raspy voice.

"You are in a hospital, sweetheart. You hit your head when you fainted. Also your blood pressure is very high. We are just making sure you are both fine."

At her words Bilbo's hand immediately went to his stomach. "Don't worry, you are not bleeding or anything, but we did call your doctor. She will arrive shortly and she will be able to tell you if everything is alright."

Bilbo nodded and leaned back into the pillows and watched the nurse change his IV.

"So which one is it?" She asked and smiled down to him.

"What?"

"Which one of those two hot guys out there is your boyfriend?" The nurse asked. "If they weren't so young I would be jealous. Don't tell me you are dating both. They had a huge fight, not even half an hour ago so we asked them to leave, but they won't go. They are both determined to stay with you. So, which one is it?"

"Neither," mumbled Bilbo.

The nurse's smile vanished. "So you are with the father of your baby?" Bilbo shook his head. "Oh."

"It's complicated." That was the only way Bilbo could explain it.

Before the nurse could ask another question Arwen walked in. "Hello," she smiled. "You are awake. Good."

"If you'll excuse me," said the nurse and left.

Arwen pulled a chair next to Bilbo's bed. Her face was serious and Bilbo began to worry something was wrong. "I don't like meetings like this," she started. "I got a call that my teenage patient was brought to the hospital unconscious, with a big bump on his head and very high blood pressure. Will you tell me what happened?"

"I don't know." Arwen raised an eyebrow at him. "We had a disagreement. There was maybe some yelling involved," said Bilbo carefully.

"Just some, huh?" Arwen took a deep breath. "This is not a high-risk pregnancy, but that doesn't mean you don't have to be careful. Every male pregnancy is dangerous, especially those of teenagers. We talked about this and I warned you about your blood pressure and stress. The blood results show that you at least eat properly. If you don't start avoiding stress I will have to advise Mr. Durin to find you another place to stay. This is not only putting your baby's life at stake, but yours too."

Bilbo only nodded. He knew that he wasn't doing the best job avoiding stress, but it was so hard with everything that was happening around him. And now Thorin wasn't his only problem. Bofur decided to make his life even harder.

Arwen stood up and put the chair away. "When they brought you in they checked you, now let's see how the baby is doing, shall we?" She helped Bilbo lift his shirt and put some gel on his stomach. "So," she started while she was moving the probe on his belly, "The taller, older one is Thorin?" Bilbo only nodded. He kept his eyes on the screen waiting to see his baby. "And the other one? Who is he?"

"He is my friend," simply answered Bilbo.

"Only your friend?" The sound of the baby's heartbeat filled the room and Arwen abandoned small talk for a moment. "Everything looks fine. See, here's the head, a leg, an arm. It's interesting how your baby seems to be unaffected by everything that is happening to you. It looks fine, no harm done. This time," she quickly added.

"Could I get a picture?"

Arwen smiled. "Are you collecting them or something?"

"Sort of."

"I'll bring one to you later," Arwen promised. "Did you already feel it move?"

"No," carefully answered Bilbo, unsure if this was good or bad.

"Don't worry, you should feel it soon. This is your nineteenth week so it shouldn't be much longer before you'll be able to feel it move." Arwen helped him clean his stomach. "I want to keep you here overnight, just to make sure that everything is alright. Mrs. Durin was already informed about what happened. She was very worried. Now I can call her back and assure her that everything is alright, with both of you. I also need to call your parents and inform them you'll be staying here."

"Can you tell them that I will call them as soon as I get my phone," Bilbo asked and Arwen nodded.

"You know," she said before she left, "They both seem like decent guys and they both seem to care about you. If you are deciding between them do it quickly because if you won't do it soon you will have no one at the end. Only a true love is prepared to wait forever."

"…Bound by wild desire I fell into a ring of fire."

-TBC-

Author's notes:

All mistakes are mine.

This was fast… I know… I got really bored on my train to school. Plus it had twenty-five minute delay so I decided to do something useful.

Thank you all for your feedback. I read all your comments and you seem to be enjoying the story. Thank you all for the questions on Tumblr (some of them are really interesting) and your emails. It's always interesting to know what you think.

Just a quick explanation. The internet here is making me crazy. I need an internet connection to run spell check. Without internet the program refuses to work, that's why I usually wait to return home, but I promised you a new chapter soon so I did my best.

I'll try to write the new chapter for TCoS because it deserves an update.

See you soon :)