Thank you so much for the kind reviews that i got. Believe me, It made me inspired to write more. I am taking your reviews seriously and I decided to make it a long story. Yey! Goodluck to me!
I am struggling to write better, but forgive me if If have errors especially with the tense that I used. I NEED A BETA READER! =)
Hopefully I can publish the 3rd chapter of this tomorrow, after my work at school. That chapter will be in Amy's POV... so i hope you enjoy this... =))
"To put it simple, you are in love Sheldon. All the things that you said to me were indications that you are having a special feeling for someone"
Me? In love? With someone? And…with Amy? This is preposterous! How can that happen? We were very careful in handling this special relationship. We even established a very concise parameter on how this relationship will go. We were vocal about not engaging in any kind of attachment but of the intellectual level. Oh dear Lord!
Listening to what Amy just said made me feel more uneasy. There was a sudden rush of emotion I can't contain. Why am I feeling this? I should not be affected by it, right? It was just her own explanation. Maybe…maybe if I consult this dilemma with other people or if I can find a book that could answer this, then her conclusion will be flouted with a scientific and more accurate explanation.
But I should suppress it. I don't want Amy to have a hint of what I have in my mind. I know there's chaos going on inside my brain. But then again, I should control myself. I should keep calm. Must act that I was not affected by what she said.
I was so into this strange feeling that I almost forgot about Amy. I looked up on the screen and saw her frowning. She was silent and just staring at the screen too. This situation made me speechless. Honestly, I don't know what to say to her. This was the time that I should be in control of my feelings. Sheldon, you are the master of your own emotion. No one, nothing can dictate what you are going to feel. I released a deep sigh and prepared myself to say something. I cleared my throat and when I was about to open my mouth to proceed with our conversation, she asked me something.
"Sheldon, I know we have this special kind relationship that doesn't concern us with our personal issue… but, do you mind if I give you an advice?"
I was startled. I don't know what would be my response to her offer. I want to assent it but I am not comfortable.. I'm not ready to hear what she's going to say.
"No, I don't need your advice." I said it right away. I was avoiding eye contact with her. "I was just asking you to interpret and conclude something based on the situation that I presented to you. I greatly appreciate your concern but I guess we must try to focus on more important things in life" I tried my best to put on my koala face. I know she would see me through it but I don't care, I can't face her like this. She should not see Sheldon Lee Cooper acting strange because of this feeling.
"It's ok, I know I shouldn't say that," She smiled, got her coffee mug and drank from it. She turned her face on the screen again and opened a new topic for us to talk about.
"Sheldon, does it interest you if I am going to update you about my thriving social life?" She was beaming when she said that. I can clearly see it.
"Well, we've been friends for a year now, I'm used to this Bestie's chronicles that you usually tell me. All the things that you do with Penny and Bernadette, Those pillow fights and twisters games you enjoyed playing…" I was still talking about their crazy and weird activities when she cuts me off.
"No, no, no, no" She said it while laughing. Her hands were so busy twirling some strands of her tresses like what penny usually do when she did something bad to me. I just looked at her.
"It's not about Penny nor Bernadette" I swear, she was really beaming. I never see her like this before without Penny as our topic. I think Amy was drunk..
"Then what is it?" I asked.
She leaned closer to the computer screen, and whispered "It's about Stuart" then flashed a very wide smile.
There was a long pause. I don't know how to react about it. I am used to our usual chat wherein we talked about the progress of our research, our new discovery that we found on the internet. That was the kind of conversation I want myself to engage with, not like this. To make it worse, it's about Stuart. This kind of topic will never nurture our intellect.
"Sheldon, are you ill? I was talking to you but I think you cannot concentrate with our conversation." She seemed concerned about me.
I looked at her again, thinking of a way to evade this topic. I don't think I can continue talking to her. Then something popped in my head. I suddenly looked down, and press my fingers to my temple.
"I think I am having a migraine." I lied. I know I am not good in lying, but desperate time calls for desperate measure. I just confidently lied to make her stop to talk about Stuart. "I should adjust the contrast of my computer screen"
"Then I am afraid we should end our scheduled video chat in advance. Try to rest for a while, maybe your eyes were just strained"
"Yeah" I said sheepishly. "I just need to rest for a while because I have a schedule to go to the train store at 5 p.m."
"Ok. Goodbye Sheldon." The tone of her voice was different. Was it sad? Worried? I don't know, because I was much focused looking down avoiding her gaze, and it's also part of my lie.
"Goodbye Amy Farrah Fowler" then I logged out
So that was the second part of Sheldon's POV . Please review my work, I really need some great suggestions to...=)
