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Raven's eyes slowly move to her girlfriend.
Jinx stands in a crouch barely an inch away from her, her face flushed bright red.
A small, tentative smile curves her lips, and in her eyes lays a mixture of warmth and concern.
Raven feels a strange tickling on her back, and with a small amount of dread, reaches her hand back to find its source.
A groan leaves her as her fingers move through her hair, the previous pixie cut giving way to mid-back, thick waves.
A wince forms as something scratches her neck, and she brings her hand in front of her face to marvel at her nails.
They are each longer than their trimmed former selves, ending in sharp, hooked ends.
As Raven takes their appearance in, her gaze moves to look at her new skin.
She is noticeably redder, making her grey colorization almost Caucasian.
As soon as she notices the color, it leeches away, leaving her to her former color, which no longer causes her despair.
Her cloak, wrapped tightly around her body, is the same pure white as it had been in Nevermore.
She can tell from the reflection in Jinx's bright eyes that blood-red specks are now in her purple gaze, and she knows that it is a more permanent change than her hair or nails are.
Previously, these things would all have sent her into a tailspin into terror, her mind quickly working to fight against the change and repress her nature.
Now, though, the shift in her personality is firm, and she no longer sees it as a curse.
Slowly, she rises from her seated position, Jinx rising with her.
She gently grasps her hands, mindful of her temporary claws, and leads her over to the couch.
Jinx stares in silent awe at her the entire time, sitting down without looking anywhere else.
"You look amazing… It's different, from before," she finally says, breaking the silence.
"It is, and thank you, Jinx. How long was I predisposed?"
"About… five, six minutes, I'd guess. I'm gonna' guess that was like two hours in there, though."
"More or less… Tell me, what caused your various emotions permeating the air? A lot must have happened in five or six minutes for all that to show up. It's making me very curious," Raven states, her voice a lower and sultrier tone than she remembers having.
Raven hopes that the warmth radiating from the woman, the one still rising from Jinx's mind and growing stronger in her own, will remain the last to be discussed.
Jinx leans against her side, staring at her as if not entirely sure what's changed, but knowing that the change is for the better.
"Well, here's the quick recap. I don't know what was goin' on in your head, but it must've been really interesting. So, you go into your trance, and you're just sitting there for a minute or two. Nothing's happening. Then, all of a sudden, your cape turned bright, bubblegum pink," she says, raising the neon ends of her hair for comparison.
"So that happened out here as well?" Raven asks, a smile forming.
"Uh-huh. So, your cape changes, then the most adorable grin showed up. I didn't even know you could make an expression like that. But I definitely want to see more of it," she adds, laughing at Raven's blush.
"I don't do adorable," Raven mumbles, her face feeling like it's on fire.
"Gonna' have to disagree with you. Shame, too. Ya' only had it for, like, ten seconds. Then you turned bright purple, and that smile changed. You looked like you were going to eat me, and not in any way I would protest. Seriously, that look could make me melt. Gonna' have to try to bring that out again," the meta adds, her own blush taking hold.
"I didn't… do anything while not in control of myself, did I?" the psychic asks, slight worry mingling with her embarrassment and amusement.
"No. Damn shame, too," Jinx mutters. "You turned yellow and green, too, but mostly, you didn't seem to change too much. There was this huge grin when you went green, looked like you were ready to kick serious ass, but that was gone in a second."
"Grey next?" Raven guessed.
"Yeah," she responds, her expression saddening. "You were shiverin' and crying, and it was breakin' my heart to see. I tried to get to you, but those freaky nightmare hentai tentacles you sometimes use showed up and kept me away from you. I was a little freaked when they wrapped around me like they were huggin' me, though."
Raven remembers Timidity's fear, wondering if it had been for more than just their own benefits.
Jinx leans forward and kisses her, snapping her out of her contemplation as the warmth coats her mind entirely.
"Don't scare me like that again. I thought you were havin' a breakdown, or somethin'," she says as she breaks away.
Raven smiles, cupping her girlfriend's cheek and making sure not to scratch her.
"Priority one when this is over," Raven muses.
"I will try not to. Sorry I scared you. So what happened next? It's fascinating, to think that I did not just sit there frozen while I was getting the merge done."
"It was fascinating to watch," Jinx adds with a grin. "So, I thought the whole thing was over when you turned blue, like usual… Then you turned red. I mean really red. Your skin, your eyes, your cape, hell, even your hair was practically glowing from it. You were gasping and wheezing for air."
"I had a more difficult time taking my Rage in," Raven offers.
"Yeah, I could tell. I just sat down at your side in case you needed me, because I figured that if I risked interfering with the obvious worst part, I could seriously screw something up. Still, freaky. Then you changed, again."
Raven inquisitively gestures to herself, an eyebrow raised.
"Exactly. Your hair started to grow, like someone pressed fast forward a few dozen times."
Her Cheshire smile forms, and she runs her hand through Raven's long tresses.
"Silky. I can get used to that," she muses, laughing when Raven's blush darkens.
"Then I can't really complain about it, too much. Don't get too used to this, though, I like my hair short," the psychic adds with a smile of her own.
"Pity. It'd make for a great handhold while… er, anyway, you started bulking up. You weren't exactly scrawny before, but now, ya' look like you could probably hold your own with yer' bare hands against Cyborg."
Raven's eyes move down, widening in surprise as she realizes that she has, in fact, grown considerably in her arm's musculature.
The muscles are still toned and not enough to make her appear as a bodybuilder, but they are certainly significantly more powerful in appearance than earlier.
"We'll have to see if all your muscles got firmer later," Jinx laughs, brushing her hand down the woman's hip suggestively.
"So was your awe merely from me getting larger?" Raven prompts with a throatier voice.
"You had four eyes again, then you went back to two, like a wave ran through your head. It was kinda' weird. And there're the talons, too. The whole deal was kinda' amazing. So, if that's what I saw, I can't even guess what you went through."
Her body turns to fully face Raven, staring intently at her.
"How're you feeling?"
Raven takes mental stock of herself, fully analyzing her new self. A smile curls across her lips as she finds herself enjoying what she finds, and slowly a laugh bubbles up to the surface.
She quickly leans forward, gripping the meta's head on both sides and pulling her in for a searing kiss, both of them breathless when it eventually breaks apart.
"I feel more amazing than words can describe," she laughs. "Like you guessed, I went through a lot within my mind, but I've realized things. Jinx, I'm not afraid to feel anymore," she laughs again.
Grinning, Jinx pulls her into her arms, laying her lips along her face a large number of times before they kiss once more.
"I wanna' hear you laugh more," she finally gasps, pulling away with spots appearing in her sight.
"That may very well happen."
Raven's gaze softens, and one of her hands slides free from Jinx's neck to cup her cheek.
Her smile grows when Jinx closes her eyes and her head cradles into the touch, a small purr sounding in the back of her throat.
"One thing in particular sticks out in this new freedom, as well. It pertains to you."
Jinx tenses slightly, eyes locking with the psychic's while the warmth mixes with nervousness.
"There was surprising consensus in my mind. All of me is in favor of our relationship. Literally all of me," Raven soothes with a smile.
The meta relaxes somewhat, though the anxiousness doesn't leave her eyes, clearly knowing there's more.
"Two parts of me seemed to make a particularly strong case in our favor."
Jinx's hesitation is visible, her mind working fast.
"Which parts?" she finally asks.
Her nervousness vanishes as she seems to guess, her Cheshire's smile back in full force.
"So all of your selves likes me, huh? That's a lot of lovin'," she laughs.
Raven's own smile grows, her eyes showing humor that is lost on Jinx.
"In fact it is," she muses. "Quite literally. She and my sense of Happiness were what you saw when I was smiling in the beginning."
Jinx's mirth vanishes, a gasp sounding as she stares at her girlfriend.
The bluntness of her statement is shocking enough, but the statement she is bold about is enough to make the meta's mind not connect the dots for several seconds.
When she figures it out, she jumps atop Raven and plants a kiss that steals their breath on her lips.
She keeps going even as her vision begins to be dotted with black spots.
"I take it you approve?" Raven asks, pulling her into her arms.
"You have to ask?" Jinx asks. "I figured out a while ago that I want you in my life, in a way a lot more serious than just the good conversation and fantastic fucks. If you didn't say somethin' soon, I was going to."
She leans in to form another kiss, her emotions mixing heavily into it and sending Raven's newly empowered empathic abilities into overdrive.
"But c'mon, you're almost there. Say it," Jinx demands with a grin. "I wanna' hear you actually say it so I know we're on the same page."
Raven winds her hands around the meta's waist, sure her smile will be stuck on her face for a long time to come, if it goes away at all.
"I love you, Jinx. No more holding back anymore, you get all of me from hereon. And I'm not scared or worried to say it," she adds with another gleeful laugh.
"Then I'd say your whole merge thing is already an investment paying off," Jinx muses, still lightheaded as she brings more air into herself.
Raven uses her grip on Jinx's waist to turn her, leaning her head on her shoulder.
"I would say most definitely. I don't think I can go back to the Tower right now."
"I think I know of a place you could stay… Won't the asshole get suspicious?" Jinx asks, her good mood dampening as her anger from earlier returns.
"He will. I don't know what Zatanna told him when they left, but it won't be good. But I can't go back there until I'm ready. There are things I need to discuss with Gizmo, and safeguards to put in place so even if something goes horribly wrong, he won't put me in his cage. It is undoubtedly going to get ugly when I go back there."
"Then I'm staying with you until you go. And even then, if you want."
"I could certainly use the help, but I'll have to think on it. If I can, I'd like to deal with it peaceably… Well, as much as blackmail can be a peaceful resolution, anyways," Raven adds with a grimace.
"Ooh, you're totally joining the dark side," Jinx laughs.
"Dork."
"And ya' love it," the meta chimes with a laugh.
"Absolutely."
"There is something good to come from his stupidity, though, the way I'm lookin' at it now."
"Oh? Do share," Raven prompts with a raised eyebrow.
With an impressive display of athleticism, Jinx spins in her arms, her body pressing tightly against her as she comes to a stop facing her.
"Well, you can actually sleep until reasonable hours and won't need to go running in the morning, now."
"Point," Raven murmurs, a blush blossoming on her face as Jinx presses closer.
"And then there's the whole new you thing. I could get you to pant and moan before. I can't imagine what noises I can get from you now that you've got all your senses fully going," she adds with a grin.
Raven stares with her mouth open at her lover, the thoughts running through her head like a film quickly turning her entire face scarlet.
"Oh, thinking of something fun? Care to share?" Jinx asks, her voice lower and her breath puffing against the psychic's ear.
Raven shivers at the sensation, eyes glazing over in heat as Jinx, impossibly, presses even further into her embrace.
"Absolutely," she groans.
A portal opens up beneath their bodies, and Jinx squeals in surprise as they fall through the air and come bouncing down onto her bed.
"Let's see how good love confession sex is for getting our minds off serious stuff for a while, shall we?" Jinx gasps…
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Author's Notes:
I have to say that I'm really out of my element on this chapter. Romance is not my genre, at all. So I'd like very much for your thoughts, readers. What did I and didn't I do well here? Do you like how it's written, or not? Enjoying the story as a whole, or are there things you have issues with? Hold nothing back, folks, and I'll see you next time!