The Marriage of Haruhi Suzumiya

Disclaimer: I do not own the Haruhi Suzumiya series or any of it's elements.

Chapter 4: Baby Book

I don't know what to think or feel. Surprise washed over me leaving completely speechless. For a moment it felt like I was in another galaxy, what my life had become so foreign and so far away. But then I noticed something and it brought me right back.

Haruhi was scared, I had never seen her like that in the entire time I had known her, but she was scared. She just told me she was pregnant and she was scared. I was the first person she told beside the girls. I can only imagine Asahina blushing and shaking nervously hearing the news, Nagato never removing her usual poker face and I can't imagine how Tsuruya would react. Haruhi was looking for something and was hoping I could provide and so was I.

I wish I could come up with some sort of rational sort of response that I could go to but that's not the issue here.

I wrapped my arms around her and hug her. I can feel her body ease a little and I take that as a good sign. We don't talk I just hold her and eventually we just fall asleep on couch. I did have a dream, I'm not sure what it was about I just remember I was with Haruhi.

I don't know if it was a closed space just for us or something else, I know it meant something. I think in a way we just wanted to run away from everything, just the two of us but Haruhi and I both knew we couldn't. So in the morning the sun came up I woke up still holding Haruhi.

As she got up she rubbed her eyes tiredly. "Kyon..." Her voice was weak missing the usual vigor. "I think we need to really think about this."

"Yeah."

"I don't want to be pregnant." Haruhi whispered the fear creeping into her voice.

"How about me?"

"Huh?"

"What about what I want?" I tell her. "Isn't my opinion important?"

"What are you saying?"

"What if I want to have this baby?"

"What are you talking about you idiot?"

"How about we have this baby? I mean this baby is a little bit of you and a little bit of me. I don't think it will be easy but I think it would be worth it."

As if eased by my words Haruhi grabs me and smiled. "All right but you're going to have penalties for making me pregnant."

I gave her a reassuring kiss.

We spent the next few days telling people about the the pregnancy. Our parents were surprisingly supportive, I want to believe that's Haruhi's doing and my parents weren't so desperate for grandchildren.

Eventually I had no choice but to talk to Koizumi about it, something I wish I could avoid for the rest of my life. We found time outside of class to talk.

"She's pregnant." Koizumi repeated after I told him. "I should have expected this. She wants the complete fantasy marriage life and of course that would include children."

"Of course." I do not tell him that on a couple of occasions me and Haruhi might have neglected to use protection. I'm certainly not telling him that one of those time was on our camping trip. I'm not even going to tell him me and Haruhi had sex. I prefer to think he doesn't know anything about that.

"It does bring up another issue." Koizumi says ever so smug. "Parents have a strong bond with their children."

"Your point is?"

"If this baby is born the inherent connection would be so real for Haruhi that it might make the fantasy seem too real for her. Her mind might not let her revert the world back to normal." He looks at me. "But perhaps that isn't an issue for you anymore."

I don't bother looking at him, "Nagato said she'd find a way out of this. She asked me for every detail of every time I talked to Haruhi during the summer."

"Well, I'm certain Miss Nagato will find a solution then. Just know that the Agency is more than happy to help if you need anything."

I honestly sometimes think I rely too much on Nagato as she is helping me with another problem.

Even though our parents are willing to help us with money with and Haruhi is more than happy to take care of the baby while were at school I'm not happy just taking the money. So I ended up looking for a job and Nagato is the one to be the most help in finding one. A book store near Nagato's apartment happened to be looking for some to stock shelfs and such and she put a good word for me. According to the book stores owner Nagato spend more on books than all his other customer put together so her reference carried a lot of weight. The job was easy enough and the time was flexible. Haruhi didn't even mind me skipping out on a few of the Brigade meeting for work.

Anyway Haruhi figured that she'd give birth during our vacation so there is very little to worry on that end. The teachers and staff seem willing to give Haruhi some slack since they didn't want to stress her out.

But I felt that something was still off.

"Haruhi is everything all right?" I asked Haruhi while watch some tv together at home.

Haruhi turned to me said, "There is something I haven't told you."

"What?"

She was nervous. "It's nothing serious it's just something I've been keeping a secret for a long time. It's not that I don't want to tell you it's just been my secret for such a long time. It's about a guy that you sort of remind me of."

She was talking about John Smith and it's not that she didn't trust me she just didn't want to talk about it. I think that moment of talking with John Smith meant a lot to her, it represented all her dreams and that someone believed in her. Telling anyone about it would be like her giving up something precious.

"Haruhi, you don't have to tell me if you don't want to. If you need to keep a secret it's fine. I trust that you have your reasons."

She became less nervous, "Thank you. It's not that I don't want to tell it's just something I feel I need to keep to myself."

"I understand."

"That's what I love about you it's like you understand me. It's like you in my head and know how I think." After a while I have figured how she thinks. "It's special. It's almost like like we're espers. I like it. If there is one person I want in my head it's you, you and only you."

In Haruhi's own crazy way she told me something important.

Then Haruhi yawned, "I'm tired. Kyon, carry me to bed."

I rolled my eyes as I thought about arguing but I relented. Haruhi would just tell me I had to because the baby was making her tired so it's not like I could win. I took her to bed and I decided to sleep too.

The next day was usually when the Brigade went out for it's search but Haruhi had to go with her mom to the doctor. I had to work at the book store so the meeting was cancelled. I was stocking the shelves with more books, there weren't a lot of people so it was pretty easy day.

My boss came over and said, "You can take your lunch break now."

I nodded. "All right."

I went past a shelf of books when I was met by a smiling face, "Oh are you on your break? Then you have time to talk with me." Koizumi says like he wasn't waiting for me.

I'm not stupid, there were five people in the entire place and I did notice him hiding his face with a random book. I only agreed on the condition that he pay for lunch. I already have some idea of what he wants to talk about.

"My Organization has lost it's abilities." Koizumi tells me. "Everyone including myself has lost their abilities." All right I wasn't expecting that. "As of last night all of the sudden every esper lost their abilities. We've always been connected to her, we've always had some idea of what she was feeling but then that all vanished."

Thinking back to the previous night about Haruhi saying that she wanted me to be the only person in her mind might be why they lost their powers.

"So what do you think caused?" I try not to let anything on.

"It is obvious that she is starting to wish for a world that is normal, one without espers, a world that has you as her husband."

"I suppose."

"That's what brings me here. My organization is worried, I must remind you that if you need anything we are more than willing to help."

"I'll keep it in mind." I tell him. Then I notice something about face, his trade mark smile fading just a little. The smile must have been dimming a little by little through this whole thing. Then something that that other him from that December told me comes to mind. "You told me what your Organization wants but what do you want?"

His smile fades, the question catching him by surprise. He gives a sigh, "I want you and Ms. Suzumiya to be happy."

That was the first time since this started that he's called her that. That's what he always called her and I have a feeling that to him that's whose she will always be.

"What do you two doing?" A familiar voice shouts. We turn to see Haruhi standing there glaring at us. "I came over to see if you wanted to get lunch with me but your boss told me you already left."

"I apologize." Koizumi gets up to leave. "I just wanted to give Kyon something." Koizumi takes out a small plastic bag that I recognize from the store. "I'll leave you two to your lunch."

With that the former esper leaves.

Haruhi pulls out a small book out of the bag, "A 1001 Baby Names." Haruhi reads of the title out loud. We spend my lunch break together. Haruhi tears through the book looking for the right name.

As strange at it is for me to even think it seems like I'm going to be a father. I can't say I'm not scared but I'm not hating it. Maybe it's ho excited Haruhi is getting but I think I might actually like it even.

As we relax at home later I notice something about the apartment: there are no pictures of the wedding. There are all sorts of pictures of us but none from the wedding. I would think Haruhi would make some when she remade the world but no. I would ask Koizumi but he would probably say something about Haruhi being unable to properly imagine the wedding.

I just ask Haruhi, "Why don't we have any pictures of our wedding?"

"Don't you remember?" Haruhi shots at me. "The photographer lost the pictures. It's sad really I remember the wedding but it would have been nice to have the pictures."

I think about for a while and an idea comes to me.

Authors Notes: Sorry I've been gone for so long I graduated from college yesterday so that ate up so much time. Plus I might not have passed all my classes we have to see how that goes. Anyway good to be back hope you lead me some reviews. I'm getting back in the swing of things so I'll be back when I can