It was Christmas Eve, the evening was cold but everyone was in a warm mood with the festivities going on. Molly and Peter were decorating the house with lights and tinsel. Adele was enjoying the jovial day, especially after seeing all of the presents that were wrapped and placed under the large tree. I was laying upstairs in bed, not wanting to spend any time with anyone.

Wade had come home from work. He pulled up in to the driveway, and walked through the door, Adele came running toward him happily. "Hi Daddy."

"Hello darling" he said picking her up and cuddling her in his large arms, "The house looks great." He gazed up at the vast decorations that lit up his house.

"Santa is going to love it here" she said innocently

Wade grinned, "He will... where's your Mother?"

She glanced down at the ground sadly, "She's still upstairs, she didn't come see the tree at all" she moaned.

He smiled hoping to not let his little girl feel any distress on Christmas, after all this was going to be the first Christmas that he was going to spend with her. "She'll be okay; I'll go up and see her." He placed her down carefully and she went off to play with her toys.

Wade moved toward Molly and Peter, "So she hasn't come down at all?"

Molly frowned, "Unfortunately no dear, I sent her some food but she hasn't eaten at all. She's just been so sad about losing the baby, she just sleeps all day."

"She hasn't spoken much to any of us" said Peter, "We're worried about her."

Wade placed his hand on Peter's shoulder, "I'll go check on her, maybe Christmas might bring her down."

"It would be a Christmas miracle" said Molly.

He nodded before going up the stairs. He walked along the hallway toward the bedroom and found me lying in bed; the bedroom was dark from the shutters being closed. Wade sighed before sitting on the bed next to me, "Lea... Lea..."

I opened my eyes but still had my back to him.

"Lea... don't you want to get out of bed?" he asked sweetly, "Maybe come and see the Christmas decorations, that Molly and Peter put up."

I didn't answer him. Wade pressed his hand on my side and then kissed my cheek. I flinched at his touch. He grew furious at the rejection. He dashed over to the light switch and flicked it on. He then ran over to my side, this incensed glare was etched on his face.

"So you're just going to stay up here being all sad are you!" he yelled, "You know Lea, I understand that you're upset about losing the baby but you need to at least not punish everyone else who lives and loves you."

I pulled the sheet over and sat up, I scowled at him angrily. "You don't understand at all!"

He was frustrated, "Of course I understand... that was my son too. But you've just closed everyone out! You don't talk to anyone... you don't eat... you just stay here in bed all day. You have to start to move on Lea."

"How can I move on?" I said staring up at him, "I lost my baby, the thing that I wanted most in this life."

"So what... I mean nothing to you! You still have a daughter who's downstairs wondering when her mother, whom she loves so much will come downstairs to spend her first Christmas with her real family not with her other mother who wouldn't give her any love at all!" he cried, "Please just come downstairs."

"She's not even my daughter, she's yours!" I yelled, "My baby is dead okay!" I shook my head and sat back in bed, pulling the sheet over my body.

Wade stared at me in disbelief; he was in complete shock at what I was saying. "What happened to you Lea? You've become this completely different person; I don't know you at all. I mean, you don't even like me being near you, I see how you feel disgusted."

I closed my eyes and ignored him.

He rolled his eyes frustrated, "Just know that if you have such a hard time being here, you don't have to stay!" he roared before leaving the room. He slammed the door behind him.

I pulled the sheet back over and sat up against the head board, Wade had never yelled at me like that. I felt so angry at him.

...

Hours had passed and Wade had finally calmed down. He was sitting on the couch watching television while he read the newspaper. Adele tugged at his finger, "Daddy?"

"Yes dear" he said placing the paper on his lap.

"Molly gave me some carrots and cookies to leave out for Santa and the reindeer" she said, "I also have some milk."

He smiled at her, "That's very nice of you; maybe place it near the tree."

She did as he said and then walked back to him, "Daddy can I talk to you?"

He moved the newspaper to the side and placed the little girl on his lap, "What is it?"

"Is Mummy upset about the baby?" she asked, "Because I can give it to her." This smile grew on her face.

He was confused, "You can?"

"Molly took me to the shopping centre today and I saw Santa there!" she said her face glowing as she spoke, "And then he asked me what I wanted for Christmas and I told him that my Mum wants a baby and he said that he might do it, if I be good tonight."

Wade found her adorable wish to be very compassionate but he knew that Santa was not going to make that happen. He felt so proud of her. "You are a very sweet girl, but why didn't you wish for something for yourself?"

"Because I wanted to see Mum be happy" she said, "I feel like nobody is happy, especially you, Daddy." She cuddled him tightly after kissing his cheek.

Wade held on to her tightly, "Trust me as long as I have you, I will always be happy my little angel."

I stared down at the two of them sitting on the couch from upstairs, listening in on their conversation. I then moved back toward the bedroom and closed the door quietly.

"Think I should tuck you in to bed, aye" he said picking her up and tossing her over his broad shoulder.

"But Daddy, I'm too excited" she whinged as he carried her up the stairs.

He switched on her bedroom light and placed her in bed, lovingly tucking her in. "Now go to sleep Adele, so when you wake up you'll have lots of Christmas surprises."

"I just hope that Santa grants me that wish that I asked him, he said he would try" she said happily.

Wade gave a reassuring smile and then kissed her cheek, "Goodnight Adele."

"Goodnight Daddy" she said as she closed her eyes.

...

After putting Adele to bed, he slumped his shoulders sighing as he looked down to his own bedroom door. He then trudged down the stairs and sat at the dining table. He lowered his head to the table, when the tip of his nose was pressed against the wood. He felt worn out and shattered. He didn't know what to do with me, he had been so patient yet there seemed to be no progress with how I was feeling. He felt scared for me; I had turned into this dark person that he didn't like at all. He felt a hand pressed against his back, he looked up and saw Molly smiling down at him. "How you doing, dear?"

He shrugged his shoulders, "Not well... I feel like I'm losing her to this sadness. She just won't move on and get out of it. I don't know what to do. A couple of weeks ago we had talked of getting married soon but that had to be postponed and now I don't know if we'd ever get married."

"You're doing fine... There's only so much you can do. You just have to understand how rejected and wronged she feels. Especially since this baby was yours, she feels like she let you down" said Molly sitting next to him, "But I can see that there seems to be some friction between you two."

"We hardly talk anymore, she hates when I'm around... she's so distant" he said sighing, "I feel like I disgust her."

"Oh dear, she loves you so much you couldn't disgust her. You mean everything to her; she just wants to be alone. Something as tragic as losing a baby that she wanted so badly, can be very hard" she said.

"I yelled at her today... I screamed and roared at her. I shouldn't have done that but I just couldn't reason with her" he said, "I should apologize." He stood up promptly and pushed his chair under the table.

"Goodnight Wade and Merry Christmas" said Molly.

Wade looked at the clock that hung from the wall and noticed that it was midnight, "Merry Christmas."

He made his way back up to his bedroom and knocked on the door before entering and saw that I was covered in my bed sheet. "Lea... I... I just want to apologize for raising my voice at you earlier. I am really sorry. I hope you didn't take what I said inconsideration, of course I want you to stay here. I want you to stay here forever. Anyway...I'm sorry."

I could hear the door close and he was gone. He had taken his favourite pillow with him. I guessed that he was not going to sleep next to me tonight.

...

Christmas Day had arrived and the snow was falling beautifully. Adele darted down the stairs quickly to the Christmas tree which was overloaded with presents. She grinned at them happily. She looked at the plate in which she left the carrots and cookies in and there was nothing but crumbs. The milk looked to have been drunk as well. Adele looked through the mass of presents at all the names trying to find her own. Wade came downstairs and saw his daughter at awe of the presents. "Take it easy Adele" he said sitting next to her.

Molly tried to rush Peter in eating the rest of the cookies before sitting around the Christmas tree.

"Maybe you should pass out everyone's Christmas present, sweetheart" suggested Wade.

"Okay" she said as she read each label and passed them to Molly and Peter who took them gladly. She placed the ones that were for her toward her and then noticed that there was something odd. "Daddy, there's nothing for you. How could Santa forget you?"

Wade chuckled, "That's alright. Maybe I was a little naughty this year."

"You can have one of mine?" Adele offered.

"It's alright, I got everything I want here" he said smiling at her.

She watched as Molly and Peter opened their presents. Molly got a new set of non-stick pans and Peter got some new sunglasses. Adele looked at her present, "Can I open mine now?"

"Of course you can" said Wade.

She stared at the large parcel and ripped through it. Underneath the wrapping paper was a brand new Disney Princess bike, with training wheels of course and matching helmet. Wade grinned seeing the present unwrapped but noticed his daughter's grim look, "What's wrong? You don't like it?"

"It's not what I asked from Santa" she said sighing.

Wade smiled at her, "It's not... but I know this was something that you wanted. Santa can't give you everything."

"But I really wanted that" she said pushing the bike aside. She crossed her arms and sat on the couch sadly.

"Adele..." I said sitting next to her, "There's another present for you."

She looked at me in surprise as did the others. I gave her the wrapped present and watched her rip through it. As she uncovered she noticed that it was a brand new Cabbage Patch newborn toy. It had a cute diaper, bottle and bib. "Santa brought you a baby" I said smiling at her.

Wade felt his heart being pulled as he watched us; his eyes growing moist.

"Christmas miracle" worded Molly to him.

"He did" she said happily as she pulled the doll out of the box and hugged it adoringly.

"I'm glad you like it" I said, "Merry Christmas."

"Merry Christmas Mummy" she said as she reached her arms around my stomach.

I hugged her back tightly and kissed her forehead, "Mummy loves you, I always will. You're my little girl."

She nodded. "I love you too... there's some presents for you too."

"There is?"

Adele walked over to the tree and pulled a parcel and handed it to me, I unwrapped it slowly knowing that everyone was watching me. It looked to be a small, rectangular box as I opened it, it was revealed to be a diamond bracelet. I knew immediately that Wade had bought this for me.

Adele lingered over me as she gazed at the shiny diamonds, entranced by them. "Whoa, Santa got you a nice bracelet Mum!"

"It's beautiful" I said staring at it. I couldn't even look at Wade in the eye and neither could he as he stared at the ground, scratching the back of his head. "Looks like everyone got some nice presents" I said.

"Daddy didn't get anything" said Adele sadly as she left the couch to go sit next to him.

I held a box in my hand, "I found this for him."

Wade looked up at me, slightly pleased but I wasn't sure if that was just him being appreciative. Molly and Peter exchanged joyful looks.

"Maybe you should give it to him, Lea" suggested Peter. Wade blushed as his eyes flickered at him.

I stood up and walked toward the tree where Wade sat and I kneeled next to him. I handed him the gift and he took it from me graciously. He unwrapped it slowly to discover that it was a Rolex watch. "It's perfect" he spoke.

"That's really nice, Daddy" said Adele as she stared at it.

He nodded, "It'll go nicely with everything I wear, thanks Santa." Wade then sat up on the couch away from me.

I felt pushed away as I watched him move away. I hesitantly called out to him, "Wade?"

Molly knew this was time for the rest of them to leave, "Come along Adele, how about we start cooking some yummy breakfast." She grabbed onto her small hand and the others left for the kitchen.

I stood up and sat next to Wade on the couch, he stared straight ahead. "Wade... thank you for the bracelet... it's beautiful."

"Like the owner" he said bluntly.

I looked down at it and blushed. But I felt unworthy of any kind comment and I couldn't help but begin to weep. I covered my face with my hands. Wade sighed sadly and wrapped his arms around my body. I moved my hands from my face and flung my arms around his neck, "I'm really sorry that I was so distant. I became this dark and cold person and I don't want to be like that again."

Wade patted my hair as he embraced me; it felt nice to him to be wanted again. He pulled away and placed his hand underneath my chin, "I love you too much to let you go."

I smiled and wiped the tears from underneath my eyes. I took his hand into mine tightly, keeping it close to my chest as I leaned against him.

"Thank you for the watch... It's perfect" he said.

"Like the owner" I said.

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There you go guys, the earlier chapter was a little dark and I think some people felt confused but I hope this chapter can kind of clear things up. Thanks everyone for the reviews and please keep them coming.