AN: Everything recognizable belongs to JK Rowling. Please R/R! I need to know what people think of this. Is it any good? :S
Chapter 2
Hermione stepped out of the fireplace into the Zabini's living room. She had her journal with her. She still wasn't sure she really wanted to bring it to continue reading but after the owls from the rest of the ladies and even a Howler from Ginny telling her that she better bring it because Ginny was still the best at Bat Bogey Hexes, Hermione felt that she had little choice.
"Hey Mione, you are the last here, let me get rid of Blasie and we can start." Ginny left the room and it surprised Hermione how well her best friend could still move. She knew that Ginny still would fly a broom with her great-grandchildren when Blasie wasn't around to scold her too.
Pansy was sitting in one of the two armchairs near the fireplace. She looked at Hermione and smirked. "Mione, I hope to Merlin you actually will read something interesting this week. I forgot how boring you were as a kid. No wonder we were not friends at school. Least you are more interesting now!"
Luna looked up from the Quibbler which was still going strong thanks to her grandson. "Pansy you didn't like us because you were infested with Nargles. They prevented you from fully seeing how cool the rest of us were then. Thank goodness you married Harry! Nargles are allergic to Harry Potter. There will be an article about it next week!"
Hermione grabbed her Journal out of her bag to prevent herself from laughing. Before she could open the book however Pansy grabbed it. "I will do the honors this week!" Ginny came back into the room just as Pansy gave a smirk that while looking intimidating when the girl was 16 was downright terrifying on the face 70 years later.
July 31st 1998
It has been almost 2 months since I have last written. A lot has been happening, not just in the wizarding world but with me personally. Kingsly keeps owling me to work with him at the Ministry. Honestly that is not something that appeals to me but had I not received an Owl from Professor Mcgonagall offering me an internship for professor of transfiguration I would have taken him up on that. I have to say that I was really excited to be offered the post even though I did not complete my last year of Hogwarts. The letter states that I will have to take my NEWTs to actually become teacher, but based off my OWLs I could help her instruct first and second years and she would work with me on what I need to know to teach all seven years. Its funny, after seeing the Professor transfigure in our first year, I really wanted to be a teacher, yet after second year when I had been petrified, I briefly considered being a healer. In all honestly though, it was Draco in the third year who turned me off of the idea of being a healer. So at least my future is settled, that is one less thing to worry about, although I really need to get to Flourish and Blotts to get as many books on transfiguration as I can find.
While my career has been decided, my love life is far from settled. I have come to the realization that Ron and I just are not going to work as a couple. When we are together I feel like I am hanging out with my brother. Snogging ones brother is not appealing, I don't care who you are, its just NO! Also I think I am way too mature for him. What man talks with his mouth full of food. And how he is just a downright prat to all those who have ever wronged him, despite the fact that the person may have changed? I love Ron, but much like I love Harry. And the thought of snogging Harry makes me sick.
This may seem sudden but I said before a lot has happened since I have last written. Draco as a part of his sentence is living with the Weasleys. At first, this was an utter disaster. The boy was his old self mocking all of the Weasleys and just making everyone's life a living hell. I was tempted to hex him on multiple occasions. However, I really started to him in a different light.
"Ooooooh Hermione, are we finally going to hear about how you forgave Draco for all the crap he pulled in school?"
"Ginny, you know I started to forgive him long before this entry, but you will see."
Draco was sneaking out of the house one night when the rest of us were all asleep. I had gotten up to use the loo and so I followed him. His sentence was that he was not to leave the house unaccompanied, and was to stay with the Weasleys for a year. I honestly cannot say if I followed him to catch him breaking his parole or if I followed to "accompany" him. But he went out to the shed and inside, and when I got to the shed I heard crying.
The sound of Draco's tears shot straight to my heart. It sounded as if he was weeping from his soul, and I was not the type of person who could honestly turn my back on someone in so much pain. I knocked on the door and, as expected, found him with a huge sneer on his face. "Going to tattle on me to Pothead and the Weasel for breaking the rules Granger?"
Instead of responding like I think he expected me to, I surprised the both of us by walking up to him and wrapping my arms around him. I told him it was okay and he was not alone. He looked at me like I had grown three heads and the expression on his face was almost comical. I told him I heard his tears and he didnt need to stop on my account, I would forget what happened after we left the shed. He broke then, and my heart broke for him.
We stayed in the shed for 20 minutes or so and I just let him cry. I said nothing, I was just there. When he was done it was his turn to surprise me..."Grang...er...Hermione, thank you." As he got up and left the shed back to the house. I couldnt let him get the last word in so I called after him "For what Malf...er...Draco?" And then I winked. He smiled at me and went back into the house. I did not immediately follow him, instead I sat in the shed and wondered why it took me so long to realize that Draco Malfoy was sexy as hell and smelled good enough to eat.
"...smelled good enough to eat...? Wow Hermione, the prude is starting to write about interesting things..."
"Thanks Pans, love you too, and it will get better if I remember right, we havent even kissed yet."
"Can I read next?"
"Sure Luna!" Pansy passed the journal to Luna and sat back in her chair.
August 3rd 1998
Because of the final battle taking place at Hogwarts and the extensive amounts of clean-up that has been required school will not be starting until the middle of September. I have been spending half of my time at the Burrow (and yes, around Draco, for some reason I really do like him now.) and the other half of my time is spent at Hogwarts. Harry and Ron are also putting time in at Hogwarts to help with getting the school back to what it was. They both want to be Aurors and have also put in a lot of time training for that.
I have yet to tell Ron that I think of him as only a brother. I can't stand to see the hurt on his face when I tell him that kissing him is weird and I only want to be his friend. I know he feels very strongly for me, but I dont know if he is just with me because I am comfortable to him. (I would use this time to complain about Lavender but I really don't want to speak ill of the dead.)
I am back at the Burrow today. Draco has been teasing me, not like he used to but like a friend would. I like it. Hell, I may as well be perfectly honest, I have had a crush on him since third year, even if he was suck a prat to me. No, I guess that isnt quite as honest as I should be, I have lusted after Draco Malfoy for quite some time. Did I like him during school? No. Did I want to snog him til both of us were seeing double? Yes, what girl didn't.
But now, my lust has turned into more than that. Do I still want to snog Draco? Yes. But I want to be his friend, I want a chance to see if something between us can really develop. The terrifying, and I mean more terrifying than fighting Voldemort and being tortured at the hands of Bellatrix Lestrange terrifying, is the fact that I can't be sure what Draco thinks of me. I am just a lowly muggleborn. I doubt he thinks of me as anything more than an acquaintance, and quite possibly an irritating one as well.
But that is enough of acting like a whiny girl. I think I am going to see if I can get Draco to help at Hogwarts. If he is willing, I will have to talk to the Ministry and Mrs. Weasly. (I am giggling right now, Draco keeps calling her The Warden behind her back.) I hope he agrees to help there. It will be good for him to get away from the Burrow a bit and also to start showing the rest of the world that he is a changed man. I will ask him tonight.