I know I have four other stories on the go at the moment but I'm finding them hard to write and this just popped into my head.

Jenny never left Gibbs in Paris, you'll find out more when you read it. Set about season 5 of NCIS. It might be a tad AU sorry. Hope you enjoy. Please review.

The title is from one of my favourite songs by my favourite singer Emeli Sande, it's called 'Lifetime'. Her music is so good you should check it out.

Disclaimer: I own nothing but the kids.

You'll have it all until it's gone

Leroy Jethro Gibbs ran a hand down his face, he was tired, well no wonder the sun had long gone down and his team had gone home hours ago along with the other people at NCIS.

As he glanced at the clock he knew it was about time he got home.

Half an hour later he pulled up outside his house, he looked up at the windows and let out a sigh of relief when he saw there were no lights on.

So Gibbs got out of his car and made his way up the garden path to the front door before slowly unlocking it so he wold wake anyone up. He then slipped off his jacket and hung it up before making his way to the basement; he seemed to be spending a lot more time in his basement at the moment.

He picked up the sanding block and began to sand with the grain with the wood of the half-finished boat, Gibbs began to let his mind wander.

Things between him and Jenny had recently become rocky, he wasn't even sure why, when they were in Paris they had been so carefree, so in love. But now he had his job keeping him busy and Jenny had the kids. As much as he loved her and their children he couldn't help thinking that maybe they would be better off without him. All he seemed to do was say and do the wrong thing and it kept pushing Jenny further and further away.

"What a surprise, you're in here again" the sweet familiar voice sounded angry from the stairs, Gibbs turned to face his wife as he stopped his motion on the boat. Jenny stood at the top of stairs, her hair tied in a tight ponytail, she was wearing one of his old NCIS t-shirts and a pair of sleeping trousers, her hands where on her hips and there was anger flaring in her eyes.

"Jen…" he began "It's late can we not fight now?"

Jenny pursed her lips "Your right it's late, so why don't you come to bed instead of falling asleep down here?" she asked a hint of sarcasm in her voice "You could check on your children, actually see them for once" she added.

"I see em plenty" Gibbs retorted, a little angry that his wife was suggesting that he was neglecting his kids.

"Really" Jenny said nodding "Did you know that Lanie's started to walk?" she asked, smiling as she thought of their eighteen month old daughter "or that Josh came top of his class in his Maths test?" she asked talking about their ten year old.

"No I didn't" Gibbs said shaking his head.

"Your never around, you need to be here for your kids, you're missing important parts of their lives, missing them grow up and I would like to see my husband every once in a while" Jenny stated.

"Jen you know what it's like, NCIS…" Gibbs began but Jenny cut him off.

The redhead temper got the better of her "should come before your family, I loved NCIS but I gave that up for our family, you didn't want me working in a job where I could get hurt so I quite, I stay at home and look after the kids while you risk peoples live, do you have any idea how that makes me feel?" she asked her hand going to her chest.

"Do you have any idea what it feels like to have you tell me how I don't spend enough time with my kids, how I'm a bad father" Gibbs said moving past Jenny on the stairs and heading to the front door. "if I'm such a bad father, a bad husband maybe I shouldn't be anymore"

"What" Jenny said confused "Where are you going?" she asked her hand once again going to her hip.

"I need to clear my head" He mumbled before walking out of the house.

"Jethro" Jenny called out to him as she watched him get in his car and drive away. Once the headlights had disappeared Jenny closed the door and slid down it before cradling her head in her hands and silently sobbing.

As Gibbs drove away from his family home, rain began to patter on the window, he knew running away from the problems they had wasn't going to help the situation but he'd truly meant what he'd said earlier maybe Jenny, Josh and Lanie would be better off without him, no matter how much he loved them.

All of a sudden Gibbs saw something in the middle of the road and swerved, he tried to press the breaks but the roads were slippery and he went skidding off the road and his car began to flip and all he felt was pain, a hell load of pain.

Gibbs groaned as his senses came back to him, he could hear a phone ringing loudly and footsteps and people typing on keyboards. Slowly he opened his eyes, he couldn't believe he was sitting at his desk at the NCIS headquarters "What the…"Gibbs said running a hand through his hair. Gibbs felt a pain shoot through his back like as if he'd been sleeping in an awkward position. It must have all been a dream he thought.

The sound of the phone ringing was still going on and only when he looked at his desk did he realise it was his own phone "Gibbs" he answered in his usual manner.

"The director wants to see you now" a woman's voice told him.

He put his phone down before getting up and walking up to the director's office. Once he got there he barged in as usual.

Gibbs stopped abruptly when he came face to face with his wife sitting in the director's chair "Jen?" he questioned.

"what time is it special agent Gibbs?" she asked her arm crossed over her chest.

He couldn't help the smirk; Jenny hadn't used that business like tone with him for years. "0900" he said noting the clock on her desk.

Jenny nodded "So we're on the job, its Director Shepard or Ma'me" she instructed.

"What about off the job?" he asked cheekily.

"There is no off the job, don't make this difficult, its not Paris anymore, now down to business" she said taking a deep breath.

Gibbs looked around, there were no pictures of them in Paris or of their married life together let alone Lanie and Josh, he then felt his hand no ring and when he looked at hers she wasn't wearing a ring either, in fact she was being very hostile to him.

Were they not married anymore? What about Lanie and Josh? What the hell was going on?

TBC…

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