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"Huh? What's happening?" I ask as my face turns a nice bright red.

"Discontinuing the brotherly love act" Hikaru said staring me down.

"Well, if Hikaru wants it, then so be it" I reply calmly while I lye back down.

Kyoya then looked my way with an expression that I couldn't describe all that well. It was sort of a mix between admiration and worry. I then turned my head to look at my brother, Big Mistake! Him and his new girlfriend were lip-locking. I quickly turned away so no one would see the tears forming in my eyes. Honey noticed me turn away, so he came up and hugged me.

"Mister Kaoru Hitachiin, you may go home now" A blonde nurse said upon entering the room.

"Thanks Akoro" Kyoya said looking over towards her.

They tried to help me up, but I only accepted two people's offers. Honey and Kyoya both grabbed one of my hands and helped me up. I then, with their help,hobbled out of the room. Tamaki was already spewing some crap about me and how losing me would affect him.

"Tono, I'm tired. Please be quiet" I say almost pleading.

"Kao, you're coming home so we can talk about this" Hikaru all but shouted when we exited the building.

"I don't really see the need to talk about it" I say climbing into out limo.

"Kao, I almost lost you. I need to know why you almost left me" he said looking into my eyes.

It was a silent drive on the way home. Hikaru just stared into my eyes looking fir something. Anything to tell him why I had cut myself. Little dd he know, all he had to do was look in a mirror.

"Kaoru, I want to help you" he said with a glossy look in his eyes.

"You can't Hika" I say trying not to look into his irresistible eyes.

"Kao, I can try, just let me try" he said placing a hand on my shoulder.

"Hika, you can't help me. No one can, just date Haruhi and be happy. Forget about me and go be happy" I say whispering the last part.

"Kaoru, is that what this is about?" he asks lifting my head so our eyes meet.

"Yes, you've been around her so much recently that you've forgotten about be happy Hikaru, date Haruhi, forget about me, and be happy" I say right to his face.

"Kao...I...I didn't mean to" he never finished.

We pulled into our driveway at that point and I bolted out of the limo. I ran though the front door, past the maids, and into our room. Yes OURS! I wanted his help, but he couldn't give it to me in the way I desired. I wanted his love, I wanted it all to myself. But I couldn't have it because he loves Haruhi. Ihear him enter the room, but I don't look up. I'm too busy sobbing into my open palms.

"Kaoru?" he asks walking closer to me.

"Kaoru, if you want, I'll spend the whole day with you tomorrow" he said gently sitting down next to me.

I scoot away a little. I will do anything to keep me from doing something irreversible. I don't want to do anything to make him hate me. I couldn't live another second if I found out he hated me. He noticed I scooted away so he scooted closer and wrapped his arms around me in a tight hug.

My face turned bright red and I tried to hide my flushed face. I didn't want him to see me like this. I'm so weak. I couldn't even be hugged by him without blushing.

"Kaoru, I love you" he whispered into my ear.

I knew he didn't mean it in the way I wanted him to. He meant it as a brother. It drove me insane to see how close we were, yet we couldn't do anything further than hug each other. How I deeply wanted to caress and roam his body, but I simply couldn't. He would hate me and push me away.

"I love you too" I reply.

Little did he know, I meant it in the most intimate way. I yawned and Hikaru noticed and smiled. He then broke the hug and looked into my eyes.

"Kaoru, you need sleep" he said laying me on the bed.

I tuck my knees up and form a little ball. Hikaru turns the lights off and hops into bed next to me. He slings his arm around my waist and pulls me close to him.

He notices I'm not sleeping and is concerned. He always worried about me, when he didn't know what was wrong.

"Kao, what's bothering you?" he asked in a sort of drowsy voice.

"Nothing Hika, just go back to sleep" I reply.

"Not until you do" he said stubbornly.

I hate it when he does this. He makes it so I can't win. So I'm forced to do something I don't want to do.

"Kaoru, tell me what's wrong" he prodded.

"Hikaru, even if I did, you wouldn't be able to help" I respond.

"We never know unless you tell me" he followed.

"Hika, I know you care, but I just can't tell you" I say as tears welled in my eyes.

He gave up and pulled even closer to him. I was starting to react in ways I shouldn't. Even disgusting and dirty thoughts entered my mind every now and again.

I close my eyes and maybe after about 20 minutes, I fell asleep. But that damned reoccurring nightmare happened again. Hikaru shook me awake in a state of worry.

"Kaoru, you were saying my name" he says calmly.

"I was?" I asked. I felt a bit guilty for waking him.

"Why were you? What was your nightmare about?" he asks more concerned this time.

"I...I don't remember" I lie.

"Bull crap, Tell me!" he persisted as he pinned me to the bed.

"Fine. you left me behind, and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't catch up. I called your name, hoping you would come back. But you didn't." I say almost in tears.

"Kao, I'll never leave you behind. You should know this, I will always be there" he cooed as he ran his fingers through my hair.

I hugged him tight with every ounce of strength I had. Not wanting to loosen my hold in fear I would lose it forever.

"Promise me you'll never leave me" I plead.

"I promise with all my heart" he replied.

My eyelids started to become heavy and I fell asleep in his arms. With his strong hold around me, I felt so safe. I didn't have a nightmare, but instead, I had a dream. In it me and MY Hika lived happily ever after. Even though I knew it wouldn't happen, I enjoyed the dream to it's fullest extent. Because I knew it wouldn't last forever.

Author's Note: I have up to chapter 5 on paper and since Track is now over, I can post again. Make sure to review and I'll put you on the top of the next chapter. Until next time, Bye! :)