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Chapter 4

As soon as Jenny walked into her house she shut the door behind her and leaned against it and sighed. It had been a long and emotional day. One that she hadn't been expecting when she had gotten to work almost twelve hours ago.

Jenny slipped of her heels letting out a moan as her feet were finally free. She often wondered why she wore high heels in the first place, they weren't particularly comfy but they did make her taller made her feel more important and she also knew that Gibbs liked her in heels or at least he used to.

But what did it matter what he thought? Actually it meant everything, she loved him, she was in love with him. Jenny knew there would never been a man like Leroy Jethro Gibbs and that her heart, her whole heart would always belonged to him. That was probably why she'd given up dating men, given up trying to find a man to spend the rest of her life with because she knew she'd already found him but she let him slip through her fingers.

She sighed once again as she pushed herself off of the door and walked straight to her study where she poured herself a generous amount of bourbon before taking a large swig, the alcohol burnt her throat, reminded her she did have feelings she was still human.

Meanwhile Gibbs stumbled into his house and went straight to his basement once again, trying to ignore the emptiness he felt.

He also grabbed the bottle of bourbon and took a swig out of the bottle not bother with a glass or mason jar: he knew he was going to drink the whole bottle anyway. He then began to work on his boat, trying to push the thoughts of his family, of the Jenny who'd been his wife out of his mind, he was stuck in this universe and he couldn't figure a way to get back.

All of a sudden his head began to pound, Gibbs closed his eyes, beeping echoed in his head he then heard a very familiar voice 'I'm so sorry' then felt a cool hand on his cheek, his hand automatically raised hoping to make contact with the hand but he didn't find it 'I love you Jethro' the voice sounded again.

"Jenny" he called opening his eyes only to find himself still alone in his basement, the bottle of bourbon firmly in his hand, he put the bottle down for the same reason he had hours earlier.

Meanwhile Jenny was sitting in her study curled up in front of the fireplace with a second tumbler of bourbon in her hand.

She watched the flames as she thought of the day. She really hadn't meant to hurt Jethro when she'd slapped him and she knew he didn't exactly deserve it. Jenny did actually like the kiss, she did respond.

Jenny was just being ruled by her head and was refusing to listen to her heart. Her hear ached for Gibbs, she wanted to be with him but her head kept telling her that he broke her heart once, he didn't love her, he only used her and also she was his boss now it was different.

She let out a frustrated groan before running a tired hand down her face, life was so hard. Why couldn't she ever get the happy ending? Jenny leant back against her chair and closed her eyes drifting off to sleep where she began to dream.

Jenny woke up and rolled over only to be stopped by something or more like someone "Morning" a familiar voice sounded tired. Slowly she opened her eyes and found herself face to face with Leroy Jethro Gibbs.

"Morning" she replied with a smile before leaning over and just as their lips were about to meet the sound of a baby crying made them spring apart "I'll get her you get Josh" the redhead seemed to find herself saying as she got out of the bed and made her way to the bedroom next door to theirs while Gibbs went to the one opposite.

The silver haired man sent her a smile before walking into the room. Jenny shook her head before taking a deep breath and walking into the bedroom, she was surprised to find the cream walls with animals around it and in the corner stood a cot where a little baby girl with red curls wearing a pink baby grow. She walked over to the girl "Mama" the girl gabbled through her tears, seeing the familiar redhead walk towards her before scooping her up in her arms.

"It's ok Lanie Mummy's here" Jenny once again found herself talking to the little girl, she loved the feeling of the baby in her arms, she pressed a kiss to her daughters head and held her for a moment before carrying her into the hall where Josh was walking out of his room.

The ten year old was a spitting image of his father, it took Jenny back a moment, he had the dark brown hair and chiselled facial features of his father even the ocean blue eyes that in years to come would drive girls crazy as his fathers did to her.

"Morning Ma" Josh greeted with a sleepy smile.

"Morning Josh" she said pressing a kiss to his son's forehead "You have to get ready for school" she reminded the boy before walking down stairs being carful of the baby in her arms.

"Dada" Lanie squealed when they walked into the kitchen where Gibbs stood leaning against the kitchen side.

Jenny then decided to put Lanie on the floor but held her hands so the little redhead could stand on two feet "Lanie walk to Daddy" Jenny encouraged.

Lanie looked up at her mother for a moment before slowly making the steps to her father, once she was close enough Jenny let go of the girls hands and the little redhead fell onto her father's legs.

Gibbs couldn't help the grin that formed on his face "Aren't you a smart little girl" he grinned picking up the little redhead and hugging her close.

Jenny couldn't help the smile on her face. This was the family Gibbs had been talking about, it was perfect just what she would want, she almost wished she could stay in this world forever.

Suddenly there was a loud bang and Lanie slipped from Gibbs's arms "Mummy" the girl wailed Jenny went to pick her up but it was too late she could feel her safe waking up.

Jenny sat up right in her seat as a flash came from outside followed by the fire going out and rain patting the window.

She pushed her hair out of her face and all of a sudden felt cold and alone just like Gibbs.

Both wished at that moment that they could have that life but instead settled for going to bed alone and hearts feeling empty.

TBC…

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