FIONA's POV

"Holly J?" I said on the phone as soon as I heard a sound.

"Fi! I'm on my way to my last class. Are you okay?" she said with a concerned tone. She knew me too well.

"I just need someone to talk to." I said trying hard not to whimper.

"Oh Fi, what happened?" she asked.

"I think going back here was a mistake. Imo won't talk or even look at me." I said while sobbing. The pain is so intense to hold back the tears.

"Hush Fi, I wish I can be there with you right now." I think she's afraid that I might drink again and no one is here to stop me.

"Don't worry Holly J, I won't do something stupid." I said reassuring her.

"It's not that Fi, I just hate myself for being away from you." she said in a soft voice.

I can hear the sadness in her voice. I suddenly feel guilty.

"Don't feel that way Holly J. Knowing you're my friend is enough for me." I told her.

I heard a sigh from the other side of the line.

Then she said, "Look Fi, Just give me an hour okay then we'll skype. I have to go now. I'll see you later Fi." she paused. "I love you." more like a whisper.

"Ok, later." I sigh. "love you too, bye." then I pressed the end button.

I'm so lucky to have Holly J as my friend. In times like this I miss her the most. She knows how to make me feel better. Maybe that's why I fell in love with her before. I can be the true Fiona Coyne with her. I don't have to pretend and lie about my feelings. I can be just me around her. Just be the old dramatic me and she would still be there. How I miss my best friend.

HOLLY J's pov

I can't focus. My professor is talking about something although I tried hard to focus, still I can't. I'm so worried about Fi. She sounds so upset. It's the first day of semester but I want to fly back to Degrassi and be with her. She's been through a lot lately. I tried hard to make her feel better when we were in New York. And I felt that our friendship deepened more because of it. I was so hurt when she had to go back to Degrassi. Although I knew that was her original plan but I hoped that she would change her mind before the semester starts. She always does, before. But now she's different and that hurts. It seemed like someone punched my gut when I saw how exited she was to go back 'home'.

I got up as soon as I heard the bell. Someone is calling my name but I didn't stop. I wanted to go to my room and open my laptop as fast as I can. Fi is my priority right now. When I went inside I was thankful that my roommate is not around. I quickly turn on my computer then launch my skype. Fi is not yet logged in. Maybe she fell asleep. I grab my phone and dial her number. She's not answering and that made me more worried.

"Fi, its Holly J. I'm waiting here, logged in at skype. I'm getting worried okay, please call me back a.s.a.p., bye."

I swear million thoughts are running in my mind right now and every second that she's not responding gets me more nervous.

I kept on pacing in front of my desk trying to calm myself. I looked at the clock and it's already past nine. An hour passed. How could she forget to send me a message that she won't be able to skype. If only Fi has a roommate who could answer the phone for her.

I looked at Fi's picture on my study table. It's funny how my roommate thought that she was my girl friend. She said that I am the only one she knew who would put a friend's picture on a study table.

"You know, I understand if it would be a picture of you together... but a solo? Wow Holly, that's something!" Annie, my roommate said grinning.

"It's a gift from her before I left home. And where else would I put it?" I tried to explain.

"Oh, so the fact that you smile every time you look at her picture doesn't count?" she said teasing me again.

"No I don't." I said defensively.

"Holly, I have a lot of gay friends. Believe me you have the same look when they admire someone from afar." she gave me a smile and went out of the room before I could respond.

She made me think that night. I almost jumped out of my sit when my phone rang. It's Mrs. Coyne. That's when she asked me to go to Fi and help her pack. I know it was bad news for her family, but deep down it made me happy. Fi would be closer to Yale.

Some noise outside my room brought me back to reality. Once again I dialed her number. I think it is my thirtieth time calling her. And still no answer. I don't want to call the Coyne's and make them worry about Fi. I can't take this anymore. I need to see her. I have to make sure that she's okay. I want to be with her. So I made my decision and I know my parents would kill me for this. I sat down and gaze at the picture frame on my table. Maybe Annie's right.

FiONA's pov

The alarm went off. I reached for the clock and turned it off without opening my eyes. It hurts maybe because I cried so hard last night. I know it's puffy and I would probably wear glasses the whole day. After a few minutes I tried to open my eyes slowly. I need to call Holly J and apologize for last night. I don't want her to see me like this. I don't want her to worry too much. I know she will think that I was asleep.

Thirty missed calls! I'm in serious trouble I know. I dialed Holly J's number but it's unavailable. Maybe she's in her class right now. I'll just send her an email.

Holly J,

I'm sorry about last night if I made you worried. It's just that I was so upset and I don't want you to see me like that. I hope you can forgive me for ditching you last night. Sorry a thousand times.

Love lots,

Fifi

I was about to send it when my door bell rang continuously. Someone is impatient. I put on my robe and instantly went to my door.

"I'm coming!" I shouted because that person kept on buzzing in.

When I opened the door, I am so surprise to see my best friend. She drops her luggage and gave me a tight hug. She started to sob. I'm speechless. What's Holly J doing here? Is this my fault? We've been like that for three minutes when she let go of me. She looked into my eyes and said.

"I got so worried last night. Don't you ever do that again Fiona Coyne." then she shook her head and get her things. Still I don't know what to say. I froze by the door when she went in with her things.

"Close the door Fi, we need to talk." she commanded from my living room.

I regained my composure and do as what she said. I found her sitting on the couch. Not looking at me as if trying to think the right words to say. I sit beside her and hold her trembling hand.

"I'm so sorry Holly j. I swear I never thought-" she put a finger on my lips to stop me from talking.

"I came here not just because of you. I came back for me. What happened last night made me realize some thing. And I would not forgive myself if I won't do this." she said looking straightly through my eyes.

"What is it Holly J?" I asked when she looked away. Something is bothering her. I can feel it. Her hands are cold and she's very nervous about something.

"I came back here to be with the person I love most." tears are falling from her eyes. But still she's not facing me.

"I don't understand Holly J." I said while trying to make her face me. I hold her chin and slightly turned it. Now she's facing me but avoiding my stare.

"Look at me. You can tell me everything."

That's what made her cry more. I pull her close and hug her tight. When finally she stopped crying, she pulled away and looked at me. Our faces are inches away from each other. I suddenly felt something inside of me. It's like an old feeling of excitement and longing. The urge of wanting to kiss her screams inside of me then it's already too late to move back. Our lips are already pressed at each other. I'm not sure if I kissed her or it's the other way around. All I know now is that the kiss is getting serious this time. Her hand started to hang around my neck, pressing our lips more. Surprisingly when she guided me to lie down on the couch, I did. I didn't stop her when she started to remove my robe. When she touched my chest I gasp for air. She whispered in my ear which brought me back to my senses. I pushed her gently on both her shoulders. We're both gasping for air.

"I'm sorry," I said softly. "I don't know what has gotten into me."

She touched my cheek then look into my eyes.

"I'm sorry. I can't control myself anymore. I'm in love with you Fi." She said.

"But Holly j, I thought you were straight? You've told me that yourself." I removed her hand from my face then I stood up. I'm really confused right now. She stood right in front of me and held my hand.

"Fi, I've been in love with you even before. It's just I didn't know. When I was in Yale, my roommate made me realize that I feel different about you." She let go of my hand and started pacing in front of me. Then she continued...

"I guess I repressed those feelings when I came here and found out you're in love with Imogen. I was so hurt Fi and I thought that was because you found a new best friend but I was wrong. I made myself believe that we we're just friends when clearly I'm in love with you." she stopped looking at me.

I'm astonished. I never would have guessed it. My best friend is in love with me? I thought she was straight.

"I don't know what to say Holly J." I said still shocked on her great revelations.

"Say you'll give us a try? I came here to be with you." she grabbed both of my hands and kissed them.

Am I still dreaming? Is Holly J really here in front of me and confessing her love? Half of me wishes I'm just dreaming but the other half is happy that it's happening. I can't afford to think of Holly J this way. She's all I've got.

I closed my eyes and hoped when I open them, maybe I'll find out that I am just dreaming. That I'm alone in my bed, like always.

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