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~Chapter Four~

~Jade's POV~

When I woke up a few hours later, I felt sick to my stomach. I could not believe how weak I had been last night. I can't believe I slept with Kendall last night. It would just make everything that much worse.

As quickly as I could I got dressed and got out of there. Thank God the house was quite as I made my escape.

I went to the first place I could think of, which was Logan's.

Even though it was early in the morning and I should have gone home, I couldn't. I really just needed my best friend. Plus I knew for a fact that Allie wasn't here, since I had called her over to watch Gracie.

"Jade what are you doing here?"

"Can I come in before I burst into tears?"

"Yeah, sorry come in."

He moved out if the way and let me inside. I didn't wait for him, I just headed into the living room. I sat in his couch and brought my legs up under me.

"Jade what's going on?" He sat next to me. "Are you wearing Kendall's clothes?"

"I made a huge mistake last night."

"What happened? You know you can tell me anything."

"Kendall kissed me before we left the restaurant, twice. After I put Gracie to bed, I called Allie over to watch her so I could go to Kendall's." I ran my fingers through my hair. "And when he opned the door all the emotions I had locked away came rushing back. He asked me what I wanted. I told him I didn't want to be lonely anymore and then he kissed me again."

"What happened after that?"

"I slept with him."

He didn't say anything, he just pulled me into his arms and hugged me tight.

That's when I broke down crying. He didn't say anything as he held me.

When I was done crying a pulled away from him and wiped my eyes.

"Sorry about that."

"No worries, do you want to talk about it?"

"No but I could use a hot shower and some non-Kendall clothes."

"You go take a shower and I'll make a pot if coffee."

"You're the best Logan."

I stood up and kissed him on the forehead before I made my way into his bedroom and then his bathroom.

A half an hour later I founf myself dressed in Logan's clothes, which was kinda weird seeming as I had only ever worn Kendall's, but I couldn't bring myself to putting them back on.

When I reappeared in the kitchen Logan was on the phone. I sat down at the counter and raided an eyebrow at him. He rolled his eyes and mouthed "Kendall" to me. I shook my head, telling him I didn't want Kendall to know I was here.

"No Kendall I don't know where she is." Logan rolled his eyes at whatever Kendall said. "If she's not home, maybe she's at the beach or something."

After Logan hung up he set a huge mug of coffee in front of me.

"I only lied to him, because it's you."

"I know, thank you Logan. I just can't deal with him right now."

"You know you should have never gone over there last night." He sighed and sat next to me. "I would have stopped you, if I had known."

"I know that's why I didn't tell you." I looked at him with tears in my eyes. "I messed up, big time and I'm gonna to have to pay for that."

"Then why did you do it?"

"I don't know."

"Why don't you go lay down in Gracie's room and try and get some sleep."

"I should go before he shows up here. We both know he will."

"Where are gonna go?"

"It would be better if I don't tell you. Lying to him over the phone is one thing, but to his face is harder for you."

"I hate it, but you're right." He sighed.

"Don't worry, I'll call you later. I just need to get my head on straight before I have to deal with him."

"Just be careful."

"I will." I stood up. "I love you Logie Bear."

"Love you too Momma Bear."

I kissed his forehead before I headed into the living room to collect my things, so I could leave.

"If Allie calls can you have her drop Gracie off at Kendall's?"

He just nodded as I walked out the door.

After leaving Logan's I just drove around until my phone started ringing. The first few time it was Cassie, which I just ignored. I didn't need her telling me how much of an idiot I was. I already knew how stupid I was.

The next call was from Allen that I couldn't ignore, no matter how much I wanted too.

"Hey Al, what's up?"

"I need you to come into the office."

"Why?" I did not like the sound of this. My heart started pounding and the sick feeling was back in my stomach.

"Please Jade."

"Give me a half hour and I'll be there."

"Okay." He hung up on me and tossed back into the front seat.

Once I was clam enough to drive I headed towards the office. My mind was in over drive trying to figure out what Allen needed to see me about. I felt like a high schooler getting called into the principal's office. It really kinda freaked me out.

When I parked the car, I sat there for a few to try and clam down. But it wasn't working, so I just shut the car off and made my way inside. I'm very thankful that I hadn't eaten anything yet this morning, I'm pretty sure I would have thrown it up already.

Kelsey just glared at me as I just walked into Allen's office. He was standing at the window looking out at downtown LA.

"I'm here."

He turned and looked at me.

"How are you?"

"Cut the bull shit, why did you call me in here?"

"Sit down at the desk."

I rolled my eyes and did as he asked. That's when I saw his computer screen. Staring back at me was a picture of Kendall and I wrapped in each other's arm, locked in a passionate kiss, from last night.

"Jade's what's going on?"

"I don't know. But I will tell you, the picture is real."

"Jade, what are we going to do?"

I shrugged and started reading the article under the picture.

"It may seem like Kendall Schmidt and his estranged wife are no longer estranged. Even though a source close to the couple says they left separately, I have to say the pictures say it all. They are still very much in love.

The couple separated in early October. The last time they had been seen together is when they took Jade's 6-year old daughter to see Santa.

Rumors were rampant after that outing that they were getting back together, but they were put down just as quickly as they showed up, when Jade moved herself and her daughter back to Michigan.

No one has heard much more of the couple since then, until last night when they were caught red handed, big time.

Another source confirmed for us that the couple is supposed to be signing their divorce papers sometime next week.

What this means for the Big Time Rush star and his wife, we have no idea. We'll keep everyone posted when we know more."

"Well fuck." I looked up at Allen. "I have no idea what to say or do."

"Well do you still plan on going through with the divorce?"

"Yes." I said without a second thought.

~Kendall's POV~

Waking to find Jade gone was like a huge kick to my ego. But I shouldn't be so shocked that she had left without saying anything. It was typical Jade.

Sighing I pulled myself from the bed and went into my bathroom to shower away last night activates.

After I was dressed, I headed down stairs. When I hit the bottom of the stairs, I could hear Gracie laughing in the kitchen. That put a smile on my face. Her laughter could really make any day better.

"Good morning Daddy." She grinned at me as I walked into the kitchen.

"Good morning, Princess." I kissed the top of her head. "What are we up to today?"

"Grandma says it's a surprise." She winked at me.

"Well that sounds like fun."

"And it will be." Mom set a cup of coffee in front of me. "How was your night, Dear?"

"It was nice."

"Sounds like it." She smiled at me.

I knew it that instant that she knew that Jade had been here. How I had no idea, unless my brothers spilled the beans, which I wouldn't put past them.

"Daddy, you okay? Your face is all red." Gracie touched my forehead. "Are you sick? Do you need to go back to bed?"

"Your Daddy didn't get much sleep last night, Gracie Lu." Kevin walked into the kitchen. "He tossed and turned all night long."

"Uncle Kevin!" Gracie screeched. "I missed you."

"I missed you too." Kevin hugged her tight. "Never leave me for that long again."

"Promise. Mommy says we're moving back here. Isn't that great?" She grinned at him. "But I'll miss seeing Uncle Kenny."

"That is awesome." Kevin let her go and went to kiss Mom good morning.

I wanted to take my head and bang it on the counter. This was so not how I saw my morning going. I was never going to live this down.

"Daddy, you okay?"

"I'm fine Princess."

"You sure, you don't look so good." She cocked her head to the side and looked at me.

"Maybe I will go lay back down."

"Okay, I'll check on you before we leave okay, Daddy."

"I'd like that Baby Girl. Be good now."

"Always am." She grinned at me.

I smiled and kissed the top of her head. I didn't look anyone else as I went back up stairs.

I fell on my bed and picked up my phone to call Logan. I knew if Jade went anywhere it would be his place.

"Hey Kendall." Logan answered after the first ring.

"Morning Logan. Have you seen Jade?"

"Not since last night."

"You're not lying to me are you?"

"No, I have no idea where she is."

"I'm having a hard time believing you Logan."

"Kendall, you know I'm a really bad liar." He sighed.

"That is very true." I laughed. "Do you have any idea where she is?"

"No Kendall I don't know where she is."

"Well any guesses?"

"If she's not home, maybe she's at the beach or something."

"Yeah true." I sighed.

"I have to go Kendall, my Mom's calling."

"Okay, talk to you later."

"Bye." He hung up.

I said and laid my phone on my chest.

I didn't know why I was trying so hard to find Jade, when she didn't want to be found, you would never find her.

I would have tired her phone, but I knew she wouldn't answer it. She was avoiding me and that kinda hurt.

But really what did I expect, she was just as confused about her feelings as I was.

After Gracie left with my parents I took off and headed over to Jade's. The need to see her was strong.

Even though I knew just showing up was stupid, but I really didn't care.

When I got there Jade wasn't home, so I just sat on the front pourch waiting for her.

An hour and a half later when she pulled into the drive way, she did not seem happy to see me at all. Not that I could really blame her.

She didn't say anything to until we were inside.

"What do you want Kendall?"

"I just want to talk."

"What is there to talk about?" She crossed her sms over her chest and glared at me.

"Last night."

"Last night was a mistake, that I don't plan on ever making again."

"How can you say that?"

"Because Kendall that's what it was a mistake." She shook her head. "To call it anything else would be a huge lie."

"I don't think it was a mistake."

"What do you want from me Kendall? I'm not some damn yo-yo you can play with. I'm done with you pulling me close and then pushing me away." She shook her head and put more distance between us. "I'm not your play thing. Last night was a mistake."

"I love you Jade."

"That's not what you were saying when you walked away." I could see the tears forming in her eyes. "I told you when you left, I was done."

"I'm not letting you go."

"That's funny coming from you. You're the one that walked out the fucking door in the first place."

"That was a mistake."

"Damn straight it was and now that you realize what you're losing, you're trying to get me back." She laughed. "I'm telling you that will never happen."

"I know you still love me."

"So what, everyone knows I'm still in love with you. But that's not going to change a damn thing."

"What can I do to change your mind?"

"Not a damn thing Kendall."

"Why?"

"I've made up my mind and I need to do what's best for Gracie. I don't need you changing your mind in a few months, it's not fair to either of us."

"But don't you think it would be better for her, if we were together?"

"Wow, now you're starting to think about her." She laughed. "Why didn't you think about that when you walked out on us back in October?"

I just shrugged.

"Just leave Kendall. I'm not going to change my mind."

"I want to hear you say it."

"I still want a divorce."