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"Reid! I am so happy that you are okay" Garcia smiled as she walked over to Reid and wrapped her arms around him.

She smiled as she leaned into his chest for a long hug, she had noticed that he had more of a build and smiled wider knowing that at least he was doing well in that way. She withdrew from the hug and smiled at him.

"I still haven't got used to you being back. You still look like my junior g-man" she smiled as she ran her hand through his hair in a motherly way.

"I'll always been your junior g-man. I'm not going anywhere this time" he said as she held her held. He looked at Garcia and she looked the way he had always imagined. She may have grown older but she was a mother still. She had been a mother to the team when he had been human and she had remained but now she was also mother to a son. Reid loved the fact that she had stayed bright and beautiful.

Hotch looked at the two interact and knew that this time Reid meant his words. When he had said them before the words sounded shaky and distrustful. This time the words sounded true and solid.

"Garcia, can I talk to Hotch for a little while?" Reid asked her. He needed to speak with Hotch about so many things.

"Yeah, I'll just um..." Garcia said suddenly flustered.

"We can go and get you a cup of coffee. I have a few embarrassing stories about Reid if you are interested" Ali offered knowing that she would also have to leave the room. Garcia looked at Ali slightly unsure if she should accept the offer.

"You can trust her Garcia. I trust her with my life" Reid assured Garcia knowing that Garcia was a bit nervous around Ali. He couldn't blame her and neither did Ali. Garcia visibly relaxed and turned to look at Ali.

"How about we trade embarrassing stories?" Garcia smiled before making her way out the door.

"Look after her" Reid smiled at Ali.

"I will. Nice seeing you again Hotch" Ali said before leaving the room.

Reid stood for a moment before he placed himself in the chair next to Hotch's bed. He looked at Hotch and noticed the effects of growing old.

"I know, I got old" Hotch said almost as if he was reading Reid's mind. Reid gave Hotch a small smile before he decided to get to the main matter at hand.

"I left to keep you safe and I was right to do it. I want you to know that I never left any of you. I watched over you all the entire time I was gone" Reid said quickly as he looked at Hotch.

"How was it right? We would accepted you, you have no idea how hard the team was hit when we thought you had died. It took a long time to return to normal and even then we missed you everyday. You keep saying that you watched over us. What do you mean?" Hotch croaked passinately before Reid gave him a cup of water. Hotch gulped the water down and let out a little cough.

He looked back to Reid for an answer to his questions.

"I struggled for a long time with what I had become. I accept what I am now, I can't change being a vampire. I stayed away as I was dangerous. I have killed as a vampire. I have killed hunters and I will admit that I don't feel guilt over their deaths as it was self defense. I feel guilt as I have hurt innocent people. I lost control when I was in my third year of being a vampire. I killed a young women because I let my bloodlust control me for a split second" Reid told Hotch before taking a deep breath in to calm himself. He continued as Hotch stared at him.

"I am trying to redeem myself even now for the deaths I have caused. I would never have forgiven myself if I had hurt any of you. I decided to stay away indefinite when Garcia and Kevin had Spencer. How would you have felt if I had attacked Jack? I have my bloodlust under control now. I don't feed on humans if I can help it. I kept watch over you all. I have been in the city all this time although I have moved around a few times. It has been a way of coping. Watching and protecting you and the team has given me a connection to humans" Reid explained to Hotch.

Reid sat back for a moment to let Hotch absorb the new information. Reid wouldn't blame Hotch if he asked Reid to go away. Who would want a killer around?

"Thank you for watching over us. I know that you wouldn't have killed unless you had to in self defense. I can't imagine what the bloodlust is like but I know you wouldn't kill on your own accord. You are not a killer" Hotch told Reid.

Hotch knew that Reid carried guilt and he wanted to try and help him get rid of some of the guilt.

"I'm jealous of you" Reid smiled before letting out a small laugh.

"Why are you jealous of me?" Hotch asked with confusion in his wrinkled features.

"You got to grow old and change. I stayed the same. Frozen like a photograph" Reid said sadly.

"I'm jealous you. You haven't aged a day since I last saw you. You still look like the same genius I hired for the BAU" Hotch joked but stopped when he saw a pained expression come across Reid's face.

"Reid, are you alright?"

"I'm fine..it's just I don't age. I'm immortal and there is going to be a day when I have to stand on my own. There will be a day when you and the team will be gone and so will my connection to humanity" Reid explained before he started playing with a loose thread on his jacket.

"We may be gone but you'll still have a connection to us and humanity. I'm not saying you would have to do it but I would never be able to repay you if you watched over Jack as he grew up to make sure no harm came to him. Spencer is growing up and he will need someone to watch over him. He reminds me of you, he is a bit of a trouble magnet" Hotch tried to suggest to try and make Reid feel better.

Reid had considered that but he didn't want to feel like he was stalking them.

"I have considered that but I don't want to feel like I'm stalking them to fufill this need to retain the human side of myself" Reid said.

"You wouldn't be stalking them. You would be protecting and guarding them. We have both seen what people are capable of and I'm sure that you have seen what is the supernatural is capable of. You could make sure that they were kept safe" Hotch reassured Reid.

Hotch meant every word. He had seen people rip and torture people to death. The thought of something horrific happening to Jack make Hotch feel pain in his heart.

"Eternity as guardian. Sounds like a good idea" Reid smiled.

Penelope and Ali

"So how long have you known Spencer?" Garcia asked as they walked towards the waiting room. Garcia and Ali walked over to coffee machine. There was no one else in the waiting room.

"I have known him for about twelve years" Ali answered.

"Wow. Would you like a coffee?" Garcia asked as she almost forgot about Ali.

"I can't consume human food or drink. Thank you for the offer" Ali smiled before taking a seat.

"Can I as you a question?" Garcia said nervously as she took the seat across from Ali. Ali noticed the cup was shaking slightly.

"Of course you can" Ali smiled.

"How has Spencer been after Taylor's death? He talked about her with sadness in his eyes and it hurts me to know he went through that pain of losing someone so close to him."

Ali took a deep breath in and decided it was better to tell Garcia about Spencer after Taylor had died.

"He was distraught at first and then he tried to do something very stupid. It was after he had gone after some hunters, he had spent a few months searching for Harrison, the man who killed her, and he had no leads. He tried to kill himself" Ali explained calmly.

"He tried to- oh my god!" Garcia gasped. Her heart became heavy with guilt for not being there.

"He was withdrawn and had not fed for over two weeks. He tried to kill himself by walking into the sunlight. He almost died but me and some of our other friends managed to find him and get him out of the sun in time. Sunlight burns us but we used blankets to get to him. We watched him closely after that , we still do" Ali continued before looking up at the clock, it was a habit of hers to keep an eye on the time.

"I'm glad he has someone to look after him. I feel so guilty about not being there for him" Garcia sobbed silently. Ali made her way over to Garcia and took her hand in hers.

"You shouldn't feel guilty Garcia. He has struggled with being a vampire but in the last two years he has improved. He told me about you and the team, he missed you all so much. He wanted you to all to be safe and he was right to do it. The early years being a vampire are extremely difficult but after a while it becomes easier to control the bloodlust. Spencer has control now" Ali told her, she wanted to try and make Garcia understand why Spencer staying away had been safer for them.

"Just promise me that he isn't going anywhere this time" Garcia smiled sadly.

"He has missed you all for a long time, I don't think he is going anywhere" Ali smiled back.

Garcia smiled before wiping the small tears that was making its way down her cheek. She took a deep breath in before turning towards Ali.

"So you said you have some embarassing stories about Reid?" Garcia smiled.

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