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~Chapter Thirteen~

~Kendall's POV~

By the time Jade got home, Gracie and I were snuggled down on the couch watching TV. I grinned at her as she dropped he shopping bags by the stairs.

"Hi." She walked over and sat next to me on the couch.

"I see you survived."

"Just barely." She groaned and leaned back against the couch.

"Oh Mommy stop being so dramatic." Gracie giggled.

"You are so funny daughter of mine."

"Love you Mommy." She grinned at Jade.

"Mmhmm." She rolled her eyes and stood up.

"Where are you going?"

"I'm hungry."

"Mommy, you're always hungry."

"Well your Aunts didn't feed me after lunch." Jade stuck her tongue out at Gracie.

I laughed making them both look at me.

"What? You guys are too funny."

"Whatever." Jade rolled her eyes and walked out of the room.

"Go Daddy."

"Going." I kissed the side of Gracie's head before I headed into the kitchen.

Where I found Jade standing in front of the fridge, just staring into it.

"What are you looking for?"

"I'm not sure." She shut the fridge and looked at me. "How was your day?"

"Good, Carlos and I helped Logan plan everything."

"That's great news." She smiled at me. "I'm really happy for them."

"Me too." I pulled her into me and hugged her. "So how was your day?"

"I never want to go shopping with them again." She groaned and pulled away from me. "They are horribly to shop with."

"They can't be that bad, can they?"

"Yes they can." She laughed. "But I did get some stuff that I'm pretty sure you will just love."

She ran a finger up and down my chest. I grabbed her hand and held it to my chest.

"Don't tease me like that."

"What are you gonna be about it?"

I pulled her to me and kissed her. She wrapped her arms around my neck. I groaned into the kiss and Jade pulled away.

"You're such a damn tease."

She just winked at me and headed back over to the fridge. She pulled out a pudding cup and jumped up on the counter.

"Wanna hand me a spoon?"

"I don't have much of choice do I?"

"She just grinned at me. I rolled my eyes. I walked over to the silverware drawer I pulled out a spoon and walked over to where Jade was sitting on the counter. She took the spoon from me and opened the pudding.

I couldn't help but lick my lips as I watched her eat the pudding. She was going to drive me crazy and she knew it.

"Want some?" She held the spoon out to me.

I wrapped my lips around the spoon and pulled the pudding off the spoon.

"And you call me a tease."

"You are." I laughed. "But I love you anyways."

"Love you too." She stuck her finger in the pudding then tapped my nose.

"Really did you have to do that?"

"Mmhmm." She put another spoonful in her mouth.

"You don't play fair."

"I never said I did." She grinned at me.

I just shook my head and laughed. She wrapped her legs around my waist and pulled me closer to me.

"Did you want something?"

"Maybe." I raised an eyebrow at her. "Maybe not."

"What am I gonna do with you?"

"Kiss me."

"As my lady wishes."

I cupped her face and kissed her softly.

"My God, do you two ever stop?" Cassie's voice broke us apart.

"No, no we don't." Jade grinned at her sister. "What are you doing home, I thought you were going to James?"

"I was, but then I changed my mind."

"Everything okay?"

"Yeah, why wouldn't it be?"

"I'll leave you two to it."

"Can you put Gracie to bed?"

"Sure." I kissed her one more time, before walking out of the kitchen.

"Bed time Gracie Lu."

"Do I have to Daddy?"

"Yes little Lady."

"But I don't wanna."

"I know you don't, but you have to go to bed."

"Fine, I guess you win this round."

"I could always get Mommy in here to make you go to bed."

"No, that's okay Daddy."

"That's what I thought." I grinned at her.

"You gonna carry me up stairs?"

"Do you want me to?"

"Yes."

I got down on my knees and let her climb onto my back. What Jade didn't know wouldn't hurt me.

~Jade's POV~

I slid off the counter and tossed my empty pudding cup in the trash and stuck the spoon in the sink.

"Spill, what happened?"

"Nothing happened?"

"Bull shit." I crossed my arms over my chest and glared at her. "I still know when you're lying. And right now you're lying through your teeth."

"It's nothing Jade, just leave it alone."

"Cass, don't be like that. You use to tell me everything."

"I think I'm ready and James keeps saying no."

"Does he say why?"

"No he won't tell me why he wants to wait."

"Cassie, why are you so mad that he wants to wait?"

"The only thing I can think of is that he's getting it somewhere else."

"That's Bull Shit and you know it. James would never, ever cheat on you." I sighed. "Why would you think he would?"

"Because he won't sleep with me."

"Cassie that's stupid excuse and you know it. James is in love with you, so what if he wants to wait a little bit longer. Maybe he wants to wait until after you get back on tour." Her face fell at the mention of the tour. "Cassie, he's not going to pick up some random groupie. He'd never do that to you."

"But you won't be there to make sure."

"Even if I was going, you have to trust that James loves you enough to keep it in his pants. That's the only way you're going to have a great relationship."

"I'd feel better if you were going."

"I know you would, but you need to trust him."

"Did you trust Kendall?"

"Yes I did and I still do."

"After everything, how can you?"

"Because I trust him." I shrugged. "My relationship with Kendall is way different from the one I had with Todd."

"I just don't get it. He walked away from you and Gracie and you've just let him back in?"

"I couldn't fight my feeling for him anymore. I know we still have a ways to go before we're 100%, but I was hurting myself fighting it. Kendall and I were meant to be together. Just like you and James are made for each other." She rolled her eyes. "Go shower and then call him and apologize."

"Fine, I'm going."

She turned on her heel and headed upstairs. I shook my head and went about cleaning up the kitchen.

"Whatcha doing?"

"Cleaning the kitchen." I turned to look at Kendall. "What are you doing?"

"Watching you." He grinned at me.

"You know you could help."

"I could, but I love watching you."

"You can also sleep on the couch tonight."

He walked over to me and hugged me to him.

"Or you can leave it for tomorrow and you can come to bed with me."

"As tempting as that is, I have some stuff I have to do before I can go to bed."

"What's that?"

"Ted has this new chick he wants me to manage."

"Why can you take back over for Allen and be our manager again?" He tucked a stray piece of hair behind my ear.

"I can't take Allen's job from him."

"I know, I just thought I'd try." He laughed.

"Go on up to bed, you have an early day tomorrow."

"What do you mean?"

"You guys start tour rehearsals again tomorrow, didn't anyone tell you?" I pulled away from him.

"No, no one told me." He pouted.

"Well then, I guess I should call and make sure everyone knows."

"Okay, I love you."

"Love you too." I kissed him lightly before sending him on his way.

Once I was done cleaning up the kitchen, I made my way into my office. The first thing I did when I sat down was send out a text to the other three reminding them about the rehearsals tomorrow and not to be late. That was more for Logan then the other two.

And then I started doing research on this chick that was opening for them. One of the first videos I found was a cover of "As Long As You Love Me." by the Backstreet Boys.

She had a great voice, but from some interviews that I watched I could tell she had an attitude problem. I had a feeling that we will be clashing a lot on tour. Just what I needed, another teenager with a damn chip on her shoulder. My sister was bad enough.

My phone ringing brought me out of my thoughts, it was Logan.

"Hello Logan."

"Hey Jade."

"What can I do for you?"

"Just seeing how today was."

"Why don't you ask Allie?"

"I did, but I was just making sure they weren't too hard on you."

"What's going on Logan?"

"Nothing."

"Look, she loves you and you love her. Asking her to marry you is a big step, one I know you're ready for, so stop freaking out."

"How do you do that?"

"It's a mom thing." I rolled my eyes. "I love you, but I'm hanging up on you now."

"Goodnight."

"Night." I hung up and set my phone down.

I stared at my computer screen. I knew I was just putting off going upstairs and going to bed. Why I wasn't sure, but I didn't want go up there.

When I was around other people I knew what I was doing was right for us, but when I'm alone, I start second guessing myself.

If this was what I wanted, then why the Hell was in sitting here in my office instead of being up stairs with my husband? It didn't make sense at all. And I did really have anyone I could call and talk to about it.

"Knock, knock."

I looked up to see Kendall standing in the doorway.

"I thought I sent you to bed."

"You did, but I was lying in bed and I realized I would never get to sleep without you there, so come on, I'm dragging you to bed."

I smiled up at him and stood up. I walked over to him and took his hand. He pulled me into him and kissed me.

"I love you."

"I know."

"There you go with the Star Wars thing again."

"I though you liked it?"

"A little too much." He grinned at me.

"Mmm, I'll keep that in mind." I pulled away and led him back up stairs.

Once in the room, I dropped his hand and headed for the closet. Like always my face turned bright red, remembering one of the last days we were together before the spilt.

I shook my head and quickly changed into my PJ's. Walking out of my closet, I saw Kendall relaxing in bed. I smiled at him as, I made my way over to my side of the bed.

As soon as I was on the bed, Kendall pulled me on top of him.

"Hi."

"Hi." I smiled at him.

"You okay?"

"Yeah, I'm okay."

"You're not lying to me are you?"

"No, why would you think that?"

"You're kinda acting weird."

"Sorry." I rolled off him and sat up. "I just have a lot on my mind."

"You know you can talk to me about anything right?"

"I know."

"Then talk to me."

I looked down at my hands.

"Jade, tell me what's bothering you."

"I'm not really sure what it is. All my emotions are mixed up. When I'm with other people I know this is what I want, but when I'm alone with my thoughts, I start second guessing myself." I shook my head. "I know I'm being stupid, I just don't know."

"Jade, it's okay to feel like this. You wouldn't be human if you didn't. I'm worried about this too, but I believe in us." He sat up and faced me. "We are strong, we can do this."

"I love you so much." I kissed him.

"I love you too." He cupped my face. "We are in this together."

I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him down on top of me.

I didn't want to think anymore, I just wanted to forget. Kendall was the best way to make myself forget.

I know it was wrong, but I couldn't help it. My thoughts were just too much for me to handle right now.