Okay peeps, this may be the last chapter for awhile. I am getting ready to move from Florida to Texas and I have a lot to do and won't have much time for writing. So enjoy and let me know what you think! Love you guys!

~Chapter Thirty-Four~

~Jade's POV~

It seemed like everything after the first week of this damn tour went downhill, and fast. It seemed like that everything that could go wrong had.

Kendall was spending more and more time with Ryan and we were fighting more and more. It was like he couldn't see that it was hurting me, it was that or he just didn't care.

I wasn't sure how much more I was going to be able to take before I snapped. I just prayed to God this wasn't the beginning of the end.

"Jade, you look like you want to kill someone, what's up?" Alexa broke my thoughts. "Who do you want to kill now?"

"Pick any of them. I probably want to kill them." I looked at her.

"What did they do now?"

"They told me I was being a little to hard on Little Miss Ryan." I rolled my eyes. "I've had it with that little bitch."

"What are you going to do?"

"What can I do?" I sighed. "The asshole I'm married actually told me I need to stop being jealous."

"You trust him don't you?"

"Of course I trust him, it's her I don't trust. I don't know what I'm going to do."

"Stake your claim. Show her who is in charge." She grinned at me.

"How?"

"Walk up to him and plant a big ol' kiss on him and then walk away."

"Isn't that a little juvenile?"

"It may be, but it would put her in her place."

"For how long though? And it will most likely piss Kendall off."

"More reason to do it." She grinned at me. "What do you have to lose?"

"My husband."

"It may be a wakeup call for him and he'll pull his head out of his ass."

"I guess there's one way to find out." I stood up.

"Oh look here she comes." Alexa grinned. "Go stake your claim."

"God, I can't believe I'm doing this." I shook my head.

"Show them who is in charge."

"Oh I will." I winked at her and headed towards Kendall.

When I got to Kendall I tapped him on the shoulder. He turned and looked at me.

I grinned at him as I grabbed the front of his shirt. When he was close enough, I brought his head down to mine and kissed him.

I held the kiss long enough, but not long enough for him to deepen the kiss. As he was trying to deepen the kiss I pulled away and headed back over to Alexa. I did throw him a wink over my shoulder for an extra effect.

Alexa and I hooked arms and we headed outside.

"Oh my God, did you see his face?" Alexa laughed.

"Even better did you see Ryan's face?"

"Funny as Hell."

We both started to laugh uncontrollably.

"What's so funny?" Alex asked

"Nothing." I giggled. "When did you get here?"

"Early this morning, I've been sleeping in Ry's bus. Now, who is this?" He pointed to Alexa.

"Carlos's girlfriend, Alexa Vega."

"Nice to meet you, Miss. Alexa."

"Nice to meet you too." She smiled at him and gave me a side look. "If you would excuse me I'm gonna go find Los."

"Have fun." I winked at her.

She rolled her eyes and went back inside.

"I didn't realize you were coming in today." I looked back at Alex.

He shrugged as Logan and Gracie started walking over to us.

"I didn't know he had a kid." He looked at them.

"He doesn't. She's mine."

"Really?" He looked back at me shocked.

"You said you checked up on me."

"I did." He frowned. "Her father."

"Her sperm donor died last year. My husband is her Dad."

"You're married?"

"Yes."

"To who?"

"Kendall."

"Mommy." Gracie skipped the rest of the way over to me.

When she reached me she hugged me tightly around my legs. She really didn't like other guys around me, besides her Uncles.

"Yes, Love Bug?"

"It's lunch time." She grinned at me.

"Yes it is. What are you going to have today?"

"Chicken fingers."

"Sounds yummy. You better hurry be Los eats them all."

"Oh yeah, come on Logie Bear." She grabbed Logan's hand and dragged him towards the door.

Logan threw me a look over his shoulder asking me if I was okay. I just nodded and he refocused back on Gracie.

"She's cute, how old is she?"

"7, going on 33." I laughed and shook my head. "She's my world."

"How old were you when you had her?"

"18." I looked back at him.

"I thought you were younger than that."

"Nope, I'm 25."

"Wow."

"Jade, we need to talk, now." Kendall stomped over to us.

"I should go find Ryan."

"She's in the green room." Kendall glared at Alex.

Alex just nodded and headed inside.

"We can go to my bus." I looked at Kendall.

He looked pissed.

"Fine."

Neither of us said anything as we walked over to my bus.

I climbed on and walked over to the couch and dropped on to it. Kendall sat across from me.

"What the hell was that kiss?"

"Because I felt like kissing you," I shrugged. "Do you not want me kissing you anymore?"

"I didn't say that." He sighed.

"Then what's the big deal? We are married for God's sake."

He didn't say anything. He just glared at me. I held back the urge to roll my eyes. That would just piss him off even more.

"Why are you so pissed at me Kendall?" I sighed. "What did I do now?"

"I know you only did it because Ryan was there. How do you think that makes me feel?"

"Why would it matter if she was there or not?" I shook my head. "God Kendall, can I do anything right?"

"Why do you hate Ryan so much?"

"Who said I hated her? I just don't' like the way she is always hanging on you." I ran my fingers through my hair. "What's worse you don't even see it. What was I supposed to do?"

He just shrugged.

"Whatever Kendall, you can go."

"So that's it?"

"I guess that's it."

He shook his head and stood up.

"You're doing it again." He sighed.

"So are you." I looked up at him with tears in my eyes. "You don't even realize it, do you?"

"I guess I don't."

"I want to be alone."

"Go right ahead and shut me out, again." He rolled his eyes.

"Leave Kendall." I stood up and headed to the back of the bus.

I sat down on my bed and curled my feet under me.

I was tired of this. This had to be the worst fight we've have this tour, yet. It was like third one we've had this week.

"Jade you okay?" I looked to see Logan come into my room.

"Yeah I'm fine."

"What happened?" He sat next to me on the bed.

"Kendall refuses to pull his head out of his ass. I can't do this anymore." I wiped my face. "I don't can't live like this anymore."

"You're not going to leave are you?"

"No, I promised I would stay for the whole tour." I sighed. "So I will stay."

"Even if you're unhappy?"

"You should know by now, I don't break my promises."

"We wouldn't blame you if you wanted to leave." He ran his fingers through his hair. "We would understand."

"If I left that would mean she won." I shook my head. "I will not let her win."

"Ryan?"

"Yes. She wants Kendall." He just raised an eyebrow at me. "I know you don't believe me, but she does. She wants my life and I will do whatever it takes to stop her."

"I thought you and Kendall were solid?"

"Funny so did I, but since this damn tour has started, everything has gone to Hell in a hand basket." I sighed and stood up. "I just want my husband back."

"Have you told him that?"

"He won't even talk to me. The only time he does is when he comes to yell at me when I have been 'mean' to Ryan." I rolled my eyes. "Hell we haven't had sex since the first week of the tour."

"I didn't need to know that." He shook head.

"Sorry, but it's like because you guys aren't getting any, I'm not. It's not just the sex I miss, it's everything. I feel like he's pushed me aside for a fresh piece of ass. I can't do that again. I won't be pushed aside because he thinks he's found someone better."

"You know that's not true."

"Then why is he with her and not me."

"I'm sure he's not."

"Well then, let's go look."

I walked to the front of the bus, with Logan right behind me.

"Look out the fucking window." I pointed out the window where Kendall was laughing with Ryan. "He'd rather be with her then me."

Logan gasped at what he was seeing out the window.

"Jade, I don't know what to say."

"You don't have to say anything. It's not your fault, Logie." I hugged him. "He's made his bed, now he can lie in it."

"He never told you about the emails, did he?" I just look up at him confused. "I'm gonna say by the look on your face, he hasn't." He sighed. "He got the first on around the time you guys got back together. I'm not sure how many more he's gotten since then."

"What are the emails about?"

"Someone is trying to blackmail him with some photos I've never seen."

"Thank you Logan." I sat on the couch.

"What are you going to do?"

"Nothing."

"Jade."

"You don't need to know, okay?"

"Okay, I will leave you alone." I nodded. "And I won't say anything to Kendall."

"Thanks." I looked up at him. "I really mean it, thank you Logie."

"No problem." He walked towards the front of the bus.

I just sat there, feeling so numb. I knew he had been hiding something from me. Never in a million, trillion years would have thought it was something like this.

Without much of a thought I grabbed my laptop and logged into Kendall's email account.

It was wrong, I know that, but I had to know what the emails were about. Not just because I was his wife, but because I was also his manager.

When I pulled up the emails and saw the pictures, I felt sick. Never in a million years would I ever believe these pictures or what I was seeing. It just wasn't the man I knew.

I picked up my phone and called Allen.

"Hey Jade." He answered right away. "How's the tour going?"

"We have a problem."

"What kind of problem."

"Check your inbox."

I just sat there and waited while he opened his email.

"Jade what the Hell is this?"

"Our problem." I sighed, I really just wanted to go bury my head in the sand somewhere, but that just wasn't how I was. "I just found out about them."

"He never told you?" He sounded as shocked as I was feeling.

"Nope."

"Shit."

"Shit is right."

"What should I do?"

"I want to talk to him first, so nothing for now."

"Okay. Thanks for the heads up."

"No problem. I will let you know what happens."

"Please do."

"I will. I will call you later, Allen."

"Bye Jade, and try not to kill him."

"I can't promise anything." I sighed.

"Please try."

"I will."

"Thank you."

"Bye Allen." I hung up on him.

I send a quick text to Kendall.

"We need to talk, now."

"I'm busy, it can wait."

"NOW, Kendall. Not as your wife, but as your manager."

"Fine, I will be right there."

I sat there waiting for Kendall, who seemed to be taking his sweet time. The only good thing it did, was give me time to figure out who the fucking bitch was.

I had just found her Facebook page when Kendall finally climbed up on the bus.

"What do you want Jade? I though we said all we had to say to each other."

"Wanna tell me what this is?" I turned my laptop towards him and showed him the pictures.

"Where did you get those?" His face drained of all color as he closed the lid. "Who told you?"

"Does it really matter who told me? Why didn't you?"

"Because I knew you would over react like this."

"I wouldn't be so pissed if you would have told me when you got the first one." I threw my hands up. "You have gotten 15 emails like this since the second night of the tour and you still didn't want to tell me? Why?"

"I didn't want you to think I cheated on you." He shrugged.

"I'm not stupid, Kendall, I know you'd never cheat on me."

"Then why are you so pissed?"

"I'm pissed you didn't tell me. Do you not trust me?"

"You know I trust you with my life."

"Then why not tell me?"

"We had just gotten back together, I don't know, I guess I freaked." He shrugged.

"Am I that bad, you really couldn't tell me?"

He just shrugged.

"Damnit Kendall, what if she had leaked them? They don't paint a very good picture of you." I shook my head. "Tell me what happened."

"You and Gracie had just gone back to Michigan and I was feeling lonely. So Carlos and Logan took me out. I got drunk and she attached herself to me. They pulled me away before anything really bad could happen. I had forgotten all about it, until I got the first email."

"You should have told me."

"She's just some crazy fan."

"She's claiming she's pregnant." I looked up at him. "With your child."

"I did not sleep with her."

"I know that." I ran my fingers through my hair.

"Then what's the big deal?"

"The big deal is, she's only 17."

"What?" He looked shocked.

"Oh yeah."

"What are we going to do?"

"There isn't anything we can do."

"There's nothing we can do?" He shook his head. He stood up so he could star pacing. "I don't believe that."

"I can't do anything unless she releases the photos."

"Bull shit. You just don't want to help me."

"You are a piece of work. Now you want my help?" I laughed and shook my head. "What do you want me to do? Call and threaten her?"

"Yes, why not?"

"Because that's stupid."

"You're being stupid."

"You are stupid because you should have told me about them right away."

"Like you should have told me about your little drinking problem."

I didn't say anything as I stood up and hit him in the face, knocking him back into the couch.

I didn't even look at him as I walked off the bus.

I was so pissed and hurt that I just slammed my fist into the wall.

"That was stupid, why did you do that?" I looked at Alex who was shaking his head.

"Because it was smarter than killing my husband." I tried to move my fingers, but that just shot pain up my arm.

"You most likely broke your hand. You hit the wall pretty hard."

"No shit Sherlock" I growled at him. "Tell me something I didn't know."

"Maybe I should take you to the ER."

"Maybe you should mind your own fucking business."

"Jade, I'm just trying to help." He sighed.

"I don't need any fucking help."

"I'm sure you don't." He rolled his eyes.

I would have hit him too, but I doubt my hand would have liked that.

"God Jade, what happened?" Alexa walked over to us and took my hand into hers.

"I punched the wall."

"Why?" She looked up at me.

"Because hitting Kendall would have hurt more."

"So you hit a brick wall." She looked confused.

"Yes, and as you can see the wall won."

"Maybe we should go to the ER." She looked at Alex.

"Why, I already know it's broken." I rolled my eyes. "And it hurts like Hell."

Alexa rolled her eyes and pulled out her phone. Not five minutes later Logan had joined us.

"What the Hell happened?"

"Short version, Kendall and I had a fight, I hit him stormed off the bus, and then I thought it would be a good idea to hit a brick wall." I held up my hand. "And as you can see the wall won."

"Okay, I'm taking you to the ER."

"Logan, you have to stay here for the sound check. Alexa and Alex can take me.

"No, I want to go."

"Logan, don't argue with me, I'm in pain and I want you to stay here. They can take me. Plus someone needs to keep Gracie busy." He sighed and shook his head. "Please for me, Logie."

"Fine, what should I tell her?"

"The truth."

"And Kendall?"

"Whatever the Hell you want."

"Jade."

"Later Logan, later. My hand hurts like Hell."

"Get her to the ER." Logan sighed.

"I need my purse."

"I will go get it." Alexa walked towards my bus.

"Let's get you in the car." Alex wrapped an arm around my shoulder and led me to his rental car.

God this is not how I wanted to spend my afternoon.

Fuck my life.

But I did this to myself, I had no one to blame but me.