Loosing It
Claire Blanc
Based Off Of Glee: Season 1 Episode 2
Characters: Rachel B., Emma P.
Words: 943
Rating: K+
Genre 1: -
Genre 2: -
Pairings: -
Summary: Glee- Season 1 Episode 2: As Emma realizes the fault in the relationship she thought she and Will had, Rachel tries to deal with her feelings toward Finn and Quinn. (One-Shot)
Emma wiped down the passenger seat in Ken's car and sat down, watching Ken close the door beside her. She gulped and took a deep breath knowing that if she was going to make it through the ride she'd need to calm down. The car started to move and the cans near her feet rolled side to side. She desperately wanted to just run out of the car and go home so she could cry all the tears that had been building up all day.
Taking a deep, but silent breath she calmed down and decided to busy herself with cleaning the dashboard and the door handle. Everything that she did reminded her of Will. Cleaning. Breathing. Eating. He was completely stuck in her head. Emma knew that Ken was right. It was wrong to chase a married man who had a baby on the way. It was insane. Will wasn't available. Not at all. And she needed to remember that.
Not only was it wrong and insane to chase him, it was something that could ruin the relationship, if one, they had. They were really good friends. Not great, but pretty good. It was something that Emma had cherished from the day she had met Will. A good friendship was what she needed the most at the moment, but after what had happened the night before at the school, she wasn't sure she could talk to Will again without it being awkward. That's what she had to think about.
Rachel looked at pictures of Finn and Quinn on the internet. It wasn't the first time she had done that, but it surely wasn't the last either. Usually she'd just look up hot-heads like Finn and Quinn on the internet when she was down, then see the faults in them and just sing about it. It made her feel better at times.
Rachel sighed, wishing that Finn would notice her more. That he could see how much she could do for him, and how much support he'd get from her. But that's not the case. There was way too much between Rachel and Finn for her to even hope that she had a chance with the quarterback. First, he was part of the football team. Everyone on the football team hated her. And I mean everyone.
Also the cheerleaders. Quinn Fabray to be exact. Quinn may have been beautiful and a role model to many un-named children, but she was a complete bitch. Nothing would ever be able to get in her way when it came to Finn. Nothing. Not a single thing. Not even Rachel. Quinn was way too confident when it came to that stuff. She'd have her little minions up and running before Rachel would even get a taste of Finn. Well technically, she had already gotten a taste, but she'd never mention that to Quinn.
Oh, and you can't forget the whole school! Even though some of the students may have seemed nice and supportive, no one, and I mean no one would ever route for a football player and a highly confident outcast. No one. Rachel just had to except that no matter how hard she tried, she'd never have Finn. It was way off topic. The only way she'd ever be able to get him is if she got famous suddenly and stole Finn away from Quinn. Well, that was her plan in the first place. Nothing says correct like a celebrity stealing a middle-class citizen's boyfriend away. Then again, no one knows who ever said that. It's just a myth.
Rachel brushed out her hair and wiped off her face from tear stains and light globs of wet make-up. She knew that she'd never get Finn, even if she was famous, and she needed to realize that. And she did, which made her sleep a lot better.
Emma opened her apartment door and sighed. She hung up her jacket and purse in the closet in their organized spaces and walked to her room, immediately collapsing on her bed and breaking out into tears.
Why couldn't she have Will? Why was Ken so right? Why did Will's wife have to be pregnant? No one answered the questions that was said in her head. Maybe it was a good thing that she wasn't answered, it just proves that she isn't that insane after all.
Emma sighed and closed her eyes, taking away the eternal pain she was feeling at that moment. She was going to have to deal with it. Deal with Will and his life without her. Deal with Ken and his annoying dates. Deal with the world as it was. Who knew that the school guiadence cousilor had so many issues herself. Well, other that being completely afraid of germs, so to speak.
Emma wasn't only going to deal with it, she was going to live with it. And starting the next day she was going to do that. Wait, never mind, Monday, she was going to start. And with that Emma cried and cried and cried until she fell asleep. A what a sleep she was going to have.