I woke up before Andy, he was completely knocked out. I must be good then. I giggled softly to myself and looked up to the roof and remembered looking into his blue, lustful eyes, as he begged for more, the lovingly stare he gave me, the way he ran his fingers down my sweaty back. I honestly don't think it gets any better than that. Feeling that close to the man I love, is the best thing that'd ever happen to me. I remembered his heavy breathing, the way our lips lightly brushed, the butterflies and adrenaline that filled me, me and him, like that. Made me whole. I felt amazing. It wasn't just sex like I'd have with Brooke. It was love, his blue eyes looking back in mine, the way he threw his head back. The way he said my name, with instant pleasure. I wish that could last forever. It was just that great, I looked over at him and played with his hair softly, kissing his back softly, he made a little noise and woke up, turning slowly to me.
"Shaun" he smiled
"hey baby" I smiled back
"that wasn't a dream was it?"
"no. it was real, and amazing"
"I don't think anything could be any better than that"
"neither" he wrapped his arms around my neck
"what's even more amazing is waking up naked next to you and getting to feel your soft ivory skin touch my body" I added
"I love you so much baby" he kissed me softly, I kissed him back and smiled.
"I love you too baby.." I nuzzled my nose with his, he scrunched his face up and giggled
"so what's on the agenda of Shaun and Andy today?"
"hmm, let me think. We might need to stop by mums and tell her that I'm okay and stuff"
"oh yeah, you never want your mum to be worried. Worried mums are the worse"
"I know right" I giggled "come on" we got up and got ready.

later, we got to mums, we walked out and walked inside.
"MUM, YOU HOME? IT'S SHAUN!"
"oh honey, you're home, we're in the lounge!"
we walked in, dad was there too.
"oh hey dad"
"hey son, hey Andy"
"h-hey Mr Diviney" I looked over to Andy, Andy has only seen my dad once. When I was depressed and we broke up.
"how you both doing"
"great" he said
"wonderful dad...w-what are you doing here?" I went and sat next to mum, Andy sat next to me
"I came to pick up Liam, he has a dad thing to attend at school"
"oh okay. Well I just came to tell mum that I'm okay" I smiled at mum, she smiled at me
"well it's good to know you're okay" she put her hand on my back
"now why were you upset?" dad but in
"I…I had a girlfriend" I bit my lip
"you HAD a girlfriend? What, you too dorky for her or something?"
"stop, why are you being a dick to him?" mum told him, Andy was in his own world right then and there.
"because I deserve to know these things!"
"well maybe he's still upset about them!" I Stood up
"SHUT UP! THE BOTH OF YOU! SHE CHEATED ON ME OKAY, AND IT KILLED ME, SHE CHEATED WITH THE GUY WHO USED TO BASH ME UP AND NOW I'VE BEEN STAYING AT ANDY'S BECAUSE I'M JUST GONNA GET SHIT LIKE THIS IF I STAYED HERE" Andy looked up at me, I looked at him "let's go babe.." he mouthed, I sighed shakily.
"no surprise she cheated, you're the only Diviney that looks gayish and sucks in bed …and probably is still a virgin. Hey, where's your eyeliner today son?"
"fuck off dad, I used to put up with this growing up and now, I definitely do not need it!" I walked out, Andy ran after me and grabbed my hand.
"baby, you okay?"
"no, I wanna go home, but I have none. Can I just sleep?"
"let's go back to mine baby, come on" he pulled me out to the car, we both got in and I looked at him, I felt like crying.
"Baby don't cry..."
"My dad's a bastard" I sniffed
"please, please don't cry" he whispered and put his hand on my cheek
"I-I'm sorry" a tear rolled
"baby…" he wrapped his arms around me and closed his eyes; I pushed him away slowly and kissed his lips.
"I love you..." I whispered
"I love you too…" he whispered back. Suddenly I heard the door open; I turned around to see a slightly disgusted father.
"Shit…" he grabbed me by the shirt, pulled me out of the car and pushed me against the car, I groaned. Andy got out.
"I knew you were a faggot ass fucking loser"
"dad..s-stop"
"LET HIM GO!" Andy yelled
"shut up ass licker" he said then looked back at me, slapping me across the face. "You're a soulless fucking beast. I regret you, so much" he pushed me against the car, Andy ran around and pushed him off me and wrapped his arms around me. Mum came running and pulled him away. I snuggled into Andy, he consoled me lovingly, I bursted into tears.
"sh baby, you're perfect to me"
"I-I wish I was never born"
"no baby please don't say that…you're everything to me" he kissed my head softly, I heard the argument in the background.
"There's nothing wrong with being in love with the same sex!" my mum said
"nothing wrong? Do you want him to get aids and die? It's disgusting, sinful. I can't believe you raised him!"
"he's your son too and you raised him!"
"maybe I don't want him to be and I hate him!"
"well you're the one who put him inside me, he's your son. Get over it"
"I won't get over it! My son is a faggot with a shitty band. I hope he gets raped and gets his throat slit. He is a soulless fucker, I can't believe he's my son! He's a disappointment to our family!"
"I think I'm going to be sick…" I mumbled and ran out of Andy's arms, he ran after me, I got to the bathroom and locked the door, a kneeled down in front of the toilet and puked, the fowl taste was stuck in my mouth, I spat in the toilet and sniffed as I flushed the toilet, I closed the lid and sat on it, bursting into more tears. I hate my father, to my absolute core. He wants me dead. I wish I was dead, I wish I was dead. All I could hear was screaming by my parents and Andy, it's like when I was little all over again, I was 6. I sat in my room playing with my toys and all I could hear was screaming, my mum got slapped, dad walked out. All I could hear was a bang and mums sobbing as dad slammed the door. I was scared so much. I lifted my sleeve. I think it's time I released my worthlessness. I opened the cupboard and grabbed the razor I hid it there a while back. I wiped my eyes dry of tears and slid it down my wrist, blood swelled out which made me calm. I sat against the door and slid my pants down a fraction. Stabbing and dragging it against my skin. All I could hear was arguing, I threw the razor across the room and slid down till I was lying on the floor, tears ran down my face still, why must all this shit happen to me? I closed my eyes and suddenly woke up to someone banging on the door.
"SHAUN, COME OUT OF THERE PLEASE!" I heard Andy
"please be okay baby, please open the door" I heard him cry, rattling the handle. I groaned and sat up.
"A-Andy…"
"SHAUN! Let me in please, please…"
"I-In a minute" I sniffed and pulled my pants up and grabbed a band aid, putting it on my wrist cut and opened the door slowly. Andy quickly wrapped his arms around me.
"baby, please tell me you're okay. Please baby please, please"
"why does everything bad happen to me…?" I sniffed. He hugged me tighter, I groaned.
"no, that's not true. You're amazing. You okay baby?"
"I-I'm fine. My head hurts because I fell asleep on the floor"
"oh god. I'm so sorry" he kissed my head, another tear rolled, I wiped it away.
"don't be..w-where's mum?"
"she's lying down, your dad took off. Liam is just in his room quiet"
"I never asked about dad nor Liam…let's just go" I walked away and went to the car, he got in too.
"baby, we'll be okay"
"I hope so…"
he sighed and drove away. I just want to die. I don't know what will make me happy again.

we got home, I walked in and crashed on the couch, my face was the same sad expression as it was ten minutes ago.
"Shaun, you okay?" I heard Bradie. I didn't respond
"Bradie…I think it's best if you just went to your room…Shaun's really sad" Andy said
"oh, gotcha, see you at dinner"
"okay.." he sat next to me and wrapped an arm around me, I jolted away.
"baby, let me hold you at least?"
"I want to be alone" I started to cry again, as soon as I speak, I cry. I got up and went to the bedroom, lying down. Andy came in and lied next to me.
"baby, look in my eyes" he said, I looked up into them
"forget about them…remember what last night felt like. My skin on your skin, my lips brushing yours, our hearts beating at over 100ks per second. Who cares about them. At least you've got love…" I smiled slightly remembering. It really was great.
"thank you baby, I love you" I wrapped my arms around him and kissed him softly, he kissed me back deeply. Fuck, he's horny. He pushed me down and got on top whispering. "I think it's my turn to love you…" he kissed my neck slowly and unbuttoned my shirt, kissing down my chest slowly with tongue and cupped me, I moaned softly and bit my lip. I've wanted him to fuck me for so long.
"Andy baby…"
"mhm?" he said, running his tongue over my nipple and down to my lower stomach
"I love you"
"I love you too" he mumbled, I bit my lip, containing my moans, he slid my pants down slowly and kissed the big bulge in my underwear, I moaned softly and looked down at him, he opened his eyes and gasped, sitting up. Fuck, my cuts.
"baby, it's not what you think." I slid my pants back up
"S-Shaun, how could you…you've been so good"
"baby, just love me please, please don't, not" I sat up and wrapped my arms around his neck. I can't even speak properly
"I-I don't know"
"please…" I moaned softly in his ear and kissed his neck softly with tongue, he pushed me off.
"no Shaun, I can't. I don't…I just don't feel like it now"
"please baby…please make me feel better, please…"
"I need to go…" he got up, I suddenly bursted into tears again
"don't do this to me, I feel like dying already, you're my only hope, you're my boyfriend, you're supposed to make me feel better"
"well, I'm the reason you're like this so yeah, I clearly don't help. I just need alone time. Bye Shaun" he walked to the door and opened it.
"I-I love you so much" I said and then he slammed the door. All I want is to be happy. I feel so alone. I got up and stood in front of Andy's mirror, pulling down my pants, I counted the cuts, 17, 18 plus the one on my wrist. I got into his track pants and hoodie and got under the covers, cuddling up and sniffing his clothes. This was as close as I will get to him holding me right now I guess, I closed my eyes and cuddled his pillow, I couldn't believe my life right now. The girl I loved and trusted cheated and then my dad slaps me and calls me a soulless monster and shit and now the love of my life won't speak to me.

I tried to sleep for about half an hour, I was hoping Andy would come back but I think he went out with Bradie, I haven't heard a thing. I sat up. Maybe I should write some songs. I grabbed my writing book that I take everywhere and grabbed a pen. Music was one of my only escapes; I hummed to myself for a while and started to write some things. 'but I've got no soul, call the doctor, I cant stop her. We're keeping the faith alive. Help me father, I don't think I'm ever gonna come down, I feel totally fixated, unappreciated. ' meh, fuck it. I'm shit at everything I do now. I put away and lied back down. I closed my eyes and sighed, smelling Andy's scent under my nose, I felt a tear slip it's way down my face as I slowly fell asleep.

I woke up to music pumping and people talking loudly, I looked at the time, 2am, I sighed and got up, making my way out to the lounge. Jimmy, Jumpnow, Bradie, Sonny, Lewis, Andy, they were all there. Andy came over to me and grabbed my hand.
"come on sexy let's play some beer pong"
"Andy, you're drunk…"
"no I'm not babe, come on" he tugged me toward the guys
"hey Shaun!" they all said
"hi" I dully replied, Andy kissed my cheek and sat down, the alcohol stench struck my nostrils.
"sit down baby" he slapped my ass
"Andy, stop…" I sat down next to him. What the fuck was wrong with him.
"come on baby" he pulled me firecley to his side and kissed my cheek, I pushed him off an stood up " .alone" I stormed into his room and shut the door, sliding down. Can't he see that all I want to do is die? And he's drunk and playing beer pong with the guys. Can't he see that I need him more than anything right now? I felt a push on the door.
"what?!" I said fiercely
"It's Bradie"
I sighed and crawled up onto the bed "come in" Bradie came in and sat next to me
"you okay Shaun?"
"I-I don't know…why is Andy drunk, all I need is to be held…"
"Andy just doesn't know how to take it, he came to me crying Shaun, he was saying how much you meant to him and how he can't live without you, he really loves you Shaun, he's just finding it hard to cope with all of your drama"
"w-why? All I need is him…"
he sighed "because…because it's reminded him of the past…"
"o-oh.."
"you okay Shaun?"
"can you just go? I want to be alone, or with h-him"
"I understand…" he bit his lip and got up, walking out. I got under the covers and cuddled up. I feel so alone, so worthless.

Later, after an hour or so of crying, Andy walked in, stumbling and falling on the bed, hugging my hips.
"I love you" he said groggily
"love you too…"
"come on baby" he sat up and lied next to me, running his hand through my hair.
"I'm sorry Shauny, I just wanted to love you but I'm so shit at relationships and I fuck up everything…" I turned around to him, he looked like he was going to cry.
"Andy-"
"I-I can never love anyone, I'm a fuck up Shaun, I can't even protect you."
"Andy, baby. Calm down please, all I wanted was for you to hold me…"
"I'm sorry. So, so sorry" he pulled me close and held me, I snuggled into his chest.
"I felt so hopeless, alone" I felt tears come to my eyes
"no, no baby, you're perfect an you have me, always for-…I think I'm gonna be sick" he got up and ran to the toilet, I went after him. He threw up and groaned, lying down on the tiles. I flushed the toilet and sat next to him, pulling him into my arms and stroked his hair.
"god Andy, you're so wasted" I giggled slightly
"just promise me something Shaun, promise we'll grow old together, adopt a child, hopefully get married. I'm so in love with you and your sexy ass, when we made love. It was incredible, just. Marry…me…" he drifted to sleep in my arms, I bit my lip, my smile huge, whispering "I promise baby…and I would marry you if I could" I smiled slightly and picked him up in my arms and carried him to the bed, putting him down and laid next to him, pulling the cover over us.
"I love you Andy" I whispered and slowly fell asleep.

ANDY P.O.V

I woke up the next day, hangover as hell. The only thing I remember last is walking out on Shaun and getting the guys and playing beer pong, not even bothering with Shaun. Which I regret. I couldn't handle the pressure, I knew he needed me, all I wanted to do was love and hold him but, I couldn't handle it. All the past memories came flooding back. I groaned and looked over at the peacefully sleeping Shaun. I don't want to lose him again. I can't lose him again. I just can't. He means the world to me and I just can't lose him. What if I already lost him? Fuck, what happened last night. My head hurts and it hurts more along with my heart when I think of losing or hurting Shaun again. I kissed his head softly then stared up at the roof. When me and Shaun had sex, it felt amazing being so close. I just want him to hold me and love me, brush my lips with his, feel the pleasure he feels, running his fingers down his back. Thinking these things don't make me horny, it makes me miss him and want more. I just want him to love me like that forever. If only his father didn't fuck everything up for us. I love him so much and I feel like I'm losing him. Like he's slipping through my fingers. I sighed as Shaun slowly woke up.
"A-Andy…"
"yes Shaun" I looked into his eyes
he bit his lip "was…was what you said last night true?"
"what? What did I say?" I faced him
"y-you said you wanted to grow old with me, adopt a child with me…marry me…"
"I said that?" fuck. I let it all out. What I was thinking after the sex.
"yeah...I'm just wondering if you meant it?"
"of…of course I meant it, I can't imagine my life any other way"
"r-really?" his face brightened up a little
"yes! You're my forever…"
"I love you so much Andy!" he jumped on me and wrapped his arms around my neck, I hugged him back lovingly around his waist.
"I love you too Shaun, so much…" he snuggled into me. I love him so much, why must I fuck up all the time?

SHAUN P.O.V

a couple weeks later…

it's been two weeks now, I guess I'm recovering. Recording in the studio got my mind off things, I've been writing a lot lately. Andy has been more comforting too. He actually loves and cares for me. I'm so in love with him. Andy walked in and ran up to me, wrapping his arms around my waist.
"hey Shauny" he smiled
"Hey" I giggled "I cooked some pancakes if you'd like some?" I asked
"no thank you, I had lunch with Bradie"
"okay, more for me then" I smirked and grabbed the plate of pancakes, sitting at the table and starting to eat them, Andy sat next to me and started scrolling his Facebook on his phone.
"gah, Brooke's status' about wanting you back are flooding my newsfeed" he sighed
"baby, I wouldn't let her, at least not for a while"
"what do you mean, 'not for a while'"
"I mean, I won't speak to her at all for a while"
"oh, I see"
"Andy. Are you…are you jealous?"
"me? Jealous? Never, I'm not that type of guy" he said, getting up.
"uh…huh" I said, biting my lip and getting up, putting my plate in the dishwasher
"I'm really not"
"you've denied that of Brooke so many times"
"so what, I'm a little jealous of a stunning beautiful blonde who gets a good perfect man like you and is always taking you away. I'm sick of it happening over and over"
"it's only happened twice…"
"yeah, twice. Just, forget it Shaun…" he stormed to the bedroom, I went after him
"Andy!"
"no Shaun, you don't get it. Have you ever felt this way when I was with Sarah? Or any of my ex's? no? well that's a surprise" he sat on the side of the bed, putting his face in his hands, I sat next to him and put my hand on his back.
"Andy, I was a little jealous but we're best friends-"
"no, we're boyfriends. We used to be ex-boyfriends and best friends"
"so? I'm still here for you 100%. Can we just move on from this?"
"hmm I guess so"
"thank you" I kissed his cheek softly "I love you Andy"
"I love you too" he looked at me and kissed me softly, I smiled and kissed him back softly, he put his hand on my cheek and kissed me soft and slow, I kissed him back in motion, breathing deeply then pulled away.
"Shaun"
"yes Andy?"
"It's my birthday soon"
"wow, really?" I grabbed my phone and realised the date, the 18th. Shit. It's next week.
"sorry Andy. these last weeks have gone fast and-"
"it's fine Shaun" he smiled
"good" I bit my lip. I seriously need to buy him something.

I walked out and drove Andy's car to the shop. What am I going to buy for him? What would he like? I bit my lip and walked in, where do I start? I walked down and looked around, I don't know what he'd like. Oh, I know. After searching around and looking I found rose petals and bought some candles. Cheesy, I know. But I was going to give him one of the most amazing romantic birthday, just me and him, maybe even prepare for 'love making'. I just want him to feel happy, I included. I made my way to the car with them and made my way home, by home I mean Andy's house. When I got to Andy's I quickly hid it in his room, I'll ask Bradie to leave for the night, I want to make it the best night he's had since the sex. I walked out and chilled on the couch casually, checking twitter on my phone and replying to fans that badly want a reply and giggled at some. The fans make me smile and laugh. Half of them are asking about the album we've been working on, it's nearly finished. By nearly I mean not even close, we're missing a few bits and pieces. It'll be out mid-November we hope. Andy walked in suddenly, I sat up.
"Hey baby" he smiled, I got up and ran to him, wrapping my arms around his waist.
"Hey cutie, what you been up to?"
"just went to Shan's for a catch up"
"awesome" I smiled and heard my phone go off, Andy went and took it.
"ha…ha" he said, looking at it.
"what is it babe…?" I walked to him slowly
"oh you know, just Brooke "hey babe, we should catch up soon, speak about a few things, please text back" ex oh ex oh" he said childishly and smiled jealously.
"what?!" I ran to him and grabbed it "this is the first message I've gotten from her…"
"great, fucking great, she's taking you away from me" Andy sighed, sitting on the couch, I sat next to him, looking at the message.
"I wouldn't Andy…" I looked at him, he looked back at me.
"y-you sure?"
"positive, c'mere" I pulled him close and kissed his head softly, he smiled.
"I'll just text her a simple no and that'll be the end of it" I texted 'no' and sent it, looking at him, he smiled at me, looking in my eyes.
"thank you baby, I love you"
"I love you too Andy…"
I can't believe Brooke did that, she really wants me, she's fucking with me. She'd rather me be with her and be forever alone rather than with Andy, I know it.

ANDY P.O.V

it's been a week since Brooke sent that text. And yes, that means it's my birthday, Shaun decided to go home yesterday, all I want is him, I don't know how I can trust him around Brooke especially, or with his mum, brothers, dad. I need him okay and safe. I got up and grabbed juice from the fridge, pouring it in the glass and had a sip, Bradie walked in with his girlfriend, fuck, I could have at least put proper pants on.
I smiled at them. "morning"
"Happy Birthday Andy" she said
"yeah, Happy Birthday bro, I have something for you" he smiled that huge smile, taking Britta and himself to his room, I had another gulp of my juice as he came out with a small present, passing it to me, I grabbed it and smiled at him, ripping it open. I stared at him.
"you like?" he laughed
"spyro, you got me spyro?"
"well, you keep complaining about how you never got to finish it so yeah"
"I don't even own an xbox 360"
"that's when this comes in…BABE!" She came out with a big wrapped up box, I unwrapped to see an xbox 360.
"oh my god, thank you guys so much" I hugged them both
"It's okay Andy" she smiled, I smiled back.
"oh, and go to dad and stuff, they have a present for you"
"okay, let me have a shower and dress more appropriate" we giggled and I ran to the bathroom, locking the door and started the shower. I have a feeling this day may actually be great.

After my shower I got dressed and went to mum. She hugged me tight.
"Happy Birthday"
"thanks mum" I smiled, Gerald came out with a big-ish box and passed it to me
"Happy Birthday Andy" he smiled
"thanks Gerald" I ripped off the wrapping and smiled, him and mum got me a MacBook.
"Oh my god thank you so much mum and Gerald" I hugged them both, they smiled.
"it's okay honey" mum said
"go put it together" Gerald smiled, I swear his smile is just like Bradie's.
"okay!" I smiled big and grabbed the box, running to my room, I pulled out my new MacBook and sat it on my desk and did as the instructions said…and now I'm bored. I looked over to my Xbox box and grabbed it, setting it all up and then put in spyro. May as well make time go by fast so Shaun gets here quicker. I giggled to myself and sat on the floor in front of the tv in my room and started playing. It was exactly how I had remembered it, the little purple dragon. I giggled again at my stupidness then heard a knock at the door, I paused the game and looked at my phone. "5:00? Shit!" I whispered to myself, I got up and ran to the door, opening it to see Shaun, I smiled.
"Hey beautiful" he said, smiling and kissing my cheek softly, I bit my lip.
"hey…" He looked and smelt more amazing than usual. I am so lucky to have him. He turned to me "Hey baby, is Bradie here?"
"nope, him and Britta left whilst I was talking to mum"
he walked up to me and put his hand on my cheeks softly, he smiled.
"Happy Birthday gorgeous"
"thank you Shaun" I giggled softly, looking into his deep blue eyes
"now" he said, snapping me back into reality "you sit back and relax and I'll cook us some food"
"okay baby, don't blow up the kitchen" I laughed, he giggled.
"I won't…hey, what did you get from everyone?"
"well, I got a Xbox and spyro game from Bradie"
"is that meant to be a joke?"
"no, he actually gave it to me, and I'm usually the one who jokes about it"
"that is very true" he smiled "what else did you get?"
"I got a MacBook from Gerald and mum. I like, flipped over in my head"
"wow, my present won't beat that…and hey, you could start putting that doco of us like you wanted" I walked over to him and put my hands on his chest. "you being here, is the best present ever…and yeah, maybe. Gotta get all the clips sorted first" he blushed slightly at my first comment.
"fuck, you're amazing"
"hey, hey, I'm gonna go sit down now whilst my wonderful boyfriend fixes up dinner!" I giggled and made my way the couch, turning on the tv. He started cooking from what I could smell, my tastebuds wanting some of whatever it was. After he finished cooking he called me over to the table, I got up to see an amazing steak with chips and salad dinner with two glasses of champagne and rose petals laid on the table with a candle in the middle, I smiled big and made my way to the table and sat down.
"thank you so much Shaun, I love you so much, this looks so good"
"you're welcome babe" he smiled and sat across from me, we started to eat a bit and then Shaun lifted his glass.
"Here's to the most beautiful man on his 23rd birthday, I love you so much Andy"
I smiled and clinked his glass with mine. "Cheers and thank you" I winked and took a sip as did he. We continued to eat and talk about how life was all that time ago in high school.
"you know, I think that without you I'd be nothing at all" Shaun said, smiling at me, I smiled back.
"I think I wouldn't even be alive right now if it weren't for you Shaun"
"I love you Andy"
"I love you too Shaun" I smiled.
We both finished our dinner and he grabbed mine along with his own plate and put it in the sink, I had a sip of my drink and stood up.
"Shaun, honestly, this is the best thing you've ever done"
"I do all I can for the ones I love" he turned to me smiling.
I blushed slightly and bit my lip "so what's next?"
"we can watch a movie? And it's your choice" he winked
"ahhh, stuff you." I giggled and looked through the movie collection, I saw movies from Nemo to Titanic, I pulled out Spiderman.
"this?" I asked
"perfect, just like you" Shaun giggled and sat down on the couch, I put the dvd on and sat next to him, he wrapped his arm around my shoulder, I smiled and looked up into his beautiful blue eyes, he looked back in mine, my heart instantly skipped a beat. Fuck, I was so in love. He kissed my cheek lightly and sang softly in my ear.
"I can't do anything right, so I sell my soul to the night, to be setting fire with you, I can't take this anymore, with you I fall through the floors , without you I'm nothing at all…" My heart melted at that soothing voice in my ear, I looked at him.
"you're amazing Shaun…"
"I did write that song towards you" he smiled, I put my hands on his cheeks.
"I fucking love you" I smashed my lips to his, closing my eyes, he put his hands on my waist, grabbing my shirt and kissed me soft but passionate; I slowly got on top of him, kissing him deeply. Shaun smiled under the kiss and ran his hand up my back, sliding his tongue along my bottom lip, begging for entry, I opened my mouth slowly, running my tongue around his. I don't know what had just gotten into me. I couldn't resist the urge not to be this close to him. I've wanted him for weeks now. Our tongue battled for a couple minutes, my heart was beating so fast, I felt him start to get harder beneath me, I smirked and giggled, he pulled away and put his finger on my lips.
"sh…"
I looked in his eyes and kissed his finger softly, he smiled at me and then bit his lip.
"wanna take this to the bedroom?" I nodded and got off him, he got up and then wrapped his arms around my waist from the back, I smiled, he started kissing my neck slowly with his tongue, sucking on it softly, I moaned softly.
"god, Shaun…" I felt him smirk, I pulled out of his grip and grabbed his hand, dragging him to my bedroom, closing the door. He ran up to me, pushing me up against the door, smashing our lips back together, I pushed my tongue in, our tongues battled deeply as he started to push his crotch on mine, I groaned loudly and threw my head back.
"fuck, Shaun…" He picked me up and put me on the bed, getting on top of me and started sucking on my neck again, massaging the spot with his tongue. He slowly unbuttoned my shirt, running his fingers over my nipple, I moaned loudly and took his shirt off as he did to me. Biting my neck, he pulled my pants down, I bit my lip and pushed his pants down with my feet. I reached my hand to the bed side drawer and pulled out a condom, He looked into my eyes as I held it, he grabbed it off me and ripped it open with his teeth, throwing the packet away and sliding it on his length, I spread my legs and closed my eyes. I knew what was next. He slowly thrusted into me, I scrunched my face up and moaned.
"oh fuck…"
"mhm…" he moaned, going harder. I wrapped my arms around his neck as he kissed my neck again, I cried out as he started going faster, I ran my fingers through his hair, he pushed deeper and faster. We rocked at an even pace, my breath went from even to heavy, he panted as he went faster, I wrapped my legs around his hips, he wrapped his arms around me and sat up, thrusting into me, I threw my head back.
"Oh Shaun! Fuck…right there" He kissed my neck roughly with tongue, moaning loudly in pleasure. I ran my hand down his sweaty back, trying to grip on. I felt my stomach knot and clenched my eyes shut as I started to reach my climax.
"I-I'm gonna cum!"
"s-same!" He groaned and laid me back down, thrusting faster until he started going more jaggedly, I started to orgasm and cried out loudly "FUCK YES!" I screamed as I came on his chest, he whimpered and panted, cumming into me, riding out his orgasm he pulled out and collapsed next to me, breathing heavily.
"oh wow…" he said breathless
I turned my head to him. "that was amazing" I smiled, he smiled back and put his hand on my cheek, kissing me softly.
"Happy Birthday Andy…"
"thank you Shaun"
He got up and cleaned up, I stretched and looked at him as he came back.
"I love you so much Shaun"
He smiled and laid next to me again, he pulled the covers over us, snuggling up to me.
"I love you too Andy, I hope you had a good birthday"
"this has to be, the best birthday I have had" I smiled and kissed his head lightly
"really? I tried so much to make you happy baby"
"well thank you, so much" I smiled, he smiled back
"Sleepy time?"
"I think so" I yawned, he giggled and closed his eyes, pulling me into the spooning position.
"ni-night Andy…" he said softly
"night baby…" I said quietly, slowly drifting to sleep.