ANDY P.O.V
I woke up Sunday morning with a throbbing head, watery eyes and aching bones, I looked next to me to see Justine was gone, she was always working, luckily her times were getting changed soon. I groaned and stretched my body. All I remember from last night is going to Blaze with Justine, seeing Brooke there with her friends. Awkwardly dancing and that's all. I got up and went to the bathroom slowly, grabbing two Panadols and then a beer from the fridge, popping them in my mouth and washing them down with the beer. Alcohol is a great hangover cure.
"Andy, why are you drinking?" Bradie aid, I jumped slightly. Why is he here?
"hangover cure, what are you doing here?"
"looking after your stupid ass. You got drunk last night, Justine said you were laughing in happiness and doing all sorts of weird shit. I had to help her bring you back here at 4am, you were trashed"
"well it won't happen again, I'm sorry. It was probably because Brooke was there"
"sure, then explain all those other times you got drunk during last week and the week before"
"so what, I like to drink"
"you get drunk to make yourself happy. You're an alcoholic Andy!"
"no, I'm looking for a good time."
"you're gonna kill yourself, you realize that?"
fuck, he was in a shittier mood than normal.
"FINE! I'll 'quit' drinking If that's what you want me to do" I said, putting the beer back in the fridge. My head banged at the sound of the closing door.
"thank you" he sighed
"now fuck off so I can sleep" I said, walking back towards my room.
"fine, whatever. See you" he said, the slam of the front door killed me. I groaned and collapsed on the bed. I can't believe I made a fool of myself in front of Justine. I'm not an alcoholic though. I swear I'm not. I just like being happy, I'm happiest with Justine. I wish I had her in my arms right now. I sighed and closed my eyes. I just want to be happy. My happiness is Justine; she takes my mind off everything and makes me smile. I miss smiling. Yeah, I used to drink a lot but I've cut down. That has to be at least the fourth time Bradie has called me an alcoholic. I hate it when he says it. I really fucking do. I felt my phone vibrate on my bed suddenly. I looked at it. 'Open your door…' it was Shaun. Fuck. I got up slowly, sliding some track pants on and my hoodie, walking to the door, opening it.
"What?" I sighed
"Why didn't you tell me…" he looked hurt. Okay then?
"What?" I said slightly confused, itching my head.
"Justine. You, tr-…"
"tried to kill myself? Oh, I didn't think you would care, you said it was best if you were out of my life so…"
"Can we talk about this, please"
"fine" I sighed, walking to the kitchen and sitting at the table. Shaun sat next to me.
"Andy, w-why did you even try…? On your birthday…"
"I just feel like no one cares" I looked down at my arm then back at him.
"I-I care" he bit his lip
"If you cared you wouldn't have of kissed Brooke when we were together, happily, or at least that's what I thought…"
"It was a mistake, but look what happened, you're happy with Justine"
"but I've lost someone I was close too. I don't know if I can even trust you" I admitted. He swallowed hard. "Andy, I'm affected by everything as much as you are"
"so you thought 'yeah, I'll go solo' so we can all be miserable? That's great"
"no…you know that there was more than one reason for that. I'm honestly still fucking upset from it. It still hasn't processed through my brain that it's true, Andy. I-I can't. I don't." he sighed "I don't like speaking about things that made me feel like crap, because of my mistakes. Stack was our baby, Andy, it meant the freaking WORLD to me, but the memories, I couldn't handle it and now, I just don't want to remember"
"I-I loved you…" my voice cracked, looking down.
"I loved you too, please never think that I used you and Stack just to get ahead in life"
"yeah, well, I still don't feel the need for you being in my life" I mumbled, he grabbed my arm and lifted my sleeve
"and these tiny little scars are to prove that?"
"mmm" I pulled my arm from his grip, pulling my sleeves down.
"I'm sorry Andy" He sniffed, heeere we go. I didn't say anything.
"Maybe y-you're right in the end, maybe you are, better off, without me."
I kept looking down, He put his hand on my shoulder, I looked at him.
"Just remember, you and I was the best experience of my life" He leant in to kiss my head, I turned it away, I didn't want to be remembered.
"but clearly, I just lost my best mate in the end…" he continued. I looked down as he got up.
"Hope to hear from you soon…and good news too…b-bye, Andy…" he breathed deeply, I saw him walk out the door, I felt a tear escape my eye, I quickly wiped it.
"Stupid Shaun" I mumbled, sniffing. I can't believe him. He expects me to be okay with everything. I'm not as strong as him. Once upon a time, he was the one crying in my arms. I felt my phone vibrate, I pulled it out of my pocket to see the photo of me and Shaun kissing with the text 'Just remember this, I know we don't want this anymore, but I just thought you should know that I'll always love you, as a b-…' the text started, I bit my lip and slid the unlock button and went to type in my code when the door opened, I quickly locked the phone, putting it on the table face down, wiping my eyes from any tears. Justine walked in.
"Hey baby…you don't look so good" she said, I looked up at her beautiful face, made me smile instantly.
"I'm fine baby, just a morning hangover, sorry you have to see me like this babe, I-I'm gonna go get changed" I bit my lip and stood up, kissing her cheek softly, practically running to my room. I quickly did my hair nicely and put on a good shirt and jeans, spraying myself with Lynx. I walked to the lounge to see Justine with my phone. Shit.
"so…does Shaun want you back?" she said, she looked at me like she was heart-broken, ah, fuck life.
"no baby, no" I grabbed my phone and sat next to her, wrapping my arm around her.
"then what is that. 'Just remember this, I know we don't want this anymore, but I just thought you should know that I'll always love you, as a…? did he say boyfriend?"
"no! I fucking doubt it Justine look, I'll look at it with you, okay?" I slid the unlock button and did the code, starting to read the message.
"Just remember this, I know we don't want this anymore, but I just thought you should know that I'll always love you, as a brother, always. I really fucking miss you, I just thought you should know. I thought you'd be the man I'd be having fun in a nursing home with when we're 90 and old and our kids don't care about us anymore. You're like my best friend forever, I can't imagine life without you. I just thought you should know. ily, bye…and he added a kiss" I bit my lip, I didn't even know what to think about it. Justine grabbed the phone.
"He's so…I don't know, he likes to mess with your head"
"yeah…" I sighed, Justine pressed the phone and zoomed in on the photo
"as much as my heart feels completely fucked, I don't even know about this picture, it's actually cute, you can see how much you two loved each other"
"Meh, I turned into in the end"
"He looks like a good kisser"
"not as good as you, come on, give me your phone" I locked my phone, putting it on the table, she passed me hers, I went onto camera.
"what are you doing?" she smiled slightly
"I'm about to kiss the most amazing girl I've ever met, what about you?" I smirked, leaning in slowly.
"about to kiss the most handsome man I've ever met" she whispered, I giggled slightly and leaned in, kissing her lips slowly and she motioned with me, I closed my eyes and took a photo or two, putting her phone down then caressing her cheeks, kissing her slow but lovingly, she breathed deeply, pulling away but keeping her head to mine.
"Andy…I don't know what you're doing"
"I just want to…I-I don't know, I want to like" I blushed, I didn't want to say 'love you' in case she'd flip out.
"what?"
"like l-…" I bit my lip "Just, kiss me" I whispered, looking in her beautiful eyes, she smiled and leaned in again, I kissed her lips softly, I moved my hands to her waist, pulling her closer. She smiled under the kiss. I slid my tongue in slowly, I felt her smirk widen as I battled with her tongue slowly, I ran my hands slowly up her back then slowly made one to her boob, she giggled and entwined her fingers in my hair as I deepened the make out, I felt her hand slide down to my crotch, I let out a soft moan immediately. Holy fuck. My pants suddenly got tighter, she pulled away slowly, cocking her eyebrow.
"no, no, no, keep kissing me." I said quickly
"I was rather thinking we take this to the bedroom" she giggled flirtingly.
"oh, I see"
she winked and laughed, I stood her up as I got up and pulled her into the bedroom. Before I knew it…sex…
"oh wow" Justine said, breathless, I looked at her and smirked, breathing heavily.
"been a while since that's happened"
"I can tell" she giggled and leaned over to me, kissing my lips lightly.
"I-…I think you're really amazing, Andy"
"I think you're amazing too baby" I smiled, putting my hand on her cheek and returning the kiss.
"I'm really tired now" she said, blushing slightly, pushing her face into my neck
"well then, let's get extra cozy and warm and sleep" I smiled and pulled the blanket over our bodies, holding her beautiful body close, she smiled and kissed my chest softly. I wanted to say 'I love you' but I just can't. I know I'm in love with her, I'm fucking crazy about her.
"night Andy" she smiled and closed her eyes
"night, beautiful…" I sighed and closed my eyes, I treasure every moment with this woman, her body is flawless, her eyes are beautiful, her personality is amazing. I really do not want to fuck this up. I don't think I'll ever find a girl like her ever again.