August…

SHAUN P.O.V
I woke up at 5am, I head off to America today, I'm so excited. I really hope Bradie and Andy like it, even though I haven't really spoken to either of them. I still can't believe Bradie unfollowed me on twitter, even though apparently it was a mistake. I mean, I can't believe I made a big deal out of it. He's my best friend and after everything that's happened, my mind just lost control for those seconds. Bradie seems to be happy anyway, he's been making some awesome sounds for upcoming ads and stuff, he's always loved to do that. As for Andy, I have no clue, last I heard he wanted to get into the music business again or become a director. He deleted his facebook page but brought it back, I guess he just didn't know. He was shocked to find out I was still with Trevor and that, we had a little argument, it was pretty stupid, but he's still chosen to keep me out of his life, for now, just until he picks up his pieces and he is in a loving relationship with Justine as much as I am with Brooke. Brooke is just beautiful and it's funny to see Andy look at a woman with not an 'I want you in my bed' look but an actual 'I love you' look, those looks we used to give each other. Of course I don't love Andy like that anymore, but that was one of the best things that ever happened to me, being that close to a best friend, not caring what the world thought, it was amazing. One day, I may say the real reason for the break up, of course it was musical differences, I'm into the dance and rock & roll, Andy's into rock, punk rock, you name it and Bradie's into all sorts of shit and I was always so frustrated when something didn't sound right in my mind, it all just drifted musically, but I think we're all happy now, I have freedom now, even though I loved working with my best friends, it wasn't working. I'm also happy for the fans who like You're So Cool, but none of my stuff I'm making now and will finish when I get to America will be like that, it'll be spectacular, no doubt. I really hope they like it, I really hope so. I can't wait. I heard a quick knock on the door, I turned to see Brooke walk in, I smiled, she looked so tired though, but the excitement glimmered in her eyes.
"Baby, help me put the stuff in the car? We can get maccas at the airport" she smiled. I zipped up my suitcase and pulled it off the bed.
"alright, let me put this in the boot. Did you take Honey to Mum's?" I asked, walking down to the car, putting the suitcase in. Brooke followed with three heavy tote bags, women, they always have so many things. I grabbed the bags off her and put them in with my two bags.
"thank you babe and yes, I did" she smiled. I kissed her head softly and looked around and notice the sun rise.
"man, it's be such a good time to surf right now" I pouted
"Shaun, you can surf in America, you know?" she laughed, going back inside, I closed the boot and went after her.
"yeah, I know that but still, nothing's like good ol' Australia" I said in a bogan accent, laughing.
"you're so cute, how can you be so awake?" she laughed.
"I need coffee, then see how I am" I laughed "So, we got everything?"
"I think so" she smiled and looked around
"lights off?"
"yep"
"back door locked?"
"yes"
"alright" I smiled big, butterflies of excitement filled my stomach.
"ready to go?" Brooke said, grabbing her handbag
"most definitely" I smiled and grabbed the laptop bag I was taking with me, it didn't have my laptop in it though, just stuff to do on the plane. Brooke kissed me softly, I kissed her back, smiling.
"I'm so excited for you baby" she smiled, grabbing my hand
"I love you so much Brooke" I whispered in her ear, grabbing her hand, she smiled and walked out with me.
"I love you too Shaun" my heart still pounds when she says that. This girl has my heart, she pretty much completes me. I locked up the doors and walked down to the car, getting in my side as Brooke got in the other side. We put our seat belts on and I started the car, making my way down to the airport which was an hour away…

ANDY P.O.V

I woke up at 6:30am to my alarm, sending shockwaves through my brain and making it pound. Why did I drink so much last night? I grabbed my phone and looked at it, my eyes squinted from the brightness 'Shaun's farewell to America'. Shit, that's today? I've been miserable, heartbroken the past two weeks, Shaun doesn't even know, I hope no one knows.

-FLASH BACK-
I walked in from my ski trip, dumping my bags by the door and walked down the hall into my room, I stood still when I saw Justine there with her head down low, she looked up at me. She was hiding something from me.
"H-Hey Andy, I ordered the pizza. You have to go pick it up soon"
"right" I said slightly annoyed, I just walked in the house, I leaned down and kissed her softly, she kissed me back harder, I pulled away and sighed.
"what happened Justine?"
"…You should pick up the pizza now" she said, biting her lip. I breathed deeply, there was so much negativity in this room right now. I walked out of the room and grabbed the keys and my wallet, heading back to the car. I basically sped down to the store, it wasn't that far away but I still want to know what the fuck happened whilst I was gone. I got out of the car and walked in, the girl came up to the counter with the pizza in her hands.
"Andy?"
"Yep" I said, practically snatching them from her grip, she looked at me weirdly. I pulled out my wallet.
"16 dollars please" she said, I put the pizzas on the bench and passed her the right amount of money, putting my wallet back in my pocket.
"keep the receipt" I said, grabbing the pizzas and walking out, getting back in the car, I put the pizzas on the passenger seat and zoomed out, all the way back home. My thoughts were running over themselves. 'What if she's leaving you?' 'What if she's pregnant?' 'What if she did something?', I felt myself tense up as I grabbed the pizzas and walked up the driveway and into my house, going into the lounge room where Justine was, I placed the boxes down on the coffee table, she just looked at me as I sorted out who's was who's and gave hers to her, I opened the box and grabbed a slice, starting to eat it and watch TV. Justine was doing the same, I got up to my second slice and sighed, putting the piece down, turning to her.
"I know something happened…tell me what happened when I was gone Justine"
"Y-You're probably going to leave me"
"why…?" I asked, scared and angry. Her face was emotionless.
"Because, when you went on the ski trip with the boys, I went out to the club with the girls and I…" she looks down, in pity of herself. I felt my heart start to ache before she even finished.
"W-What did you to me?" I asked softly, she sniffed and looked up with a tear running down her face.
"I cheated on you Andy…"
I felt my heart smash, my trust in her faded from that moment. I felt suddenly angry, broken and relapsed over the last time this happened.
"Why the fuck did you do that?! You KNOW about what happened with Shaun. Didn't you ever think about me? Why the fuck would you do that, what gives you the thought that cheating is okay?"
"I-I'm sorry okay! I didn't even want a big relationship, you were just meant to be a fling-"
"A fling? Oh wow, I really am blind to have fallen for you" I got up, she grabbed my hand.
"but then I fell in love with you…" she said in her innocent voice.
"if you loved me you wouldn't do that to me! You don't love me Justine, you obviously used me for sex until you found a guy better than me"
"no one is better than you, you're perf-"
"OBVIOUSLY NOT!" I pulled my hand out of her grip and turned to her.
"I want you out of my house, my life and my head forever, you disgust me."
"Andy-"
"GO!" I pouted toward the door, breathing in and out deeply. Justine got up slowly and walked over to me.
"I love you okay"
"tell me one thing, what did he look like? Wait, don't tell me, I mean, tell me."
"he was really buff, dark hair, brown eyes, I don't remember that much…"
"he's everything I'm not, ha. Just go, I don't want to see you ever again…"
"I'm so sorry Andy, I do love you, I really do."
"go."
She walked out slowly and closed the door. I closed my eyes, the pain hit me. I stormed to my room and slammed the door. I punched the back of the door multiple times, just bursting into tears. Why does this always fucking happen to me? Why can't I be happy? Why must my life be so fucked, why can't I just be good enough? Why do I fall so easy? I sat on my bed, by face in my palms, all the emotions just pouring out. I was literally sobbing. I looked up and breathed deeply, trying to calm down, I can't let this swallow me. I wiped my eyes. I heard a knock on my door.
"Andy, you should get rid of the pizza boxes before Christopher gets to them" my mum said, I sighed shakily.
"Why can't you do it?"
"because it's not my pizza Andrew, now do it."
I sighed and got up, opening the door, mum wasn't there no more. I walked to the lounge and grabbed the boxes, going to the kitchen. I started throwing the slices into the bin one by one to let my anger out.
"Andy, don't waste the pizza, put it in the fridge."
"no mum, I'm honestly not in the bloody mood for anything. I'm going to bed, night" I pushed the pizza on the bench and started making my way back to my room.
"Andy…?" my mum asked. My older sister started whispering to her. She probably overheard. I heard my mum say a sympathetic "oh Andrew…" as I slammed my door closed. I made sure the curtains were closed and turned my light off as I got in my bed, just snuggling up as I cried, and cried. Why did this happen to me?

-FLASHBACK OVER-

Ever since Justine did that to me I haven't been able to trust another human again, I'll never find love. They all just hurt me. I bet a fan wouldn't hurt me if I got with them, but that's a gross thought, they're like my brothers and sisters and they're all younger than me. I just want a decent human to be with me and treat me right. Like, be like Shaun but not kiss other people. Ugh, Shaun. I looked at the time, 7am. I've been thinking about talking to Shaun the past two weeks to fix things between us. Should I go say farewell? I don't want him to worry for me, but I really need a friend who doesn't joke about serious things like most of my friends do. They think a drink will fix my problems, which it does, but then it just hits again in a recurring circle. I need Shaun in my life. I got out of my bed and put my jeans on and a shirt, shivering from how cold it was. I sprayed myself with Lynx and put my hoodie on. I went to the bathroom, fixing my hair. Wow, I look like shit. I sighed and brushed my teeth quickly. I think Shaun's plane leaves around 8. I ran back to my room and slipped my vans on, grabbing my keys. I walked out of the house and closed the door behind me carefully, I put the hood over my head and ran through the rain to my car, getting in quickly, I started the car and sped through the rain to the freeway.
I got to the airport and parked, getting out of the car and locking it, running into the airport, where the fuck could he be. I looked at my phone '7:50am' ah fuck. I only have ten minutes. I searched through the airport, hoping to find him anywhere. But then I saw it. Brooke's blonde head. Ugh. I started running toward them, they were about to board the plane.
"SHAUN!" I screamed, running.
"Andy?" he turned around, I jumped on him, hugging him tight, closing my eyes. I missed him so much. He wrapped his arms around me.
"Andy, what are you doing here?"
"I-I just missed you so much, I need a friend right now Shaun. J-Justine cheated on me and I'm just so alone" I said, starting to break down, well this is embarrassing.
"Sh Andy, it's okay, I'm here. I missed you too…Why would Justine do that?"
"It was a drunken mistake but I felt so useless" I sniffed.
"you aren't useless Andy, you have me" he kissed my head to console me, which I won't lie, it helped.
"I'm really sorry Andy but baby, we have to go like, now" Brooke said, Shaun sighed and pulled away.
"I have to go…" Shaun said
"Good luck" I smiled at him, wiping my eyes.
"I love you alright? Message me if you need me"
"I-I will…I love you too"
"bye" Shaun smiled slightly, waving, Brooke also waved, I waved back and smiled.
"bye…"
They walked away together, hand in hand onto the plane. I turned away and walked back towards my car. I know there will always be feelings for Shaun, I'll love him forever. But I can't not have him in my life, he's my best friend, forever.

THE END

(sort of…alternative ending next chapter x)

A/N: Anyway, I hope you've enjoyed this. I've spent 8 or so months on this :$ It's been quite hard to write this throughout the break up and everything. This could have fucked your mind up as muh as mine and realized these "shandy" moments. I did a hell lot of research to make it as realistic as possible, but i went wild at some places, the drunk sex was requested by a friend and so was the alternative ending. who doesn't like a happily ever after?

(Yes, I did change this chapter. Sadly, Andy and Justine did break up so I had to rewrite it, I couldn't keep it this way knowing they are no longer together and no, I'm not saying Justine cheated, I just needed a good reason to work with :$)

The whole thing that inspired this was a video from 2008 of In This Place live on moshcam . com (did it spaced because it wont show if i do it together :( )I don't know, sometimes I look at it now and they just look tired and sweaty, but the way Shaun acted performing that was powerful, his facial expressions, I knew there was a big story behind it and Andy kept looking at him. And no, Shaun didn't actually cry, I added it.

This is realistic but not realistic, who knows? only the boys know.

Anyway, I hope you've enjoyed and if you don't like Shandy fanfics and read this anyway, don't leave hate, you're the stupid one for coming here. this is for people who ship the ship. and no, just because I did the research, doesn't make me think I know everything because I don't. haha, just enjoy.

Hope to write some new stuff soon for all you guys. cya. x

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