To say that i feel like shit for not updating in over a month is an understatement. Not only have i had tons, and i mean TONS of school work, i've also had some family stuff to deal with and writers block. After i saw Edge at the HOF i just had this jolt of inspiration shoot through me and i really wanted to write again. I hope you guys like this chapter and that after a month this isn't a disappointment. =)

"You really have to go back early?" Jeff asked Alexis. It was Christmas Eve and the two were getting ready to head over to Shannon's house to celebrate the holiday with Shannon, his wife, Matt and his girlfriend.

"Yeah. Vince said that there wasn't enough build up for my match with Amy at TLC so I gotta cut a promo on Raw. I'm gonna need to leave early Monday morning, seeing that I'm going to spend Christmas day here in North Carolina." Vince had called her about an hour earlier and asked if she would come back a week earlier. She said she would, but only under one circumstance. Jeff, Matt, Shannon, John and Phil were the only people who knew she was going to be back Monday and she wanted to keep it that way. She knew John would probably blab it someone, but she asked him to keep his mouth shut and not tell.

Alexis finished fixing her hair and her and Jeff headed out to Jeff's car. Jeff started up the car and pulled out of the driveway, Alexis sitting next to him in the passenger seat. It was quiet for a bit, but Jeff broke the silence as a question popped into his head.

"What's the circumstance? Ya know, the only way you would come back early." Alexis had told Jeff about the conversation, but she never told him specifically what the circumstance was.

"I told him that the only way I was coming back early was if he let me make a tribute to a former WWE Superstar during my TLC match. I told him who, he wasn't to sure about it but he agreed to it." She really didn't think Vince would let her do it, but he thought that it could fit somewhat into the storyline.

"Who are you makin' the tribute for?" Jeff tried to keep his mind on the subject, but it was hard since all he could think about was having to say good-bye to Alexis. To say the least, it wasn't something he was looking forward to.

"You." Alexis preceded to tell him how and why she was going to do it. Not only did she admire Jeff's in ring work, but also his character and how much effort he put into giving the fans the best match possible. She felt that Jeff's career was beginning to fade and that some WWE fans forgot who Jeff was and what he could do. With all that Jeff has done for the past week or so for her, it was the least she could do.

"Wow, really? You really want to go out there and associate yourself with me after all the negative stuff I'm associated with?" He would be honored if someone with Alexis' talent and pull in the WWE would do something like that. He had done a lot of bad stuff while he was in WWE and wouldn't imagine someone would want to do that.

"You're different now. You've helped me more this past week then you could ever imagine. You're not a bad guy, Jeff. You never have been and never will. So what, you've made some mistakes in you're life. Who hasn't? I sure as hell have. That's what fucked me and Adam up. I made the mistake of believing Amy. Which I still don't have a clue as to why I did, but I did and it was a MAJOR mistake. Don't let your past control your future. The rewards in life go to those who are willing to give up the past." She knew by going out there, that she would get people to look past the things Jeff has done and except him as one of the best entertainers.

Jeff didn't know what to say. No one had ever said something like that to him. It was the first time it seemed as if someone finally understood him. That she finally understood what he felt. He fucked up and he was trying to get past it, but some people couldn't put it behind them and they held him back because of it.

Jeff began to dread even more on the day Alexis would leave to return from her short absence from the WWE. Over the past week, he felt his feelings for her grow significantly. There was no doubt in his mind that once she went back, her and Adam would get back together and he wouldn't have a chance. He barely had a chance now.

All Jeff could do was give Alexis an appreciative smile as they pulled into Shannon's driveway.

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"So, her and Copeland, what'd ya think is gonna happen?" Phil asked John as their flight took off. Phil and John knew Alexis better then most people, but Phil hadn't a clue as to how things would go when she got back.

"I don't have a clue. I'm hoping Adam steps it up, finds her and talks to her. She is so upset with herself right now. When she finally realized that she picked Amy over Adam to believe and that it was her fault that her and Adam split, she was…..well, to say the least, she couldn't believe it." John looked out the window as their plane continued to gain altitude.

"Well, she loves him. He loves her. It obvious to both of them and to everyone else. One of them have just got to make that first step. Its like when they first started out. Neither of them wanted to make that first step. When Adam finally did, you could tell that they were the happiest that they had ever been when they were together. I just hope that they can get that back."

"Me too, Phil. Me too." John began to think how much life would stuck for Alexis and Adam if they couldn't get that back…

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He sat in his new hotel room in the city the next Monday Night Raw was being held, Norfolk, VA. Fear shot through him as the feeling in his left arm disappeared. He knew why. He knew it was because of his neck. The pain had gotten worse over the last little while. He hadn't told anyone. It was happening when he was with Alexis, but he didn't tell her. He hadn't told Jay either. He hoped that if he just acted like it didn't happen, it would go away. He knew his time in that squared circle was running out. He hoped he could get at least a good two years in.

Adam was relieved when the feeling came back. He moved he fingers, glad that the moment of non-feeling had pasted. He was terrified when it happened. It first happened to him when he was headed down the ramp at WrestleMania 24, when he was about to face the Undertaker for the World title. He was scared he wouldn't get the feeling back before the match started. He though it was just excitement at first, but as it began to happen out of nowhere and at random times when his neck was most bother he, he figured his neck was the cause.

Adam was pulled back to reality as a knock sounded through the room. Adam stood and crossed the room. He opened the door to find a smiling Jay. Adam gave a half-hearted smile in return and welcomed his friend in. He knew Jay was here to try and get him to do something. He didn't know what, but he knew it was something he was going to say 'no' to no matter what. He hadn't been up for anything since Alexis left and wasn't planning on doing anything anytime soon.

"We got nothing but time before the house show tonight, so what'd ya wanna do?" Like a good performer, on screen he had a smile on his face and looked like he was having a good time, but Adam was far from what he was like usually. Jay and everyone else knew, it was because Alexis. His heart was broken and he was moping around like it was the end of the world. Jay tried his best to cheer his friend up over the past week or so, but nothing seemed to be working.

"Nothing. I don't feel like doing anything." Adam said flatly as he returned to his previous sitting position. He knew Jay was only trying to help. Adam knew he wasn't being himself, but what did people expect? The girl that meant the absolute world to him, broke up with him because their ex's decided to fuck things up and then disappeared. The image that keep flashing through his head was the image of her with tears streaming down her face and all the emotion in her eyes. Anger, disbelief, heartache and so much more. Some times he would just stare at the little black box that he had gotten the night before all this happened. He though of what his and Alexis' future might have held if Randy and Amy hadn't gotten involved. Maybe she would have moved in with him, they could have gotten married and maybe even had kids, but that future was non-existent at the moment.

"You never feel like doing anything. You're just this big heap of…depression now and its startin' to even get me down. Everyone know you're pretty much destroyed over Alexis and they're trying to help, but you won't let them. They know it wasn't yours or Alexis' fault. They know it was all Randy. They don't want this fucking messed up Adam Copeland, they want the Adam Copeland that's happy, jokester and all around awesome dude. Alexis isn't the end of the world. I love her like a little sister, but she's not the end of the world." He hoped his two best friends could work this out, but if they didn't he needed Adam to know that the road didn't end at Alexis, even though Jay had a feeling that for Adam, it did.

"You don't understand, man. Losing Alexis is like the fucking end of the world for me. She was my world and she still is, whether she's with me or not. I've never loved anyone like I love Alexis. I've been married twice and had quite a few series relationships, one of which included Amy. Alexis was it. She was the one man, I'm telling' you and now that she's gone it feels like I have nothing left. I looked forward to every morning because I knew I would wake up next to her. Now I dread every morning because I wake up and find that this isn't a dream and she's really gone." Adam felt his eyes water, but quickly wiped it away, not wanting Jay to see. Adam knew it had only been a little over a week that she was gone, but it felt like forever to him.

Jay took in all that Adam had said. He wasn't aware that Alexis effected Adam so much. He felt increasingly bad for his friend. He felt bad that he had pretty much called his friend out on being in such a crapping mood. With all that he was feeling right now, he felt that Adam was doing what any person would do. "I'm sorry man I didn't realize she had such a massive effect on you.'

"Its okay. You're right though, I shouldn't be like this. How 'bout we go to the gym or something'?" Adam figured he can mope all he wants to by himself, but he shouldn't bring Jay down with him.

"Sounds good, I'll go get my stuff." Jay knew Adam was making an effort now and he really appreciated it. Jay just couldn't wait for the next week to go by and for TLC to arrive because that would mean Alexis would be back and maybe, her and Adam could get through it. He hated seeing his friend in this state and could only imagine what Alexis was going through and hoped that the two would come back together again.

Thank you guys so much for reading.

If everything goes as planned, Alexis will return to Raw next chapter and Jeff will make his move lol.

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