A/N; Im back again. Just updated Ripped Restraints. Its been a while so, I figured 'Why the hell not?' Lol. Anyways, so, i know a lot of you were confused with the last chapter, so maybe this will shine so light on what happened. Regina, still has no idea. Lol. But i hope all of you enjoy it. I write for my own entertainment, as well as yours. So, i hope you all are satisfied with the way this is going. A lot of you are probably like 'Oh gooood, its going to be one of those stories.' But no. Im trying to keep it close to cannon in herms of Regina's feelings and thoughts. Lol. So here ya'll are. Chapter 4!

"I think I need to sit down." She said nervously. Regina had no idea of what was going on. Boston? Baby? Marriage. "We had only been together a few weeks." She mumbled to herself, not realizing he had heard.

"A few weeks... Regina, its been six months." And once again she was ready to faint. Nothing was real, none of it. If she hadn't of known that this wasn't real, she would be happy, extatic even. She never would have believed that Robin would love her that much. Enough to marry her, have children even. She was ready to throw up.

"How did the procedure go? I mean, you must be uncomfortable. Or hungry?" He said, trying to step closer to her she slid further away from him on the couch.

"This isn't real. You aren't real. You should be in the woods, at home with Marian and Roland." She said quietly. Her eyes down at her hands. She was nervously picking at her blood red nail polish.

"Marian? Regina i told you she passed long before this curse began." he said, wonderin what was going on with Regina. He tried to pull her closer, and this time she let him.

"What is going on?" She muttered to herself. she knew she had to be cursed. Or someone had messed with Robin's memories. She rested the side of her face against his chest and sighed. she might as well enjoy it while she could.

"I love you Regina. Nothing could change that." he said, his lips on her head. He could smell her hair, and he had missed the smell of it. "So, how did everything go in Boston?" He said, trying to change the subject.

"I don't know." She said quietly.

The pain she was feeling in her heart as she walked down the street was that of anguish. It was a mental state of nothingness. It was nothing she had ever felt before, it was horrifying and enough to make her want to go black once more. It seemed as if the moment in her life when everything went in the right direction, when everything made sense and she was being redeemed, something or someone caused it all to go south and she was the one left in pain. This time. It was Emma. Like mother like daughter... Right? Snow had caused her to lose the one she loved, and now Emma as well. She could kill her. Throw a fireball at her or... maybe even snap her neck with her bare hands. Yeah, that would be much more satisfying.

But instead of letting the anger reside, the sadness took over. Regina didn't want to become what she once was. She didn't want to be evil, or dark any longer. Robin helped her shape herself into being good. "At least I'll be remembered good." She whispered to herself as she gathered ingredients together.

She'd rrushed out of. The diner after arguing with Emma. 'I hope you didn't bring anything else back with you.' She had sneered and rushed out of the diner. No one else had noticed her absence but Emma. She cried the entire way to her vault. She had all of the ingredients she needed there. Yes, it was the only way to escape the pain. The only way to stop the heart shattering pain of losing her true love. Her second chance.

Second chance? 'Yeah right.' She scoffed through her tears as she watched her potion bubble in preparation. The anxiousness of knowing that in an hour she wouldn't know the pain of loss anylonger was eating at her. She had attempted it before, before she'd met Zelena, before she'd fallen in love, under different circumstances of course, but her intentions had been thwarted. She sighed and bit her lip in anticipation as her tears flowed freely. She was alone, no one to be strong for now.

She remembered the last time she felt like this.. it was the night before she'd lost him. Wrapped in his arms before the fireplace in her home. She had told him of Timkerbell and her adventure with the fairy. She told him of the lion tattoo. He didn't seem surprised, but relieved. It was in that moment that she believed pixie dust didn't lie. She was truly happy for the first time in most of her existence. Yes, she had loved Daniel. But she knew now that what she was feeling for the thief before her was stronger than that love she'd felt as a young, impressionable girl. She let herself stay in that moment with Robin, because it was happening. She wanted it to last forever. But there was something nagging in her mind. 'What was going on?' And 'How?' How could this be happening?

She remembered Marian's return plain as day, but she did not remember anything about the last six months. She could not remember a proposal, an engagement to the man she loved. Nor did she remember anything about a clinic. "Tell me.." she whispered. "How did you propose?" Her voice was shaky, and muffled by his shirt. Somewhere in the six months that she didn't remember, Robin had finally taken to wearing clothing from this land. And she had noticed earlier, when she first looked at him, that he looked rather delicious in a suit. She bit her lip as he took a breath.

"What did you say honey?" He said. "Your words were muffled." He stroked her hair and watched her as she looked up at him slowly.

"How did you propose?" She said sofly, this time looking in his eyes.

"Oh. How? Uh.. Well, it wasn't anything special... infact, it was not even planned. We had Roland and Henry, and we were walking along the shoreline, it was the end of June and i just couldn't take my eyes off of you. You were glowing with happiness, it was a perfect day." He wasn't sure why he was telling her, as far as he knew, she was there that day, but something told him to keep going. "You were saying something and i hadn't heard a word you said. My mind was too enthralled by the beauty of you, the innocence in your eyes, the pureness i could see coming from your heart. I could not understand how anyone could have seen you as once 'evil'. You gave up on talking to me and turned to play with the boys and it just came out. I said 'marry me' and you looked absolutely scared." He chuckled "You asked me why and i told you i wanted to spend my life with you. The only thing you said after that was yes."

She teared up from the was purely and uniquely theirs. It was a proposal that would only fit them. Not flashy and expensixe. But simple, and lovely. It was perfect. And it made her upset to know that none of it was real.

A/N: So... i finally got to do a chapter long enough for my liking, alomst. Anyways, hope you enjoyed. Review? I'd like to know everyone's thoughts.

Until next time! :