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p.s. this is a loonnnnggg chapter.

"One more question." Jade insisted.

"Jade, I don't think I can-"

"It's not very difficult."

Beck let out a breath. "Okay. What else?" He had slumped onto the bed a bit.

Of course, Jade had a million questions to ask and they were all swirling round in her head right now. Do you love me? Will you ever love me again? Do you still think I'm beautiful? Will you ever remember me? Kiss me? Trying to stop any rising emotions, she chose a questions that wasn't quite as deep. "Do you want to remember?" She tried not to let her voice crack, which was easier said than done now that there was a burning lump in her throat. She feared the exhaling to quickly would allow a sob to escape her mouth, so she tried not to breath much.

Beck just look at her, letting her words sink in. Was she insane? "Of course I want to remember. Jade, do you not see me trying? Because I am. I'm trying as hard as I can, but this is really, really difficult. And I hate it!" He had never raised his voice much, and his sudden outburst scared Jade. She tried not to let her emotions get to her. She couldn't speak and even if she could, she wouldn't want to. This person who had once been her only escape was now someone she felt the need to flee from. She watched as he closed his eyes and inhaled and exhaled loudly. When he opened his eyes, the met hers. "Jade." His voice was soft, a lot gentler than it had been a moment ago. She stood with her arms folded over her chest. "I'm sorry." That was all he said. Usually, Jade would poke around for a deeper answer, but she decided to drop it.

It took all the willpower she had not to walk over to him and try to ask for a hug, but she pulled herself together enough to say two final words. "I'm leaving." With that, she turned on the heel of her black boots, leaving the room. He watched as her hair cut through the air as she turned and then she was gone.

Beck had tried to text Jade a few times that night, but she couldn't really talk to him. She didn't want to say anything out of anger. Not when he wasn't even hers anymore. But now she was sitting at their lunch table and when her phone went off, she was grateful for the escape.

From: Beck
Jade, please answer me.

To: Beck
Fine. What?

From: Beck
I'm sorry. I didn't mean to yell at you. I'm just really confused right now.

To: Beck
Look, you probably forgot this, but I get yelled at enough at home.

From: Beck
What?

To: Beck
Forget it.

Jade looked up from her phone to attempt to eat lunch, but she wasn't really in the mood. She let her head rest in the palm of her hand.

"So we're all going to see Beck tonight?" Tori asked as she joined the table. Jade had forgot about that, and in all honesty, she was kind of hoping that she could make up an excuse to not go tonight. But with a big group, she felt obligated to go. Just great.

"Jade?" Cat poked her friend.

"What?" Jade spat angrily. Cat whimpered at this, making Jade feel guilty.

"Cat." She pleaded, trying to calm her emotional friend. "I didn't mean to yell at you." She tried to stop the tears and when Cat sniffled and looked at her, she knew she had done okay.

"I just wanted to know why you were so sad." A frown was still set on her face, but she clutched her purple stuffed giraffe to her chest for comfort.

Jade took a large sip of her coffee and swallowed it before speaking. "I'm fine Cat." For added emphasis, she tossed her hair over her shoulder, hoping she looked more confident than she felt.

"But-"

"I'm. Fine." She said slowly. Cat seemed to accept that and got sidetracked when Tori wanted to show her this new app she got for her PearPhone. FoodCam or something? You took a picture of someone and then the app made them look like food. Jade ignored it, looking back down at her phone. 2 new messages. They were probably from Beck. As she opened them, she say that she was correct.

From Beck:
Jade, please explain this to me. I want to know.

From Beck:
Jade?

Jade sighed, irritated with Beck at the moment for a few reasons.

To Beck:
I'll tell you later. It's too long of a story.

Hopefully that would suffice for now. Her friends conversation had drifted back to visiting Beck. This was the last time they would see him before he got released in a few days.

Beck sat up in his hospital bed surrounded by the people who were allegedly his friends. He had gotten to know them better recently and they were all very nice. And weird. But that was okay. He was surprised that Jade wasn't here yet. He had hoped that she would have been there first so they could smooth out the problems that had occurred recently.

"Do you like Bunny?" Cat asked Beck. She brought him the stuffed rabbit on her third visit.

"He's awesome Cat. He keeps me company."

"How's your head?" Andre asked.

"Mentally or physically?" Beck countered with a laugh.

"Both." Andre ventured.

"Mentally, it's not where I'd like it to be, but I'll just keep working at it. And physically, it's pretty good."

"We thought it'd be fun if we all get together on next Friday." Tori jumped in. That was exactly a week from today. Beck knew this from the large calendar on his wall.

"Yeah." He nodded. "Yeah, that should be fun." Just as he said this, a flash of black streamed through the door. Beck felt something tug inside of him, but he ignored whatever it was.

"Jade!" Cat threw her arms up in delight, happy to see her friend.

"Hi Cat." Jade nodded at her friend. She looked around at the chairs that surrounded Beck's bed, not leaving much room for her at all. Her eyes met Beck's. He patted a spot beside him on the bed. She walked over with her cup of coffee in her hand, as usual, sitting down.

She looked at the group of her so-called "friends", but out of the corner of her eye, she could see that Beck's face was focused on her with a dumb smile. She turned towards him with a glare. "What?" She snapped as she had earlier, but this time, she heard Cat giggle.

"Hi." His grin grew a bit as he let out a chuckle.

Jade rolled her eyes and flipped her raven-black hair over her shoulder. He persisted, still looking at her expectantly. "Hi!" She yelled, trying to get him to stop the weird staring that she kind of secretly enjoyed.

The room laughed at the encounter, glad to see the acting semi-normal.

"See you in school!" Tori smiled as she hugged Beck goodbye. Andre was next to say a goodbye, giving Beck some sort of bro-hug. Whatever that is. Cat threw her arms around Beck in happiness that he like her gift still, and Beck gave Robbie a simple 'goodbye'. And then the same to Rex, as he insisted. When Jade stayed seated on his bed, he smiled internally. She wasn't leaving yet. He was still very curious about what had happened earlier. As he stretched his arms above his head, tired off all the sitting he'd been doing, he heard the bedsprings creak as if someone had gotten up. Then a pair of combat boots clunked against the floor and by the time this all registered, Jade was hallway out the door.

"Where are you going?" He called out, suddenly saddened and nervous.

"We're going for a walk." Jade stated this as if it were the most obvious answer.

"You're very confusing sometimes. You know that?" Beck told her as he fell into step beside her. He was in an outfit similar to one he'd been wearing his whole stay in the hospital. Sweatpants and a tank top. To Jade this was a bit odd. He'd worn sweatpants around her before, but it was most common to find him in jeans with a soft flannel shirt over his undershirt. She had taken notice of the necklace that was still around his neck, though he had no idea of its meaning. They reached an area where there were couches and chairs, almost like a small lounge, where Jade sat down. Beck sat next to her, wanting to talk about a lot of stuff.

"I think you owe me an explanation."

"I don't owe anyone anything." Jade spat defensively, knowing full well that she owed Beck a ton.

"Jade." He groaned, impatient, as he let his head fall to her shoulder and he gave her a nudge.

"Look, all that I meant is that my dad yells at me plenty. In his eyes, I'll never do anything right and my dreams to become an actress are ridiculous. You're just the last person I expect to yell at me."

"I'm sorry." Beck muttered, feeling rather guilty at the moment.

Jade sighed. "It's not your fault. You didn't know." She paused, trying to correct that sentence. "Well you did, but now you don't and..." She stopped, not wanting to ramble on about the circumstances.

"What about your mom?"

"Huh?"

"You said your dad yells at you. What about your mom?"

Jade didn't answer for a while, which scared Beck, but eventually, she spoke up. "My mom left me and my dad when I was seven. We moved around from apartment to apartment until he met her. They got married when I was in seventh grade. And ever since then, we've lived in a big house with a lot of money and a stupid, angry teenage girl that no one wants to deal with."

Beck let this all sink in.

"It comes as a bit of a shock when your dad marries someone who's only ten years older than you. She's cheery and annoying and I hate her." Jade said angrily. This was one of those moments where Beck would kiss her temple or hug her to calm her down, but it's not like that was going to happen anytime soon. Instead, she decided to take a long swig of her coffee, exhaling loudly to relieve the anger.

"Can we talk about something else?" She asked, partially calm.

"Sure. Why don't you pick." He suggested.

"There's something I've been wondering." Jade began. When Beck didn't answer, she continued. "Since your memory only goes up to ten years or so, do you feel like you're ten? I mean you don't act like it but-"

Beck cut her off. "No." He answered quickly with a laugh. "Definitely not. I feel like I'm seventeen." Beck's answer made her slightly curious as to what exactly he meant by it, but she continued anyways.

"Is it weird to remember being little though? Like looking in the mirror and not being who you expected?"

Beck laughed again. "It was weird at first. But I feel my age, so it's kind of like I know I should like this. Does that even make sense?" He laughed. He watched as Jade's lips parted over her teeth and a laugh passed her lips. It was such a different tone compared to when she was sarcastic or angry.

"So you feel like a seventeen who doesn't remember past his tenth birthday?" She was still laughing slightly.

"Exactly." Beck began laughing again. After a minute or two, he composed himself. "But really," he began, "it's like there's this big black whole in my memory. I can't see anything, even if I try really hard. It's just...blank. And it's super weird because I have these memories from when I was little and I have these memories from after I woke up and then there's this big gap in the middle. It's honestly quite frustrating." He finished his little rant with a sigh and he let his head fall back against the couch.

Silence fell between them for a few minutes, but it was broken when Jade nudged Beck with her elbow. "So you're getting out of here in a few days."

Beck smiled. "Yeah. I'm ready to be home." He paused. "Wherever that is."

"Well, the RV's probably just like you left it." Jade answered, staring at the high ceiling.

"RV?" Beck questioned, turning his head towards her, as he was looking at the ceiling as well.

Now Jade's eyes peeled away from the ceiling and she turned towards him. "Your parents didn't tell you? You live in an RV in their driveway."

This made Beck laugh. "Why?"

"I don't know. They said that you had to live by their rules, one of them being that you couldn't date me, and you told them you were moving out. Somehow, it worked."

"My parents don't like you?"

"They didn't." Jade began. "Or at least your mom's warmed up to me a bit. Not that I care." Jade rolled her eyes at the end, and continued to look at the ceiling, her head rested back against the couch.

"Well, I'll be glad to be home, regardless." Beck answered. He looked at a clock on a nearby wall. "You'll have to leave soon. Visiting hours are almost over."

"You want me to leave." Jade answered defensively.

"No! It's just that-"

"Come on." She stood up and headed back towards his room. Once they stepped into his room, Jade grabbed her keys and stood facing Beck who was standing near his bed.

"See you tomorrow?" He asked, even though she'd been there every day since he'd arrived.

Her answer took him by surprise though. "My dad and it are having a dinner party that I must attend tomorrow and Sunday. I don't know why since they don't like me. I'm pretty much a place holder at the table." She looked up to gauge his expression. "I'll call you, though."

"Try not to do anything I wouldn't approve of." Beck smiled.

"You don't even know what that is." Jade smirked.

"I know." Another laugh escaped Beck's lips. "It just seemed like something I might say in this type of situation."

Jade rolled her eyes with a smile, an eye-roll she didn't use often. "It was a nice attempt." Just then, a nurse popped into the room, ready to scold Jade about not leaving already, but Beck jumped in.

"She's on her way out. We're just saying goodbye."

"Well make it quick." She snapped before leaving the room.

Jade looked over her shoulder, growling at the nurse who had just left and Beck chuckled. She looked back and gestured over her shoulder. "I should get going. I want to give her a piece of my mind before she gets too far." Just as she was turning to leave the room, a hand grabbed her wrist and she was pulled close to the owner of the hand, their arms wrapping around her.

After the initial shock wore off and Jade realized what was happening, she let her arms snake around his waist. He still smelled the same and this brought a bit of comfort to her. They stayed like this for a moment and she heard Beck say something into her hair. "Thanks."

"For what?" She asked softly.

"Being here every day. I know it's not easy." She felt his chest rise and fall as he took a breath and let it out. "But I'm trying."

It was silent for a bit, but Jade pulled him closer. She hated how vulnerable she was right now. "I know." She could tell that she was about to lose her composure. She was feeling guilty about her anger earlier. She hated feeling guilty. She quickly pulled away and sucked in a quick, shaky breath before exiting the room.