wow, this took way longer than i would've liked. but here it is, kinda short. hope you all haven't given up on me ;)

disclaimer still applies.

"I should go after her." Beck began to head towards the door.

"Whoa!" Andre called out, catching Beck's attention. "You still have a lot to learn man. Don't go after a girl when she's mad." This earned a questioning look from Tori, which Andre ignored. "Especially Jade. She needs at least half an hour to blow off some steam."

Beck let the words process and he made sure to make a mental note of what Andre just told him. With a heavy sigh, he slumped onto the couch. "You're right. So what do I do now?"

"I think we can help you learn a little something." Tori had a mischievous grin on her face.

Beck's one eyebrow shot up in a confused expression. "Huh?"

Tori spoke a bit slower, making sure Beck got the message. "We'll show you videos of you and Jade."

Now Beck understood. Before he could voice an agreement, Robbie jumped in. "I can pull them up on my PearPad!" With a big smile, he began to swipe his hand across the pear-shaped device. Cat's hand reached out to stop him.

"No Robbie." She said softly, shaking her head. Robbie's shoulders fell as Tori brought a laptop over and set it on a coffee table in front of Beck.

"Maybe next time, Rob." Beck said, trying to make the geeky boy feel better. Tori pulled up some video labeled Beck's Video Profile on . Beck sat back and watched as he began talking on the small screen. A few seconds in, Jade entered and he watched their banter play out. He watched a few more videos, his favorite being their relationship advice video where he gave her noogies. It had only taken him half an hour or so to watch the videos, and he hadn't been able to forget the fact that Jade was outside by herself at night, walking around L.A. "You think I could text her now? Just to make sure she's alright?"

Andre saw the worry on his friend's face. "Should be safe now." He nodded. Beck pulled out his PearPhone and quickly typed up a message.

To: Jade

Jade, I'm sorry. Please come back, it's getting late.

He waited a good while for a reply that wasn't of much help. He wasn't quite sure what "whatever" meant in the situation. He was soon pulled away from that internal debate when Cat asked him a question.

"Why did you ignore Jade today?" She was sitting on the other couch with a light blue stuffed bunny in her lap.

"Yeah." Tori added, wanting to hear the explanation.

Beck sighed. He wasn't even 100% sure why he did it. He was still working things out in his head. He gave them the best answer he could. The silence seemed to be swallowing the room as he tried to find the right words. "I'm afraid of messing up."

"Messing what up?" Robbie asked, confused.

"Us!"

"...But we're fine..." Robbie said, still confused.

"Not us, us. Me and Jade, us!" Beck continued the explanation. "I'm afraid I'll do something and she'll get mad and just-"

"She'll be mad whether you make mistakes or not. You've had to have figured that out already." Tori said, seeing that he wasn't yet sharing the whole truth.

A heavy sigh escaped his lips. "I just want to get everything sorted out first. I just don't think I'm ready for a relationship when I barely know how to use my cell phone." The crew finally began to see his apprehension.

"Well, all I can say is that what's meant to happen will. For now, I'd say let nature take its course." Words of wisdom from Andre, of course. Suddenly the door flung open and a flash of black stormed in, marching over to the trash can to throw away a coffee cup.

"Large coffee. I said a large coffee and that was definitely not a large. They're shrinking everything, I swear." The raven-haired girl was mumbling angrily to herself. Beck let out a breath he had seemed to have been holding since Jade stormed out. She was here. She was safe.

"We better get going." Beck said to the group. He thanked them quickly and walked over to where Jade was leaning on a counter.

"How about we head back to the RV. We can make some coffee." Jade was prepared to fight, but the offer of coffee made her agree. Once they got home, she quickly began a fresh pot with a few cups of coffee and changed into some pajamas. They both were ready for bed within 20 minutes, and Beck was first to crawl under the sheets. Jade was finishing the last sip of her coffee and she set her mug in the sink, rinsing it out first. She wasn't really sure where to sleep, and of course she was still angry and frustrated. She realized that she wasn't actually angry with Beck, but rather, she was angry with the idiot who hit Beck's car and caused all of this. She should take Andre's advice to help him remember, start over fresh. Relive their relationship. Before she could do so, there's one thing she had to do.

She sat on the corner of the bed and reached for his phone on the nightstand, tossing it so it landed near him. He was lying on his side as he reached out for it, confused as usual. He looked at her for an explanation.

"Check your messages."

"The last one's from you. I already-"

Jade sighed. He wasn't making this any easier. "Check the last messages on your phone. Right before the accident." After a minute of searching, she watched him read it over. She could see the letters in her head as she typed them. Where are you? Send. She urged him to check his voicemail. As he put it on speaker and she heard her own voice, she cringed. "Beck, I don't know why you're not answering your phone, but you're late. Hurry up!" Silence fell between them for a while and as usual, Jade felt like it was choking her. She hated weak feelings like this. She wanted so bad to scream, but she swallowed it down. What was he thinking? Did he think she was a monster? Unlovable? She wouldn't blame him.

"Say something." She pleaded. Her voice was too weak for her liking.

"I don't understand what the big deal is." Beck said after a moment.

"Of course you don't!" Jade exclaimed, reaching her breaking point once more. "Don't you see? Those were the last words I said to you. What if things didn't turn out this way? What if they were the last words I told you before-" Her voice only squeaked. She couldn't bring herself to say it out loud. Certainly not in front of him. "I never said I loved you. What kind of girlfriend does that make me?"

"Jade, I'm here. It doesn't matter." Beck tried to calm her down, but she was on the verge of hysteria. The tears were filling her eyes to the rims and she knew they would soon spill over. Jade West does not cry in front of people. She tried to tell herself this, stopping the statement at that. There was more though. There always was. Only in front of Beck. And then she lost it, tears apparent with no way to hide them.

"If it were the other way around, you would've said you loved me. I'm not good enough for you. I should leave while I still have the chance." As she went to stand up, Beck panicked, grabbing her forearm.

"Jade." She listened to the sound of her voice between his lips. It was so soothing. She hadn't heard it quite that way in a while. "You don't need to go." Before she knew what was going on, his arms were around her, her head pressed to his chest. "You're not like that. I know you're not."

"No you don't!" She protested. He tried to hold her tighter.

"Yes I do." He tried to calm her down, but it took some convincing. "Just stay." He moved so he was on his back with Jade against his chest. His arms still circled her waist. "I just need to make sure you're here." He told her. After her little stunt earlier, he wanted nothing more than to feel her beside him and know she was safe. "Just stay here." He repeated soothing words over and over again in the dark RV, hoping she would believe him. Seeing her in the state scared him slightly. This was all still platonic, right? Strictly platonic until he figures everything out. Since Jade had quieted down, he assumed that she was asleep. What he didn't know is that she was lying with her eyes closed, waiting for sleep to take over as she thought of how she would execute her plan. Tomorrow, when they woke up, she would pretend this little meltdown never happened. She would then slowly begin to recreate their relationship from the beginning, taking Beck to their multiple date places and reliving the memories. How much were the memories worth anyways, if only one of them remembered?