A Broken Full Moon

Ch. 11 I Hate What I've Become Pt. 2/2

(Skillet- Monster)

Then:

[3rd P.O.V]

Kate slid down as she said "remember how this felt?" She licked up his lean stomach and as much as he hated it he reacted to her touch as he growled. He hated that his body was responding to her. All he wanted was to get the hell out of there. He wanted to Alex, it'd been days since he last saw her and he was itching to see her again. His thoughts strayed to her as Kate said "sweetheart I really don't want to torture you." A big bald man entered and Kate said "but he does." Derek let his thoughts stray to Alex as the man advanced.

Now:

{Alex P.O.V}

It was Thursday now and the dance was tomorrow. The whole week I had been going to isolated cemetery to try and learn self-control. It was better than the woods where if I howled Peter would come, that wasn't the whole reason my real mom and dad were buried there, it gave me a small amount of peace. So far I had learned how to control my senses. I could block out everything and focus on one thing, I let the smells not bother me, and most importantly my anger I tried to keep in check. I had learned a trick, if I was angry all the time I could easily change, if I tried to keep my anger in check it was a lot harder. So that's why whenever I was angered all I thought about was Rome and how I didn't want to hurt him, surprisingly it worked. I walked with Allison to her locker as she said "yeah, Lydia and me are going to the mall again since we couldn't find a single dress we liked. You can come too." I said "I actually have plans, besides you know I'm not really into that." Allison nodded as she got her books out, Scott was all about protecting Allison so he had told me to try and be around her as long as I could.

I said "I'm really nervous about tomorrow." She asked "why?" I answered "it's my first dance ever." She said "no, it can't be." I nodded and she said "well, don't worry about it. Eli is a great guy, and your friend, you guys will have fun." I nodded and we were interrupted as Jackson came over "hey, Allison, Alex. What time should I pick you up for the dance Allison?" Allison and I exchange looks. I noticed he looked pretty freaked out. "Are you okay?" She asked He said "yeah, I'm just excited to go to the formal with you. As friends, just friends, as friends." I looked between them awkwardly and said "yeah, um I'm gonna go. See you later." I waved as I walked off with a weirded out look at Jackson.

As I walked the hallways Eli caught up to me and we walked to our sixth period as we talked casually. As we sat down in class with Eli he said "so the color of your dress is champagne?" I looked at him as I felt a blush form on my face as I nodded, and asked "do you have a tux yet?" He nodded and said "yeah, I got everything Monday when you texted me." I smiled at him as I said "we can take my car." Eli said "I doubt you want to ruin your dress on the bike." I laughed as I said "yeah. So I guess I'll pick you up?" He smirked as he said "yeah, I guess so." The teacher scolded him and I said "pick you up at eight." He remarked "don't be late." I smiled as I said "I won't."

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"Alright, let's see," I closed my eyes as I concentrated on the sound of the crow sitting on the headstone that I was in front of. I heard the low beating of its heart, the squawking noise it made was infuriating but I tried not to get mad. After controlling my anger I slowly let it loose as I felt a vibrating growl from in me.

"It's scratching on the walls, in the closet,

In the halls

I comes awake,

And I can't control it"

I looked down and saw that my finger nails had grown, and I knew my face was sharper. I saw red tint my vision and with all my might I pictured Rome and how I had to protect him how, I didn't want to hurt him, and slowly the red tint faded.

"I feel it deep within ,

It's just beneath the skin

I must confess that I feel like a monster"

I sat back gasping. It took a lot out of me to be able to do that. The first time I hadn't been able to and the only way to turn back was to apply pain so I had broken my arm. After a while I decided to do it again. As I let the anger control me I heard an "Alex!" My vision turned red and I knew that whoever was coming was in danger I swiftly raised a hand to my face on my eyes and breathed in and out. My inner wolf pacing in me to be fully let out, I fought against it though and slowly I felt the red fade out and I was left gasping.

As I sat back I heard soft steps and "Alex?" I moved my hands from my face to see Isaac. I smiled at him as I said "oh, hey Isaac." He smiled at me as he asked "you okay?" I nodded and said "yeah I was just…" I trailed off as I motioned to the headstone he looked at them and blushed slightly as he said "sorry." I said "it's okay." There was silence and then he said "my…my mom's is right there." I looked to where he had pointed. His eyes had looked sad as he said that. I walked over to him as I said "what are you doing here?" He said "I work here." Realization hit my eyes as I said "oh, right." He nodded and I realized he had a shovel. There was a minute of awkward silence and he said "I was...you know me…I was hoping…thinking…I mean…wouldyougototheformalwithme?"

I blinked as I said "can you say that again?" His face was blushing really red as he said "will you go the formal with…me?" My eyes widened as a blush formed on my cheeks and he immediately said "you don't have to…just…I mean"- I said "I can't." His face fell and I said "I would've loved to go with you really, but Eli asked me already, I'm sorry." He nodded as he said "of course he did. I mean I understand." I said "were going as friends, just friends." That made him smile a little. I looked at my watch and saw that it was close to eight. I said "it's getting pretty late and I have to pick up Rome, are you working tomorrow?" He nodded and I said "I'll stop by before the dance. See you tomorrow."

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I was getting ready in my room while mom helped me and Scott out. It was Friday evening and we were getting ready for the dance. Well, I was. Scott was waiting until seven thirty to get ready. I had showered and done all the necessities. Since the bite had disappeared I had taken off the bandages and you couldn't even tell that I had been bitten. I started on my makeup as mom dried my hair with the blow dryer. "So you're picking him up?" I said "yeah, mom. He doesn't have a car, only a motorcycle so I thought it'd be best if we went in my car." She sighed "but I wanted pictures." I said "well, maybe his mom will take them; if she does I'll ask Eli if he can give me copies to give you, alright?" She nodded enthusiastically. I applied mascara, eyeliner, light pink lip gloss, foundation, and light eye shadow. Mom said "alright, let's see. How do you want your hair?" I looked at pin straight hair and decided "spiral curls." She nodded and parted my hair at the right side; my bangs clipped to the side as she curled all my hair and applied spray to them all. It took about thirty minutes for them all to be perfect curls. I painted my nails a peach color rather than my always black colored ones.

As I waited for them to dry I looked at mom who had laid the dress out on the bed. She looked at it as she said "it's beautiful, Alex." I nodded as I said "yeah, you know I never really told you this before, but you're the best mom I could've asked for." I felt tears brim my eyes and she said "no, no, no you'll ruin your makeup. I love you sweetie." She wrapped me in a hug and I held her. She said "don't get all emotional on me, Alex. You're the tough one and I'm the crier." I smiled as I let go and said "you're right." She cleared her throat and said "now, let's get you in this dress." I smiled as I walked over and she pulled the dress up and helped me into it. After she tied the strings at the back for the corset she walked in front of me as she said "Alex, you look beautiful. I walked in front of the mirror and almost didn't recognize myself. The dark mass of hair on my hair drawled attention as it was dark among my light colored dress, and pale skin. My round grey eyes looked innocent with all the light makeup.

I smiled at my reflection. My mom said "see, you're beautiful." I smiled as I stepped back and grabbed some black flats. My mom shook her head and I said "what?" She said "why don't you wear high heels?" I answered "because I don't want to fall. Besides you can't see them under the dress." She laughed as I put them on. I looked at the clock and noticed it was seven o'clock. I said "why don't you help out Scott? I'm gonna head out now." She said "alright, be careful call me if you need anything." I nodded and grabbed my clutch and made my way to the car. I put the boutonniere in the passenger seat as I decided to make a quick stop.

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"Hey mom, hey dad I wanted to come see you before I go. There's a dance tonight and I'm nervous. I can't be nervous though because that'll only mess with my emotions and then I could lose control and hurt someone. I decided to come here so I could relax, just a little." I felt tears build as I placed two white roses on their graves. I slowly walked over to Isaac's mom as I gently crouched as I placed hers down. "Alex?" I turned around as I stood to see a shocked Isaac.

I said "hey, Isaac." He questioned "what are you doing here?" I said "I told you I was stopping by today." He said "I thought you forgot, but you're going to be late to the dance." I said "I can use a few minutes, I just- I needed to see my parents." He nodded as he said "well, come on I'll walk you to your car." I followed him. I said "thanks, Isaac." He gave me a small grin as he said "no problem. I'll see you later. Have fun at the dance." I got in my car as I started it I looked back in my rearview mirror to see Isaac staring at the car. Isaac had turned around his shoulders slumped I couldn't just leave. I sighed as I pictured his sad face. I turned the radio on as I turned the volume up some and Jason Walker's song 'Down.' came on. I climbed out and Isaac turned around confused I said "I might not be able to go to the formal with you, but can my first dance be with you?" I held a hand out and he blushed but grabbed my hand as he said "yeah, of course you can."

With that I slowly slipped my hand around his shoulder and put his on my waist. I smiled up at him as we awkwardly started swaying. He muttered "I don't know how to dance." His face was red and I whispered "want to know a secret? I can't either." He chuckled as he pulled me closer and I rested my head on his chest his heart was beating very loud and we just listened to Jason's voice as the lyrics hung in the cemetery. "I shot for the sky, I'm stuck on the ground so why do I try I know I'm gonna fall down," I looked up as he sang that part. "You know this song?" I asked he answered "don't you?" I said "it's my favorite one of his." He said "mine too. I can actually relate to him…"

I stared at him confusedly but he shook his head and I pressed my head back into his chest as I listened to his heart that had calmed down. As we just continued to sway he suddenly spun me around, I laughed at that and he smiled as we continued awkwardly dancing. As the song stopped he gently let go. I said "that was actually fun." Isaac said "yeah, thank you Alex." I smiled at him as I blushed and said "I think it was more of a benefit for me. I'm not as nervous now." He smiled and said "glad I could help. Eli's lucky he's going with you." I smiled as I said "for what it's worth, I would have loved to have gone with you." He smiled at me and said "it's worth a lot." I smiled as I turned to go but then I turned back around and walked to Isaac. I pressed a kiss to his cheek as I said "bye, Izzy." I turned and headed to my car as I started it and headed to Eli's house leaving Isaac shocked.

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Eli dragged me to my car after his mom finally stopped taking pictures. I snickered as Eli said "drive, now." He was wearing his boutonniere as I wore the corsage around my wrist. I smiled as I drove and parked beside Stiles Jeep where he and Lydia were. Eli opened my door as I looped my hand through his and we walked over to them as Stiles told her she looked beautiful kind of like how Eli had told me except Eli had looked like a goldfish. I grinned at Stiles who only stared at me and Lydia pulled on his arm and he smiled sheepishly as we all walked in. I spotted Allison and Jackson and I headed over to them. I grinned at Allison who said "Alex! Wow, you look great." Eli said "I think you, me and almost the whole male population agree." I blushed and Allison giggled. She asked Jackson to dance and he said "do I have to?" I glared at him and he offered her his arm. "Do you want to dance?" I looked at Eli and he said "hmm…" I glared and he chuckled as and said "alright, alright, let's go."

As soon as we had settled the singer changed songs to a slow song called 'Sleeping At Last' by Turning Pages. Eli awkwardly placed his arm on my waist as I blushed and put an arm over his shoulder. He leaned and said "so is this what you pictured?" I looked at him in confusion. He said "the formal?" I said "a little, yeah." He tightened his grip as the song continued. I inhaled his scent with my new werewolf senses I noticed there was a hint of cologne not a lot, which I liked because when I walk in the hallways that's all I smell and I get headaches.

As we silently swayed to the music I noticed he was graceful in his movements. That's when Coach Finstock interrupted and we all looked as he looked embarrassed as Scott had grabbed Danny to dance with. I chuckled and then Scott danced with Allison. I looked over to see Stiles and Lydia dancing. I gave him a thumbs up and he grinned. I saw Jackson leave and after the song ended so did Lydia. I looked at Stiles and sighed as I looked at Eli who I now was sitting beside. "I'll be back." He asked "are you alright?" I nodded as I said "yeah, I got to help out a friend." With that I walked over to a sad Stiles. As he sat down I say "I know it's not the same, but do you want to dance?" Stiles looked at me and smiled as he accepted the hand and we walked to the dance floor as the song 'Be Still" by The Fray came on. "Won't your date be mad?" I said "he better not, you're my best friend Stiles. Besides we came as friends." After the song ended I went with him as he wanted to find Lydia.

I told Eli "she's missing. Stiles and I are going to look for her if we can't find her in fifteen minutes we'll come back." He nodded and let me go with a "be careful." As I walked to Stiles he was talking to Jackson "what did you do?" He demanded.

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After Jackson basically told Stiles he had told the Argents about Scott, we decided to try and find them. As we walked to the lacrosse field I noticed Lydia. I nudged Stiles and we both started running. That's when I saw Peter. I wasn't going to let him hurt anyone else. I started running faster but I tackled him too late. He had bitten Lydia. I let the anger of not being able to protect her come over and I launched myself at him again. My werewolf face growing as well as my nails. I roared at him my eyes flashing blue and he seemed pretty surprised. I saw Stiles bend over Lydia shock on his face as he stared at me in disbelief. I swiped at Peter who avoided. I did this three more times until I finally managed to scratch his arm. He growled at me and I growled back as I full on tackled him but he caught me with one hand and slammed me down I felt bones break. Then he slashed at me and my shoulder started bleeding and he punched me in the face.

I whined as he growled and strolled over to Stiles. I tried to stand but nothing happened. My shoulder wasn't healing. The bones in my back were resetting. I felt darkness surround me and I heard Stiles say "don't kill them, please." Peter remarked "of course not, just tell me where to find Derek." Stiles asked "what?" Peter said "tell me how to find Derek Hale." Stiles shouted hysterically "I don't know that. How would I know that?" Peter said "because you're the clever one aren't you?" I heard nothing else as I lost consciousness.

"It's hiding in the dark,

Its teeth are razor sharp"

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