Wrong About You

Chapter 11

Beth-

We made our way back to the prison only to find that Daryl and Rick were not there.

I started to think about what would happen between them and everythin' I was thinkin' ended badly.

Daddy and Maggie hugged me but I didn't feel like they wanted me there.

Daddy came to my cell to talk. He did most of the talkin'. I knew how much I hurt them all and how much daddy was disappointed in me but to hear him actually say it, it hurt more than it did.

I shouldn't have come back here.

Daryl-

Me an' Rick looked ever'where we could but we ain't seen any signs of Beth an' we ain't talked 'bout nothin'.

I ain't even sure what I'd do if we found 'er. I still love 'er but I cain't forget what she did.

I could see tha prison from where we were. I know neither one of us wanted ta go in an' tell Hershel an' Maggie we couldn't find 'er but it's somethin' we have ta do.

Beth-

I was sittin' alone in my cell when I heard everyone screamin' so I went to see what was goin' on.

I saw Daryl and Rick walkin' towards the prison with Maggie and Carl.

They both stopped and stared at me.

"Where have you been?" Rick asked.

"I..I was...," I couldn't find tha words to tell them.

"I saw 'er sneakin' out so I followed 'er an' brought 'er back 'ere," Merle said when he got to where we were.

I saw Daryl clench his jaw.

He shook his head and backed away from me.

"Daryl? Please let me explain."

He turned around and looked at me but he didn't say anythin'.

"Please, Daryl. We need to talk. Please."

He looked around at everyone before heading to the guard tower.

"Go on," Merle nudged my shoulder and motioned for me to follow Daryl.

I carefully climes the stairs in the guard tower and before opening the door, I took a deep breath and tried to calm my nerves.

When I opened the door, Daryl was sittin' on the floor against the wall and was starin' crossbow.

I was sure what to say so I just stood there and tried my best not to cry.

"Daryl, I'm so sorry for what I did."

"Why tha fuck'd ya do it?"

When I didn't answer, he looked at me, "Why tha fuck did ya do it, Beth?"

I shrugged. It wasn't because I didn't know why I did it, it was because the 'why' wouldn't change anythin'. I did it, it happened and I can't take it back.

He didn't ask me 'why' again, he had other questions on his mind.

"Were y'all doin' that shit 'fore I left?"

"No Daryl. We didn't do anythin' before you left."

"How many times did ya fuck 'im after I came back?"

"Just once."

He started biting his lip and continued to stare at me before he stood up and walked over to me.

"I want tha truth, Beth. Why'd ya do it? Why him?"

"Daryl, it won't change anythin'."

"I don't care. I wanna know. I fuckin' need ta know!"

I know I have to tell him but I was finding it harder to do that with him standin' so close to me.

"I thought you didn't want me anymore but he...he made me feel wanted. I know it's a stupid reason but that's all it was. You were gone and he was there for me. He didn't treat me like everyone else did. I needed someone and he was there."

I had tears runnin' down my face as I watched him.

"Do ya love him?"

I shook my head, "No Daryl, I don't. I love you!"

He nodded and rubbed his face.

"Ya sure that kid's his?"

"The way I figured it, yes but then I talked to daddy and he kind of helped me see that I could be wrong. It could be yours. I'm not really sure."

He turned away and rubbed the back of his neck.

"If it's mine, I'ma help ya as much as I can."

"And if it's not?" I asked.

"Fuck, Beth. I still love ya but I cain't be with ya. I want to but I cain't trust ya right now."

Daryl-

I wanna trust 'er, I wanna be with 'er but I cain't let 'er know.

"What can I do, Daryl? I love you so much. I fucked up and I'm truly sorry."

"Ain't nothin' ya can do."

She started shakin' an' I could see she was tryin' not ta cry.

Shit, this is gon' be harder than I thought.

"Ya still wanna be with me?"

"Yes," she cried

"Then ya have ta find a way ta prove it. I ain't jus' gon' forgive ya 'cause yer pregnant an' tha kid may be mine. Ya fucked 'im after I came back, Beth. Ya fucked me an' lied ta me!"

"I wanted to tell you the truth. I wanted him to admit it too."

"Ya shouldn't have fuckin' cared 'bout 'im tellin' me. Ya should've told me, Beth."

She started ta cry harder than she was. I didn't know what else ta say so I walked 'er to 'er cell 'fore I went to find Merle.

He was in tha other guard tower on watch.

Merle told me how he found Beth an' what all he'd managed ta get outta 'er.

I took over watch jus' so I could stay in tha guard tower an' be left alone.

I love Beth but I don't think I can ever trust 'er again.

I pulled tha ring outta my pocket an' stared at it. I've been carryin' it 'round with me. I ain't sure why, though. Maybe it's my own form of self abuse.

I rubbed my eyes an' looked out at tha trees. If I had come back, none of this shit would've happened.

I let out a breath I didn't know I had been holdin'.

I was walkin' inta tha cell block an' could hear someone moanin'. We hadn't been able ta completely clear this cell block so I knew there'd be walkers.

I loaded my crossbow an' made sure I had my knife ready.

I made my way down ta tha last cell an' froze.

Tha moans were comin' from Beth.

"Rick," she breathed out.

I aimed my crossbow an' fired a bolt inta tha back of 'is skull.