Spock awoke to a heaviness on both of his sides. Feeling his arms being held down, he began thrashing around, kicking and scratching whatever was in his way. The weight at both sides suddenly disappeared and a voice whispered into his ear.
"Spock. Spock, calm down. It's us." Spock's eyes, which had been squeezed tightly shut, popped open only to stare into the hazel eyes of his lover. Leo was hovering over him on one side, Jim on the other. They both seemed incredibly worried and, from the anger he had sensed when he had come to, they knew exactly what had happened. Spock couldn't bear to look at them anymore. As his face turned green, Spock averted his gaze from the other two. They knew and he couldn't bear to face their reactions to it.
"Hey." Jim tried to get Spock's attention. When it didn't work, he tried again, louder and firmer. "Hey! Don't be doing that. The whole I'm Vulcan, this couldn't happen, they can't see me like this thing. I know what's going through your head. We've worked together long enough now that I can at least see that." Jim gently slid his hand down Spock's bruised and swollen cheek. Spock reluctantly looked up. "This did happen. I'm so sorry we weren't there to help you. But, you can't just lock yourself away. We care too much about you to let that happen." Spock looked down at his chest again.
"I am broken." he said simply.
"Don't you dare!" Leo growled, making Spock jump slightly. "After all the shit you've been through, everything you've survived, you're just gonna let them break you?! That's not the Spock I know and fell in love with." Spock looked up sharply.
"You...love me?" he asked softly, turning to Jim as well. Jim was the one who smiled and responded.
"We both do, Spock."
"You have never confirmed it." he muttered.
"Aw, don't go and get your Vulcan panties in a twist. Don't you guys have like, ESP or something?" Leo said with a grin. They all knew he was attempting to raise Spock's spirits with his usual banter. Though he wasn't physically smiling, they could both see it in his eyes. After a moment, Spock frowned again.
"How can you still love me? I am used. I can no longer give myself to you, untouched."
"Unto-" Jim began, brows furrowed in concentration before they flew up his forehead in realization. "You were a virgin, Spock?!" Spock blushed green all the way to the tips of his ears. He only nodded. "What about you and Uhura?" he asked.
"Nyota and I never became intimate." At this revelation, Jim and Leo looked at one another over Spock. They were both trying desperately to think of something to calm Spock's anxieties. Finally, Jim knelt by the bed.
"Look, Spock, that doesn't matter. Listen, there are some words from a human ceremony that seem pretty fitting. They're old words, hundreds of years old, but they describe how we feel about you. Let's see, they go: 'to have and to hold from this day forward, for better for worse, for richer for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death us do part.'"
"Aren't those vows from a human marriage ceremony?" Spock asked, knowing full well that they were. Those words, and the sentiments behind them, caused Spock to feel all warm inside.
"Yup! Aren't they, Bones? You should know!" he goaded the older man.
"Don't you start with me, kid!" Jim busted out laughing when Leo scowled at him. Though he looked angry to anyone who didn't know him, Spock knew enough to be able to tell that one Leonard McCoy was amused at the antics of Jim Kirk. Spock looked at his two lovers, tears coming to his eyes. He broke their happy moment with a soft proclamation.
"I love you, too. Both of you." With a cry of 'aw!' from Jim and a ruffling of the hair from Leo, both men leaned down giving Spock a chaste kiss each. He may have been hurt and violated. His virginity may have been stolen from him, but he would be okay. He knew he would be okay because he had the two most amazing lovers in the universe. This, right now, being held by the love's of his life, was perfect. Anything to do with these two men was perfect. Yeah, he was going to be just fine.