Chapter 6-Dean's Heartache
It was another beautiful day in Indiana. Dean and Sam had been working nonstop and Dean really wanted to see Cas so they decided to take a day off. Sammy woke to the sound of Dean getting dressed; he looked like a little giddy school girl.
"Going to see Cas?" Sam asked smiling. "How did you know?" Dean asked. "I can see it all over your face haha." Sammy said while laughing. "Shut up!" Dean grumbled. "Yea yea…someone loves an angel around here and it's not me." Sam teased. "Don't make me kick your ass…I'll be back later." Dean said as he closed the door. Sammy chuckled and settled in for a lazy day in bed. Dean made it to the hospital in record time and was surprised at his excitement. He really did miss Cas.
He didn't call before hand because he wanted to surprise Cas. He entered the hospital whistling the whole way to Cas's room, but stopped dead when he saw the scene before him. There she was that vile creature kissing his angel's lips. He didn't know what to do his heart literally stopped. As confusion and jealousy clouded his brain Cas pushed Meg away.
"Dean?" Cas asked with his marvelous voice. Dean couldn't answer he was destroyed all the muscle in his body were screaming run. He tried to collect himself but his anger was swelling. He grabbed Meg by the hair and threw her across the room. Being surprised she couldn't stop him and ended up unconscious on the floor.
Cas's eyes were wide and questioning. How could Dean explain his actions would he be stupid enough to give in to the feelings that he so dearly held tight. "Cas…I…should go." Dean replied with complete despair in his voice. "Wait…Dean won't you stay for a little while…it's been so long since I've seen you." Cas said. "Cas…I can't…I am not in the right state of mind to sit and talk. It's complicated and I don't know how to tell you how I feel." Dean said letting a single tear escape. Cas noticed of course, he might have been insane at the moment but he wasn't blind. "Dean…did I do something wrong? Is there something you want to tell me?" He asked. His ocean eyes were ripping right through Dean. "I can't…bye Cas" Dean turned to leave. Cas ran to him and grabbed him into a hug.
The sweetest embrace Dean had ever known, he could feel his eyes pooling with tears he had to escape. Letting Cas go Dean took one last look into those fantastic blue eyes and left. Dean made it to his car before he let the tears flow. He was finally breaking, he couldn't take it. He was defeated, how could he have thought that Cas felt the same for him. He turned the key and began to drive…him and his baby all he really needed.