Chapter 7-Release
Dean had been gone for three days and Sammy of course was worried. He had called the hospital after trying Dean's cell several times. Meg was nice enough to let Cas talk. Cas had told him about the incident along with the fact that he was concerned as well. Sammy's heart dropped after hearing the news, he knew how Dean would take this despite the fact that Dean refused to tell him what he felt for Cas. Sam knew; he was his brother after all.
He decided to call Bobby and to his surprise Dean answered. "Hello" Dean answered. "Dean…is that you, I've been worried about you." Sammy said. "Hey, Sammy I am sorry I've just had a lot on my mind I was gonna call you." Dean replied. "Yea I heard what happened. Are you ok?" Sammy asked concerned. "Sam…honestly no I am not, but I will be." Dean said. "Ok…I am getting my stuff together and gonna head down there." Sam said. "Yea…ok Sammy…just don't expect some mushy crap when you get here." Dean said. "Yea yea…I'll just get you drunk and you will spill. Haha…I'll see you in a bit. Love ya." Sam replied. Dean loved his brother but damn he always makes him get all emotional and girly.
Dean was already halfway through a bottle of whiskey when Sammy called. Bobby pretty much left him alone, he knew something was wrong but wouldn't dare ask. Bobby was cool like that he knew that once Dean was ready to talk he would. It was a rather beautiful day, a slight wind and big white puffy clouds in the sky. Dean marveled at the sheer beauty of it. It had been a while since he had actually taken in his surroundings. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath. He knew that he was gonna have to tackle the lump building in his throat, preferably before Sammy got there.
The first thing that came to mind was Meg's lips on Cas's. Dean shook with anger, how could Cas…Dean couldn't stop the tears now. Everything was flooding in now…the wall that was broken that made Sammy crazy. He could feel it all now, seeing Sammy in the hospital, Cas causing the fall. Finally get Cas somewhat back and then he took the pain from Sammy. Now he has Sammy back and he is losing Cas again. On top of it all Cas has no idea what Dean feels, so there is no one to blame. Everything was heavy now Dean couldn't stop crying, finally he was letting go. He thought of all this and then that sweet, warm embrace from Cas, which made him cry even harder.
Sammy made it to Bobby's as quick as he could. As he pulled into that familiar place, he noticed Dean hunched over the workbench Bobby kept for Dean to use on the Impala. Dean was holding an empty whiskey bottle and his body was shaking furiously. Sammy ran to him having nothing to say he just grabbed his brother. Sammy held his brother, he needed to be the rock this time. He needed to be the one Dean could lean on this time. This was the release Sammy had waited for, he wanted to know Dean still felt human.