Marley's P.O.V

I never expected things to go like this, this summer. It was suppose to be the last time to see my grandparents. To enjoy the sun for the last time and pretend I was a normal teenager for the first time in life.

When I met Jake I thought it would be one of this summer loves everyone talks about. I thought it would be something without real feelings but I can see that he has feelings and I know I have feelings for him. Feelings I never thought I would feel on my own.

I can't deny that I am scared. It's the end of the summer and I'm leaving in a week. I still haven't told Jake my secret. I still haven't told him that I will never see him again. I won't be able to write or call him after this summer and it breaks my heart.

I don't want to leave. I don't want to be apart for him. Jake makes me feel normal. He makes me feel like nothing in the world is bad but I already know that the world is bad. I've seen it with my own eyes. First it took my dad and now it's taking me.

I have to tell Jake that I am sick because I am. I have to tell him that doctors already told me to live my life like it was my last and I try.

He helped me do that.

I want to tell him that I love him and that despite what everyone says he is a good guy. In fact he is a wonderful guy.

I know I have to say good bye but I can't. I have cried too much for me to face him and pop the bubble I've worked so hard in creating.

At first I didn't tell him because I didn't want him to see me as sick girl, like everyone else does. I wanted him to look at me like he did and I still want that to be the last look I have for him.

That's why, in spite of everything, I am not saying good bye to him. At least not in person. I am doing something better. Something that I will take with me in my last moment because I know it's the right moment and he is the right guy.

That night as my bags are secretly packed on the closet and my grandparents and soundly asleep on their room, I sneak into Jake's room. I know he is asleep because I waited until he was. I take a moment to look around and smiled. This room is everything that he is. The parts that he shows and the parts that he hides. Jake Puckerman is an amazing boy and is going to be an even greater man. I know it.

Finally, after what seems like forever I swallowed hard. The note in my pocket feels like it burning a hole through my jeans but I ignore it. At least for now. I take slow and steady steps towards his bed and slip into the covers with him.

"Jake…" I whisper softly, my hands touching his warm naked chest.

He opens is eyes quickly and for a moment he is confused. "Marley?" he ask and I smile and nod.

"Yes Jake. It's me" I say softly. Before he can ask anything else I begin trailing my hand up and down his chest and his eyes are even more wide now.

"W-what are you doing?" he stutters.

"I'm giving myself to you" I say and his breaths hitches.

"Are you sure?" he ask and I nod.

"I am very sure" I say. "You are my soul mate. I wish I could spend the rest of my life with you because I know you are the only one that can make me happy but for tonight I will pretend that I will" I whisper and lean to kiss his lips.

"Why do I feel like you're saying goodbye?" he ask and sushed him

"Don't talk" I whisper. "I want tonight to be magical" I say and I kiss him again and this time he kisses me back.

I wish I could say that I was one of those girls who didn't suffer but I wasn't. It was really painful but Jake was really kind. He held me tight and kissed my kiss to ease my pain. I won't remember the pain but I will remember his kisses and touch. Tonight I was Jake's and that will forever be the case.

I laid in his arms, listening to his breathing as my shoulder was pressed against his naked chest. His legs tangled with mine as his arms pulled me into his embrace. It almost seemed like he was never going to let me go but I know that at some point I will have to leave.

My eyes flicker as the first ray of sunshine start to come out and I know that it's time to leave. I slip as softly as I can and I start to dress without waking him up. I don't know when did I start crying but I know that I won't stop anytime soon. I haven't even left and I already miss him.

Once I am fully clothes I stand beside his best and sniffle quietly. "I am so sorry Jake" I whisper and lean down and kiss the side of his head while my hand dig into my pocket, taking out a piece of paper. I take a deep breath and then I kiss him again before placing note on his nightstand and slipping the way I came from.

By the time he wakes up I'm already on the road. I called my mom a few days ago and asked her to pick me up early. I can't stand goodbyes, specially to him. I can't look him in the eye and tell him that I will miss him and that I love him. I can't stand the thought of his surprise gaze as he reads my letter.

Oh the letter. I can dictated the whole thing by mind right now if I wanted to but I try not think about it, even if it's the only thing I can think about.

"Dear Jake" it begins.

"Tonight is a very special night for me. I planned this night from the moment I met you and although it's a little weird I knew it was going to be you. You are very amazing boy and I so lucky to have met you. You made me feel like a girl and a woman at the same time but the time of pretending has come to an end.

I am so sorry for what I'm about to say but there is something you don't know about me. I have cancer. Leukemia to be exact. I was diagnose when I was just a little girl and a few months ago it got worst, my doctors told me that they couldn't do anything for me anymore. My mom offered me a car, a new bed, a vacation in Europe but I decided to come here and I'm glad I did. Because I met you and I got to feel what it feels to be in love and to be loved and I thank you so much for that.

I am sorry I didn't tell you before. I was so afraid that you would push me away like everyone else had done and the one thing I didn't want was to be away from you. You made my life whole for a three months and I don't know how to even thank you for that.

Maybe you hate me now because I left without saying goodbye or because I didn't tell you the truth but I understand. I know what I did was wrong and I hope that in time you can forgive me.

Just know one thing, Jake. You are so much more than your father and your friends. You are talented and passionate and I know that you will make something of yourself. I can see it in your eyes and I can bet my soul to it.

Don't ever give up on your dreams or hide who you are. The Jake I got to see, has to be seen by everyone. He deserves it. You deserve it.

Now it's time to say good bye and to tell you that I love you because there is nothing more I can say that could excuse what I did.

I'm sorry and I love you.

Marley Rose"

A lonely single tear fall down my cold pale cheek as my heart begins to fade in heart beats. I close my eyes and take a deep breath and dream about Jake and his smile and with that I smile as well.

God, did I love that smile.