Chapter 19
Restart
"Jump Rope"- Blue October
Kyle (POV)
I listened to Foss's even breathing and tried to fall asleep myself. I had promised Amanda that if she went to class today that I would get some sleep. I had been trying to sleep for a while now, I didn't know if my insomnia was caused by the discomfort of the chair I was sitting in, or the worry that if I did fall asleep something would happen to Foss.
The nurse had offered to bring a cot in here; but I thought it would get in the way if they needed to get to Foss. She had insisted on bringing me a pillow and blanket though which I gladly accepted. The curtains were drawn so it felt like night but in reality it was the middle of the afternoon. I let my head fall back on the pillow and attempted to sleep again. And slowly I did.
When I awoke it was around 4 and I knew Amanda and Brice would be here soon. I glanced over at Foss expecting him to be asleep but he was awake and watching T.V with the volume muted.
"Finally." He chuckled.
I just laughed along with him.
"How are you feeling?" I asked rubbing my eyes.
"Healthy as a horse." He joked.
I sighed and shook my head, we had been here for three days now and not once had he told me the truth about how he really felt.
"What are you watching?"
"I don't even know I haven't really been paying attention." He said turning off the T.V
He was quiet for a while so I assumed he was going to fall back asleep again. I pulled out my laptop from my back pack a decided I should get some work done that my professor had emailed me.
"Kyle," his voice was just above a whisper.
"Yeah?" I answered, setting my laptop aside.
"Kyle… I think…something's wrong." He gasped for air clutching his chest.
I sprung to my feet and yelled for a doctor. I looked at his monitors; his heart rate was dropping rapidly.
"I need some help in here!" I bellowed, as I began C.P.R.
Nurses were flying in around me, calling things to each other, one tried to pull me back but I refused and continued the C.P.R. Dr. Lynn called for a crash cart.
"Mr. Trager you need to step back, I have to use the paddles to get his heart starting again." Dr. Lynn explained calmly.
I moved out of her way back against the wall and watched everything unfold right in front of me.
"Charge to 300!" Dr. Lynn ordered. "Clear!"
Foss's body flopped but the flat line continued.
"Charge to 350!" She ordered again "Clear!"
Eventually all the noise became a buzzing sound and I could only hear one voice.
"Kyle," it was soft and kind, I hadn't heard it in the longest time.
"Kyle," it called again,
"Adam…" I could only hear his voice, I couldn't see him, all the doctors and nurses were still moving around me, but they made no sound, like the muted T.V.
"He needs you Kyle… now more than ever." His voice was composed.
"How can I help him when he needs something I don't have?" But he was gone, only his words lingered in my mind. 'He needs you Kyle… now more than ever." I had to be strong for him.
The sound of the room intensified, but Dr. Lynn's voice was the clearest of them all.
"Charge to 400!"
"Clear!"
There was a pause then a steady beeping rhythm. There was a sigh of relief that filled the room.
I moved passed a few nurses to his bed side. I gripped his hand and looked him directly in the eye.
"Don't do that again."
People started to file out of the room and go back to their work.
"I'll order an eco to check your heart." Dr. Lynn said before leaving.
We were both quiet, I went back to sitting in my chair and letting him rest.
"Daddy!" I heard him call from the door; I peer over and saw him in Amanda's arms reaching for me.
I smiled and walked over plucking him out of Amanda's arms. "Hey buddy, you've got to use your inside voice, Uncle Foss is sleeping."
My eyes darted over to Foss to make sure Brice hadn't woken him up, which he hadn't. I was glad because after today's episode Foss needed his rest.
"Hey," I whispered to Amanda giving her a quick kiss.
"Hey," she smiled back.
"Daddy?" Brice questioned looking at me and pointing at Foss.
"That's your Uncle Foss." I explained sitting back down with him on my lap.
He looked confused and I chuckled at his expression.
"You know how you have and Uncle Declan, and an Uncle Josh?" His face lit up at the mention of Josh and Declan.
"Well you also have an Uncle Foss," A hours voice came from Foss.
Brice leaned closer to me. Amanda and I laughed.
"Its okay sweetie, you don't have to be afraid of Uncle Foss." Amanda giggled next to me.
I stood up and took Brice over to Foss. This was the first time they had formally met each other. I placed him on the edge of the bed, he was nervous at first leaning close to me, but then Foss held his hand out to him. Brice took two of his fingers and giggle.
I noticed a small smile play on Foss's lips.
"Mr. Trager?" Dr. Lynn interrupted.
"Yes," I said turning to her.
"May I speak to you in the hall, please?" She asked, Amanda took my place by Brice and I stepped out of the room.
"I have good and bad news." She told me closing the door behind us.
"What's the good news?"
"We found a donor heart!" and for the first time since I met Dr. Lynn she smiled.
"That's great!" I cheered, I immediately wanted to go tell my family but I remembered that she had more news. "But what's the bad news?"
Her smile faded just as quickly as it came. "We don't have much time."
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"Well when he went into cardiac arrest it's a sign that his heart is failing and we don't have much time, so we need to get the new heart as soon as possible." I looked up at her and again she was giving me bad news.
"How long?"
"We can't say, it could be a few days, it could be a few hours." She whispered the last few words. "But we already have a team flying out to New York City to get the heart they should be back by tonight."
I nodded and turning to go back to my family and she followed closely behind. Brice was still sitting at the edge of Foss's bed playing with his fingers.
I watched my family as Dr. Lynn told them the news. And I watched their smiles disappear right before my eyes.
AN: More drama! I hope you liked it though, please comment!