I'm sorry but like I have HORRIBLE! Writers block and I can't write ANYTHING! Well not anything but like this is what I have so far and I don't know what to do next! Plzzzzzzzzzzzzz I'm begging you! To give me some sort of idea! I am so terribly sorry! I bet you hate me but I hope God gave you the ability to forgive me. But ANY idea will be put into consideration! ! Either PM me your ideas or put your ideas in the review box! Thx my awesomely AWESOME loyal readers!
Peace IN!
Max P.O.V
I froze. Should I tell him? No that would be stupid. Um, story, story, story. Oh I can say my Aunt died this week and I was sad? That wouldn't work. He reads me like a book and he would find out I was lying. Just like Nick. A tear left my eye. I should just call Ella or get Ari. Ella's phone is on silent and Ari is at work. I don't know what to do. Umm, I could kiss him. That would make him be quite right? That's what happens on all the TV shows. Here it goes. I leaned in to kiss him. I think we were there kissing, talking under our breath, and I don't know for 30 minutes. We broke apart when we heard Ella coming home came. Fang shot up and walked to the door and left. Did he not want to kiss me? We kissed for 30 minutes so he would have told me no, right? He kissed back. I think. I don't know why but I felt kind of hurt. I missed Nick. Nick would have comforted me right now. Ella walked in and went to the kitchen and got a glass of water.
"Uh, Ella can you come here? Please?" I said tears already filling my eyes. She ran over and hugged me.
"What is it?" Ella asked me concern in her eyes. "Do you need Ari?" she said sitting next to me.
"No but what I need now is… is… is… I want to not be sad. This has been going on forever. Me being sad and all. I would gladly go back to the school if I could just be with Nick. I miss him Ella. I know its been forever but I miss him like I'm missing my legs. I can't be as free without legs. I need him." I told Ella between tears. "I need him." I ran to my room and plopped on my bed. I should try to find him. You know go to England and look for him even if it means getting put back into the 'The School'. He means that much to me. I would go through anything just to see him again.
"I'm gonna find you Nick even if that means dying I would do it for you, sweetheart! I love you!" I said to the sky with a full blown plan in my head. Now if it doesn't work is what I'm scared about. Please let it work.
"Wait, WHAT! Your going to England without me?" Nudge asked me as angry as Nudge can get with her bubbly personality. We were at the Air Port. I nodded my head. I can only go alone because I will be all over England and who knows what will happen. If I get lost or get caught by the school then I really don't want to drag them into it. I don't want them to go through the pain. The pain that almost broke me if Nick wouldn't have been there.
"I'm gonna find you, Nick. Don't worry." I whispered so low I barely heard myself. Fang looked over at me confused. Had he heard it? No he couldn't have. I dismissed that thought.
"So you're going to leave the IGSTER here while you go to England. I've never been there." Iggy said. He sounded like he was lying because his voice went higher than usual. "I feel loved right now." Fake sadness on his face. I looked over at Fang. I would miss him the most. I may not see any of these people again so I can make a fool out of myself. I ran up to him and hugged him. He stiffened the whole time. Did he not like me as a friend anymore? It was the kiss. UGH! Stupid TV shows lying to us about guys. First Nick, now Fang. Why is my world falling apart. Why me? I unlocked myself, disappointed, from him and went to hug Iggy. At least he hugged me back. Now to Nudge. I started to go over to hug her but she just trampled me in a hug. Oh Nudge I'm going to miss her.
"I'm going to miss all of you." I told the group of people made up of Iggy, Fang, Ella, Nudge, Gazzy, and Ari.
"I'll call you like everyday. Okay?" Nudge asked me but more like stated.
"I'll miss you guys to." By then everybody was hugging me except Fang. I guess he doesn't like me anymore. Why me? I bent over and got my stuff after they unlocked themselves from me. I walked to the loading dock in the Air Port, waved goodbye, and went into the plane. I was going to miss them. That was the last time I would see them. A tear left my eye at that time. "I'm gonna find you Nick and come back to you guys. I love you guys!" I whispered to myself. I found my seat-next to a hot guy-at the window. I put my stuff up, put my ear buds for my IPod in, and closed my eyes. I was gonna miss them. I picked my favorite song.
* My Paper Heart by Francesca Battistelli *
Well I've been treated like a valentine
That's been ripped apart and left behind
You bet I've been ripped apart!
I'm a fragile girl
In a crazy careless world
My dreams were torn and scattered on the floor
Stupid scientists!
But You've been picking up the pieces, Lord
'Cause Your love is real
The only hope to heal
*Chorus *
My paper heart is Yours now
I have landed in Your hands
Come so far to find out
My life will never be the same
Since you wrote Your name
On my paper heart
My life has been different since Nick wrote his name on my paper heart!
I had been so terrified to trust
I haven't really trusted anyone since Nick. Well, except Fang but I guess not since I messed it up. I know I've said this a lot but WHY ME?
So many times I'd been reduced to dust
But you keep showing me
You're the safest place to be
When I was with Nick it was the safest place to be. I'm going to find that safe place again.
My Paper heart is Yours now
My heart is and always will be Nick's.
I have landed in Your hands
Come so far to find out
My life will never be the same
Since you wrote Your name
On my paper heart
Never knew that I could feel the way I feel
Never knew that there could be a love so real
Never knew that I could feel the way I feel right now
My paper heart is Yours now
I have landed in Your hands
Come so far to find out
My life will never be the same
Since you wrote Your name
On my paper heart
Never Knew that I could feel the way I feel right now
Never knew I could feel the way I feel
Never knew that I could feel the way I feel right now