For the next week or two, I was walking on air. I felt like I was Madonna…only younger. I got my superstar night, it had happened just like I always dreamed it would. Well, minus the crazy outfits, Jade and Mason. Me and Jade were both fired and were escorted out of the arena after the show. None of us cared though we celebrated at Nazu with sushi and the crabby lady that always reminds me of how I left her hanging. However I refused to let anyone ruin this for me.
After awhile things went back to normal, Jade went back to being mean to everyone and after I apologized to everyone for acting like such a diva I had all my friends back again.
The only thing that had changed after that night was that I couldn't stop thinking about how Beck tried to kiss me. I couldn't stop thinking about how it felt to have his big hand cup my face. What he said to me also got me thinking, about how he's never really been around any nice girls, only Jade. I kind of felt sorry for him. I don't know how he could stand to be around someone so negative all the time.
Speaking of which here they came now…arguing as usual.
"I just don't understand why you wouldn't tell anyone else! You are the most self centered girl I have even met!" Beck said screaming at Jade.
Jade just mocked him and roller her eyes, "Hey it's not my fault that no one else around here got the memo."
"Hey what's going on?" Tori asked concerned.
"They held auditions here at Hollywood Arts on Saturday and conveniently all the flyers ended up in Jade's locker and she didn't tell anyone!" accused Beck.
"Auditions for what?" I asked casually. It was probably just for another play or musical it sucked that I missed out on it but I knew there'd be more chances.
"To go to an acting school in Europe for the summer," Jade said snidely.
"What?" I asked now fully concerned.
"It's an all expenses paid trip to Europe for the whole summer. You get to take some real acting classes instead of classes from that guy," Jade said signaling to Sikowitz dressed in his usual hobo attire drinking Milk from a coconut and reading a magazine…up side down, "They're only picking 150 people from the United States to go and they basically already picked me," Jade explained, you could see the victory in her face.
"And you didn't tell any of us and you stole the flyers?" I questioned her.
"I thought you all already knew and as for the flyers… prove it," she said with her wicked smile and walked off.
"I can't believe her! Is there any way that we can still audition?" I asked desperately looking to Beck.
"No they already auditioned tons of kids here in California they're going to start picking people this week," Beck said looking pissed.
"She didn't even tell you about it?" of all the people Jade would tell I would think she would at least have enough decency to tell Beck.
"No…" Beck said with his jaw tense.
I knew that this was Beck's dream. To him acting was life, and he was great at it. If he had the chance, he could get in easy. I knew he wanted it just as bad as I had wanted to sing at the awards. It was too late; the auditions ran and now there was no way any of us were going to get in.
"Hey guys what goes on?" Andre said walking up to us followed by Robbie and Cat. They all noticed that we were tense.
"Is everything ok?" Cat asked in her typical baby voice.
"No we missed out chance to go to Europe!" I whined.
"Oh I love Europe!" Cat said bubbly.
"Have you ever been there?" I asked.
"No," Cat smiled.
"What do you mean we missed out chance?" Andre asked.
Me and Beck explained about the trip to Europe and how Jade didn't tell anyone and stole the flyers.
"But why would Jade do that to us?" whimpered Cat.
"Because she's selfish! She wants this all to herself; they're not letting many people in," Beck said.
Cat looked down to the floor and started crying, "But I wanna go to Paris and eat cheese."
"We all do Cat, we all do…" I said putting my hand on her shoulder patting it.
I could not believe Jade, I was just beginning to think that we were making progress that we were really friends. I was wrong, she was really self centered all this time and now my little Platinum concert seemed like it was nothing compared to a chance to go to a real acting school in Europe.
We were all angry with Jade, we thought that is some way she was out friend but she was no friend of ours. We were all sitting at lunch picking at our food and Jade strolled up. She was in a good mood today…as good as it gets anyways.
"Ello' mates," Jade said in a British accent sitting next to Beck who scooted farther away. All of us ignored her and didn't even bother to look up, "what's with you guys?"
"I want French cheese!" Cat cried out to Jade.
"Huh?" Jade asked confused.
"Thanks for telling us about the auditions to go to Europe," Andre said sarcastically.
"Oh please it's not like any of you would get in anyways. They're only taking 150 people out of the whole country," Jade pointed out.
"Doesn't meant you couldn't of told us," Beck threw back.
"Yeah if we're all such bad actors why didn't you tell any of us since we're no competition anyways," I demanded.
Just then, I head Trina's could 4 in. heels come stomping up.
"How could you not tell me there was an audition to go to Europe!" Trina demanded, "Europe is like my second home!"
"You've never even been there!" I told her.
"Uh hello it's Europe people like me belong there!" Trina yelled.
"I can think of somewhere else you belong," Jade said with a giggle.
That was it, I had had it with Jade, "Oh for the love of God Jade, Shut up! Everyone here is sick and tried of you shitty attitude and for treating us like dirt! You and I are not friends I don't even think you know how to be a friend! You're a self centered, shallow little bitch!"
Jade just stared at me as her eyes got colder and colder. I tried to not let her see how intimidated I was but it was about time someone stood up to her. She looked like she could have taken out a pair of her scissors right then and there and stabbed me. She wasn't used to people standing up to her like that.
"What did you just call me?" Jade asked.
I had to take a minute to catch my breath, "You heard me…"
Jade got up and slung her bag onto her shoulder, "I'd watch my back if I were you…"
She just stared at me with her creepy smile for a minute and walked away. I just sat there boiling in my own anger. I couldn't believe I just said all that to her. I never talk like that ever…but someone had to. Everyone at the lunch table was in shock; no one really knew what to say or what to do. Trina however was impressed with me.
"Damn little sis, you stood up to her! Good job!" she said and patted me on my back and walked off.
"I can't believe you said all that to her," Cat said looking like she was about to faint. She usually does in tense situations.
"Yeah…me either. Should I go apologize?" I was starting to doubt myself.
"No the bitch deserved it!" Andre said and continued eating the others silently agreed and went on eating.
"Yeah… she does doesn't she…" Beck said looking down at his untouched food.
The look on his face made me feel horrible…
"Hey did you guys know that France is the cheese capital of the world?" Cat piped up after awhile.
The rest of the day blurred by. It was so hot today in California; summer was defiantly on the way. There was only one month left of school. I had become paranoid everywhere I went and with everything I touched. I was worried that it would explode or fall on my or stab me. So far Jade hadn't gotten back at me…yet.
I had felt so guilty for what I had done I was never that mean to anyone. I felt like a Jade now. Carrying around a black cloud where ever I went. I had stooped down to her level and was now like her. I have always been the bigger person through out my life, and now what I had told her just kept replaying over and over in my head. Worst of all, I think I disappointed Beck. He didn't talk much anymore and always looked like he was in deep thought. I think he was mad at me, I didn't want him to think I was a bad person. It seemed so important to me that he still thought of me as a good person. It was more important than what the Europe trip was to me.
A week and a half after the incident I decided to text Beck, "Hey mind if I come talk to u?"
He texted me back instantly, "sure come on over."
I left my house and headed for Beck's RV. The sun was setting on California, and it was turning the sky purple and orange. Once I got to his house I swallowed my pride and knocked on the door.
"Hey," Beck said standing in the door, "come one in."
I walked into the RV and noticed it smelled like the cologne I had smelt on him before.
"So what's up?" He asked sitting on the small couch.
"Look I just wanted to come by and say that…I'm sorry," I managed to spit out.
"For what?" he asked confused.
"Do you still care about Jade?" I asked.
Now beck looked serious. He shifted around in his seat and explained, "I thought I still did… it's just hard. We were together for so long. It's not that easy to just walk away from that."
"Are you mad I yelled at her?"
"Surprisingly…no. I felt like I should have, like I should have stuck up for her but I didn't feel sorry for her. I felt like she deserved it," Beck said still not looking her in the face.
"So why have you been avoiding me?" I tried to ask softly. I didn't want to upset him.
"Oh no don't think I was avoiding you. I have just been thinking a lot," Beck said an I patiently waited for him to explain I could see this wasn't easy, "I was just thinking that me and Jade have been together for so long but I don't love her like I used to. I'm so used to having her around I don't remember what it feels like not having to protect her. It's time for me to let go and just move on."
"I still don't think she's over you," I said truthfully.
"Probably not, but she hasn't done one nice thing for me ever, I'm sick of being her little puppy dog. I'm letting it all go. I am done with Jade," Beck proclaimed.
"Beck, can I ask you something?" time to find the truth.
"Yeah anything," Beck offered now looking at her.
"Do you think I'm a bad person?"
Beck sighed, "Tori, people aren't just black and white. There's good and bad in everyone Jade's just more up front about it. The point is, is that you're not perfect no one is."
"But still am I bad? Am I like Jade?" I worried.
"No you're nothing like Jade. It's not necessarily a bad thing that you stood up to her. She's mean to everyone and everyone's scared of her. Someone has to slap some sense into her if she's ever going to change."
"I feel horrible," I admitted.
"Well, what's done is done. Don't worry about this it wasn't that bad," Beck tried to help but I still felt guilty, "look I'll make you a deal. I'll let go of things if you let go of things. We'll do it together."
I thought about it for a moment, "Alright, deal."
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