Chapter 3
There was a bright light shining on my face, and I could sense that people –vampires- were hovering over me. I kept hearing a mumbling, buzzing, sound. Then it grew louder. "Should we wake her?" I could hear Alice say in a soft voice "It's been like 10 minutes?" Wake her up? 10 minutes? I slowly opened my eyes to see Alice, Jasper, Emmett, and Rosalie standing in a circle around me staring down, like a local crime scene where all the locals come to stare at the dead body. "Whoa - what happened?" I croaked. As I leaned up I felt so light-headed and dizzy that I just stared dazed for a second. "You went into shock and passed out." Emmett said matter-of-factly. Then I remembered. How could I have forgotten? That painful scream. "Oh, my gosh is Edward..? "But I didn't know how to end that sentence. Was he okay? Well, obviously not if everyone in the room was so still and cautious? "Can I at least see him?" But I then realized that I might not see him like that. I mean, what would I see? "He hasn't, ohm, waken up yet." Alice face was apologetic. What did she have to be sorry for? "It's alright. Come on up Bella." I jumped at the sound of Carlisle's worried voice. It scared me. But I listened and headed up to Edward's room. As I walked into his dark room, I thought I was in the wrong room. The curtains were closed. So that every opening for light to come in there was something covering it. The room was a total mess. But I knew it was his. Esme sitting in a car next to his bed holding his hand and Carlisle was sitting at the far end of the room with his head in his hands. Thinking. Sobbing tearless sobs. Then he looked up and quickly composed his features. I had a billion questions to ask. Most one's he didn't have answers too cause, for obvious reasons, he was sitting down….Sobbing. So I settled with the best one for the moment. "So, What do you think about this?" He MUST have an explanation. "I don't know what to think of it. It seems his pain is the same as the" ahem "transformation. Only instead of him getting stronger he is getting weaker and weaker" That explains the sobs. Basically translation, no matter how optimistic the Cullen's are –with an exception of the one laying on his bed deep in a coma – They could only fear the worst. "Oh." It was a stupid response. "We'll leave you alone" I had all but forgotten esme before she had said that. They both hugged me and walked out. Never meeting my eyes. And I was never meeting theirs. Well, I didn't know what to do. So I just walked over to the chair esme had been sitting in and sat down. I grabbed his hand and started playing with his fingers like I used to before all the mayhem. His hand was strangely warm and sweaty. How the heck could a vampire, whose body is normally ice cold, Be sweating? How could he even be in a coma? Things were getting stranger and stranger. I was holding back my tears. "Edward? Can you hear me?" I don't know why. But I kind of expected him to respond and smile that crooked smile I loved so much…My smile. "I don't know if you can hear me but I heard that doctors say talking to the patient kind of helps I guess. So I just wanted to say 'I love you'" I kissed every one of his fingers. That's basically how it went for the last two in half hours. Me just rambling on about my memories. And some pretty random stuff. I was in the middle of telling him about a weird dream I had once, about being stuck/lost in a banana, and nobody was there but me, When Carlisle walked in. "Bella I know you must not want to leave his side but I have to do some checkups. Scans You know"? I nodded. And stood –stretched- Wow! I was pretty sore. I bent over and kissed Edward on the forehead, then nose, then….lips, before I walked to his door. "It's a smart thing…Talking to him, that is." He smiled. But I could tell it was a forced effort. "Thanks" I was about to lose it. So I quickly ran down the stairs past Alice. "Ya coming?" I called, and then looked at her. She could see the pain in my eyes. And for that she quickly agreed and took the driver's seat. But she didn't drive fast. Going 25 on a 35 mph highway. The lady behind us was getting impatient. She didn't care. I needed her right now. She knew that. She is such a great friend. One day, I don't know how, but I will repay her. Once we got home I took out left over pizza from the fridge and put in on the table. I wasn't hungry. It was for Charlie. So alive followed me too the couch where I lay on her lap crying my eyes out. I heard Charlie's cruiser pull up. But didn't move. I heard him open the door. But didn't move. "Hey kiddo! I'm home." I didn't respond. He walked into the living room and just stared at the scene in front of his eyes with shock. Then Alice, thank goodness for Alice, Mouthed 'I'll explain later' and he nodded. He kind of hesitated. As if debating whether too come over and try and comfort me or let Alice do that. But both us knew me and him weren't good with displaying our emotions. So he decided to let Alice take over. And for the past two months. The routine was the same: wake up early. Read and talk to Edward , come home and cook dinner –something fast and simple- then try and sleep on those sleepless nights without Edward crawling through my window….At school, I was a total ghost. My friends knew about Edward. And they were supportive. Some a little too supportive. *mike* and some more ignore and gossip then supportive *Lauren and Jessica* Oh, how badly I wanted my biology partner back! I always went straight to the Cullen's after school. Hoping for any news. None. Always none. Alice never went shopping anymore. Emmett never goofed off or made fun of me. Rosalie never even bothered to glare at me anymore! It was always too tidy as esme cleaned, and recleaned. Just for something to do. To get things off her mind. And I feared nothing was going to be the same.