I had no idea where I was running. I just wanted to get out of the house. I can't believe how happy I was an hour ago and now… it was like my world we destroyed. I went to a nearby park and say there more awhile. It was the same park me and Beck ran through the sprinklers that one night. The sprinklers were on again, only now I felt so lonely. I needed things to slow down, just let the world just stop.

I don't know exactically how long I stayed on the bench for. After awhile the tears just stopped flowing. My eyes stung a little from crying so much and my face was damp. I wanted Beck now more than ever, I had to have him. I stood up and started walking towards his house. The walk was long, dark, quiet and lonely. It felt like the entire world was completely calm while to me it was falling apart. The stars and the moon where shinning bright but I couldn't see the beauty.

When I got to Beck's drive way where the RV was parked… I saw him sitting there. He was sitting in a lawn chair looking towards the moon. When he noticed me he stood up. I could feel the tears coming again, I needed another release. Beck must have noticed because with out saying a word he just rushed right up to me and I rushed to him.

When we connected, it was like electricity. He took one of his big strong hands and buried it in my hair while I held onto his neck. He placed his lips on mine and I could taste his desperation. He could probably taste mine too. I had never kissed anyone so furiously. Our hands roamed every where, we were both breathing hard drinking each other in. I noticed that he smelled amazing, the same cologne I smelt on him a long time ago, I loved it. I buried my face into his shoulder to take in the smell and he went for my neck again, picking up right where he left off.

The same feeling from inside me was coming back only stronger. We made our way to the RV, clumsily but we made it. I threw him down onto the bed and jumped up on top of him.

"Jesus Tori," he said with a seductive smile on his face and he put his hand on the back of my neck and pulled me in. I could tell I was pushing him over the edge. Now it was just like a game to me. How far of a push does it take for him to take me? Now I was just teasing him by biting his neck and running my hand down to the bottom of his shirt and slowly pushed it up.

"Fuck!" Beck said and grabbed my hips and pushed me over so he was now on top. He quickly ripped his shirt off and came back for my mouth. I let my hands roam. His skin felt incredible, and it felt even better to have that weight on top of me. He knew to just put enough on for me to feel it but not crush me. I swear, he had the body for a Hollister model. Out tongues kept exploring deeper and deeper until finally he went to my neck again. Damn he was driving me crazy. He ran his tongue all the way from my shoulder up to my ear and it was making me loose my breath.

He slowly started to pull my shirt off while looking at my face; I nodded my head to let him know I was ok with it He started to kiss me everywhere and ran his hands up and down my bare skin. I knew what he wanted; I could see it in him. So I took his hands and guided them the claps of my bra. Slowly I slide out of it and layed there. Now I was feeling shy and exposed. It was a little awkward at first but my thoughts started to take over and fueled my fire for him.

"Damn you're beautiful," Beck breathed out and layed down on top of me. It felt amazing to have the skin to skin contact. He was so warm and perfect, his body and mine curved in all the right places to compliment each others. He started to kiss my neck and make his way down my chest. I knew what he was going for and the anticipation was killing me. I just leaned back, relaxed and closed my eyes so I could focus more on how it felt.

He knew exactically what he was doing. Good thing one of us did. He was perfect. He kept swirling his tongue around my nipple while his thumb played with the other one and would switch off every few minutes. I could hear my heart pound in my ear and I felt my insides flowing with desire. I loved Beck, I wanted every part of him.

After awhile he slowed down and stopped and placed his forehead on mine. We were both breathing heavily.

Finally Beck swallowed and started talking, "Damn Tori… you are going to drive me insane if you keep doing this."

I kept breathing hard, "So… what if I want it."

"What happened?"

I explained to him about how my dad had cheated on my mom and how hurt she was. I let a tear or two escape in the process and Beck wiped them away.

"Tori… I want you so bad right now…." He started to say his breathing was getting back to normal, "but I really don't think that tonight's the right night for it."

I was beginning to slow down and my heard was getting clearer. He was right; this was more than enough to satisfy me…for now. He had never been completely on top of me let alone either of us with out shirts. I got my fix for now

"Yeah I know…" I still wanted Beck but I also didn't want my first time to be shadowed with the family drama.

Instead Beck wrapped his arms around me and him layed in his bed cuddling. Beck's chest seemed to radiate warmth against my back, it was great.

"I can't believe he did that to us," I started to talk, I don't even think I cared whether or not I said it to Beck. I just needed to say it, "he betrayed all of us. You should have seen the look on my mom's face. It was really heartbreaking."

"I'm sorry, I know it must suck. These kinds of things are complicated," Beck said into my ear as he was playing with my hair.

"What's so complicated about not cheating on the person you're committed to?" I asked.

"I'm not saying what he did was right, but still. Relationships are hard and for them to be married and have kids make it even harder," Beck replied.

"But my dad is supposed to be the man of our family. He's the one that's supposed to hold us together…now everything's just falling apart," I quietly cried out.

"Hey," Beck said pulling me closer and was now looking at my face, "I know that the situation sucks…but don't worry about them, if you're world is falling apart let me put it back together. You don't need your dad to be the man in your life. You have me," Beck said dreamily.

This was the first time I really smiled in awhile; I just thanked him with a kiss. He was right, I didn't want to spend the whole summer moping around and dealing with my parents' drama. I just got away from all the drama that school had. I just wanted to spend the summer the Beck. Beck was all I needed in my life now. We felt perfect just the way we were right now. I would never lie this exposed to a guy, but with Beck I just felt accepted. We layed there wrapped around each other and at some point we fell asleep and I just let myself go. I didn't need my parents or Trina anymore.

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