Chapter Eight Why?
"Move! Move out of the way! Get her some water, some herbs anything!" Rin's eyes felt so heavy, her breathing became to painful. "Here, we still have herbs to treat poison, but because she's been pumping a lot of adrenaline I don't know if this will be enough for her." Sango's touch could be felt on the bite mark, Rin could hear Kohaku's choked voice in his anger. "Damn it! What a great time for Kagome to leave, she would know which herbs to use." So noisy. "Let me suck the poison out." Rin felt something tiny land under the herbs. I may not get all of it, but it'll just be enough, maybe she'll survive." Rin felt someone hold her hand. "She won't die! I won't let her die! Suck the poison out now!" Everything turned to darkness.
Rin's mind became blank, the pain was so much for her to bear. Why even bother going on? A voice told her, You can finally be at peace, you don't have to fight anymore. Rin was confused 'I want to fight.' What is your reason? 'My reason? I fight because I love it. I want to continue life, there is so much left to do and…. and I want to…...'' Rin felt the darkness surrounding her, But you can go in peace, you do not have to fight to survive anymore. You can be in your own paradise. You have had a life of a human girl, friends who loved you, just let it go.' The darkness surrounded her arms and legs. 'Friends? Love? …..Why do I fight? All I have done is taken care of others. I protect them all, maybe you're right…. maybe I should just move on.'
The darkness surrounded her more covering up to her chest. Yes Rin, accept death. Its time to have peace, its time for you to have the happiness and love you never got. 'Love…..happiness….' Rin's heart pounded at the thought of love and the she remembered. That night in Sesshomaru's castle, she confessed her love and kissed him, she kissed her lord. 'I told myself I would fight.' The voice paused and replied with You can let it all go. 'No!' Rin protested, 'I told myself, no, I wished with all my heart I would fight and get stronger so that I could be with him.' He is a demon, he does not need your protection. He will live much longer than you ever will, The darkness slowly let go of its grasp as Rin yelled at the voice, 'I don't care! I love my lord Sesshomaru! I want to fight! I want to be strong enough to be by his side and never leave him again.' Tears fell down her cheeks, 'That's why I fight, I fight for him, he is my reason for living, he is my friend, my love, my happiness! Now let me go, so I can be with him! Let me go now!'
Rin's eyes slowly opened, her neck was still in pain. Looking up, shes sees the ceiling of the hut she use to live in, to the left she looked out the window and saw it was night. Looking at herself she was wearing a white kimono,covered in a blanket, and the dressed wound that covered her neck and her right shoulder felt fresh. To the right she sees Kohaku, sleeping with his sickle in hand. Rin smiled at him, she was grateful for him to care for her. A tear rolled down her cheek, she touched her face and then remembered of her journey in darkness along with her blocked memory of her kiss with Sesshomaru. Rin tried to sit up, she got her left side, but her right felt so numb and so in pain. She tried to hold in a painful cry, but she couldn't help it, it hurt her so much. Kohaku awoke, rushed over to place one hand on her back and the other on hers, "Rin! Thank goodness you're finally awake."
Rin winced in pain, it hurt so much, Kohaku lied her back down, still holding her hand, "Kohaku how long have I been out?" Kohaku placed a damp cloth over her forehead, "You've been out for almost three days. I warned you about spider underlings, they may be weak, but their venom is just as deadly." Rin looked into his eyes, she could tell he had been crying. This stung Rin's heart, deep down she can never love him the same way even if she tried, the last thing she wanted was to hurt him. "Myoga got most of the venom out, and Sango put medicinal herbs on you. The next morning Inuyasha and Kagome came back and Kagome has been giving me the herbs to help heal you." Rin blinked, "You've been taking care of me by yourself this whole time?" Kohaku shook his head,"Only at night, I would guard you and redress your wound, Sango would come in and take over during the day so I can help the villagers repair their homes." Rin blushed, how embarrassing for Kohaku to dress her wounds.
She looked up and said," Thank you Kohaku, where is A-Un?" Kohaku bit his bottom lip,"You don't have to worry about them right now, you focus on getting better." Rin glared, when he bit his lip like that he was either lying or hiding the truth from her. "Kohaku tell me now." Kohaku sighed, "Ok fine I'll tell you, Sesshomaru came and picked them up two days ago. Kagome told him you were hurt and he told her to tell you…." Kohaku paused he knew Rin wasn't going to like this part. Rin squeezed his hand, "Tell me what?" Kohaku looked at her, hiding his inner joy, "Sesshomaru doesn't want you to come back to the castle Rin. He's leaving you to live here for the rest of your life."
Authors note: I hope you guys are enjoying this so far. I am just as much of a fan of this as you guys are. I cannot tell you how many times I have reread these chapters to make sure I have the right spelling, grammar, and not giving too much away! This weekend I sadly will not be able to post a new chapter so please be patient with me! I will try to have the new chapter up on Monday. Have a Happy Halloween!