WARNING! HUGE A/N in this update, but please read it all! It's really important for you guys to see it!

Here's the next chapter! FYI, I made this April's POV. I wanted to try to get her perspective on the matter, and some other stuff out there. I tried to make it a one sided Rhodester, but want your guys opinion. Let me know if I made this too fluffy, because I'm trying to keep this a Rhodester friendship right now, though I MIGHT turn it into more later. (Come on, people! Don't ya'll think April does act like she's in love with Will sometimes? But that could be Miss Kristin's Matt Morrison crush…) Anyways! Let me know what you think, it always helps =]
DISAIMER: If I owned Glee, Santana would sing Out Tonight, which is so dead on, and April and Will would at least have a little fling. A bit of fluff. Maybe a kiss? Or a Lady A song together? I just think they're so cute together. Sorry, Wemma fans, I honestly DO think they're adorable together, but I just want a LITTLE bit of Rhodester on tv. I mean, Miss Kristin and Matt sing AMAZING together! I'm like obsessed with their harmonies. So beautiful.

April's POV
The next morning, (or can you call it morning? It's fricken four AM!) I wake up to a horrible burning rising in the back of my throat, and the next thing I know, I'm throwing up everything I ate into Will's toilet. Oh God, I hope this doesn't wake him up…

I'd hate for him to see me like this. He already knows everything else that's happened to me, even though I hate to tell people. I've never liked talking about my past, mostly because it sucks, but I just had to tell Will the truth about Ed.

I hate to admit it, but I think I'm a little bit in love with him. I know he's not interested, though, so I'm not gonna try to pull anything while I'm here. All I want is his friendship right now. No, I don't just want his friendship, I NEED it. I can live without him, (though I'd honestly rather not…) but I just came for his help right now. As a friend, and nothing more. He's in love with Emma, so I'll respect that and try to back off. I just want him to be happy with whoever he wants to be with. Who, obviously, isn't me. But what kinda person would want me? I use guys to get a roof over my head, and don't think about it twice. Probably because I pick bad men, but that obviously isn't working considering my current predicament.

I can't think about it much more, though, because I hear footsteps behind me. Obviously they're Will's, since nobody else would be awake in his apartment at this ungodly hour. Crap… I hate him seeing me like this.

"Sorry…" I mutter humbly, trying to avoid his eyes. "you don't have to help me, ya know…"

"I know," he says, "but I want to."

"Why?"

"April, you're my friend," Will says, tilting my face to look him in his eyes. "Of course I want to help you."

He really is too good for me… I think to myself as he puts a warm washcloth on my neck. He's so nice to everyone, even people like me. People stuck at rock bottom with nowhere to go and nobody turn to. I guess that's what makes me so attracted to him. He's so good, and I'm just… not. I guess as they say, opposites attract.

Wait, WHAT AM I DOING? I need to stop thinking about this! I'll never have Will, so I might as well quit dreaming and find somebody else. Someone like him could never love someone like me. He loves Emma, that Ginger with OCD, and I guess I know why. She's pretty, but not flashy. She's nice, but she's sensible. She's everything I'm not. I'm crazy, flirty, alcoholic, not that smart, a bit of a druggie, and basically nothing a decent man would want.

"April? You okay?"

I blink a few times and suddenly I notice that I was just staring into his eyes.

Crap… I zoned out.

"Yeah," I say, turning my head to look at the floor again. "Just thinkin'…"

"Maybe you should get some more sleep," Will suggests, "It's still pretty early."

"Kay…" I start to walk back to the bedroom, but I'm very obviously really shaky. I can barely walk straight because of how much I'm shaking.

Will instantly notices this, and he supports my back. I try to ignore the warm feeling spreading through my body, but it doesn't work well as a chill runs up my spine. I crawl back into the bed and try to get comfortable by myself. It's actually a lot easier said than done—I hate being alone. It always makes the night terrors so much worse…

Will pulls the covers over me and kisses me on the forehead, like he did last time I was here. I snuggle into the blankets, loving the real warmth that Will's large bed gives off, but I can't get comfortable by myself.

Eventually, I give up and climb out of bed and crawl onto the couch with Will. He opens his mouth to protest, but says nothing as I snuggle up and relax into him. He told me to sleep on the bed, telling me it's more comfortable, but I think it's more comfortable with him, even though it's on his couch.

It's not just that I have feelings for Will that make me relax with him, but I need a warm body to sleep next to. Like how I can't sleep in a house alone. No matter how much I hate to say it, I'm a very lonely person. I don't want to be, but I am. All I want is to be loved by somebody, because I spent my whole life alone.

My parents were big business owners, and they never gave a crap about music or art. They wanted me to grow up to run the Rhodes department stores all across the country, but I never wanted to. They were never really home anyways, so I tried every possible way to win their love, but I was always ended up feeling neglected. Eventually, I just gave up and stayed with the party crowd, where people made me feel wanted.

My parents, on the other hand, eventually disowned me when I dropped out school to be a Broadway star. They've always told me how stupid I was, and that I'd never make it on the stage. Music is NOT a way to make a living, and there's plenty of people in the world with my kind of common talent, so they'd never choose me.

I guess they were right.

What do you guys think? A little depressing of you ask me, but April has a tendency to be kinda depressed anyways. Her life kinda sucks, and she has like zero self esteem when she calls herself a has been, and really lacks all sense of confidence. Just saying…

Next chapter: Will's POV, April gets dragged to the doctor, (like, literally DRAGGED,) and a little bit of Emma.

Ohohohohoh! The Rhodes department store is REAL! I read about in a book, and when I googled it, I found out it was a legit store acros America! So I thought I'd use it eventually in an April Rhodes backstory.

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