A/N: If people get a little confused by this chapter this has three different times in Robin's life. The fist time(s) she met Barney, the time when they dated in 2009 and their wedding day in 2013. There is a nice ending to this which is something I've always wanted to hear but never did so I made it up and I think this will explain what's really going on inside Robin's mind and heart along the way to marrying Barney. Her feelings for there from the start those type of feelings will never ever go away from her heart or her memories because that kind of love never goes away EVER.

Journal Entry 3

Finding Friends and Love

Today I was at Maclaren's sitting with my new friends. Ever sine I came to New York making friends wasn't easy for me but that seems to have changed with the four people I met only a few weeks ago. I always thought of myself as not worthy of making friends especially girlfriends but I really like Lily. She's really cool. She knows what she wants already when I'm not sure what I really want. She just got engaged to her only boyfriend, the only guy she said she would give her whole life to and whom she has loved since college. While I might not have it all figured out like Lily does I know that my career is what I need in my life right now.

Lily: seems to have it all together and so does Marshall. I've never known two people who have their whole lives figured out at an early age but their story is really sweet and getting to know them they both seem like cool people.

Marshall: I like that he's down-to-earth, wants to save the world in one sense of the word. Knows that he loves Lily and that she's the one and only one for him. He also has his life figured out like Lily does.

Ted: He's a nice guy but he seems to be a bit clingy and a little aggressive with doing things for me out of the blue. It's a little weird for someone I just met. He comes on too strong, he's nice but he isn't my type or what I'm looking for in a relationship and right now I don't even know if having a relationship is a good thing for me.

Barney: Then there's Barney, he's a little crazy, a little bit out there, wild and fun, he's not what you consider to be someone you should date. Everyone I've met including Marshall, Lily, Ted and some people at the bar calls him a womanizer. But, what I got from him is some weird dislike about Canada. The country that is my home and what I left to come to New York to pursue this career that seems to be dragging.

I won't say this to anyone but I really like Barney. He gave me this bet to do on the news which I didn't want to take because it would damage the career I'm trying to have. But, with a network that's questionable and nobody really watching what the heck is the harm in that? Oh, it was just me face down in a pile of horse crap. But, after some thought and the embarrassment of that died off and everyone's minds it wasn't that bad of a bet. In fact it was kind of fun to let loose and now people know who I am, which kind of feels wonderful in the (I'm famous now because I fell on a pile of horse crap) sort of way but nevertheless it was fun to let loose and get to know Barney better. It was fun hanging out with him and taking these bets I forgot how to live ever since I came to New York.

2009

"Did you really write that about me?" Barney was using Robin's computer to do some work when he came across her journal. When Robin walked in and caught him using her computer which then had them talking which lead to them getting to know each other a little better. He pointed to the computer screen asking Robin if she really wrote the things she wrote in her online journal. Their conversation lead to both of them revealing things that neither of them knew about each other.

They are sitting on Robin's bed talking and she accidentally revealed to him that she had liked him when they first met. She wrote that the bet he gave her was fun and it made her realize how uptight she is about her career. Robin didn't like to reveal herself especially when she's vulnerable or a bit horny. The fact that she used to (still does sometimes) write personal things in journals was for her eyes and ears only but once she found somebody she can trust and has told pretty much everything to she used to think it might be embarrassing but now it's not. Meeting Barney, finding someone who gets her and knows her better than she knows herself is a bit scary but really endearing. She's never had to hold anything inside about her true self because Barney even just knowing him for four years isn't as scary as she used to think it was.

"I did. I knew I liked you then and I still like you now but in an entirely different way." That way being that she loves him, she actually loves this man laying beside her on her bed reading her personal and private thoughts that she wrote down when they first met.

She might be the most secretive person in the world but so is Barney it's why they understand each other in a way that nobody else understands. Okay, that's not what happened here at all it was Barney who was looking for a writing pad to use on Robin's computer and out of the blue pops up her personal journal. Some of the things in it was mostly from years earlier and some were recent but the last entry in there was from another time which Barney read and isn't going to talk about cause it really told him how Robin really feels about him and that he will keep to himself.

They only have been dating two months but in the months that they dated Barney seems to fall for this woman more if that's even possible. The sweet things she said about him could be another Robin Sparkles hit but he will keep silent on that cause he really loves to know that he isn't dating her just to sleep with her, he's dating her because he truly and wholeheartedly loves her. He's never met anyone so incredible and loving toward him it's been a wonderful summer already but this just makes it better. She really loves him and that's all he needs to know to keep from wondering if they're making a mistake being together.

"Well, I'm glad you do cause I like you too."

He wants to say I love you but he doesn't instead he kisses her once on the lips then breaks apart.

"I'm glad we met cause I would've never believed in anything but you made me believe again and for that I'm grateful to have met you when I did."

Those words coming from Barney Stinson melted her heart, she knew that she already loved this man but she didn't know if she was in love with him. Now, right now, on this summer day, this is when Robin Scherbatsky truly fell in love with Barney Stinson but she had never told him or anyone this it went into her journal and it wasn't until their wedding day that she recited the things she wrote in her journal to him. Those words was her wedding vows and Barney remembered them because he had read them while they were dating.

On that day in 2009 when they both discovered a little more about each other, they both knew it then. They both knew that they were in love, it was hard back then to express many feelings, for them that's the hardest thing to ever do in a relationship because until then they knew if the words I love you were said that it will guarantee that a relationship would be pretty much over but now it's different. It's easy to say the things they both had trouble saying over the years but they knew it then and now they say it every chance they get to say those three magic words that could either hurt the relationship or make it grow into a real love. A love that neither of them knew what to make of it and while the relationship had many ups and downs they both knew that in the end they loved one another more than they used to imagine.

The vows that Robin recited to Barney on their wedding day is something that both will forever take with them for the rest of their lives and beyond because those words are the truest words Robin ever said to anyone.

I love you.

I think I've loved you from the moment I first met you.

I love you.

Barney Stinson

I love you.

So very much.

I didn't know how to say these things to you so I wrote them in my journal. Back when we were first dating I knew sometime ago that I loved you but I never knew how to express the feelings I had back then but. But now I know how to speak my feelings instead of writing them down in my journal and what I felt for you then and what I feel for you now are the same feelings I've always had for you. You are my best friend, you are the reasons I smile when you try to make me laugh when I'm feeling unhappy about something. You always know what to say when I don't know what to say. You make me laugh when I'm feeling down you know just the ways to make me smile again. I used to think I couldn't be loved because I've never had someone who loved me enough to stick around or love me for who I am. But, now I don't feel that way anymore because I have found someone who does love me.

You are my soul mate, you are my best friend, you are my everything.

I love you Barney Stinson.

From this day forward I always will.

You are the reason I feel alive. The reason I get up every morning to knowing that you are there beside me and will always be there. Every night and every day I think to myself how unsure I am about many things but what I am sure about is the fact that I love you.

That has never not been true.

I couldn't say those things before because I didn't know how or if I should but I believed those words then and I still do today.

I love you.

A/N: Barney also has his own vows they are much more funnier than Robin's but sweet and true to who he is and how he feels about her.