Crying.
I forced my eyes open and glared at the alarm clock.
4:12
God. Why.
I sat up and dragged myself down the hall to the light blue room. Nashi was crying, her little feet kicking around as she squirmed. Her little fists were balled up and I scooped her up carefully.
"Shh..." I whispered tiredly. "It's okay."
She calmed a bit and I walked towards the kitchen with her on one arm. I popped the fridge open with the other and started to warm up a bottle while she held onto my shirt. When the bottle was finished, I tested its warmth and sat on the couch to give Nashi a little something to eat.
She happily took the bottle, her tiny hands curling on her chest as she ate. I yawned and looked down at the little girl.
"Hey, you. Can't you wait just a few more hours to wake me up?" I asked her, running a hand on her little arm.
She looked up me curiously and I smiled. "Ah, nevermind."
When she finished eating, I put the bottle on the coffee table and walked towards the nursery. She was already squirming uneasily. She hated going back to sleep.
I laid her in her crib and leaned on the side, humming lightly to let her relax. She just stared back at me, wide awake.
"Nash... It's time to sleep."
Her lip trembled and I picked her back up. "Okay, okay. Don't cry." I sat down in the rocking chair Lucy had picked up and rocked gently, Nashi close to my chest. She slowly started to close her eyes and I eventually felt the slow breaths that came with her sleep. I stayed still for a bit, just looking around the room.
My eyes eventually landed where they always did. On Nashi's dresser, next to a lamp, was a framed picture of Lucy with a big smile on her face and her arms around me in the baby's half-finished room. Her celestial keys sat in front of the frame, golden in the faint glow of the hallway lights.
I looked at Lucy's smiling face and smiled back.
"Oh, Lucy. If you could see me now..." I mumbled, putting a hand on Nashi's little back to feel her breathing. I'd started to do this since the first time she'd fell asleep. I don't know when I'd break out of the habit. "We miss you," I added. "I'm not so good at this and it's hard to see you in everything she does. She laughs the way you do. Can you believe it? Two months old and already laughing... But she smiles the way you do and her eyes are just like yours and..." I felt a breath catch in my chest and I blinked my eyes. "I'm sorry I'm so screwed up now, Luce. I'm trying to be better for her, but... I miss you."
The picture caught the light of the moon and the keys glimmered.
I gave a faint smile and got up to put Nashi to bed. I stared down at the crib and decided that tonight, I didn't want to leave her in this room alone. She slept soundly on my chest until 10 the next morning and I thanked whoever it was for letting me sleep through most of the night for the first time since I had brought Nashi home.
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