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Jacob's Twilight

Chapter Fourteen: Looking for Her

Jacob's POV:

For two days we stayed in those woods, taking little breaks in-between for bodily reasons. We taught Seth the ins and outs of how his life would be now—life as one of the protectors of our people, and of all people really. We practiced on how to fight as one entity, move as one soul. He caught on very quickly and seemed to enjoy it, he was definitely happy to be with us, his friends, once again. We had to separate ourselves from him when each of us phased in case one of us mistakenly revealed our secret to him before time. I was also very happy to have my young friend back in our lives again.

We told him of the cold ones, vampires. We explained to him about the Cullens and the treaty we had with them.

Yes, I was truly impressed with how quickly he learned all we had to teach him and his positive attitude. Sam even made his day more happy when he told him about his dad, and how he would have been proud of him, and that his mom and his sister, definitely were. Now it was time to touch on another subject, one I knew he has been curious about because of what he had seen in the mind of Sam and I: Imprinting.

I began the conversation. Now that we have all that out of the way, there is something else we need to explain to you, it's called imprinting.

Imprinting?. Seth asked curiously.

Yes, it's something that happens to a wolf after he phases and looks upon the woman that would become more important to him than anyone or anything. She is the gravity that holds him to this world. He will do anything for her. As long she is happy so is the wolf.

So that's why Sam's love for my sister is so strong. He turned his wolf's head towards Sam. Though I could do without seeing some of the thoughts you had towards her; she is, after all, my sister; Seth thought with a wolfy smirk. Then he turned back to me. I've seen your thoughts about a girl by the name of Bella also, and the feelings you have for her is quite over powering. But there is something that is confusing me.

What is it?. I asked.

Why does your love for Bella seem so much stronger than Sam's love for Leah?; It seems that even if you had imprinted on someone else, it would have made no difference; Bella still would have been the one for you.

That's because she has always been the one for me. I've been in love with her since we were both children. From the moment I set eyes on her I knew she would be the woman I would marry, the mother of my children. And you're right, my heart, mind, and soul is so filled with Bella, that I never see another woman. Even if my imprint was not her, I would not love the woman I imprint on, Bella already has it all.

When a wolf imprints, do they automatically become a couple otherwise?.

No, you become whatever she wants you to be; she might just want you to be her friend or more like a brother. You are whatever she wants, but in my case having the blood of the true Alpha, I am able to choose whether I want to accept my imprint or not. As I said, I chose Bella a long time ago, and I just see it as my wolf was proving me right; though I feel my wolf and I chose her at the same time, before I knew of its existence.

Is that why you seem to be in pain?; Because she just wants you as a friend?.

No, to be chosen isn't always painful, but in my case I did something very stupid when she first came to Forks High. I allowed him to see through my mind what happened.

I felt his sadness for me. I'm sure everything will work out for the best, Jake. We're all here for you and I'll help in anyway I can.

I know, but no worries, I will do whatever I have to, to win her heart again. She feels the imprint as strongly as I do, so it's only a matter of time.

I can tell there is something else that worries you, something that has to do with the Cullens?; Seth said in his head.

Yes, you're right, Seth. Edward Cullen has become fascinated with Bella; he fancies himself in love with her, though he has promised to leave her alone. I don't believe or trust that he would keep to his word; after all, they are emotionless dead things, with no conscience. That's why protecting her is so much a priority than anything else is.

I understand. You can count on me to help. You're my friend and my Alpha; it'll be a pleasure to take care of your Luna.

Thanks bro.

Everyone knew that something very serious loomed ahead. It must've been the reason Seth had joined the pack, and we must be ready to face the dangers that stalked us all. I worried about my Bella. Even though I knew my brothers were watching and would protect her with their lives, I wanted to be the one to do it, especially with her closeness to the Cullens' home. So it was a great relief to me when I heard from Jared and Embry that all was well.

It was time now that we returned home. Seth had learned all he needed to become one of the pack and protectors of our people. Self control was something he would learn in time as the other wolves had to. Besides, there is no way those of us who had mates could stay away from them any longer. I knew two days was more than enough for me to be away from my Bella, and right now, I was more than desperate to see her. I couldn't go another day without seeing her beautiful face.

Bella, Oh Bella! I knew you would not be able to keep Bella from your thoughts. There haven't been more than five minutes after the training of Seth ended, for your thoughts to fly to Bella. I'm sure if you were not the Alpha, you would have lost focus on what we were doing, because your thoughts are always full of her.

Paul's thought was funny, as he walked and stayed with us. Everyone found amusement in this.

You worry a lot; you'll get sick, thinking and worrying about her so much.

He was only joking, there is no way a wolf couldn't think of his imprint, especially in my case, where my bond to Bella was stronger than any regular imprint.

I explained to Seth further. As you can see when we are in wolf form, you're able to see everything we have done or want to do.

I realize that. I lost my innocence just by looking into your minds, including thoughts that Sam had of my sister, and believe me that is something I didn't want to see, or even think about. But I can see how much he loves her and that's all I want to say on the subject.

Okay, Seth, I think you have learned all you need to; so everyone let's get back. I know your mom and sister are dying to see you.

On that note, we all raced back to the reservation and phased back as soon as we got to the woods behind Seth's house. After dressing we walked out and around to the front, where Leah and Sue were waiting. They both rushed over and hugged him, saying how they were worried, and glad he was okay. After letting him go, Sam rushed to Leah and caught her up into his arms. I couldn't wait to have that type of relationship with Bella.

After arranging the patrol schedule, I told Seth to get a good night sleep, because his rounds would start tomorrow. I made my way home; I needed to make sure my dad was okay and also clean up and get a bite to eat before going to Forks to see my Bella. This time no one but me would be protecting her, besides, I needed to see her, to smell her sweet scent once more, and drown in it.

When I reached home, I found my dad in the kitchen making a meal. He looked around when I walked in.

"Hey, Son, you're just in time, I just finished fixing the food."

"Smells wonderful, Dad." I took a good look at my father; I knew he had been worried. "How are you, Dad, everyone going okay?".

"Everything is great. Sue came over a few times, to keep me company."

"That's good," I commented as I helped him transfer the food to the already set table.

"How did it go with Seth?"; he asked once we were seated and began to eat.

"It went like clockwork. He's a quick learner," I answered.

"What does he think of it all?".

"He actually likes it, and is very proud he's now a protector like the rest of us."

Dad just nodded in reply and we continued our meal in silence. As I ate, my thoughts were centered on Bella and I couldn't wait to get to Forks. After we ate and I cleaned up the kitchen, I took a quick shower and was rushing to the front door when my dad stopped me.

"Where are you rushing off to?". Then his eyes lit with amusement and smiled. "Just be careful, remember Charlie is in that house also… If you—".

I interrupted him. "Don't worry, Dad, I would never take advantage of her. She's my future wife, and I respect her more than anyone." Without waiting for a reply from him, I rushed out and ran as fast as I could to the love of my life in Forks.

I didn't phase before I came here, so I was in my human form when I reached Forks, standing under her window. By her breathing and sound of her heartbeat, I could tell she was fast asleep. I quickly climbed the tree just to get a peek at her, to assure myself with sight that she was fine, but when I went to place my hands at her window, I found it open. A fleeting worry passed through me, wondering why it would be open when she was asleep.

I quietly climbed in her room and walked to the side of her bed. The sight of her made me catch my breath; she was so beautiful. I allowed my gaze to take all of her in, starting from her feet. She was wearing a short pajama set that looked so sexy on her. Her legs were tangled in the sheets and her hair was spread across her pillow. I missed her so much these last few days, the pain that was my constant companion had finally eased now that I was in her presence.

My gaze went to her lips and my hands shook with the need to take possession of them with my own, to learn every crevice of her mouth with my tongue. I closed my eyes and took her intoxicating scent deep into me, wanting so bad to climb into that bed with her and fold myself around her, loose my self in her. I…

"Jacob."

I stiffened and quickly opened my eyes. She said my name. I could have of sworn she was awake, and I was preparing an explanation of what I was doing in her room, but on a closer look, I realized she was still asleep.

"Jacob," she murmured again.

My heart lifted to realize that she dreamt of me. I knew then that it would not be long before she gave into the love I knew she felt for me, even if she was not aware. She looked so sexy, so sensual laying there, her body unconsciously calling mine to hers. But my first need was that her soul would finally accept mine, so she would join me completely, emotionally and physically. I took one last, longing look down on my mate, then walked over to the rocking chair and sat. I planned to stay here all night and keep watch over the most important person in my world. I was not worried about Charlie; I knew I would hear him as soon as he arose.

I must have fallen asleep, because something woke me up; I looked out the window and noticed it was dawn. I was so happy, it was the weekend, and I would be able to spend some time with her. I took a final brief look at Bella, and then climbed out the window. Rushing home, I went straight to my room and stretched out on my bed. I planned to take a quick nap. Then later, I would go and ask Bella to go out with me.

After sleeping for about four hours, I went and took a shower. When I was dressed in fresh clothes, I walked out to the kitchen intent on making myself something to eat, but again, my dad was there and breakfast was already prepared. I made myself a plate and sat at the table with him.

"Where did you sleep last night, Jacob?"; he asked me.

I looked over at him. "Why do you ask, Dad?".

"One of the boys went by Bella's residence last night, but didn't see you anywhere outside her house; you guarded her… from inside her home." I could see he was fighting a smile, but losing the battle.

I smiled with happiness also. "Yes, I guarded her from inside her room, but don't worry, I slept in a chair." I thought about how happy I had felt being so close to her.

"Be careful;" he warned. "If Charlie catches you, he'll kill you, and if Bella wakes, you need to run out of there faster than you ever did before. She'll think you're a perv, and then you'll have to kidnap her to get her with you."

We looked at each other for a minute. Then burst out laughing. "That's a very tempting idea," I said once our laughter settled down. "I've thought of doing just that more than once, but I want her to be with me voluntarily and not forced to. I do think my patient is working. She said my name twice in her sleep last night." I informed him, smiling at the memory.

He winked at me. "Well that's great news; you won't have too much longer to wait. Just keep being patient my son; she'll be with you soon."

My spirits lifted further, at what my father just said; but then, a remembrance slipped the smile from my face. "Her window was wide open last night, and it worries me. I have a feeling the leech was trying to approach my Bells while I was gone."

"Go and speak to Kim and Claire;" he told me. "They can tell you exactly what happened at school while you were gone."

"That's a great idea." I got up and headed to the door. "Talk to you later, Dad."

I made it to Kim's house in no time; Jared was with her. I asked about what happened at school, and she told me. I started feeling uneasy when she brought up what happened between Lauren and Bella, and how Lauren was acting territorial towards me. She even made me seem like a womanizer; but Bella stood up for herself and me. She held her own. I felt a bit uneasy about her thinking even for a minute, that I would ever be a womanizer.

"Don't worry, Jacob;" Kim assured me. "Bella doesn't believe a word of it."

My heart felt light and filled with happiness at what she just said.

"Claire even told her that you've been in love with one girl your whole life, and were now trying to win her heart," she proclaimed.

The uneasy feeling came back. Bella could have interpreted that I might have a girlfriend on the reservation, and I was trying to play with her emotions. Dread filled my stomach as I got up to leave.

"There is one more thing;" she said stopping me. "Mike had lunch with Bella yesterday. I know he invited her out, but I'm not sure if she accepted."

"Okay, thanks for telling me, Kim." I then left, and rushed to Bella's house. I so badly wanted to spend the day with her; I didn't care what we did as long as she was with me.

When I got to her house, even though her truck was there, I knew she wasn't. I could smell that Angela and Mike had been here with another boy, so I assumed she agreed to go out with Mike after all. I decided to go find them, but two hours later, after I had searched all over Forks, I found no sign of them, not even her scent. I decided to go home and call Charlie; maybe he knew where they went.

I rushed home and went straight to the phone. When I asked, he informed me that Bella went to the beach with Angela and a couple of their friends, but he didn't know which one. He assumed they would be going to the one in La Push, but I knew they weren't here.

When I hung up the phone, I was filled with anger and jealousy; it tore at my heart. I knew what Mike planned. Going to the beach meant Bella would be wearing a bathing suit in front of that boy. Just the thought tightened my stomach in knots. I knew he planned to try to take advantage of my girl. I would break every bone in his body if he laid a hand on her. I remembered how she looked in that blue dress, so very enticing. And the outfit she wore to the theatre, evoked visions running through my mind, of us entwined together, locked in my room for hours. My mind started to fill with images of my beautiful girl, and my body hardened with want. My wolf howled with rage, wanting to break free and destroy something, preferably Mike. I had to find them.

I felt so helpless. This distance between us hurt more everyday, and not just my heart, but also a physical pain that ran through my whole body. The need for her was stronger with each day and I didn't know how much longer I could stand to be away from her.

I ran outside and phased, and a few minutes after, I felt a mind connect with my own; it was Embry. Through his thoughts, I could see he wondered why I wasn't with Bella, knowing I had slept in her room last night. I could also feel his pain from being away from Angela. We all knew that she used to go with Ben. That didn't work out, but Ben wanted her back. We both wanted to be with our girls, so he joined me in finding them.

We searched for them everywhere. It wasn't until we decided to look in an area that was very rarely used, that we found Angela's car and a van parked under some trees. They were by a trail that led to a very secluded beach. I wanted to phase back and dress, then go and get my girl, but Embry stopped me.

You can't do it that way; let's go and get Leah. She can come back here with you, and you know that Bella trusts her in case you wanted to bring her to La Push. She won't refuse if Leah asks her.

I guess you're right. Okay, let's go.

Of course I'm right, and besides, I'll need help holding you back from ripping Mike apart, if you found him flirting with your girl.

We ran quickly back to the reservation straight to the woods in front of Sam's house, then phased back and dressed. When we got inside we saw that Leah, Seth and Quil were also there. Embry got to the point, and asked them to come with us to the beach. They wanted to know what was going on, but he said he would tell them when we were in the van and on our way. I insisted on driving.

Once in the van, Embry told them everything. "It's a good thing you did come back and get us." I heard Sam say. "I can't imagine what you would have done, if Mike was flirting or touching Bella."

"I'm glad you came and got me too." Leah remarked. "Bella trusts me and considers me a friend, so if I invite her back here, she'll come."

"Just don't loose control if you see something you don't like." Embry advised me. "You wouldn't want to scare your girl."

"I won't, but I do plan on bringing her back to La Push with me. I refuse to stay there and watch Mike flirt with her."

The rest of the ride to the beach wasn't very quiet. When we reached the spot where the cars were, we pulled over and parked by them. Then we began walking down the trail towards the beach. When we reached it, we stayed out of sight, and listened to what was going on. I listened and watched as Mike flirted with her. With increased anger, I watched her try to leave the water and Mike preventing her. She finally got free and got out of the water, with Mike trying to stop her again, but failed. Then my eyes locked onto Bella completely. All sounds and everyone around me seemed to disappear as I took in the sight of my Bella wearing a bikini.

My heartbeat sped up, my knees became weak. A delicious torture flowed through me and my pants tightened. She exceeded every fantasy I had about her naked form. She was so beautiful. I longed to learn every dip and curve of her body with my hands, my tongue. My mind was quickly taken away from my vision of perfection by the guy who looked lustfully at my mate; it was Mike and I wanted to kill him.

I dismissed him, my eyes pulling back to Bella. She was so beautiful, so very sexy; though the bikini she wore showed a lot, it was not obscene, she was perfection. Without realizing it, I started to move towards her, being pulled by the connection that entwined our hearts. It seemed to have grown much stronger.

"Wow, Jake, Bella will give you many moments of pleasure, that's for sure," Quil commented. "She is so hot, there is no way you can ever resist her."

I just stared at him. I had forgotten they were even here. For a moment there, it was like Bella and I were alone, just the two of us. I heard someone chuckle and I knew it was Sam. I turned to look at him and saw him glance at the evidence of my arousal.

"Get a grip, Jacob, you don't want to scare her," Sam said. Everyone snickered at his meaning.

"Don't worry, Sam," I replied. "I always have control of my hormones around her… Although I think today is the first day for me, that it'll be difficult to control my body's response to her."

"I guess it must be hard for you to control yourself; she is definitely very hot. I'm sure that blond guy would be in serious trouble, to get out of the water for a while too." Seth assured me.

"Shush, Seth." Leah tried to silence him. "I'm sure Jacob doesn't want to know about that guy's reaction to his mate, or speak of her in such a way."

I smiled at her. "Don't worry about that, I know he doesn't mean to say something wrong... But if another man does it, especially the leech, or Mike Newton, I'll kill them."

I listened as Bella complained to Angela about Mike being an octopus, always trying to touch her and she had to get away from him. I felt her anger and annoyance as if they were my own, which they were. I knew that Embry heard the conversation with Ben and Angela, as I did with Mike and Bella, because he let out an angry growl at the same time I did. Well it was time now for me to rescue my mate from the unwanted advances of Mike.

As we walked towards the tent the girls were in, we heard their amusing conversation, which had us laughing quietly. When we got to the tent, Bella was lying on her side with her eyes closed talking to Angela. I allowed my gaze to travel over her form as if I was using the tip of my fingers to caress the outline of her form, her smooth legs, the curve of her, trailing under her full breast; she was perfect. I wanted her with an intensity I never knew possible, and what I most wanted to do now was take her with me. I longed to hold her to me, comb my fingers through her hair as we both fell into a blissful sleep.

I was brought out of my daydreams by Angela informing Bella to open her eyes, that they had company. She did but looked over to the water. Then Angela told her to look towards her and when she did, her eyes widened at the sight of us. When her eyes finally met mine, I tried to hold back the lust I felt for her. I didn't want her to put me in the same class as Mike or men like him; but I couldn't help showing all the love and adoration I felt for her. I couldn't take my eyes off of her, and as we continued staring into each other's eyes, hers softened, and I felt frozen in time.

I needed her with me so badly and I refused to go another day without her by my side.