Confused

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight because if I did, then the story would be a lot different :)

BPOV

"No, oh god, please no." I sobbed, holding Edward to me.

He couldn't be gone! I had gone through so much to be with him, and he couldn't just be…dead!

"Someone help! Please help us!" I screamed, but only the silence from the darkness greeted me.

We were upside down, the car must have flipped over.

Where were the people from the truck that had smashed into us? Maybe they could help us.

I slowly took my seatbelt off, and then I took Edward's off.

Wincing in pain, I climbed out of the car, dragging Edward's body out with me.

I left him on the side of the road, and slowly stood up. I was in so much pain, but I needed to help Edward! I needed to get him to a hospital!

I limped slowly towards the other vehicle, that was lying on its side in the middle of the road.

It was a huge truck, no wonder it had flipped Edward's Volvo over.

I squinted, trying to see into it, but I could only see two dark figures. They didn't seem to be moving.

I limped back to the Volvo, and searched for my phone, before remembering I had left it at Alice's house.

I searched Edward's pockets and found his phone.

It was completely smashed up, and it wouldn't turn on.

I stumbled back to the truck, and looked inside.

Now that I was nearer, I could see two men, were sprawled across the front of the truck.

Trying not to think about the fact that I might be touching dead bodies, I searched through the first man's pockets, before triumphantly pulling out a phone.

It had a few scratches, but overall seemed to be in a better shape than Edward's phone.

Flipping it open, I almost cried with relief when the phone switched on.

Hastily, I dialled 911, and asked for an ambulance.

"What has exactly happened, ma'am?" A woman asked me.

"There was a car accident, and my boyfriend, he isn't…moving. Please help us."

"We'll be right there. Can you tell me where you are?"

I looked around, searching for a sign or a landmark that would tell me where we were.

There was a sign, a few metres away, but I couldn't read it.

"One minute." I said to the woman.

I limped to the sign, and used the light from the mobile, to read it.

"We're on Holden Road, in Forks."

"How many people are injured?"

"Well, there's me and my boyfriend, and two people from the truck that smashed into us. But my boyfriend isn't moving. Please help me."

The woman said something, but as I was walking back to Edward, my ankle gave way, and I fell to the ground, crying out in pain.

The phone slipped from my hand, and I heard it hit the ground.

Getting on my knees, I used my hands, to search for the phone, but I couldn't find it.

I crawled back over to Edward, holding my ankle gingerly.

I sat next to him, hoping the ambulance people would come soon.

A few minutes later, I heard the familiar sirens, and soon four ambulances, and a police car drover upto us.

I saw people running towards us, and the last thing I remembered was a man flashing a light into my eyes, before I passed out.

.**.

They say when you die you either go to heaven or hell. Well, I wasn't sure where I was. It wasn't heaven; it was too dark, and it couldn't be hell; there wasn't any pain, just a little stiffness. I felt uncomfortable but not hurt. Maybe there is someplace else. A place in the middle, but wouldn't that be Earth?

I saw something flicker from underneath my eyelids, then shine brightly. All I saw was red now, a pulsing red. Beep. I struggled to open my eyes but they were too heavy. Beep. I tried to speak, to ask what had happened but all that escaped my lips was a gasp. Beep. Footsteps grew louder, telling me I was not alone. Beep. What was that noise? It was getting on my nerves. Beep.

"Bella? Bella, can you hear me? Can you move? Speak? Come on Bella, open your eyes!" The voice pleaded.

It sounded familiar and I struggled to remember who it could be. My eyes fluttered but remained closed.

"Yes Bella, you can do it. I know you can hear me, don't you dare pretend you can't!" The voice scolded me but the tone was teasing.

"Al-lice." I groaned out, her name barely recognizable.

"Bella! Don't worry Bells, I'll get you out of here, and then we can go shopping! There's this new shoe store that just opened up and…"

My eyelids finally flickered open and I saw the pure whiteness of the hospital ceiling.

Alice kept prattling on about shopping and the stores but I blocked her out. I knew she was only nervous; but it just wasn't the time for her shopping addiction to come out.

"Alice, Alice! Stop! Calm down, I'm fine but…what happened? And why am I in the hospital this time?" I asked.

There was silence.

I twisted my head to look at her and saw her hands covering her face. "Alice?" I repeated softly.

She sighed and looked up. Her hazel eyes were glistening, her black spiky hair even messier than usual.

"You were in a car accident. I thought you weren't going to make it…"

I remembered everything now. We were coming back from dinner.

The truck coming towards us.

The crash.

I called the ambulance because…because Edward…wasn't moving.

"Alice! Where's Edward? Is he alright?"

"I'm sorry, Bella. I'm so sorry." She murmured.

"What? What's wrong?" I wasn't sure if I wanted to know but; I couldn't not know. I couldn't control the fear that was gnawing at my heart.

Alice looked down at her hands and took a deep breath. "I'm sorry Bells, he didn't make it." She murmured.

Tears streamed down my face and I let out muffled sobs.

Alice hugged me tightly.

We stayed like this for a few hours.

"Can…I see him?" I finally asked.

She shook her head sadly.

"They took him away. It's been 3 weeks. You were in a coma."

3 weeks? I looked around the room.

"Where are Charlie and Renee?" I asked Alice.

"They're downstairs. They don't know you've woken up. I'll go get them."

"No." I stopped her.

She turned around, and looked at me in confusion.

"I just want to be alone for a bit."

She nodded, understanding, and then left.

I turned my head to the side, as tears ran uncontrollably down my face.

He was gone. He was actually gone. He promised he'd never leave me, but he had.

.**.

I slowly got out of the wheelchair, and into Alice's car. I was going home for the first time since my accident.

It had been a 2 weeks since I woke up in hospital to find…he…was gone.

I tried not to think about it.

The doctors had finally said, I was well enough to go back home.

Charlie and Renee had already gone back to their house. I had sent them home. They looked so tired.

I had also sent Rose and Emmett back.

Right now Jasper was driving, while Alice was chatting to me.

She was trying to distract me.

It wouldn't work, and she knew it.

I had been like a zombie ever since Edward…left me.

I answered questions in as few words as possible. I ate, drank and walked.

In the rare moments when I had been left alone, I thought about Edward, and cried. I remembered all the moments we had spent together, and I cursed myself for distracting him when he was driving.

It was entirely my fault.

Alice tapping on my shoulder brought me back to the present.

"We've reached Bella. We're home."

Jasper helped me out of the car. We walked slowly to the doorway.

"Bella…" Alice said.

She nodded to the door.

I looked up.

Standing there was the one person who hadn't visited me at hospital. The one person who I hadn't seen since the accident.

I ran to him, and threw my arms around him, hugging him tightly.

"Jake! He's gone! He's left me! He's never coming back!" I sobbed into his chest.

He stroked my hair, and put his arms around me.

"He might be…" Jake whispered into my ear.