Competition
Things seemed to be working out. With Happy Together, I went to Top 20, with All Right Now I went to Top 16, and with Hello, I made to the Top 12! And I wasn't taking it serious on the first place….
I got to know people better, I always talked to Kim... I had a feeling I'd have eternal friends.
Right after Top 12, I took courage and asked Kim out... we were getting along well… just a few people on the AI knew we were going out, and we asked them to keep it as a secret…. We didn't want to expose ourselves for now... at least while the show was still on.
I was doing very well on the performances. When I sang my own version of Billie Jean, even Simon was amazed. But on Top 9, when I was about to sing Little Sparrow, I was kind of overloaded with everything that was happening, rehearsals all week long, being on a different state, I hadn't heard from Matt and Anne for so long…. I got sick. After I performed, my blood pressure rose, my heart was pounding, I had to go to the hospital… but It wasn't serious, I was back to the show the next day. I had no problems anymore. As closer we were getting to the end, the more anxious I got. It seemed incredible I had got that far… and Kim was always there, and we were still hiding our relationship from everybody.
I missed Anne... I barely heard from her, I was wondering how she would be doing in Australia, if she was watching American idol…. I wished she was there with me, after all, she always followed my attempts to succeed, she had to be there for the most important of all.
I had na Idea to show her I hadn't forgotten about her. On Top 3 I was going to sing Dare You to Move with my guitar, and I put a red rose on it. I was knew she loved red flowers... I hoped she'd see it and realized that it meant she was still my best friend, and was always close to me...
After a long road, I made to the final, together with David Archuleta. I wanted to win so bad! On the performances night, I didn't do so well as I'd like, I mean, I think I did, but not everybody shared that feeling. On the final day, I was sure Archie would win it. It was a very good day, all the Top 12 was there, we performed together… I had to memorize tons of songs in a week...
My family was there... but it was weird looking at the audience and not seeing Matt and Anne's faces... specially hers, who always told me I'd be here someday, and wasn't there to see it...