Confused

She ran away and left me alone in the balcony…. I watched her leaving, pushing everybody out of the way… I wanted to go after her, but if I did, I wouldn't even know what to say, what to do… I was just standing there, her perfume was still on the air… I was confused, my best friend, my neighbor, that I knew my whole life, that knew everything about me, even gave me love advices had just kissed me… I always found Anne beautiful, but I never looked at her as a woman, just as a sister… But the weirdest thing, it had not been as weird as I thought it would be…. On the opposite, it kind of made sense, it felt almost unbelievable that we had never done that…. But still, she was still my "Sis"...

I couldn't sleep well, I was thinking about her, if that was right or not, and while I thought it was wrong, I couldn't stop thinking that I wanted to kiss those lips again...

The next day, I decided to go to Anne's to talk to her, see what was that all about, whats happening between us, because despite of the kiss, we were not talking to each other...

Matt said she was out, I went to wait for her in her room. A couple of hours passed and nothing happened. I saw her camera on the table, there was a tape inside. I decided to watch what she had been shooting lately…

But it wasn't a documentary... it was Kim... crazy about... Matt! Trying to hold him, kiss him, and he trying to get away from her… I couldn't believe my eyes... then, all of the sudden, two phrases came to my mind….

"Your girlfriend is not what you imagine…"

"How dare you say something like that about Kim? You must be out of your mind..."

I looked down, how could I have been so stupid? How did I prefer to believe Kim rather than Anne? She had all the right to hate me… But I'd not let her get away with it, I got the tape and ran out of the house. Matt asked me where I was going, but I didn't answer. I was going to clear up everything.
I went to Kim's house and threw the tape on her.

"Can you please explain me what the hell is this?"

"What's that, love?"

She was acting as she didn't know anything. And I was going mad.

"Love? LOVE? Your "love" is right there on this tape, I can 't believe you were hitting on my best friend! Are you CRAZY?"

"David... I don't know w-"

"Oh you don't? Don't deny it, everything is there! You can keep the tape, keep as a souvenir from you love! I don't want to look at you anymore, forget that I exist, wait for the next American idol and get yourself another loser to cheat on. Bye."

I was so nervous when I left that I dropped my cell phone, and I just realized it when I got home... I didn't go back for it, I buy another one later... I felt so relieved, but I didn't know how I was going to face Anne now.

A couple of days passed, and I still didn't have courage to look for Anne. Of course she knew I had found out everything, Matt sure had said I passed by and she noticed the tape was missing, too easy to do the math…
I decided to go there, I found her at the porch, playing guitar. Wow, It seems like centuries since the last time I heard her playing…

I sat next to her and asked her to play something I hadn't heard yet. She played a beautiful song, talking about a girl who loves a boy, apparently a friend of hers…. But he has a girlfriend... I felt as though I had heard that song before... but I'm sure it was just my imagination.
As she was singing, she was getting weird... At first, she was looking at me, but then she was looking down… She didn't finish the song, said she had to get inside. I was out there, and clueless about what had happened. I got in after her, heard her bedroom door closing and got upstairs. I knocked, she told me to leave. I said I believed her, that I had seen the tape, but I only made things worst, she said exactly what I was feeling, that I should have believed her without any evidences…. I was a jerk... But I began to apologize, I said a loto f things, for about 15 minutes, and then she finally opened the door and I kept talking, thanking her for forgiving me, I asked how she was doing and she brought up the subject I was trying to avoid...

"David, when are you going to stop pretending that kiss didn't exist?"

I started to say I hadn't felt anything, I really didn't know what I really felt, I was totally confused... She said the world had stopped for a moment... and then, she asked me to leave, because she wanted to sleep…. I left without understanding anything, and when she was closing the door behind me, I heard her saying "He didn't understand anything…."

And that's when it hit me, I didn't think twice, I opened the door, grabbed her arm, turned her around and kissed me with all the desire that was growing inside me since that strange kiss on the balcony….
I closed the door and pushed her against the wall, the lights turned off… I considered stopping everything so things wouldn't get worst, but feeling her skin made me change my mind… She put her hand under my shirt, I got chills… She definitely drove me crazy... and it seemed something forbidden, something between siblings, which made things more interesting…

I lifted her and was taking her to bed, the only light was coming from the moon… I didn't even want to imagine what was about to happen, I was getting more excited when I heard a knock on the door…

"Anne, are you there? We're home already… let's go out and get something to eat?"

MATT! I felt like I was waking up from an hypnosis, I was back to the real world, I looked at Anne and I saw my Sis again... I didn't say anything so Matt wouldn't hear my voice, I got out through the window and went for a walk… I was thinking about all of that, I got more and more confused, and I wanted her more and more…
The following days, I decided to act like nothing had happened. I thought it was the best to do, after all, I didn't even know exactly what I wanted… I guess she didn't, either... I fored myself to think of that as a moment of weakness... but I knew it was not just that.