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Matt told me about a party that a friend of ours, Mark, was throwing. We went without Anne, she was coming later because some friends from Australia were visiting and they would go together.

I was talking to some friends, I hadn't done that for a while, I was always so busy... I was trying not to look at Anne, who was on the other side of the room with her friends… After a while and some drinks, she came towards me, I was getting excited but she was bringing a friend along. She introduced me to Claire, she said we had a lot in common... I couldn't believe that, to introduce girlfriends to me, she really saw what happened between us as a moment of weakness… I couldn't hide my disappointment, she noticed it but pretended she didn't.

Since she apparently didn't care, I decided to get to know that girl better, she was cute anyway... We were talking for a while, she seemed to be interesting... Every once in a while, I looked at Anne. She seemed tense... or was it my imagination? Claire suggested we went to the backyard, so we could be alone, and I agreed. While we were talking, I decided I didn't care and I kissed her. But in the middle of the kiss, I remembered of Anne, I felt the scent of her skin… Like an instinct, I stopped the kiss, and gave her a frightened look...

"I can't do this, I'm sorry... You're beautiful, so cool, but I can't... It's wrong, I can't, I'm sorry!"

I ran away, got into the house again, passed through everyone and left. Outside, I called Matt and told him I was going home, he said he was going too, he had already made out with the girl he wanted to….

I wondered if I wasn't gonna be capable of beeing with anyone else. That's just what I needed... Next week, I barely saw Anne, I was full of things to do, I went to Chicago and New York, I saw Anne just a couple of times, we didn't even have a chance to talk…. I wondered what Claire had told her...

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Despite of everything I had to do, soccer was sacred for Matt and me, we always played in the field close to home. We had to go back walking, since the boys decided to stay there and have some drinks, I just wanted to take a shower, the heat was unbearable.
On the way home, we met Anne, who gave us a ride, I automatically sat on the passenger seat beside her, without realizing that perhaps Matt wanted to sito n the front, since it was his car… but I guess he didn't even noticed it, he was screaming in the back seat reviving all the moves, while the only thing I could notice was her, right beside me, I noticed her hands on the steering wheel, her nails done, her legs, and finally her eyes… looking right at me.

Matt got into the shower, Anne went downstairs to make us something to eat, I was sweating a lot, and I was still restless because of the game, I felt oddly excited, specially when Anne got in the room calling me "Bro", it had been a while since she had called me that... I didn't know if that was a good or a bad thing, I didn't know if she only saw me as her friend, if that way of calling me by our nickname was a test, but it was fair to find out myself if she was still that girl I met, I asked for a massage, not everybody can give a decent one...
But she surprised me asking something back, she caught me by surprise, but I got embarrassed and made a joke...
I was lying on the bed with my face down, and I waited, very anxious, for her to go to her room and get something, and I felt a chill for two reasons: something she dropped on my back and the fact that I felt her legs touching me when she sat on my back...

I was tense, but gradually her soft fingers made me relax, I could even feel the heat coming from her body... Yeah, I was definitely getting relaxed, very relaxed, she was running her nails through my back, I was tapping the edge of the bed, trying to think of anything other than the wish to turn and take of her clothes…

It was getting hotter, I was trying to control my thoughts, I thought about my missed goal, the tire I had to change, Matt naked, even my grandma in her pajamas... But nothing helped, I could feel her breathing, her sweat dripping on me, and when she grabbed my hair I lost control, and I felt my body clearly reacting...

I guess she noticed it, asking if everything was okay, everything was more than okay, I was feeling shy but delightfully excited.

I tried to get up, she was red, I saw a drop running through her neckline, she could be there for hours, but I promised to myself that I'd wait just 2 more seconds to grab her….

Ok, I couldn't take that anymore, I'd grab her, take her out of there, to her room... if it wasn't for my dear friend Matt finishing his 15 minute shower, which could have lasted for at least 45…

I was pissed off by watching him getting into the room making jokes, but I was more pissed of with myself for not taking an action earlier... Anne jumped, and even with the embarrassing situation, I was still visibly "excited"….

I tried to act normal so Matt wouldn't notice my situation, because that would lead to awkward questions.

We went downstairs to eat, and I couldn't look at Anne, I was staring at the food while eating. I must be red, just like she was... from the corner of my eye, I could see Matt looking at me with a suspicious look… I wonder if he had seen something... My face was on fire... I thought he was gonna ask me something later, but he didn't.

The following days, things inevitably got a little tense between Anne and me. I kept wondering what would have happened if Matt hadn't interrupted (again)… I was torn between the fact that Anne was my friend and my desire to go on with that, to see what would happen.

It was a totally new feeling, desiring that girl I watched growing up, that used to play naval battle with me, that introduce me to her friends, that slept over so many times, with no second thoughts... and now I could only think about her in a totally x-rated way...