A/N I did my best to get the second part done as soon as I could. I need to study a lot since I have my first exam since 18 years in 2 weeks. This week I will be able to write regularly but next week is probably a different story. So y'all need to have some patience with me than. And thank y'all for all the reviews, fav's and follows I get so much and so fast. You gals and guys rock!
Alright I won't keep y'all waiting any longer. Here's part 2. Enjoy reading it.
Chapter 5 Revelations part 2.
The first hour of their ride both women were quiet. Alex tried to get her head around what happened and sensing that the Detective needed some time. And Olivia was trying to calm down not wanting to lash out at the blonde next to her in the drivers seat. Both women were lost in their own mind when Olivia's cellphone went off causing both women jump in their seats. Olivia pulled out her cellphone and looked at it.
"It's Casey, should I pick up?" Olivia asks.
"I think you should, you don't know what she wants. You can always put it on the speaker." Alex answers.
Olivia nods and picks up.
"Benson." Olivia says.
"Olivia, it's Casey." Casey answers.
"Hi Casey, is there something I can do for you?" Olivia asks.
"I was in the squad room half an hour ago. Fin was there with Munch, they told me you had another round with Amanda about Alex. Are you alright? Is Alex alright?" Casey asks.
"Hold on a moment, Case. I'll put you on the speaker. Alex is sitting next to me." Olivia answers.
Olivia pulls her cellphone from her ear and puts it on the speaker.
"It's on the speaker now Casey. Did you just say that Fin was there with Munch?" Olivia asks looking at Alex.
"Yes. Why?" Casey asks.
"Rollins wasn't there?" Olivia asks.
"No. Should she?" Casey asks.
"Yes. She's on the call with Munch this weekend. Cragen told everyone to go home before he left but if Munch was there she should be there too." Olivia answers raising one eyebrow.
"Fin said something about her storming out of the squad room and not coming back for the weekend. I think he took over her shift than. What the hell happened? Fin and Munch wouldn't tell me but I could see they were furious. Are you two alright?" Casey asks.
Olivia looks aside at Alex and the blonde nods.
"Yeah we are alright considering the circumstances. Rollins wanted another round. Only I wasn't that stupid and do it without witnesses again. So Fin and Munch listened. I don't know what Alex has heard." Olivia answers.
"Fin and Munch were about to start listening when I came into the squad room so we listened with the three of us. We heard it from the moment that you said 'Even if I was. You're not half the woman she is.'. What happened before that we didn't hear." Alex answers.
"At least you've heard the important part. Rollins has a crush on me, she only has a very strange way to show it. She got nasty about Alex against me. Long story short, when I rejected her the first time in the squad room she kissed me. When I asked her what the hell was wrong with her, that you can't just kiss people. She was pissed off. Anyway you both know how that ended. " Olivia says.
"Wait a second Liv. That's what you were talking about when you said that if she would try it again you would report her by IAB?" Alex asks with a quick look at Olivia.
"Yes. Why do you think I wanted Fin and Munch to listen. I knew she would try something if we would be alone." Olivia answers.
"So what are you gonna now?" Casey asks.
"Nothing. Well that's not true. I'm going on a vacation with Lex now." Olivia answers.
"You are gonna let her walk away with it? Liv, we are trying cases that started like this." Casey asks.
"Look I haven't had a vacation since... can't even remember so fast. I've been looking forward to going away with Alex and I'm not gonna let some blonde bimbo with no brains getting in my way. I'll think about it later, maybe talk about it with Alex. But I'm not gonna interrupt my vacation for this." Olivia answers.
"Blonde bimbo with no brains?" Alex snickers.
"Yeah. For a Detective she didn't act very smart today did she? " Olivia smiles.
"Funny Cabot." Casey says sarcastically.
"Look I get it that you don't wanna ruin your vacation since you haven't had one as long as I can remember. But promise me that you won't let her walk away with this." Casey says.
"I'm not gonna do anything with it for at least the first couple of days. After that I'm gonna talk about it with Alex somewhere in the remain time we have. That's what I do promise." Olivia says.
"Alright. I'm getting out of your hair than. Have a nice vacation, both of you." Casey says.
"Thanks, Case." Olivia says.
"Will do, thank you Case. Bye." Alex says.
"Bye." Casey says and ends the call.
Alex looks at Olivia again.
"You're really alright?" Alex asks softly.
Olivia looks at Alex and smiles.
"Yeah. I'm going away for week with you, couldn't be better." Olivia answers.
When they arrived in the Hampton's Alex and Olivia decided to get some take out for dinner tonight. Tomorrow they could get groceries. Neither of them felt like cooking tonight. So they picked up some Thai food before they go to the house. When they finally get to the house Olivia's jaw dropped on the floor.
"You call this a house? This isn't a house this is a freaking big villa, Cabot." Olivia says.
"C'mon Liv, it's not that big." Alex shrugs.
"Yes it. It's that big. I don't think I want to know what you call big if you think this is small." Olivia answers.
"Let's go. I'm giving you a tour through the house and then we can eat our dinner before it gets cold." Alex says, getting out of the car.
Olivia shakes her head but gets out of the car too. They take their stuff out of the trunk and walk to the house. Inside Alex leads them first upstairs to the bedrooms so they can put their stuff away. Olivia takes the guest room next to Alex's bedroom. Both rooms have a bathroom en suite. Alex and Olivia just put their bags inside the room and leave. They can unpack later. Alex shows the other rooms on the floor. There are 4 bedrooms and 3 guest rooms on the floor. All the rooms have their own bathroom. There is a master bathroom with a Jacuzzi in it. Big enough to sit in it with two adults. Then the women walk downstairs and Alex shows Olivia the living room, dinning room, kitchen, an office and the basement which is turned in a game room for the whole family. Outside in the backyard is a swimming pool and a hot tub. There is also a pool house where normally the bigger children sleep when the whole family is there. From the backyard there's a path to the beach. Since they are early and it's still warm outside Alex and Olivia are eating outside at the pick nick table. After they've done the dishes the women decide to sit outside for the evening, they always can make a fire in the fire basket near the porch swing if it gets chilly and they want to stay outside. It's actually a comfy porch swing with nice big pillows on it and if you want to you can lay down on it. Armed with a beer bottle Alex and Olivia go outside and sit on the porch swing. They are sitting each against an arm with their legs stretched next to the other's body.
"I know that you don't want to talk about what happened today yet, but could you tell me what you meant when you said 'Even if I was. You're not half the woman she is.'?" Alex asks.
Olivia looks at Alex thinking if she should answer that question or not. But the moment the Detective looks in those beautiful cerulean eyes she knows that when Alex looks at her like this she can't refuse the blonde, not now and probably never.
"Are you sure you are ready to have this conversation?" Olivia asks seriously.
Alex looks in Olivia's brown eyes and knows what the Detective means with her question.
"Yes I think I am. Are you?" Alex asks.
"Alright. I will answer your question but that's all I'm saying about what happened today. Ok?" Olivia asks.
"Yes of course. We will talk about that when you are ready." Alex answers with a soft smile.
"I told her again, that I'm not gay. Of course that woman I was talking about that's you but you already know that. That's what I meant." Olivia says.
"And a blonde with blue eyes is not your type?" Alex asks.
"I don't have a type. And stop beating around the bush, Counselor. It's not your style. Ask me what you really want to know. If I don't wanna answer it I'll tell you." Olivia answers.
Alex knows that Olivia is nervous even though for others it isn't visible and she didn't say it. But the blonde ADA knows the Detective very well and she sees it. It's the little things she does. Her hand that goes through her hair more often, her jaw is slightly set and she looks less directly in the attorney's eyes. Alex is nervous too, she never had feelings for a woman before but she knows about her feelings for the strong brunette a very long time even though she had pushed said feelings away for the same amount of time. All she has to do now is find a way to tell how she feels without scaring away the Detective and make it easier for her to be open about what she feels. For a moment Alex doubts if now is the right time but Olivia did say that she was ready for this indirectly.
"I think I know what has changed between us. At least I know what has changed for me and that are my feelings. My feelings for you are changed. Changed again if I am completely honest. I only believe in things that I can explain with logic. I'm a lawyer, there are only so many tones of Grey between black and white. Although that has changed over the years working with you guys. But that's not what this is about. I always thought that it was ridiculous when people talked about love at first sight. You can't fall in love with someone you don't know and you can't know if a person is the one for you with only one look at them. That was until we met for the first time all those years back. The moment I saw you I fell in love with you and it scared the hell out of me. I was as straight as they come. And I'm not gay or bisexual either. Anyway, as soon as I knew that you were straight too I buried my feelings for you and moved on. I got over it and we became best friends after a rough start I have to say.
But that night Liz told me to have dinner with that creepy weasel, things changed again. Although I didn't know it then. After I left the restaurant I went to Mahoney's for a drink. I only had two beers before I went home. That night I thought that I might have lost you and it hit me hard. The look in your eyes and the pain in your voice, it broke my heart. And when you came to my apartment and we talked it out I had the feeling that at the same night that my heart broke, and yours too I think, it healed too. Because I hadn't lost you. In fact the opposite, we are closer now than we ever have been. Liv, I think, I know I'm falling for you again. And it scares me, I've never been in love with a woman before. And I know I won't fall for other women too, it's just you. So in a way I'm still straight but with feelings for you. That's what happened and changed that night for me." Alex says, looking at Olivia.
Olivia was silent for a few moments and only could look at Alex. She doesn't know what it is she feels exactly with Alex's confession. She is happy, scared and confused at the same time. But she knows that she has to say something and assure the blonde attorney.
"Wow Lex. I don't know what to say at this. Except for I know the feeling. Feeling scared I mean. But I'll try to." Olivia says.
The Detective takes a deep breath trying to find the words to say.
"Take your time, Liv. I'm not going anywhere." Alex says softly.
"Thank you." Olivia says softly.
Olivia stands up to start walking but changes her mind. Alex starts to get up too but sits down again when she sees that Olivia changed her mind. The Detective takes a seat next to the blonde and looks at her.
"You are right. Things did change that night. I couldn't put my finger on it though. The next night when we were at Miracle and that guy hit on you I was jealous but I didn't understand why. Of course I was angry when the jackass wouldn't take no for an answer but it was different this time. Then when we ware at your apartment and I was on top of you, after I tickled you, it suddenly hit me how beautiful you are and it scared the hell out of me. For a moment it was like I couldn't breathe and I needed to get away from you even if it was only for a few moments. Like you I was as straight as one can be, no matter what most people think, I wasn't and am not gay. I never laid eyes on a woman before. Both times that we were separated it hit me really hard but I didn't understand why it broke me. Why I was devastated. Now I think somehow I had deeper feelings than I knew I had. I think you said it right, I'm still straight but with feelings for you. I think I start falling for you, Lex. I think I'm falling in love with you and it scares the hell out of me. And if what I'm feeling is falling in love with someone, then I've never been in love before. I've never felt like I can be myself, never felt so safe and never could open up as I do with you. Even before my feelings started to change, cuz it's only the last weeks that I'm aware of it. But what are we gonna do now, Lex?" Olivia asks.
Alex did a small victory dance inside herself. Yes she is scared too but on the other side she is happy that Olivia opened up to her, told her how she feels. And that they feel the same for each other. Now the next step is find out if they could take the next step from their current friendship and start a relationship.
"That depends. Do you want to act on our feelings or not? Do you want to a relationship or not? That's the question you need to ask yourself." Alex answers slowly.
"Do you? Want to start a relationship I mean." Olivia asks nervously.
"Yes I do. I mean we know each other very well so we don't need to learn to know each other completely. But I want to see where it can lead us to, I want a chance with you." Alex softly answers.
"I want it too. But if we are gonna do this, I want to take it slowly. I don't have the best track record and I don't want to screw this up. You mean too much to me to screw it up and to lose you because of that." Olivia says softly.
"We take it as slowly as we both need. We don't take the next step, what ever it may be, until we both are ready for it. This is new for me too Liv. I'm just as scared as you are. The only difference between us is that maybe it's easier for me to form the words, since I earn my living with it." Alex says.
"That and I'm even more private than you are. Alright let's do this. Let's give it a real try." Olivia says.
"Wait, does this mean that you're my girlfriend now?" Olivia asks.
"I guess it does. Doesn't that usually happens when two people are in a relationship or starting one?" Alex grins.
"Hey Alex?" Olivia asks with a big smile on her face.
"Yes Olivia?" Alex asks carefully when she sees the smile on the Detective's face.
"You do know that I'm the guy in this relationship, don't ya?" Olivia smirks.
Alex throws her head back and burst out in laughter.
"And she's back. Ladies and gentlemen, Detective 'Badass' Benson." Alex smiles.
A/N 2 Just because they are together now doesn't mean they gonna jump at each others bones now. They said they want to take it slowly. So no jumping bones right now. It's the first time for them both. Nobody goes form zero to one hundred right away.
But damn am I happy that they told each other how they feel.