Hangover
I didn't sleep much, I woke up after a ouple of hours shaking… I had no idea what I was doing in a garage, and then I saw Anne slleping right next to me, and everything came back… I couldn't believe what was happening, it was like a crazy dream… I noticed she was freezing, the hair was still wet...
I put my pants on, and my shirt on her, picked her up and took her to her room. I laid her on her bed and put a blanket on her. I stared at her for a while... I kissed her forehead and went to the living room. I wasn't sleepy anymore, I turned the TV on and thought about what happened… My friend had turned definitely into a woman to me, I'd never look at her the same way… Her scent was all over me, I didn't want it to go... Everything was an impulse, but I didn't regret at all, I wanted to do it all over again, I wanted to feel her body against mine...
I don't know for how long I stayed there, thinking... I was kind of altered because of all the drinks, I didn't have strenght to go home. After a while I went to the kitchen try to find something to end that hangover, I got a Coke and went back to the living room. I was in the third gulp when Anne showed up, wearing a pink pajamas, and her face was matching that color. He gave me an awkward "good morning" and headed to the kitchen. I was thinking about what I was gonna do when she came back, but I didn't even have to bother, for a change, Matt came right when Anne was coming back eating a pizza. He asked me if I had slept over, I couldn't look at Anne… I said I had slept on the couch...
After "breakfast", I went home to take a shower, the hangover was still bad... after the shower, I slept for the entire afternoon, I was very tired, I hadn't slept well for more than a day… I dreamed about her, when I woke up it was already dark. I decided to go back to their house, I don't know, to talk to her maybe, see where we were.
I found her sitting on the porch, playing "The Truth", one of my favorite songs… I sat beside her, asked how she was doing, about Matt... She acted like nothing had happened, and thanked me for putting her on bed…. I said it was no big deal, and she started saying it had been a drunking mistake, but I know that even though we were drunk, it wasn't a mistake at all… It was one of the most certain things I had ever done… we stayed there together for I don't know how long…. Thank God Matt didn't bothered us...
We started going out, but although I liked her, I couldn't be in a serious relationship, I had a lot of obligations... We decided we wouldn't tell anyone, at least for now. Matt and her would always go with me in the interviews, photoshootings, and I tried to envolve Anne in all of that as much as I could, to make up for all the time we had spent without talking to each other, and I knew it was important to her to be with me in all of this, she had always been a great supporter and that was the "time of my life"….
We made out everytime there was a chance, in a hidden place at the Studio, in a ride home, under her blanket... but I just couldn't face that as something serious, my mind was foused in other things, and that was probably my biggest mistake… and I guess I realized that too late.