Trying

I have never felt such an idiot in my life. How could I be so stupid, how could I have not valued her enough? I never thought I could lose her, I thought she would wait for me…. I tried to blame her, for pushing me aside too quickly, but I couldn't, I knew I only had myself to blame… and now I'd have to see her in another guy's arms, just because I was too idiot to make a serious commitment…

But there would be a come back, I'd do something to get Anne back, I just didn't know what yet...
I wondered for a while, until the guys come into the changing room after the game was over. Matt came to talk to me...

"What's up man, you didn't go back to see the end of the game… I scored twice, you missed it! I'm glad we were not one player short, Kyle was not playing anymore either…. And how are your foot?"

"The foot is fine..."

"I'm gonna take a shower, you wanna come home later? I got a new game for my Playstation, you have to play with me! "

We got home and went to play. We heard a noise and voices upstairs.

"Anne and Kyle must be home already, I'm gonna tell you something, those 2 don't even respect the big brother anymore... "

I didn't answered. I didn't want to imagine what they could be doing. All of the sudden, Anne showed up on the stairs, wearing only a towel. I had to be strong, I could only imagine her without that towel and I immediately remembered the day in the shower… It seemed like ages ago…

I decided to stay over. But only after Kyle left, I didn't want to imagine them having sex next door. We went to bed, I was very sleepy, but Matt wanted to show me a new cd he had bought and turned on the stereo, and very loud… I was couting down until Anne coming to complain. And I was right, she entered the room almost jumping on Matt, when she saw me on the mattress.

"Are you staying over again, David?"

Matt gave her a frightened look, he was definitely unware of what was going on, but I was. I decided to be cynical.

"Is there a problem about that?"

She didn't say anything, lowered the volume and left. I laughed at myself. While I could make Anne unconfortable, there was still hope...

I couldn't sleep very well, I dreamed about her, both of them, even Kim... I woke up in the middle of the night and I couldn't sleep anymore, and it wasn't even because of Matt's snoring, I was used to that… I was rolling on the bed, I just couldn't take my mind off the next room... It was a cold night, I wanted to go there and get warm...

And then I thought "Fuck this", I got up and went to her room. I stopped at the door, I considered going back to Matt's room, it was not a good idea…. But Kyle was one state away, he couldn't do anything… I got in, lifted the blanket and lay down next to her. She moved, tried to push me away, started saying something but I held her tight, I felt my body instantly warming up and she gave up. I felt her resting her head on my chest and we fell asleep.

I woke up before her, I left the room because I know she would be pissed off because I went there. I was looking for my clothes in my bag, and there I found 2 tickets that I have bought a while ago, for a musical that I knew Anne loved, and I wanted to take her. I had forgotten about it, I checked the date, it was today! But I doubted she was going with me... But I had decided to do everything to please her, so I decided to take a risk. I went back to the room, left the tickets in her drawer with a note, telling her to meet me, and I left with Matt. After a while, I texted her, to let her know.

The play started at 7:30 pm, but I got to the theater before 6:30. I was waiting by the door, it was freezing... When there was 15 minutes left, I texted her asking if she was coming... after a while, she showed up. I was relieved.

During the play, I was trying to get closer to her, but she didn't let me. I tried to kiss her, unsuccessfully. I saw that she wouldn't give in that easily, it was better to slow down.

Next week, I had a lot of work, I was recording my CD, I was out of town and didn't see Anne. I was missing her already. On the days I was away, I was wondering if Kyle was with her, I couldn't ask Matt much things, he would get suspicious….