Truth

I tried in every way to get closer to Kim, to forget about Anne, but it seemed impossible, we had no chemistry, she did everything to please me, sometimes even too much, she called me all day long, gave me presents, did some surprises that instead of surprise me, made me angry...
I must confess, I compared them both sometimes, what Anne had that Kim didn't? Why couldn't I like her? Even sex with her was automatic, I wasn't satisfied, I couldn't stop thinkig about Anne, sometimes I felt her scent on my pillow, sometimes I cried when Kim was sleeping…

Anne had vanished, everybody was talking about the wedding plans. I took a day off and decided to go to their place, when I got there she was out, on the table there were wedding magazines…. I left my bag there, I got into Matt's room and stayed there for a while talking to him, until I heard her knocking on the door, she seemed nervous and asked me to meet her at the bar that night.

When I went to take a shower, I remembered I had to hide my contract in some drawer, it was still in my bag, and when I opened it... I found a wedding invitation, when I saw her name in golden letters, I wanted to rip it, the invitation, the contract, I thought about not going to meet her, I always wanted the best for her, but all I wanted was to ruin that wedding, so I decided I was going to the bar, and I would make her change her mind…

I got into the bar, it was more crowded than when I used to play there, I noticed that some girls recognized me, some asked for photos, and I did it before Anne got there, I sat on the counter and ordered a drink…
While I was waiting, I asked for another drink, and then I felt altered, and I could tell her some truth that I wanted to, but when I felt her perfume, ad saw her sitting on the counter next to me, the worst I could do was being a little sarcastic:

"So, what did you call me here for? To give me a map to the church? I saw the invitation, thanks..."

She didn't seem affected, and asked for explanations about Kim, I couldn't believe her, she was making all those big plans for the wedding and still had the guts to ask about Kim and me, like this was the reason we were apart… and I replied…

"The truth? Well, I haven't put a ring on her finger and she didn't choose the most expensive wedding dress in town yet, but we're fine…"

I wanted to laugh, but she seemed serious...

"Look David, I'm serious... You just have to answer a question... how far would you go for your career?"

That question made my head dizzy, my stomach dropped, I felt the vodka burning my throat, I should have thought about that before, the fucking contract was in my bag when she left the invitation there, but I wanted to confirm that she was really talking about that... and when she did, I couldn't face her, her question made sense, and made me think about what I was subjecting myself to, I didn't want to admit... I decided to let her know she was guilty too, even though I knew it was my mistake and I couldn't justify it...

"Everything happened at the same time, I'd say no, but seeing you with Kyle was hard for me, just to think about him touching you, I didn't know what to do...

"So you just accepted a fake relationship?"

"I tried a real one, when I asked you if you were willing to be with me..."

I was getting more and more confused, my words made her feel guilty, I knew it was not only her fault, but I couldn't believe she actually went on with that engagement, and in the middle of that mix of feelings and guilty, she took the glass from my hand and asked:

"Look at me... that's why when I asked you for a reason to give up on the wedding, you said you couldn't give me one?"

I agreed, and a tear rolled down her face, seeing her crying broke my heart, and I felt awful, she was so strong, but at that moment she was so fragile, and that fragility made me ignore the rationality, I decided to do what my heart and body were telling me...

"Would it be too late if I showed you now that actually I can give you a reason?"