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Back to the story.

No violence in this chapter but it will break your heart to hear what happened to Olivia. At least mine did...

Chapter 3

"Liv? Honey, what's wrong?" Alex asks softly as she walks to the Detective.

Olivia jumped hearing Alex voice. She quickly hide the photograph she was holding. Thinking that the blonde ADA didn't see it.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you." Alex says softly.

"It's ok. I just didn't hear you coming in." Olivia says softly.

Alex sits down next to Olivia and opens her arms. Olivia hesitate for a moment before she moves to Alex and let Alex hold her.

"Do you want to tell me what's wrong now? What was it that you were holding?" Alex asks.

Olivia froze for a moment before she tries to relax. Alex shifts on the couch so that she can wrap herself around Olivia. Pulling a blanket of love around the upset Detective. Olivia leans back at Alex. She knows that at some point she needs to tell Alex what's going on inside her mind. She just hopes it won't fire back at her. She takes a deep breath before she starts talking and tell an other big secret and part of her past.

"Before I'll tell you what's haunting me, I want to ask you a question. I don't want to pry and don't have to answer. You will understand why I asked it later. Alright?" Olivia asks.

"Yes. You know you can ask me anything you want. And I won't ask you why you asked it. I know it will make sense later. What ever it is that you are gonna ask me." Alex answers.

"Thank you, Lex. Again, I don't want to pry and it's not my business but how much money do you have exactly? Well not exactly of course... you know what I mean." Olivia asks shyly.

Alex is a bit surprised with the question. She knows Olivia doesn't care how much money she has. She decides to answer the question. Knowing the Detective asks it for a reason.

"Last time I checked, which is a few months ago, it was around 1,5 million. That's without investments and the trust fond I'll get if one of my parents passes away." Alex answers.

"Thank you for sharing it with me. You know I don't care how much money you have, right Lex?" Olivia asks.

"Yes, I know. I know you don't care about my money. You value me for who I am, not what my name is, how much money I have or don't have and my looks. Don't worry about it, Liv. Now are you gonna tell me what's haunting you or do want to talk about it an other time?" Alex asks carefully.

"I have to tell you about it some time, and I think given the current situation it's for the best to do it sooner then later. I hope you won't be mad at me for not telling you it sooner. There are a lot of things that you don't know yet. Not because I don't trust you, because I do, I trust you more than anyone else. I just buried a lot of things, hoping I would never have them interfere my life again. That if I locked them away deep down inside I could pretend they didn't happen." Olivia answers softly.

"I won't judge you Liv, I never have and I never will. I know that even though I know about things from your past in big lines that there are a lot of things I don't know about. I know you trust me and that has nothing to do with not telling me it so far. And that there are things you haven't talk about because it just hurts too much. Take your time, you don't have to tell me it, only when you are ready for it. And I promise you I won't get mad. At least not at you. I can't promise I won't be mad at the person or persons that hurt you. Simply because I care about you, a lot. What ever it is, your safe with me, I won't talk about it with anyone. But you know that." Alex answers.

"Yes I do. As for what I was holding, I was holding a photograph, it's behind the pillow you are leaning against. You can take it, maybe it's easier to talk once you've seen it. At least I have a start that way." Olivia says.

"Are you sure, Liv?" Alex asks.

"Please Lex, just do it, before I lose my nerves. Don't make it any harder then it already is. Even though I know you won't judge me, I'm still afraid for your reaction." Olivia pleads.

Alex reaches behind her to get the photograph and hold it in front of them both.

"How old were you here, 19 or 20 years old? Who are the woman and the young boy?" Alex asks, figuring that it's easier for Olivia to answer the questions than to get started.

Olivia takes a deep breath before she answers.

"I was 20. And in my sophomore year at College. That's Jane and that's Jamey." Olivia says, pointing at the blonde woman and the blonde baby boy in the picture.

"This picture was taken right before she was diagnosed with breast cancer. She died two years later." Olivia says her voice breaking.

"Oh Liv, I'm so sorry. She was important for you, wasn't she? She meant a lot to you, didn't she?" Alex asks softly.

"Yes she was. They both are. Alex, there is no easy way to tell you this. I'm gay, Jane was my girlfriend." Olivia answers, looking down.

"Sorry did I heard this right, you're gay?" Alex asks surprised.

"Yes, I am. I'm sorry I never told you that before. You must be disgusted now." Olivia answers, trying to get out of Alex's embrace.

Alex pulls Olivia tighter against her and refuses to let her go.

"NO. I'm not disgusted. Just surprised. Liv, I don't care you're gay. I even understand why you never said anything about it. With our jobs it's hard enough to be a woman, let alone be a gay woman. Now we don't talk about it now, but I'm gay too, Liv. So I do understand it better than you think I would. But if she was your girlfriend, who is the little boy? He looks a lot like her, is he her son?" Alex asks.

"Wow, I never saw that coming. Well at least I don't have to be afraid you hate me now or think that I'm a defiant. We will talk about the fact that you are gay an other time. I think I'm ready to tell you the complete story. If you want to hear it that is." Olivia says, insecurely.

"I do want to hear it. It's important for you therefore it's important for me. I'm so sorry that you lost her." Alex says softly.

"Jane was my gym teacher at high school. I came there half way the year when I was a sophomore. She was there for me when things got rough and went wrong at home. Somehow we became friends. I was attracted to her the first moment I met her. But I didn't act on it of course. It was more than a high school crush, but I kept it to myself. Then one day, when I was in my senior year, my mentor from that year asked me to come to his classroom after school. He needed to talk with me. Long story short, he played Cupid for the both of us. I was 18 when we got together. She was 14 years older. The difference in age never was a problem. I was 12 the first time I left my parental house for the first time. Had a whole life behind me when I was 17. As you know I never had a childhood so I was already an adult by that time.

Jamey is our son. I needed to start at College and I never wanted to pass on my genes and she had the right age to get pregnant. So relatively early in our relationship we decided to start a family. Our own family. My mother- and sister-in-law were happy with me, they thought I was good for their daughter and sister. I still don't get that, it's not that I'm worth it, or deserved it. But they could see I made Jane happy, that I protected her the best I could and that I loved her very much. My father-in-law was a complete different story. My in-laws were very rich, absurdly rich I need to say. So needless to say I was not what he had in mind for his little girl. Besides that he thought I was to young, I couldn't possibly be an adult at my age. Let alone know how the world works. He couldn't be more wrong than that. One day when Jane and Sara, her mother, went shopping. You know how much I hate doing that, I only do it with you because I know how happy I make you when I'm coming with you. Anyway, I stayed at her parents house. I stayed in Jane's old rooms, wanting to stay there until they came back. Her father and I didn't like each other and I had no intension to stay with him while Jane and Sara were gone. Later it turned out that it was half an hour before Jane and Sara came back, but I didn't knew that at the moment when it happened. Jack, Jane's father, had me called into the living room by the maid, letting me know he needed to talk with me. So I went. He asked me to take a seat on the sofa, as he took a seat in the chair across me. Back then I already had learned to thrust my instincts, my guts. And my guts told me this would not be a pleasant conversation. He said he wanted a man-to-man conversation with me. He made it crystal clear that he wanted me out of his daughter's life. He stood up and walked out of the room. He came back a few minutes later with a check in his hand. Told that he would like for me to accept the check and leave, walk out of his daughter's life and theirs. I looked at the check and saw that he would pay me 200,000 dollars to make me walk away from his daughter. I couldn't believe what I saw. I was beyond pissed off, and I certainly wasn't going to accept the check and walk away. I looked at him and asked him if his daughter was worth so little that he thought 200,000 dollars would make me walk away and leave the woman I loved behind. He yanked the check out of my hands and walked away again." Olivia says.

"He did what?! What did you do? Did Jane knew about this, later I mean? I can't believe what you are telling me. I know it's true, you would never lie to me about anything and certainly not about something like this. But this is insane. What the hell was he thinking? I know how it goes in the social upper classes, obviously. But this is beyond everything." Alex says angrily, not at Olivia of course.

"I know, Alex. But I'm not finished yet. Not even close. But would you mind to continue this in my bedroom? I don't want Dakota walking in and find it out. And certainly not like this." Olivia asks.

"Yes, of course. I don't want Dakota find it out this way too. Do you want me to stay with you this night or do you want me to go to the guest room when we're going to sleep?" Alex asks.

"I want you with me tonight, if that's alright with you. The hardest part has yet to come and I need you. I hate to be needy. I hate it to be vulnerable. I hate it not being strong. But I need you, Lex." Olivia whispers.

"You are the strongest person I know, Liv. And I know you hate it to feel like this, but you're only human and you have me to lean on. Whenever you need it or want it. I'm here, Liv, and I'm not going anywhere. So lets go to your bedroom and I will stay at your side all night." Alex answers softly.

"Thank you, Alex." Olivia says, blushing slightly.

Alex and Olivia walk to Olivia's bedroom after Olivia putted the picture back in the drawer she always kept it. Alex walks to the bed and climbs in it at her side of the bed. It was her side of the bed, she always lays there when she sleeps here with the Detective. Olivia takes a tank top and boy short out of her drawer and walks to the en suite bathroom to change. A few minutes later she walks out of the bathroom and walks to her side of the bed and climbs in the bed. Turning off the big light but leaving the lamps on the nightstand on. Alex is sitting up against the headboard and opens her arms again. Just like on the couch Olivia leans against the blonde ADA, while Alex puts her arms around the strong Detective. The both let out a big sigh and then Olivia continues.

"Jack came back a minute or 2 later after he left for the second time, with a new check. Handing me the new check saying that the new amount of money should do it. I looked down at it and was shocked. Not because of the amount of money he was offering, but because the amount of money made clear how badly he wanted me walk away and never look back again. It took all the self-control I had to not hit him. Thank God, Jane and Sara came back and walked into the living room. Jane immediately saw that something was very wrong, as did Sara. Jane walked to me and Sara asked him what he had done. I was too angry to speak at that moment, and it took Jane about 5 minutes to take the edge off my anger. I told Jane and Sara the truth, that Jack had written a check for 200,000 dollars to get me out Jane's life. That I had asked him if his daughter was worth so little that he thought to make me leave for that amount of money. Hell broke loose after that of course. Jane took my hand and said that we were gonna leave, I won't repeat what Sara said to him, but it wasn't very nice. Jack said to Jane that I was only with her for the money, their family money. By then we were at the door, I turned around, let go of Jane's hand and shredded the check. Took back Jane's hand and said to him that this was how obsessed I was with money and that I wouldn't leave Jane unless Jane would want me to leave. With that I walked away and out of the house with Jane. It's needless to say that Jack and I never got along after that. Yes I would be polite, for Jane's and Sara's sake, mostly Jane's of course. I would go to their house but mostly when Jack wasn't there. Sara often came to our place. Jane never talked to her father again, till the day she died." Olivia says.

Olivia turns around to be able to look Alex in her eyes.

"If I accepted the check, which I obviously didn't and never would do, I would have had more money then you have, Alex. The check I shredded was worth 5 million dollar. So that's how obsessed I am with money. It also shows that nobody can buy me out of their lives, no matter how much money they offer me" Olivia says softly.

To say that Alex was shocked to hear how much money Liv was offered, is an understatement. She is not shocked that Olivia shredded the check. She knew that Olivia didn't care about how much money she has.

"5 million dollar? He offered you 5 million dollar? Don't get me wrong, I'm not surprised or shocked that you shredded the check. I know you couldn't care less about it." Alex asks.

"Yes, 5 million dollar. I'm a real money shark." Olivia says sarcastically.

"I'm surprised though that you didn't kick his ass. That you had so much self-control to keep your hands to yourself. I'm so proud of you, Liv. More proud than I already was. But there is more for you to tell, isn't it?" Alex asks.

Olivia nods and turns around again to lay against Alex. The blonde puts her arms around the brunette and pulls her back against her. Knowing that Olivia needs to feel her, needs the strength to continue.

"About a year after that day Jamey was born. Jane and I were the happiest people on this planet. Even though we used a, anonymous, donor with my skin color, hair color and eye color, he was a mini version of Jane. And I couldn't be happier. Jamey was 10 months when that picture was taken. Two weeks after that we found out that Jane had cancer. We were lucky it was in an early stage and treatable. And Jane got better, or so we thought. She had her check ups, but after a year and a half it was back. They screwed up the check ups and this time we weren't lucky. My biggest nightmare became real. There was no treatment possible to safe her life. They could give her a few months extra but that was the best they could do. Jane decided that she wanted that for Jamey, me and herself. Give us as much time we could have. She lived... she lived 6 month longer after the day they told us she had cancer for the second time, the day they destroyed our lives. My life. At that time gay couples had no rights or protection by law about children. I had no rights. And I would never get the parental rights over Jamey. But thankfully I still had my mother- and sister-in-law, so I saw Jamey almost every day. He would stay with me often. Jack didn't like it at all, mildly said, but there was nothing he could do against it. His wife and daughter would always chose my side if he would have gone to court. But there was a curse on my life, both Sara and Mandy, Jane's sister, died within a year from each other. Also breast cancer. When Sara died... I lost... I lost the one person I loved more the life itself, the one person I had left, I lost Jamey too. There's not a day that goes by without thinking about him. Some days are worse then others of course. But I know I never see him again. His last name is probably changed and Jamey is probably brainwashed by Jack. Or Jack told him I'm dead.

When Dakota said to Petrovsky to not take her away from her mom, it hit me hard. Don't get me wrong, I'm truly happy that I mean so much to her. And she means so much to me too. But with things like this Jamey is more in my mind then at other times. I'm just as worse as my own mother was. I betrayed them both. What kind of person feels bad about someone calling them mom. It looks like I don't care about both of them enough. Dakota deserves someone better than me." Olivia says, hanging down her head.

"Liv, look at me." Alex says softly.

Watery brown eyes look into watery stormy blue ones.

"You are not like your mother. Not even close. Every child would be so lucky to have you as their mother. You are the best mother anyone can be. Do you really think I would have pulled so many strings to get Petrovsky as the judge for Dakota's case if I'd think you are a terrible mother? No. I did what I did because Dakota can't be at a better place than with you. Because she can't have a better mother then you are. And do you really think Petrovsky would hand over custody to you if she thought you would be a bad mother? Hell no. We both did it because we are sure that this is what's best for Dakota. None of what happened to Jamey or you, is your fault. It's Jack's. He is an asshole. He is a bad man. He is like the perps we put behind bars. Jamey was so blessed to have you as his mom. Jane was blessed to have you as her girlfriend and the mother of your child. And it is normal to feel sad like you did in the courtroom, like you do now. It wouldn't be normal if you didn't feel what you are feeling. That would be bad, not the other way around. The woman who gets your heart in the future is the luckiest woman in the world. Because she couldn't have a better girlfriend or future wife, if that would happen, when she has you. So get it out of your mind that you are a bad mother, because it will be a cold day in hell before that happens. Which is never, to be exact. You will never be or turn into your mother. Because there is not a single bad bone in your body and no bigger heart than yours. Everyone who has you as their mother or girlfriend is blessed from heaven because they have you. Got it, Detective?" Alex asks.

"Yeah, I got it, Counselor. Thank you, Lex. For believing in me. For letting me see that I'm not my mother. Thank you for being in my life. I'm so lucky for having you in my life. " Olivia softly answers.

"I'm the one that's lucky, Liv. Thank you for being in my life. Without you in it, my life would be empty. And so would be Dakota's life." Alex answers softly.

"At least now you know that you wouldn't have to worry about your money if I would've been your girlfriend. And your parents wouldn't have to worry about me being after your money too." Olivia jokes, wanting to clear the heavy air.

"I already knew that, Detective. Didn't need to know you shredded a 5 million dollar check for that." Alex jokes back.

Alex pulls back her arms and looks at Olivia.

"How about we are going to get some sleep? It's been a long day." Alex asks.

"Sounds like a good plan to me." Olivia answers.

"If you don't want it, you don't have to. But would you like to spoon, with you being the big spoon to my little spoon, just for tonight?" Alex asks shyly.

"I would like that very much. Tonight, and any other night you want it, Lex. I would like to spoon with you every night you sleep here with me. You make me feel safe and loved if we spoon." Olivia answers shyly.

"Me too. Spoon every night I sleep here with you I mean. You make me feel safe every time you are with me or near me, Liv. I know you will always protect me. In fact you already do that, whether you realize it or not. Now spoon me, Detective." Alex says softly.

"I will always do the best I can to protect you, Lex. And you need to lay down, Counselor. Otherwise I can't spoon you." Olivia says softly.

Alex lays down and turns on her side with her head on her pillow. Olivia scoot over and spoons the blonde from behind.

"Goodnight, Lex." Olivia whispers.

"Goodnight, Liv." Alex whispers back.

It's 8 am in the morning when Dakota gets up and walks to living, only to find it empty. It's a small miracle that the Detective and ADA are not awake yet. She walks to Olivia's bedroom. She heard Alex and Olivia going to the brunette's bedroom last night. And knows that the blonde attorney probably stayed there. She silently opens the bedroom door not wanting to wake them up, should they still be asleep. A big smile is coming on her face when she sees Olivia and Alex asleep together. During the night they had trapped away the blanket and Olivia had pulled Alex completely into her own body. Alex lays with her head on Olivia's left arm, tightly against the Detective's body. Olivia has her right arm possessively around the blonde's waist and Alex has her right arm crossed over her arm and their fingers clasped together. Olivia's right leg lays over Alex's hip and her left leg lays between the ADA's legs. Dakota tiptoes out of the room and walks to her own room to get her cellphone. She then walks back to Olivia's room and tiptoes back inside. She quickly takes a picture of the sleeping women and pulls her cellphone in her pocket and then tiptoes out of the room, silently closing the door behind her. She walks to the living and lays down on the couch. The teenager gets a mischievous grin on her face and pulls her cellphone out of her pocket. She goes to the photo gallery and picks out the photo from Alex and Olivia and scrolls through her phone for Abby's number and sends the photo to Abby. Dakota waits a minute before she calls the Texan. Two rings and Abby picks up.

"Now do you believe me?" Dakota asks.

"Normal people say good morning or hello first, ya know." Abby answers.

"Yeah, yeah. Hello, good morning. Now do you believe me?" Dakota answers.

"Yeah, I believe ya. They can't get closer against each other than this. Boy, do they freak out when they wake up and find out they are this close against each other. And I better talk to Casey soon." Abby answers.